Finding Cerella

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You did great for lunch and dinner! Especially the half dessert! You'll get to 199 sooner rather than later. Especially with those times on your elliptical!

How's things going with the job? I remember before I left for vacay, that you weren't overly happy with it. I skimmed the days I was gone, so I may have missed if you updated about it already.

Have a good evening! See ya later hon!
 
Readers beware - negative posting below...

Sssooo - im not in the greatest of moods today...im kinda blahy and down - the good thing is it happens on such an irregular basis that i am always surprized and sure how to handle it - as appossed to contstnatly being down and negative...My life is just gettin to me...

I have a best friend who I got a job for part time and she is my co-worker, we rotate working 2 days a week and 3 days a week - she is so negative it drives me crazzzy - always bitching abt something and always money of course...ok so their household income combined is like 3 times more than mine...she has one kid and a hubby - hubby pays all the bills - the rent - buys food - bought a new car but she wo9nt shut the hell up and stop bitching abt money...with what he makes I could easily support myself and my kids on...He made her go out nad a get a job to pay 200 of hte bills because he cant afford for her to stay home - bite me...he is just a selfish loooser that wastes money...they are constantly eating out or ordering but yet they have no money - ok I really do nothign because I cant afford anything - when I do go out - Karen pays

I give them all my clothes and stuff from my youngest so they dont buy clothes and I gave them all my baby stuff when they had theirs - both their families have money so they are soiled little brats that go without...I have no money - I buy myself nothing - most of my clothes are getting too big - the girls need things and i just cnat afford to buy them - this makes me feel like a failure when I cannont provide properally for the girls...

As fopr the job front - well the boss and I are going out to tlak abt things and see if we cant figure things out nad iron out some details - she has been dealing with some personal shit with hubby so I can understand now why she has been so distravted but it is still no excuse...

Lately I have been a little down abt my qualitity of life - I feel I have none - I work my ass off and work hard nad never have any money - it has been alot worse altely...

I also think Taneesha's bday coming up is washing up some issues - I am glad John is outta our lives but on the other hands I didnt wnat to be here in this situation as you all know...Im gettin run down - my batteries are fading and this is when my issues rerise...I should also add that I am just tired of never having time or money to myself - Ive been pulled into so many diff directions for the last 2 weeks - I just never seem to have enough tiem for all that needs to get done...I must keep pluggin along...
 
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Man I hope things get better for you soon! You deserve it. There are a lot of spoiled people out there. I am on eof them. But we have been down and out and not even knowing where th enext meal was coming from. So I hear you. But now we are doing well. My hubby is the sole provider of our household and I am just mommy to the kids. He's awesome. He's an awesome husband and dad. But I know many that don't have it so good. I am not in your shoes but I feel for you!! My sister-in law raises her kids by herself and I know it's tough on them and her! Hang in there...:hug2:
 
Thanx Mechelle...I just needed to vent...sometimes it is hard to always holdit all in and my venting friend Michelle - ironicilly - ha ha ha and she has been outta town for like 2 weeks...anywya it is just one of those times...Im usually pretty good at dealing...

2 mile walk in like 38 mins :):):)
 
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I give them all my clothes and stuff from my youngest so they dont buy clothes and I gave them all my baby stuff when they had theirs - both their families have money so they are soiled little brats that go without...I have no money - I buy myself nothing - most of my clothes are getting too big - the girls need things and i just cnat afford to buy them - this makes me feel like a failure when I cannont provide properally for the girls...
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WOW. I'm so sorry, this makes me feel really stupid for being down in my own life, my jobs are OK for my life but then, I don't have children to provide for. Your girls are adorable! It is so hard being a mommy, and here you're trying to lose weight, too!! On top of everything you have to deal with! You're an amazing person, Cerella. We love you! Stay strong!!!!:hug2:
 
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Your girls are adorable! It is so hard being a mommy, and here you're trying to lose weight, too!! On top of everything you have to deal with! You're an amazing person, Cerella. We love you! Stay strong!!!!:hug2:
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Thank you for that - it was a touching thing to say :):):) I was posting in your diary as well :):):)
 
Cerella, you are one of those rare kick ass people I have come across in my life that just remind me of how strong some people can be. Just since I've been in your diary I've seen the ways you have fought and struggled to provide for your daughter (not only materially, but also emotionally). Your strength is remarkable and reminds people like me not to whine so much about the hurdles we face. You rock girl!
 
Cannon is right - you rock! You are so strong, even in your weak moments.

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Im gettin run down - my batteries are fading and this is when my issues rerise...I should also add that I am just tired of never having time or money to myself - Ive been pulled into so many diff directions for the last 2 weeks - I just never seem to have enough tiem for all that needs to get done...I must keep pluggin along...[/COLOR]
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I'm so impressed that as worn thin as you are right now, you're able to see that it's because your batteries are low that some issues are washing up for you. Time and money are in short supply for so many of us parents, and especially for the super-strong, super-wonderful single moms out there like you. Taneesha will have a wonderful wonderful birthday because she's got a fabulous mom who adores her and showers her with love. That's what she needs most of all - and she's got it in you. You're doing a really great job, and I hate that you're feeling like crap right now. Any chance you can get away to your mom's to recharge? I remember reading before that that's relaxing for you.

And, Cerelly, I noticed inthe July challenge that you lost a pound this week. Great job! Much love you dear . . .
 
Thanx you guys :):):) Slimmom yes - I have asked for a week off in august and i will go to mom and dads...I just need a break...LOL...Ive been off today as well...just super tired and cranky - lol...Words can not express how happy i am that it is Firday night and also I am actually home i am usually at my friends for dinner withthe girls but tonight we are home and staying home...also my friend Michelle gets home on Sunday - yes - Ive been house sitting and cat sitting for 2 weeks...

I am still pretty down on the verge of tears...actually slimmom to be honest when I read what you and cannon had said it did bring tears to my eyes...Im off at the moment and emotional is somethign Im not usually - that means I am STRESSED!!! Plus remeber I quit my job - ha ha ha

Oh and do you ever just need a hug - as shall as this sounds right now I want and need to be helpd hugged and cuddled by a man's strong arms - telling me everyhitgn is going to be ok...lame ass I know...

My oldest screwed up big time and i honestly am at a loss for words - i really truly dont knwo what to do this time at what happenned - it is too long to type out...
 
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hey, when you find a man that will hold a woman and tell them everything will be fine...let me know, ok? I could use one, lmao!

I'm sorry your stressed hun :( Come here, you can cry on my shoulders, I'll tell you everything will be fine! B/c you know what??? It really will be. I promise! keep your chin up...your a strong woman...if you need a good cry, by all means do it...but keep on keeping on girl, Your one of the strongest women I know!! ((hugs))
 
My eating has been good these last two days...I dont feel like puttin it back into sparks - im back on track - making smart and right choices...eating well and gettin in lots of exercise...

Yesturdays menu was

a banana, diet coke and a muffin,frozen yoguart tube
chips of course - ha ha ha
yoguart,a plum,all bran squares
blueberries,carrots,strawberries
2 80 cal chicken breasts and salad
ice cream

Today

cheese,apple,diet coke,frozen yoguart tube
blueberries,rice cake snack pack
chicken sandwich on whole wheat,carrots
all bran squares,nectorine
3 sausages,scrambled eggs,salad,half a cob of corn
ice cream

Lots of water both days...my walk both morns and the elliptical each night...

Ive also exceed my personal goal for miles to buirger lake - I wanted to accomplish 500 miles and I am beyond that:):):)

Im gonna do this guys - this will be the time - Im gonna find Onderland!!!
 
Oh, Cerella.

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Sorry, not strong and not a man.

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at least strong.

Just make sure it's someone truly kind in your fantasy. :)

I am sorry to hear that you have an issue with your eldest also. That is lots of stress all by itself.

It will be all right though. You are doing it. This too will pass.

I'm glad Michelle will be back Sunday.




Congratulations on all your weight loss achievements and beating your goal. :)
 
Hey Cerella, my arms aren't long enough to reach ya, but it will be alright. We all have a lot of faith in you. Above all, you are a survivor.
 
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