- Email replied to Cate!
- Definitely a blessing in disguise Rob. My fear is that the decision might be put on hold if they decide that they need that menthol tax revenue! So I don't want to build myself up for that quit date, and then for it all to come to nothing. And yes, DWP is still legal, as far as I know!

I think if I get a forum ban, I know I've taken it too far, lol.
- I don't know LaMa. I just don't know anymore.
- Good idea Petal. Hmm, thinking...
- Yeah, laughter is fantastic Amy. I like to think I'm 'funny' at times.
Oh God. Today was pretty terrible.
On the plus side, this is what I achieved today:
- Slept 9 hr 56 min. (Still woke up on the wrong side of the bed - what's that about?)
- Resting BPM 57, which is fantastic. No coronavirus here.
- Went for a run on my lunch break, showered, and still had time to eat my lunch and back at the screen within the 1 hour window.
- Was really frustrated at the mess starting to form in my room, so did a clean-up after I logged off. Folded all my clothes, put on a wash, hoovered, then hoovered the hall and stairs, where black fluff seems to form in a matter of
days. Am I the black fluff culprit? Who knows? I'm starting to look at my woolly black jumper warily now, as it could be the cause. Hopefully I won't need to wear it too much longer if this sun keeps appearing.
- Rang my parents.
- Cooked a fantabulous healthy dinner.
- Made my bed.
On the minus side:
- Still felt unbelievably angry and deflated after all that. And the weather was fantastic today, and I still felt so, so low.
I guess I just have to accept that this is a down day. They will exist, they will be there. I just feel so trapped right now. I keep thinking about getting a job abroad and then remembering that
there are no jobs abroad. And there probably won't be for at least a year. That's hard to come to terms with.
Also, lots of thoughts about why I am alone at 34, where did I go wrong, blah blah blah. Am I over the hill? Are all the good ones taken? How can I even meet them if we are going to be practicing social distancing until they find a vaccine? Agh!
My friend is in Colombia and he said that the men and the women are only allowed out on alternate days. Imagine being single in Colombia? Jesus.
I'm sick of having too much time to think. I am ready for the next adventure.
(Sidenote: SG is still texting asking me to meet him, but this is sporadic and I know I am probably one of a list, which angers me.)
Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
On another plus side, discovered Julia Jacklin's album
Crushing today, I am crushing on her music! She is Australian Cate. This is fantastic: