Finally serious about losing weight - with an important deadline.

[englangrover]

I think my journal entries must be boring since no one comes to visit me anymore.

For some reason I felt really tired and weak today. I worked today... which involved 7 hours of straight standing/pacing/walking then I went home had a quick snack and then went to the gym.

I was surprised by how little I did... I think I'm just worn out from school starting. Not only is it physically demanding (mainly due to my back injury), but mentally exhausting as well.

Gym:
10 min recumbent bike (2+ miles)
Back strengthening (45°) front, and both sides 30 reps for each
Hip abductors (both) about 70-100 reps for each @ 70 lbs
Biceps
Triceps
Abs - 50 normal crunches & 10 focusing on each side

Goal for tomorrow: Make it to the 9am TKB class before work.

September 11th, Thursday
Breakfast: Meal replacement shake (230 cal)
Snack/Lunch: Cup of chicken tortilla soup (about 150 cal)
Snack #2: Small bowl of bean salad (about 200 cal) & some pieces of chicken (100 cal)
Dinner: Healthy Choice frozen dinner (240 cal) + sampled some of my mom's cous cous (about 200 cal)
Dessert: Sugar-free & non-fat jello pudding (80 cal)

Total Calories: 1200

The same thing was happening to me for awhile, I was getting no vistors and it was very discouraging. Then all of a sudden I started getting messages posted again. You are doing a great job. The last time I looked you had lost 9 pounds and now you are up to 17.....great job!!

 

[thecabbie]

I think my journal entries must be boring since no one comes to visit me anymore.

For some reason I felt really tired and weak today. I worked today... which involved 7 hours of straight standing/pacing/walking then I went home had a quick snack and then went to the gym.

I was surprised by how little I did... I think I'm just worn out from school starting. Not only is it physically demanding (mainly due to my back injury), but mentally exhausting as well.

Hi, sorry I haven't jumped in and posted recently (no you're not boring!!).

School kills me too. I leave for work around 8:15pm to work an overnight shift, then stop at home for a snack, and off to school until 11:00 am. By the time I'm done, I'm pretty much junk. Thankfully I only have to do that a couple times a week.

BTW, I can relate on the scale thing too. Mine at home runs about 8 pounds lighter than the one at work. The one at the gym tells me great things all the time! According to it I've lost about 26 lbs!!!

Looks like you're doing well on the weight loss though, even if everything else is getting to you.

I don't know what it is, it seems like there is just some kind of negative energy happening right now, doesn't it? Seems like everyone's going through a rough patch with money or health or stress the last week or so.

 

[laji01]

I have been on and off in weight loss program for some time and tried many ways and to be honest, I am still trying... It's great to have such forum to share thoughts and hang out...

 

[Kristi]

For some reason I felt really tired and weak today. I worked today... which involved 7 hours of straight standing/pacing/walking then I went home had a quick snack and then went to the gym.

I was surprised by how little I did... I think I'm just worn out from school starting. Not only is it physically demanding (mainly due to my back injury), but mentally exhausting as well.

Gym:
10 min recumbent bike (2+ miles)
Back strengthening (45°) front, and both sides 30 reps for each
Hip abductors (both) about 70-100 reps for each @ 70 lbs
Biceps
Triceps
Abs - 50 normal crunches & 10 focusing on each side



Total Calories: 1200

I think you may be weak and tired because you are working so hard on so little calories. Your workouts and your day in general would probably be a little stronger by adding at least 2 or 3 hundred more calories. You might be adding stress to your body from depriving it and it might have the opposite effect of what you want. Maybe add an extra fruit and veggie in the day? Just a thought...

 

[crazygirl1]

Awe... thanks guys/gals. I definitely feel the love. It's amazing how something like commenting can make a big difference in this battle. Thanks for making me feel better!

I've been trying to make my rounds to everyone's journal (yeah, practice what I preach) but I was getting so discouraged I haven't been on this forum as much. I'll definitely keep up with this along with everything else. It's worth it.

Cabbie-The whole scale thing had put me into a quite the frenzy. But I decided to alter my goal and just stick with it and say "screw" it to everything else. I now need to officially dump my old scale since I have TWO scales in my bathroom taking up way too much space. Plus... I feel kinda silly stepping from one scale to the other, back to the first. lol

Kristi-Thanks for the feedback about the calorie intake. I didn't even think about that... It's strange after you start dieting/changing the way you look at food, calories over 1500 seem like a LOT or too much. I would have eaten more today but I didn't have a break at work and barely had time to have a small cup of soup. I'll be able to manage my calories better over the weekend, starting tomorrow. I also think that next week during school, I'll try to see if I can fit some fruits/veggies into my back pack for school. I think snacking on some carrots or a banana would really serve as a pick-me-up.

 

[crazygirl1]

Day 40

September 12th, Friday
Breakfast: Meal replacement shake (230 cal)
Snack: Banana + Japanese puffed potato sticks (250 cal)
Other Snack: Costco Samples (about 200 cal) --man, I've been going to costco a lot lately!
Dinner: Chicken & Broccoli Curry Casserole with Rice (about 600 cal)

Total Calories: 1280

 

[crazygirl1]

Day 41

Okay... so I'm a LITTLE intoxicated as I post this, but wanted to get a count of calories thus far for the day... Had a friedn's bday party where I had some grey goose/no-carb monsters and now drinking some absolut mandarin & soda water...


September 12th, Saturday
Breakfast: Special K cereal with non-fat dried milk & a banana (250 cal)
Lunch: Left over curry chicken casserole (300 cal)
Dinner: Roast beef croissant sandwich (about 400 cal)
Dessert: Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich (140 cal)
Drinks: Grey Goose & Low-carb Monster (230 cal) - 2 big drinks
other drinks: Absolut mandarin & soda water: (70+ cal)

Total Calories so far; 1250

I'll have to post up later with what else I drink tonight. I think this is my night to cut loose and have some cocktails!

Looks like I have enough calories left over for some more drinks. WooHoo!

 

[minus86]

1st of all, your posts are anything but boring. Some of us... ummm... ok me... just needed a good kick in the rear to get motivated again. I definitely understand about school affecting your routines. I am so overwhelmed right now that I can't even begin to think straight. However, I think I have been to the gym maybe once since classes started, and I feel HORRIBLE!

You are doing such a good job! Just hang in there through the rough times, and whatever you do, DON'T GIVE UP!!!

 

[crazygirl1]

Day 42

So my "few" drinks turned out to be a LOT of drinks last night. Wow... I haven't drank that much in a LONG time... I've also been such a beer drinker it was a shock to my system when I was drinking the hard stuff. My drinks were in 14oz glasses with ice, but pretty heavy on the booze. I think I had about 5 drinks (2 goose&monster; 2 mandarin&soda; 1 bacardi limon&coke zero). At least I was good about the mixers! lol

I don't really remember putting myself to bed... I think I got ready for bed while I thought I still could. lol My contacts made it in their case, make up was taken off (first think I checked this morning when I woke up was if my mascara was still there. lol), and I was in my pjs...

I must have started to get the "spins" and went to lay down. I kept on feeling like I was going to throw up so I made several trips to the bathroom with no resolve. To help settle my stomach, Ryan got some saltine crackers out for me. I think they definitely helped. However, in my drunken state, I guess I went to get a large sauce pan out to lay on the bed next to me "just in case". Ryan told me that I walked back to the room with it on my head acting like it was a hat.... "look! It's the barf-pan hat!". I totally didn't remember doing that.

He also reminded me of a cruel joke I played on him which I didn't remember either... I guess I was laying next to him and complained about how I didn't feel good and then acting like I was going to barf on him. lol That's so my twisted sense of humor.

Long story, short: I don't think I'll be drinking heavy alcohol any time in the near future (well... maybe in Vegas in 2 weeks).




'nuff about that....

September 14th, Sunday
Breakfast (more like lunch): Bowl of Special K cereal with powdered non-fat milk (200 cal)
Dinner: Chicken parmesan with roasted red potatoes and sauteed spinach: (about 800 cal)
Dessert: Baked apple with black cherry glaze (80 cal)

Total Calories: 1080

 

[akshata]

Hi Friends
Why I don't know every one is worried about their figure. Just being slim dosn't work out in your life. I belive that life is "TIMES FOOL". Physical beauty doesn't play any role in your life it lasts only for certain period, but in your old age it does't matter that you are slim or fat so be cooool like me and enjoy every moment of your life.
From Your Well Wisher

 

[Kristi]

Hi Friends
Why I don't know every one is worried about their figure. Just being slim dosn't work out in your life. I belive that life is "TIMES FOOL". Physical beauty doesn't play any role in your life it lasts only for certain period, but in your old age it does't matter that you are slim or fat so be cooool like me and enjoy every moment of your life.
From Your Well Wisher

huh?

 

[crazygirl1]

Hi Friends
Why I don't know every one is worried about their figure. Just being slim dosn't work out in your life. I belive that life is "TIMES FOOL". Physical beauty doesn't play any role in your life it lasts only for certain period, but in your old age it does't matter that you are slim or fat so be cooool like me and enjoy every moment of your life.
From Your Well Wisher

Ummm.... oooooookay.....

For me it's not about "being slim," it's about "being HEALTHY". I'm tired of not having the energy and just being unfit. Looking better comes with FEELING better. I know that my knees and my back would feel much better if they weren't supporting as much weight as they are now. Plus, being fit now greatly affects your quality of life as you age. The healthier you are now, the better off you'll be as a senior. Ease of mobility, longevity, independence...

My question to you is:
1) If you're so "cooool" and are happy about the way YOU are, why are you posting on this site, especially in MY diary?

 

[crazygirl1]

Day 43

I had a fairly rough start to my day today. I got up at 7:30, showered and started getting ready for school. I think I may have slept on my left shoulder wrong on Saturday night and it was still hurting me. I could barely lift my arm above my head and thought to myself, "there is no way I will make it to class if I don't take my bike... and there's no way I'm riding with my shoulder like this." I checked my syllabi and decided I wouldn't be missing much and I know someone in each class I can get the notes from. I emailed my professors and went back to sleep for a few hours.

My shoulder feels a little bit better and I was able to get ahead on some school work. Yay!

Tomorrow I have a work-comp related doctor's appointment and am a little nervous. This is the doctor the my attorney and the work comp agreed to. That is, after I refused to go to the last one they agreed on since he was an osteopath... At least this one is an MD. Hopefully he'll meet my standards and at the very least, refill my Rx for vicodin. This whole journey has been such a rollercoaster with EVERYthing...

I think that I may just head up to campus after my 1:30 appointment and do some more reading and maybe work on another essay. My class doesn't start until 7, so I'm a little skeptical about actually getting there THAT early. I guess I could always hit up the gym in the area, get ready there and head over. I'll have to see how I feel once tomorrow rolls around. Heck, I'm still wide awake at 1:30 and I'm going to get up early tomorrow to help my mom out at my grandmother's before my doctor appt.


September 15th, Monday
Breakfast: Meal replacement shake (230 cal)
Lunch: Progresso soup (120 cal), Sourdough toast (225 cal), glass of 1% milk (150 cal)
Snack: Shredded steamed carrots (50 cal) & 4 tyson chicken nuggets (120 cal)
Dinner: Bowl of turkey chili (210 cal) with a sliced hot dog in it (150 cal) and a dollop of sour cream (45 cal)

Total Calories: 1300

 

[GregOlso]

"Hi Friends....

Why I dont know is why you ride sportbike? I believe sportbike is "TIMES FOOL". Speed doesn't play any role in your life it lasts only for certain period, but in your old age it does't matter that you are slow or fast so be cooool like me and enjoy every moment of your life.
Your Well Wisher.. Harley D."



Yea, ok , my sense of humor is pretty bad.
Reading over your diary it looks like your doing a great job! Keep it up. I do agree though that you might want to add another 100-200 calories with some more protein as those 1080 and under 1200 days seem very low.

 

[Kristi]

Hey Kasey ~ I hope your appointment goes well. Glad your shoulder is feeling a little better.

 

[Kristi]

"Hi Friends....

Why I dont know is why you ride sportbike? I believe sportbike is "TIMES FOOL". Speed doesn't play any role in your life it lasts only for certain period, but in your old age it does't matter that you are slow or fast so be cooool like me and enjoy every moment of your life.
Your Well Wisher.. Harley D."



Yea, ok , my sense of humor is pretty bad.
Reading over your diary it looks like your doing a great job! Keep it up. I do agree though that you might want to add another 100-200 calories with some more protein as those 1080 and under 1200 days seem very low.

lol!

 

[englangrover]

Hi Friends
Why I don't know every one is worried about their figure. Just being slim dosn't work out in your life. I belive that life is "TIMES FOOL". Physical beauty doesn't play any role in your life it lasts only for certain period, but in your old age it does't matter that you are slim or fat so be cooool like me and enjoy every moment of your life.
From Your Well Wisher

It's kind of hard to enjoy life if you're unhealthy and sluggish. I'll agree with Kristi:

"Hi Friends....

Why I dont know is why you ride sportbike? I believe sportbike is "TIMES FOOL". Speed doesn't play any role in your life it lasts only for certain period, but in your old age it does't matter that you are slow or fast so be cooool like me and enjoy every moment of your life.
Your Well Wisher.. Harley D."



Yea, ok , my sense of humor is pretty bad.
Reading over your diary it looks like your doing a great job! Keep it up. I do agree though that you might want to add another 100-200 calories with some more protein as those 1080 and under 1200 days seem very low.

Too funny....

 

[crazygirl1]

"Hi Friends....

Why I dont know is why you ride sportbike? I believe sportbike is "TIMES FOOL". Speed doesn't play any role in your life it lasts only for certain period, but in your old age it does't matter that you are slow or fast so be cooool like me and enjoy every moment of your life.
Your Well Wisher.. Harley D."



Yea, ok , my sense of humor is pretty bad.
Reading over your diary it looks like your doing a great job! Keep it up. I do agree though that you might want to add another 100-200 calories with some more protein as those 1080 and under 1200 days seem very low.

Your sense of humor is great! Thanks for stopping by and I've been trying to work in more protein but it's so hard with my schedule. Plus, right now I'm not making it to the gym as much as I was since school started, so maybe the 1200-1400 cal range won't be so bad afterall.

Hey Kasey ~ I hope your appointment goes well. Glad your shoulder is feeling a little better.

Thanks! Yeah, my shoulder is almost 100%. I must have just tweaked it in my sleep or something... man, that sucked!

As for my appointment, it was better than I ever could have expected! This work comp doctor pretty much is going to let me choose whatever I want to do and then he'll make the referrals and I'll be set! He's even referring me to the specialty doctors that I want.

He gave me so many meds... lol Somas (muscle relaxors) to help me sleep, ultram/tramadol for pain (like vicodin but less addicting), ranitidine to help coat my stomach in case of medication irritation, and dendracin neurodendaxin lotion (pain numbing topical lotion). I think I'm set! Plus, he's requesting a tens device (??) so I can do electrical stimulation at home for my back along with this Rx ice pack. Heck, why not?!

So he sent in a request for another facet block (like an epidural) for my back with the doctor I prefer and hopefully that will really help manage my pain. I mentioned before that I was interested in seeing a psychologist for my lowered self-esteem and other issues since all this started... so, he sent a request for that too.

Finally! Something easy in this whole process.. I can't believe I've been dealing with this thing since 10/05 and have had nothing but problems until now.

 

[crazygirl1]

Day 44

September 16th, Tuesday
Breakfast: Meal replacement shake (230 cal)
Lunch: Splurged.... Claim Jumper BBQ Chicken Salad - lunch size with balsamic dressing instead of ranch & garlic cheese toast (about 900 cal?)
Dinner: Meal replacement shake (230 cal)

Total Calories: 1360

 

[crazygirl1]

Day 45

September 17th, Wednesday
Breakfast: Meal replacement shake (230 cal)
Lunch: 6" Subway Roast Beef on Wheat (350 cal) & "loco side salad" from El Pollo Loco (about 200 cal)
Dinner: Small baked potato with "hamburger gravy"-cream of mushroom soup with spices, hamburger meat, & chives with green beans (about 515 cal)
Dessert: Jello non-fat/no-sugar pudding (80 cal)

Total Calories: 1375