Finishing what I started!

Hey girl, i have been bad for the majority of last week too. I have to say i love your pics, the scenery looks so beautiful and summery:) The last picture reminds me of the movie sleepless in seattle!:) You also look SOOO slim in the first photo. YOU GO GIRLFRIEND:) hehe


Hope your well hun xx
 
I hear you on the exercise. I'm really hating running and jumping at the moment because it does horrible things to my knees, but I just need to be able to meet these fitness requirements, get hired by a department, and then get through the academy and I won't have to worry about it anymore. Once I do that I think I'll switch to some other form of cardio and avoid any type of impact on my knees. My left one is so swollen today, my coworker has been doing almost all the patrols because I'm just hobbling around. It's awful. I know how your feeling!!
 
Hey Luz! Just wanted to let you know I created a fitday account today. I gained a few lbs over the weekend (lots of food, family, and celebration) and I didn't control myself at all. So I remembered about how your always trying to work towards calorie deficits and thought I'd give it a try. It makes eating less feel a little more rewarding when it tell you how many calorie deficit you'll have. So just wanted to let you know you inspired me! Hope everything is going well! :)
 
OMG. I think yesterday was the worst food day I've ever had in my LIFE. Actually to the point I had to kinda be impressed for a couple of seconds lol... seriously, I attempted to add up what I ate and it came in at around 6000 calories but could be more/less?? Major damage control today, woke up feeling incredibly ill in my stomach, my throat hurts from eating fast, my tongue/ mouth are raw from eating cheese and crisps (does anyone else get that??) and I felt so dehydrated and overheated I had to turn on the air con at 5am (on a day off) and guzzle a liter of water!!! Couldn't sleep after that. I don't even think I'm going to get hungry today!


Felt like I needed to have SOMETHING though so made a mega cleansing green juice, actually despite it smelling like grass it tasted pretty damn good and I felt better after a couple of sips... it was half a bunch of kale, 1/3 of a Lebanese cucumber, 1/2 a lime, 1/4 pineapple, 2 green apples, and 3 sticks of celery and their greens. Looks foul and has the worst smell, but it definitely worked and tasted pretty good. Think I'm going to be recovering from food hangover for a few days though, bleh. Hey even though I won't have a deficit this week, I'm still going to aim for something!!! I plan to still get exercise 5 days this week again, and still only having 1 shot in my coffee every day. I think I'm going to finish like 500-1000 calories over maintenance this week, but nothing that can't be fixed next week. I'm thinking positive thoughts!!


Hahaha... Ahhhhhhh. Had a bad day at work yesterday but I guess that's not really an excuse. Also having some serious money problems among other things. Just feeling particularly stressed out I guess and it doesn't help that I don't really DO anything, so boredom works it's way in and I somehow convince myself I want to eat everything. Ah. Don't really have an excuse... Just need to keep trucking I guess. Promise I'm going to bust it out from now on!
 
Ugh, sorry to hear of your food binge. I've went a bit overboard this week myself. Ice creams and general late night eating for me. Argh, makes me mad. But hey as long as we keep starting over, everything is ok! :)
 
ACheetos is my ex-bff so i do know how the tongue can become raw and numb from too much chips! i have been not sticking to my eating plan for two weeks now. sigh! good luck with the recovery! xx
 
Hi Lucy!


It's been too long since I posted in you diary :( My apologies! I've been needing to catch up on several friend's diaries :(


But omg, I know the feeling of food hangovers.. they're almost as bad as drunken hangovers, but instead of an obnoxious headache, you're entire body just feels like.. bllllleeeghh. Fortunately, they only last a day or two.


Drinking tons of water helps of course! Though the cleansing thing is not something I've utilized in the past. I probably should though! It sounds pretty good and I have no doubt my body could use it, especially now :)


Ah, there's the keyword I've been reading in a few diaries as of late when hard moments arise: stress.


I've been dealing with a fair amount myself, and holy crap is it difficult some days just to maintain. All I want to do is eat, and eat! But, your focus is still there, so you're going to be fine after this slight hiccup :)


6000 calories tho! Woah, Lucy :p hehe! Although I probably got close to that myself today :) I ate an entire box of spaghetti, almost an entire box of cinnamon toast crunch, almost half a gallon of 1% milk, several chocolate chip/m&m cookies, ice cream cone (300 cal by itself), and half a dozen hotdogs!


I know it's been over a week since your binge took place, so I hope you're feeling better than I am right now! :)
 
Where are you, miss Luz!? Been nearly 2 weeks since you checked in, whereas you normally check in nearly every day... hope all is well with you!
 
I'll be honest, haven't been good, haven't been TRULY bad. I mean, I weighed in at 69.6 at the beginning of the month and was 69.4 the other day, so really nothing to report... I'm unhappy, my clothes don't really fit, but I'm too tired and unmotivated to really do anything about it- as much as I WANT to, my head is just no where near being in the right place.


Arrghghghgh and I'm pretty sure I've mentioned how much I hate my job and how it's next to impossible for me to find another- well I've been offered a promotion to 2IC of the bakery department... Only because back home I was a bakery manager. But I ended up quitting because I hated it and they wouldn't give me a decent payrise. I really don't want it, I hate the job enough as it is... and if I took it it's unpaid over time, public holidays without penalties, working a million days straight if other staff members don't show up... however I get a really decent salary- like 30% increase on what I'm getting now (I just also have to work twice as many hours) plus sick leave, holidays, life insurance... I just know I would hate myself for it. So dilemma... the money would be awesome, but I'd pretty much have to sell my soul for it. Really just want to say FUCK YOU to everyone and fly home, maybe hide under a rock for half a year or something.... Actually no, don't even want to go home because I've gained a pretty noticeable 5kgs since I was there in Feb. Grrrr. Also don't want to get suckered in to working early- I thought with the changes in the department it'd be good so I could start later, but this might change that (if I accept). Also don't know how good it would be for my marriage working in a management position under my husband- I already get shitty at him if he disses us for how many hours we have to do to get the job done (we are grossly understaffed)... So. Yea. On the upside it would be less time for me to sit home and feel sorry for myself...


I don't know. I was so upset the other day I was ready to walk out, so really that just says to me I should definitely say no. But honestly, if I do and I can't find another job, what's to stop the new store manager from filling the position with someone else and intentionally cutting back my hours because I pissed him off? I'm only a casual so he could do it without breaking any rules. Agh.


I'm tired, sorry if my rant makes no sense. I'm in a pretty bad head space right now.
 
Hey Lucy


I totally get your dilema.....there is no obvious choice..... If you say yes to the position what`s to stop you to keep looking...but at least in the mean time you get the pay increase? It`s harder cause you husband works there....and I would never be able to work for my husband ..... i doubt I would be able to keep work and home seperate .......Good Luck to you .,...I can only simpatize with you....don`t worry about the food once the work thing is all worked out you will get back to your healthy eating! I just took out my summer wardrobe and it already very little clothes to talk about and nothing fits right.....we will get there in time!
 
So sorry to hear of your dilemma Luz. :( It really sucks that you're stuck there. You have to do what you think is best for your right now, but I know you're struggling in trying to figure out what exactly that is. I know you'll get there though. I agree with verob, get this worked out and then restart your health journey. You said yourself you haven't done too bad, so just do what you can right now until you can get back into things full swing. I really hope this get better for you!
 
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