Emily Rose: The Reboot

But he did say he'd meet next weekend, so he's still in the picture - just see how it goes. :) And you're doing pretty well getting things back to steady with exercise and all, after the high-intensity of the play weeks. Don't be too hard on yourself!
 
- I don't know Rob. I guess I like him but I am unsure about him.
- Thanks Petal, I will.
- I really hope so LaMa.
- Thanks Amy, I'm trying not to be!

Day 2 of 62
  • Sleep - 7 hr 35 min
  • BPM - 57
  • Weight - 180.9
  • Fat - 41.5%
  • BMI - 27.5
Exercise:
Yoga class, 20 min run + yoga workshop

Cigarettes: 3

Food:
  • 8.56 am - pomegranate and greek yoghurt; 1 slice soya and linseed toast with butter and marmalade; 1 slice chocolate biscuit cake; coffee, milk and cream
  • 12.05 pm - tortilla chips and mild salsa; 1 slice soya and linseed toast with butter and marmalade; cappuccino
  • 3.25 pm - roast chicken, stuffing, gravy, roast potatoes, broccoli, honey roasted carrots and parsnips, boiled potato; coffee and milk
  • 9.02 pm - 2 cacao bites; 1 chewing gum
Plan for tomorrow:
  • Home yoga class
  • 20 min home workout
  • Drama meetup
Overview Day 2:
My stomach has been so sick all day. I feel really bloated and constipated. The run helped me a bit this morning, but it's been downhill since then, hence the lack of eating since this afternoon. I am feeling the Sunday night dread of work tomorrow, but I am going to do a home workout in the morning to try to get me going. I really enjoyed both my yoga sessions today.
 
Hi, Em. I hope you have a good week & catch up with SG next weekend. I think eating healthily also makes us feel better about ourselves, both physically & mentally. Don't think you need to be "perfect" for him. There's no such thing as perfect. I think he seems to be quite keen on you, just as you are xo
 
... Sleep - 9 hr 2 min ....
i'm pretty sure i've read that the human body doesn't go to sleep all at once. have you ever heard someone sitting in a chair start to snore? chances are, if you interrupt that process they will deny it, because your hearing is one of the first senses that "falls asleep" while the rest of you still feels like it's awake.
 
Thanks Cate, I know, he clearly must like me some bit! :) He was more enthusiastic in text messages last night, so fingers crossed we're back on track.

LaMa, it feels slightly better, I did my home workout this morning, and that definitely helped.

That's interesting Flyer, I didn't know that. I get my sleep stats from my Fitbit, I think they're fairly accurate. Sometimes I feel comforted when I look at them, because I think I haven't slept much at all, and then it turns out that I had (even if it was badly).

Day 3 of 62
  • Sleep - 7 hr 23 min
  • BPM - 56
  • Weight - 179.3
  • Fat - 41.4%
  • BMI - 27.3
Exercise:
20 min home workout

Cigarettes: 15

Food:
  • 2 weetabix, granola and milk; orange juice
  • cholesterol yoghurt drink; coffee and milk
  • quinoa, tuna, spinach, beetroot, peppers, celery and cucumber salad; coffee and milk
  • pear; tea and milk; 3 chewing gums
  • margarita pizza; 2 glasses white wine
Plan for tomorrow:
  • Home yoga class
  • Swim 50 laps
Overview Day 3:
I nearly avoided coming on here and throwing in the towel already. It was the pizza and wine that probably did it, haha. I even bought a bottle of red wine on my way home, but I've kept it sealed, and will keep it for meeting SG on Friday. Which would be a normal day/way to drink wine.

I had a really troubling day at work. There's a girl there that really doesn't like me, and I honestly think she's trying to drive a wedge between me and someone else in the office. It's like we're in the school playground and she wants to be friends with my friend but completely exclude me. It's really getting me down.

I ended up being in the kitchen with her today at lunchtime, and she was so rude and obnoxious towards me. She wouldn't even look at me when I talked to her, and if I asked her something, her reply was vague and just... disengaged. And I don't go around being super-friendly to her, but if someone is sitting next to me, I will talk to them. I know this all sounds like baby stuff, but it's getting to me. I don't know what to do. My mum's advice was to do nothing and just ignore her. She's probably right. I guess I'm sad that this will ruin the friendship because I am so jealous and annoyed by the whole thing, which is exactly what she wants.
 
Well done! for not opening that bottle of wine - yes, Friday will be much better, and it might make meeting SG again a little more festive, if he's feeling a bit second-best after the non-date the other day. Anyway, there was a twenty-minute home workout, which is really positive, and you're down in the 170s Club, which is cheerful, and your sleep sounds great -so lots of positives in there! :hurray:

For the work thing: "ruin the friendship" with the other person? Or with her? It does sound like a very trying dynamic, either way, and it must be hard to just keep a bland, professional front on. :( For work things, I have often found it interesting and helpful to look through the askamanager site, where people write in with work problems. I'm pretty sure they will have handled things like this some time or other. Might be worth a look, anyway.
 
I think your first 3 days are a solid start, and like Amy I believe you did the right thing with the wine.
I don't know Rob. I guess I like him but I am unsure about him.
Its early in any relationship, unless you have some compelling reason to be unsure, its natural to not be sure and things could go either way... Here I am an old man giving a young woman relationship advice, a first for me. With our without my advice I am sure you'll get through it fine, best of luck with him.
 
Aargh on the Mean Girl dynamic. I hope your friend will see how this woman treats you and get put off by it.
 
Em well done on getting back on plan and not opening the red wine .
Regarding mean girls and toxic friendships well my advice is keep being your normally friendly self and as you were with the old friend . Sadly it goes on been there myself and look at what Cate has gone through .
Head high and keep friendly don’t let it get to you if possible .
 
I had a look through that askamanager site, some really interesting stuff on there. The main thing I took away from it was to 'remain professional.' So that's what I'm going to do,.

Thank you Rob, don't be shy in giving advice, I love to hear other people's take on things. :)

Yeah, she's a tricky one, LaMa. I am just going to be polite to her but keep my guard up.

Thanks Petal, I really applied that for the rest of the week, and all was good.

Right, it's been a while since I got the chance to update this place. I've had a very busy week.

Day 8 of 62
  • Sleep - 8 hr 28 min
  • BPM - 66
  • Weight - 178.8
  • Fat - 41.3%
  • BMI - 27.2
I'll run through the week now.

Tuesday - I went for a walk with my work friend and it was lovely. We discussed the Bikram documentary on Netflix, as we are both into yoga. I ended up having the red wine that evening instead. Whoops. I watched a really weird but brilliant movie called Climax on Netflix.

Wednesday - I was a bit tired from the wine, but got through the day. I was called in last minute to do the yoga reception, but when I got there, there was another woman already covering it. Annoying. I went home and watched Air Crash Investigation with my dad. My mum was out for the evening, so he bought us a cupcake and an apple Danish, and we had half each. If she was there, she would have given out, so we were being sneaky, hehe.

Thursday - Our office had a Christmas lunch out in a Michelin star restaurant down by the coast. The food was outstanding. We went for a lovely coastal walk afterwards and a few more drinks. There was a really good atmosphere and I think everyone enjoyed it.

Friday - Even though we'd had an early finish the day before, I was so tired in work all day. I was also super busy and had to stay till 6.30 pm. I went for a short swim (22 laps) and jacuzzi session after, then went to SG's for some pizza and wine. He asked me to take a trip with him. I was so chuffed with that. We wanted to go before Christmas but I don't think it will work out with holidays so it will probably be in January now.

Saturday - Got a wax and went to a gig. Good day overall but I was very tired.

That brings us to today. I'm taking it easy, as things were a bit hectic. My dad's cousin who is in her 80s (I think) is here with us today for Sunday lunch. She's a really nice lady. I turned down the wine, as I feel I've drank enough this week. Not doing too much for the rest of the evening, just want to recuperate really.

Overall, it was a disastrous week in terms of food and planned exercise, but I did a lot of walking and my weight is still in the 170s, so I have to be happy about that. I have a work trip on Tuesday next week, but other than that, I think it should be a lot calmer. I had a good sleep last night but I need to slow down the drinking and try to get a better routine going this week. I will probably meet SG next Saturday again, but I don't think I have any more events coming up for a week or two. Christmas will be a different story, but I'm really going to try my best to enjoy it. And, of course, I've loads of plans for the New Year. My main things will be to stop smoking, one exercise thing per day, restrict alcohol a lot more, and really tackle my eating habits. Sounds so easy, eh?
 
And, of course, I've loads of plans for the New Year. My main things will be to stop smoking, one exercise thing per day, restrict alcohol a lot more, and really tackle my eating habits. Sounds so easy, eh?
Sounds easy, Em :D
 
Just here quickly - glad you had a look at askamanager, and sending you all the vibes for calm and professional interactions.
At 178, you could look in on the 170s Club! :)
What does "given out" mean?
 
Y'know any January 1st plan you start as soon as you come up with it is a lot more likely to succeed. Jus' saying... ;)
 
Amy given out means telling someone off . We say it all the time here lol .
Em sounds like you are living the life ! Love the sound of that restaurant.
 
Thanks for the comments guys. Sunflower, that opening dance sequence is so fucking cool.

Day 10 of 62
Sleep - 5 hr 47 min
BPM - 62

Just a quick entry today. Did you ever have a car journey where the conversation was so good that the time just flew by? I had that today, it was great.

Had a long, tiring day overall, but very enjoyable. I’m home now stretched out on the couch in my dressing gown with a lovely fire lighting, but ready to go to sleep shortly. I have a healthy lunch prepped for tomorrow and I will go for a walk at lunchtime if it is dry. I might try to get a swim in tomorrow evening, just not very motivated for exercise at the moment. I am prioritising sleep for the month of December and it is working wonders. I didn’t sleep as much as normal last night but it was completely uninterrupted, which makes a big difference. My skin looks very good at the moment. That’s it really, more detailed post tomorrow.
 
I am prioritising sleep for the month of December and it is working wonders.
Brilliant! And great that the better sleeps seems to be paying off in how your skin is feeling/looking, too.
 
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