Emily Rose: The Reboot
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Jenefer
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Em said: "I wonder if I will feel differently if I ever do get to my optimum weight. Does it really fucking matter that much? I can move, I can breathe, I can do all the things I need to do. I still want to do it though."
Em I can't answer the question for you, I only know the answer for me and it is a resounding YES! I felt absolutely fantastic and life was just all around easier. Oh the feeling of sliding into a size 4 pair of jeans and have them be just a tad loose! There are no words. Going to the doctor and not wanting to run at the thought of someone weighing me, the anxiety of being there went down a tad. Feeling self confident, at the beach! Amazing. Not running from having my picture taken, so much fun! Did it fix every problem in my life, no it did not, but it sure did feel good and I think gave me the confidence to deal with other things better.
I don't think I fully know your saga of the cowboy. I do know this, I had several heart breaks before I was married. Those gut wrenching no fun kind of roller coaster relationships. Here is what I learned, again it could just be me. If a guy is in to you, he will call. He will show up. He will put aside things he may want to do to spend time with you. He will do things to impress you, like help you with (insert name of project) you are working on around the house. He will be the constant you can depend on instead of the person who you pine for, make excuses for and feel like you have to accept things that do not feel comfortable to spend time with. And people don't change that much, they don't typically all of a sudden evolve into who they should be in your company. This is just my experience in 50 years of living, so take from it any little pearl of wisdom that makes sense to you and discard the rest
Em I can't answer the question for you, I only know the answer for me and it is a resounding YES! I felt absolutely fantastic and life was just all around easier. Oh the feeling of sliding into a size 4 pair of jeans and have them be just a tad loose! There are no words. Going to the doctor and not wanting to run at the thought of someone weighing me, the anxiety of being there went down a tad. Feeling self confident, at the beach! Amazing. Not running from having my picture taken, so much fun! Did it fix every problem in my life, no it did not, but it sure did feel good and I think gave me the confidence to deal with other things better.
I don't think I fully know your saga of the cowboy. I do know this, I had several heart breaks before I was married. Those gut wrenching no fun kind of roller coaster relationships. Here is what I learned, again it could just be me. If a guy is in to you, he will call. He will show up. He will put aside things he may want to do to spend time with you. He will do things to impress you, like help you with (insert name of project) you are working on around the house. He will be the constant you can depend on instead of the person who you pine for, make excuses for and feel like you have to accept things that do not feel comfortable to spend time with. And people don't change that much, they don't typically all of a sudden evolve into who they should be in your company. This is just my experience in 50 years of living, so take from it any little pearl of wisdom that makes sense to you and discard the rest
- Thanks Liza, you are so kind. x
- LOL Cate. You say it best when you say nothing at all.
- Wow Jen, you're really selling the dream to me, haha. YES, all of that would be lovely. I really appreciate your words of advice about The Cowboy - you're right, of course. I can't really go into it too much, but on the whole, he has been a very good friend to me. But that's not enough for me... I think I quite enjoy pining and being miserable. I've read way too many books, they have me ruined!
Well, it's Friday. What a week it's been.
I tried to write an entry in here the other day and I had to keep editing it because I felt a bit naked. Then I just didn't post it. All the AI stuff has me a bit worried. It's taking the fun of the forum out of it for me because I know it is being trawled for info to use for marketing purposes. I sound incredibly paranoid but I guess the internet is reaching the end of the 'anonymous' period, where in 50 years time, people will probably look back and say, 'WHAT?!! You could post anything you wanted about any subject on the planet and remain anonymous?!! How was this allowed?' So yeah, we're reaching the end of that era, and probably the end of the era where I use this forum as a form of therapy.
I guess what I've realised is that the writing is the important part for me. Getting to write something that is personal to me is very therapeutic. And I love the responses that people give me here. It's just nice to have somewhere to go and express some sad aspects of my life and for people to say, 'Hey! Don't give up! Keep fighting the good fight!' That's amazing.
Today was kind of a funny day for me in terms of two men in my life both enquiring about my tennis career - Cowboy in real life, Work Colleague online. They're both fairly dishy, so depending on your perspective, it's a win or I'm pathetic loser. Lol. But yeah, I guess my point is that it's nice to feel like people care about you that you've spent an exorbitant amount of time moping over.
I do think this year has been pretty fantastic so far if you were marking my life on a curve. I'm probably the most 'me' I have ever been and I love that. There's a long way to go but I feel good about myself in general, despite being overweight and having to attend weddings or events alone. It's like all my worst fears have come true, but it's okay. I'm tougher than I thought I was. And I do have people that care about me and I'm confident that I can find someone who cares about me the way Jen so beautifully described above at some point. I'm ready.
- LOL Cate. You say it best when you say nothing at all.
- Wow Jen, you're really selling the dream to me, haha. YES, all of that would be lovely. I really appreciate your words of advice about The Cowboy - you're right, of course. I can't really go into it too much, but on the whole, he has been a very good friend to me. But that's not enough for me... I think I quite enjoy pining and being miserable. I've read way too many books, they have me ruined!
Well, it's Friday. What a week it's been.
I tried to write an entry in here the other day and I had to keep editing it because I felt a bit naked. Then I just didn't post it. All the AI stuff has me a bit worried. It's taking the fun of the forum out of it for me because I know it is being trawled for info to use for marketing purposes. I sound incredibly paranoid but I guess the internet is reaching the end of the 'anonymous' period, where in 50 years time, people will probably look back and say, 'WHAT?!! You could post anything you wanted about any subject on the planet and remain anonymous?!! How was this allowed?' So yeah, we're reaching the end of that era, and probably the end of the era where I use this forum as a form of therapy.
I guess what I've realised is that the writing is the important part for me. Getting to write something that is personal to me is very therapeutic. And I love the responses that people give me here. It's just nice to have somewhere to go and express some sad aspects of my life and for people to say, 'Hey! Don't give up! Keep fighting the good fight!' That's amazing.
Today was kind of a funny day for me in terms of two men in my life both enquiring about my tennis career - Cowboy in real life, Work Colleague online. They're both fairly dishy, so depending on your perspective, it's a win or I'm pathetic loser. Lol. But yeah, I guess my point is that it's nice to feel like people care about you that you've spent an exorbitant amount of time moping over.
I do think this year has been pretty fantastic so far if you were marking my life on a curve. I'm probably the most 'me' I have ever been and I love that. There's a long way to go but I feel good about myself in general, despite being overweight and having to attend weddings or events alone. It's like all my worst fears have come true, but it's okay. I'm tougher than I thought I was. And I do have people that care about me and I'm confident that I can find someone who cares about me the way Jen so beautifully described above at some point. I'm ready.
Cate
Long term member
"- LOL Cate. You say it best when you say nothing at all."
You made me laugh, Em! I love that song
I hope you continue to use the forum as a kind of therapy. I do feel that it's a separate little part of the world where we are mostly kind to one another.
"And I do have people that care about me and I'm confident that I can find someone who cares about me the way Jen so beautifully described above at some point. I'm ready. "
I feel it will happen, Em xo
You made me laugh, Em! I love that song
I hope you continue to use the forum as a kind of therapy. I do feel that it's a separate little part of the world where we are mostly kind to one another.
"And I do have people that care about me and I'm confident that I can find someone who cares about me the way Jen so beautifully described above at some point. I'm ready.
"I feel it will happen, Em xo
Jenefer
Active member
Hi Em-Like Cate I too hope you continue to use the forum the way you have been using it! Maybe you just felt a little bit exposed for a bit. I will say that I have been far more open here than I have at any other point in my life and it is rather freeing.
Em said: " I'm probably the most 'me' I have ever been and I love that" My personal belief is that until we are comfortable with who we are as a person, we are not really ready to be with someone else. Sounds like you're there Em! <3
Em said: " I'm probably the most 'me' I have ever been and I love that" My personal belief is that until we are comfortable with who we are as a person, we are not really ready to be with someone else. Sounds like you're there Em! <3
Thanks Cate and Jen. x
Today has been a bit of a nothing day so far. No one on the phone, not much to do really. Which is fine. I probably needed a chill day.
I woke up early enough and watched a couple of episodes of Black Mirror, which is back on Netflix and is one of my favourite shows ever. The basic premise is to explore where technology is going/could go and make you feel horrified and uncomfortable. Lol. But it's really thought-provoking stuff. The man who created it, Charlie Brooker, really knows his stuff and is a great writer. The episode 'Beyond the Sea' of this series is fantastic. I also enjoyed 'Joan is Awful.'
So yeah, that was my morning. I also got a really nice email from a friend and I was crying afterwards for a while, because it was so nice. I just felt very emotional. So actually, that was before I did anything else today. Had a good cry. His opening sentence to me was, 'You are a powerful person.' I genuinely feel this man is like my guardian angel or something, he's just a really good, inspiring person, and his own story is fascinating. But anyway. I can't really share that one, you'll just have to use your imaginations. Lol.
After TV time, I got up and went into town to my favourite cafe for a toasted sandwich and some soup. It's too hot for soup but the soup there is just so nice that I couldn't resist getting a cup. I read for a while, then I went to the library and got out two more Agatha Christies. I'm reading Poirot's Early Cases at the moment - it's all short stories but I'm more into the novels. It's light, easy reading though.
I bought a few things in town as well - a nice candle, shower gel, a card for Dad for tomorrow for Father's Day and all that kind of small stuff. I'll go home for dinner tomorrow and spend the afternoon with them. That should be nice.
Today has been a bit of a nothing day so far. No one on the phone, not much to do really. Which is fine. I probably needed a chill day.
I woke up early enough and watched a couple of episodes of Black Mirror, which is back on Netflix and is one of my favourite shows ever. The basic premise is to explore where technology is going/could go and make you feel horrified and uncomfortable. Lol. But it's really thought-provoking stuff. The man who created it, Charlie Brooker, really knows his stuff and is a great writer. The episode 'Beyond the Sea' of this series is fantastic. I also enjoyed 'Joan is Awful.'
So yeah, that was my morning. I also got a really nice email from a friend and I was crying afterwards for a while, because it was so nice. I just felt very emotional. So actually, that was before I did anything else today. Had a good cry. His opening sentence to me was, 'You are a powerful person.' I genuinely feel this man is like my guardian angel or something, he's just a really good, inspiring person, and his own story is fascinating. But anyway. I can't really share that one, you'll just have to use your imaginations. Lol.
After TV time, I got up and went into town to my favourite cafe for a toasted sandwich and some soup. It's too hot for soup but the soup there is just so nice that I couldn't resist getting a cup. I read for a while, then I went to the library and got out two more Agatha Christies. I'm reading Poirot's Early Cases at the moment - it's all short stories but I'm more into the novels. It's light, easy reading though.
I bought a few things in town as well - a nice candle, shower gel, a card for Dad for tomorrow for Father's Day and all that kind of small stuff. I'll go home for dinner tomorrow and spend the afternoon with them. That should be nice.
I hope you had a nice visit with your parents--it's nice that you are close with them.
I do hope you find your man soon-- you really do sound ready and you sound like you have a lot to offer someone in relationship.
Wonderful about being the most "you" you've ever been. I know for me that seems to get more true as I age--figuring out who I am, what I want in life, what I can let go of...
I do hope you find your man soon-- you really do sound ready and you sound like you have a lot to offer someone in relationship.
Wonderful about being the most "you" you've ever been. I know for me that seems to get more true as I age--figuring out who I am, what I want in life, what I can let go of...
alligatorob
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Hey Emily, just touching base with a few old friends. Hello!
- Thanks Cate. We had a lovely dinner together.
- Thanks Liza. It is good to feel more secure in yourself as you get older. That's probably the trade-off.
- Hi Rob! So happy to see you. Welcome back! xx
I am extremely low on energy tonight and I'm feeling a bit blue to be honest. The weather is heavy. There was thunder and lightning just ten minutes ago. I've kind of been overdoing it on the socialising and drinking and it's really taking its toll. I just feel flat and worn out.
I ended up going out with my friend to a music gig on Sunday, which I really enjoyed, but drinking on a Sunday is such a terrible idea. It's such a bad start to the week to wake up exhausted on Monday. Still not right today, even though we came home earlier than usual and I ate food before I went to bed and everything. Doesn't make up for lack of sleep though!
Anyway, I cancelled tennis this evening because I had a hectic day in work that I just didn't have the energy for, so I'm able to nap and mooch around tonight, which is great. And neither of my housemates are here, so the house is quiet. Nature has not been quiet so far this evening though, haha. I think it should be settled down again now.
Food has not been good the last few days - it never is when I'm tired. I hope to change that for the rest of the week. Tomorrow I have to clean the house because we have an inspection on Thursday, which I am not enthused about, but I have no choice in the matter, so may as well get on with it. I could do a little bit now but I just can't face it. Today is a recuperation day.
I'm really annoyed that the 'Your content' feature has disappeared from the forum. I like being able to quickly look back and see what I've posted and where. Bring it back mods! Por favor!
- Thanks Liza. It is good to feel more secure in yourself as you get older. That's probably the trade-off.
- Hi Rob! So happy to see you. Welcome back! xx
I am extremely low on energy tonight and I'm feeling a bit blue to be honest. The weather is heavy. There was thunder and lightning just ten minutes ago. I've kind of been overdoing it on the socialising and drinking and it's really taking its toll. I just feel flat and worn out.
I ended up going out with my friend to a music gig on Sunday, which I really enjoyed, but drinking on a Sunday is such a terrible idea. It's such a bad start to the week to wake up exhausted on Monday. Still not right today, even though we came home earlier than usual and I ate food before I went to bed and everything. Doesn't make up for lack of sleep though!
Anyway, I cancelled tennis this evening because I had a hectic day in work that I just didn't have the energy for, so I'm able to nap and mooch around tonight, which is great. And neither of my housemates are here, so the house is quiet. Nature has not been quiet so far this evening though, haha. I think it should be settled down again now.
Food has not been good the last few days - it never is when I'm tired. I hope to change that for the rest of the week. Tomorrow I have to clean the house because we have an inspection on Thursday, which I am not enthused about, but I have no choice in the matter, so may as well get on with it. I could do a little bit now but I just can't face it. Today is a recuperation day.
I'm really annoyed that the 'Your content' feature has disappeared from the forum. I like being able to quickly look back and see what I've posted and where. Bring it back mods! Por favor!
alligatorob
Respected Member
Thanks Emily, you are one of the people who drew me back, missed you.
Sorry about your weekend, unfortunately I've had many like that, too many. The drinking is tough. Have you had any success with the smoking? I know that is also a really tough one, I am so lucky I never started, and it was just luck... if I had I imagine I'd be pretty hooked.
Good to hear, I suspect you have a lot more people who care about you than you realize. And about the other guy and his email, of course "You are a powerful person.", we've known that for some time. Glad someone told you!
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Nice to get that quiet time in alone at home...I hope the inspection goes ok...those can be annoying but always good motivation for a good cleanup!
Hope you're feeling less blue by now
- Aw, thanks Rob. No success with the smoking yet. I have my eye on July 1st to attempt to quit again. I need to alter the belief system that I need them somehow. It's not coming easy.
- Thanks Liza. I spent the evening at it. It's not perfect, but I've given it as much energy as I have left after 8 hours at work. I hope it goes okay. And I feel better today!
Had a good sleep last night, so felt fairly fresh in work today and the day passed away pleasantly enough.
Got into the cleaning when I got home, ended up ordering a chicken wrap and pepsi max for dinner because I had no energy left for cooking, even though I did a big shop after work. Ah well. I have chicken and prawns in the fridge, ready for a stir-fry tomorrow. No going anywhere tomorrow either - I'm so relieved. I've really needed a time out.
The weekend is hectic again - tennis tournament, family gathering, drama meet-up. Ugh. I'd rather do only the tennis tournament, if I'm being honest. Although the family gatherings are normally enjoyable enough really, and no one plagues me with questions about why I am alone and childless and staring down the barrel of 40, and all that stuff, although I'm sure they're all thinking about it. Hahaha. Actually, that is so typical of me. I'm sure they are just thinking about their own lives.
On another example of that, I thought one of the guys in the drama group was really off with me, but he said earlier tonight that he's going through some stuff, and I felt really bad. No Emily Rose, the whole world does not revolve around you! I don't think I'm the only person on the planet that makes the same mistake!
I had a good chat with a friend at the weekend, and she's been pining over the ghost of a guy for years, and I realised we are so alike. I just change over the guy every couple of years. Anyway, it made me feel less alone. Less strange. There are others! She said she kind of feels like her life has been a waste, and I told her it hasn't been at all, and reminded her of all the cool things she's done, which she probably wouldn't have done if it had worked out with that guy or someone else. How clear things are when it's not you!
Anyway, my wish for today is that BIG LOVE comes into her life. She's a lovely person and she deserves to find someone that truly loves her. Let the world revolve around someone else for a change. If she meets someone, I will update here. I would love her to meet someone by the end of the year. It would nearly make me as happy as if I met someone myself!! Haha.
I'm going to bring back the Spirit of Paolo here, as he is a mad one to get the romance going. Love this:
"It was in love I was created
And in love is how I hope I die
Oh aye"
- Thanks Liza. I spent the evening at it. It's not perfect, but I've given it as much energy as I have left after 8 hours at work. I hope it goes okay. And I feel better today!
Had a good sleep last night, so felt fairly fresh in work today and the day passed away pleasantly enough.
Got into the cleaning when I got home, ended up ordering a chicken wrap and pepsi max for dinner because I had no energy left for cooking, even though I did a big shop after work. Ah well. I have chicken and prawns in the fridge, ready for a stir-fry tomorrow. No going anywhere tomorrow either - I'm so relieved. I've really needed a time out.
The weekend is hectic again - tennis tournament, family gathering, drama meet-up. Ugh. I'd rather do only the tennis tournament, if I'm being honest. Although the family gatherings are normally enjoyable enough really, and no one plagues me with questions about why I am alone and childless and staring down the barrel of 40, and all that stuff, although I'm sure they're all thinking about it. Hahaha. Actually, that is so typical of me. I'm sure they are just thinking about their own lives.
On another example of that, I thought one of the guys in the drama group was really off with me, but he said earlier tonight that he's going through some stuff, and I felt really bad. No Emily Rose, the whole world does not revolve around you! I don't think I'm the only person on the planet that makes the same mistake!
I had a good chat with a friend at the weekend, and she's been pining over the ghost of a guy for years, and I realised we are so alike. I just change over the guy every couple of years. Anyway, it made me feel less alone. Less strange. There are others! She said she kind of feels like her life has been a waste, and I told her it hasn't been at all, and reminded her of all the cool things she's done, which she probably wouldn't have done if it had worked out with that guy or someone else. How clear things are when it's not you!
Anyway, my wish for today is that BIG LOVE comes into her life. She's a lovely person and she deserves to find someone that truly loves her. Let the world revolve around someone else for a change. If she meets someone, I will update here. I would love her to meet someone by the end of the year. It would nearly make me as happy as if I met someone myself!! Haha.
I'm going to bring back the Spirit of Paolo here, as he is a mad one to get the romance going. Love this:
"It was in love I was created
And in love is how I hope I die
Oh aye"
Cate
Long term member
"I had a good chat with a friend at the weekend, and she's been pining over the ghost of a guy for years, and I realised we are so alike. I just change over the guy every couple of years. Anyway, it made me feel less alone. Less strange. There are others! She said she kind of feels like her life has been a waste, and I told her it hasn't been at all, and reminded her of all the cool things she's done, which she probably wouldn't have done if it had worked out with that guy or someone else. How clear things are when it's not you!
Anyway, my wish for today is that BIG LOVE comes into her life. She's a lovely person and she deserves to find someone that truly loves her. Let the world revolve around someone else for a change. If she meets someone, I will update here. I would love her to meet someone by the end of the year. It would nearly make me as happy as if I met someone myself!! Haha."
I love this. I wish the same for you, Em.
Anyway, my wish for today is that BIG LOVE comes into her life. She's a lovely person and she deserves to find someone that truly loves her. Let the world revolve around someone else for a change. If she meets someone, I will update here. I would love her to meet someone by the end of the year. It would nearly make me as happy as if I met someone myself!! Haha."
I love this. I wish the same for you, Em.
Jenefer
Active member
"How clear things are when it's not you!" Wise you are Emily Rose! (said in a cool Yoda voice) One thing I notice Em, is that you have quite a few close relationships in your life. And that you genuinely care about people. It is not easy to create relationships like that, but I think even harder to maintain them. You seem to do that very very well! You really do have a very full life, and I am having a hard time understanding how the right person has not come along yet. I do have one question and you don't have to answer it! But...are the men that you "pine for" actually available? Because I get the feeling that there are some barriers to actually being with them.
When I was 25 and tired of 'messing about with life' I basically developed a list of what would work for me, and what would not. Time was I felt 'not on my side' that sounds beyond ridiculous now that at 25 I thought that! Anyway, I was ready to be serious, get married etc. So if there was any hint of not wanting the same things, not ticking certain boxes on my list (these were things like...calls me, is willing to spend time with me, does not make me feel bad in any way!) I moved on as quickly as I could. I was just totally done with the whole pining for some guy who wasn't worth it phase of life that I had been in for what felt like most of my teenage-20's years. I also quickly realized that men who like to play the game, get super interested when they are summarily dismissed and I learned not to fall for that.
So here is my advice to you, again you know you best so totally ignore this if it doesn't make sense, don't waste any time on someone who ever makes you feel any level of angst for lack of a better word. And in my experience BIG LOVE does not make a BIG ENTRANCE. It comes in quietly with a reassuring presence, that is more like the calm place in the storm, instead of being in the eye of it.
When I was 25 and tired of 'messing about with life' I basically developed a list of what would work for me, and what would not. Time was I felt 'not on my side' that sounds beyond ridiculous now that at 25 I thought that! Anyway, I was ready to be serious, get married etc. So if there was any hint of not wanting the same things, not ticking certain boxes on my list (these were things like...calls me, is willing to spend time with me, does not make me feel bad in any way!) I moved on as quickly as I could. I was just totally done with the whole pining for some guy who wasn't worth it phase of life that I had been in for what felt like most of my teenage-20's years. I also quickly realized that men who like to play the game, get super interested when they are summarily dismissed and I learned not to fall for that.
So here is my advice to you, again you know you best so totally ignore this if it doesn't make sense, don't waste any time on someone who ever makes you feel any level of angst for lack of a better word. And in my experience BIG LOVE does not make a BIG ENTRANCE. It comes in quietly with a reassuring presence, that is more like the calm place in the storm, instead of being in the eye of it.
- Thanks Cate.
- Hear, hear Liza!
Today was a day I would describe as pleasant. Work ticked along nicely, no major drama. Came home and had the house inspection - all good. We asked to get the carpets cleaned, which would be fantastic and make such a difference. So fingers crossed. The government have employed an agency to do an inspection of all rental properties in the city I live in as people are paying extortionate rents to basically live in dumps, as there is such a shortage of accommodation. They are coming next week, so I guess our landlord wants to make sure things look okay before that inspection. To be fair, our rent is very reasonable for the crazy times we're living in, so I'm happy enough. The carpet clean would be a nice bonus though.
@Jenefer - I read your amazing post today in work and I was like, 'Yeah, Jen is so right. Going to forget all about The Cowboy. Girl power!' Then a couple of hours later, he posted a message into a group chat we're both a part of, and I realised the whole thing is hopeless. All my resolve went out the window. Lol. Anyway, I'm not in despair about it anymore. I'm able to read and sleep and concentrate again. So life goes on...
- What beautiful writing, Jen. To answer your question, they're never available. I know a number of single men in my life that I could definitely pursue something with, but no, I would rather be alone and pining. Hahaha. To be fair, I don't think any of them are quite right for me.
- Hear, hear Liza!
Today was a day I would describe as pleasant. Work ticked along nicely, no major drama. Came home and had the house inspection - all good. We asked to get the carpets cleaned, which would be fantastic and make such a difference. So fingers crossed. The government have employed an agency to do an inspection of all rental properties in the city I live in as people are paying extortionate rents to basically live in dumps, as there is such a shortage of accommodation. They are coming next week, so I guess our landlord wants to make sure things look okay before that inspection. To be fair, our rent is very reasonable for the crazy times we're living in, so I'm happy enough. The carpet clean would be a nice bonus though.
@Jenefer - I read your amazing post today in work and I was like, 'Yeah, Jen is so right. Going to forget all about The Cowboy. Girl power!' Then a couple of hours later, he posted a message into a group chat we're both a part of, and I realised the whole thing is hopeless. All my resolve went out the window. Lol. Anyway, I'm not in despair about it anymore. I'm able to read and sleep and concentrate again. So life goes on...
Cate
Long term member
I'm glad you're not in despair over the situation with the 
, Em & are able to read and sleep. I hope the right someone does come along. Have the single men you think are not quite right for you shown any romantic interest in your life? Maybe all along a close friend could well be that particular person who is the one. Just putting it out there....
, Em & are able to read and sleep. I hope the right someone does come along. Have the single men you think are not quite right for you shown any romantic interest in your life? Maybe all along a close friend could well be that particular person who is the one. Just putting it out there....Oh nice--i hope you get the carpets cleaned--good when the landlords are under a bit of pressure to spruce things up a bit. I painted my place last year I think it was and it just makes me feel so much better having it so clean and fresh looking.
I'm glad i don't have carpets as that's another thing that can often need doing. Nice to be able to just wash the floors and have it all shiny
I'm glad i don't have carpets as that's another thing that can often need doing. Nice to be able to just wash the floors and have it all shiny
Jenefer
Active member
Em you do make me smile! You are a smart woman, you know what is best for your in regard to your love life! And believe me, as much as I love my husband, there are times when being married can be quite 'time consuming' and involve a lot of compromise. Being single has loads of perks as well! 
