Eerika's Diary

A[quote name="decisionmaker" url="/t/37560/eerika-s-diary/360#post_805267"]EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEERIKA!!!!!!!!

You are ENGAGED and I MISSED IT! WEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :hurray::hurray::hurray:
So happy for you, lovely girl! So so so sooooo happy for you! [/quote]

Thanks Johanna!! Im feeling like the most happiest woman on earth if we are talking about love, I feel loved and I love him so much. :beating:
 
A[quote name="Loch" url="/t/37560/eerika-s-diary/380#post_805296"]Wow you look really good, and really happy :D. [/quote]

Thanks Loch for the compliment! I feel much more confident and healthy after Ive lost weight, still long way to go though!! :)
 
AIm gonna relax today a bit. Omg. I bought light sugar free long drinks (about 60 cals in a bottle!) Im going to bar tonight.. I was supposed to go there with my friends but now they canceled and I decided to go alone! Probably there will be some people I know.. Well, Im going anyway! My bf is going 6am to work tomorrow, so he cant come either. I used to go to night clubs alone a lot.. So its not really new to me, I always got some male company to chat with. Haha! :D

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/image/id/285242/width/350/height/700

What I ate today? I did some baguette.. I had two of those for breakfast which included about 400 calories. And some caramel flavor quark which was -30% in sale, couldnt resist (included 150 calories!)

http://weight-loss.fitness.com/image/id/285241/width/350/height/700

THEN... I ate two chocolate puddings.. omg. About 250 calories! LOL.

And some chips. Haha! Im not going to lose my diet drive though.

I did my spin/pump work out in the morning, so it burned about 400-500 calories. I think I dont want to weigh myself tomorrow morning! :D

I will be back tomorrow! xoxo
 
You are really looking wonderful! I can see such a difference in the whole core area of your body! And your face is aleady slimmer. No more chubby cheeks! I can see why you are so proud and happy.


I hope you have fun tonight at the bar. Not TOO much fun, though!! LOL!


Enjoy your weekend, sweetie!


(I find that you are SO pretty! Like a princess in a nordic fairy tale!)
 
A[quote name="Rox" url="/t/37560/eerika-s-diary/380#post_805327"] You are really looking wonderful! I can see such a difference in the whole core area of your body! And your face is aleady slimmer. No more chubby cheeks! I can see why you are so proud and happy. I hope you have fun tonight at the bar. Not TOO much fun, though!! LOL! Enjoy your weekend, sweetie! (I find that you are SO pretty! Like a princess in a nordic fairy tale!)[/quote]

Yea Ive been terriefied looking at the beginning photo and my chubby face! OMG. Sometimes I stop front of some mirror and think IS THAT MY FACE REALLY. Cos I can see actually some features in my face now, not looking just all round! My skin in my face has changed also, I had very bad skin and such a problem with all the spots! And I though I had acne skin! Oh.. It was all about what I ATE. So step by step closer to NEW ME. And Im feeling great if I compare my feeling to OLD ME.

And Im loving you being back around here! And I promise not to have too fun, haha! And tomorrow is a new diet wise day! Im trying to find my balance. Thanks for your lovely words.. :eek:
 
AHeya Eerica :seeya:

I Just popped by to say hi so your diary would come up on my list.......But.........I read your last page and saw your photo's!!!!!!!! OH WOW girl, go you, you look AWESOME!!!!!! And you're so pretty too, your hair is to die for hun, gorgous.
Anyway, i look forward to following you on your journey :)
 
AHahahaha I laughed SO HARD when I saw that pic of hung-over you! You poor thing! :)

That quark sounds delicious... I don't actually even know what quark is, but it looks yummy!
 
AAwful day. Awful awful awful.. Ive been stressing my head off because I had my retake at mathematics today, my 9th FUC*ing try! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! Ive two more tries left until I must renew the whole math course! 5 Tasks about medicine math and is must be 100% correct, otherwise you fail. AND Ive been studing math for last two weeks and I FAILED!! I failed in a one fuckin task, in a one god damn answer! I mean WTF?! Am I a real idiot or something?!! My stress curve is up high and Im so pissed off and before all dissapointed at myself! I have so much school works to do that Im going to drown, literally. Also it would have been so important for me to pass the math test, cos now I wont get my spot from practical training which last over two months (november to december!). And in the worst case scenario I must do the missing practical training in next summer, WHEN I should be at REAL work earning money to live over summer! I have just NO CLUE how to survive.

I was so scared of the test so I comforted myself with the food. Havent got rid of the habits obviously. I ate 200g pure chocolate, included about 1200 calories and 300g CANDY.. included billions of million calories. So fuck me and fuck it. Ive cried my eyes off and Im really depressed, anxious, worried and sad... Dont know what to do. Actually I started the comforting already last night, and ate two huuuuuge chocolate bars. So my weight got up to 88kg this morning. So I bet next morning I can expect even more.

:confused:
 
Oh Sweetie!! I'm so sorry!!! I wish I could come up north and give you a big hug!!!


Please know that my heart is with you and I'm very worried for you.



For what it's worth, here's a bit of advice from me:

I know you are so miserable, scared and frustrated and I don't blame you. Plus, I'm a stress-eater myself, so I know very well how you've fallen back into the old pattern.


But it's going to be OK!!

You are going to get through this!!!!


First of all, a bit of stress eating is ok.

It happens.

But stop now!

I'm sure you can do that, even if you can't do anything else right now. You can't control your math score at this moment. That's over for now. But you CAN control what you eat. You know that because you've been doing it for months.

So do that one thing that you know you can do. Ok?


As for the rest- remember this: you don't have to solve all of your big problems today...or even tomorrow.

Please try not to worry right now about how you'll ever pass the test perfectly or survive over the summer.

Right at this moment, you need comforting and building up that doesn't come from food. You need family, friends and pampering.

Later, when the immediate crisis has passed, you'll feel stronger and better able to come up with solutions.


Those are just my ideas...maybe you'll find them helpful. It's how I handled all the terrible stress I've been through over this past year...


Most importantly; Please remember that you have many friends who want nothing but the best for you and who really believe in you!
 
Originally Posted by eerika

Awful day. Awful awful awful.. Ive been stressing my head off because I had my retake at mathematics today, my 9th FUC*ing try! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! Ive two more tries left until I must renew the whole math course! 5 Tasks about medicine math and is must be 100% correct, otherwise you fail. AND Ive been studing math for last two weeks and I FAILED!! I failed in a one fuckin task, in a one god damn answer! I mean WTF?! Am I a real idiot or something?!! My stress curve is up high and Im so pissed off and before all dissapointed at myself! I have so much school works to do that Im going to drown, literally. Also it would have been so important for me to pass the math test, cos now I wont get my spot from practical training which last over two months (november to december!). And in the worst case scenario I must do the missing practical training in next summer, WHEN I should be at REAL work earning money to live over summer! I have just NO CLUE how to survive.

I was so scared of the test so I comforted myself with the food. Havent got rid of the habits obviously. I ate 200g pure chocolate, included about 1200 calories and 300g CANDY.. included billions of million calories. So fuck me and fuck it. Ive cried my eyes off and Im really depressed, anxious, worried and sad... Dont know what to do. Actually I started the comforting already last night, and ate two huuuuuge chocolate bars. So my weight got up to 88kg this morning. So I bet next morning I can expect even more.
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Awwwh Eerika,

I know what its like to have uni exams stress you out!! I cant believe you have to get 100% in order to pass, thats crazy. You poor poor thing, my heart goes out to you darling. Thing on the bright side things can only get better. It sounds like an awful hard maths test. I wouldnt even get 0.5% so please hun dont doubt your intelligence. Comfort eat, if thats what makes you happy and calms you down at the moment. Also keep thinking positive, and i know this sounds korny but praying for me really works!!:)


I hope you feel better in time:)


Lots of hugs from Ireland

xoxoxo
 
AxxxxHugsxxxx

I agree, having to get 100% is crazy, I would consider even 90% on any test to be a brilliant mark. You would think that there would be at least a margin to get one question wrong. I know its easier for me to say than for you to do, but just relax and BREATHE you will not be able to concentrate on anything if your stress is going through the roof. Eat well, that'll make you feel more mentally alert for your studying.

You will pass it this time, I know you will xxxxx
 
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