Eerika's Diary
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Irishprincess
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Well done girly on pulling yourself together and going to the gym
I will pray that you will pass the maths exam the next time around lovely!xx <3
I will pray that you will pass the maths exam the next time around lovely!xx <3
overtherainbow
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A Oh hun. I can see how awful your feeling and I feel so bad for you. I know not getting a place on the training must be really hard for you, and it seems bad right now. But its only a couple of months before you get the oppertunity to go for it again... And you will past the test and qualify. You work really hard, and that is the important thing- that you keep working hard and don't give up. You are in no way stupid, you speak English brilliantly.
xxxHugsxxx
Oh hun. I can see how awful your feeling and I feel so bad for you. I know not getting a place on the training must be really hard for you, and it seems bad right now. But its only a couple of months before you get the oppertunity to go for it again... And you will past the test and qualify. You work really hard, and that is the important thing- that you keep working hard and don't give up. You are in no way stupid, you speak English brilliantly. xxxHugsxxx
katehunibun
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AHeya sweetie
Well done on going to the gym, i find it makes me feel better and i hope it did the same for you. Glad you are more positive too.
Big hug
Well done on going to the gym, i find it makes me feel better and i hope it did the same for you. Glad you are more positive too.
Big hug
overtherainbow
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AI can see how shit it is that it could set you back another year Fingers crossed you will get a place on the training starting in February. That wouldn't be too bad. An if I could write in Finnish as well as you can in English, I would consider myself to be shit hot! So don't say you aren't good!
I think I'll do that 30 day thing as well....
Fingers crossed you will get a place on the training starting in February. That wouldn't be too bad. An if I could write in Finnish as well as you can in English, I would consider myself to be shit hot! So don't say you aren't good! I think I'll do that 30 day thing as well....
eerika
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AFOODS TODAY:
Breakfast: Porridge, berries, soup, cottage cheese + coffee with milk ~210 +100
Snack: Banana and Alpen bar ~ 100 + 120
Dinner: Rye bread with ham, couscous, turkey fillet, shrimps ~247
Evening meal: Porridge with milk, berries, soup and 1 rye bread with ham and cheese. ~500
Total = 1277 calories
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/image/id/290883/width/350/height/700
Im happy with the calories, didnt feel hunger much cos I woke up 10am and I had my meals after every three hours or so..
It feels so hard to eat right when the whole world is just falling over me. For top of all the mess in my life, we had a huuuge fight with my bf. I guess this stress will pop my head off any time.
We started to fight about silly thing. And it just became bigger and bigeer.. Oh. Then he left. And NOW Im feeling like shit. I feel such a weak person. How in the hell this life can change so much in a week?! One week changed my life. UPSIDE DOWN. First I felt powerful and I felt like being control of my life. Now all gone, like I should try to build a new life.
Breakfast: Porridge, berries, soup, cottage cheese + coffee with milk ~210 +100
Snack: Banana and Alpen bar ~ 100 + 120
Dinner: Rye bread with ham, couscous, turkey fillet, shrimps ~247
Evening meal: Porridge with milk, berries, soup and 1 rye bread with ham and cheese. ~500
Total = 1277 calories
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/image/id/290883/width/350/height/700
Im happy with the calories, didnt feel hunger much cos I woke up 10am and I had my meals after every three hours or so..
It feels so hard to eat right when the whole world is just falling over me. For top of all the mess in my life, we had a huuuge fight with my bf. I guess this stress will pop my head off any time.
We started to fight about silly thing. And it just became bigger and bigeer.. Oh. Then he left. And NOW Im feeling like shit. I feel such a weak person. How in the hell this life can change so much in a week?! One week changed my life. UPSIDE DOWN. First I felt powerful and I felt like being control of my life. Now all gone, like I should try to build a new life.
overtherainbow
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AI love your fitspiration pictures, and I also love the story behind why you want a muscular physiche like that Luckily for you you have huge boobs, so I doubt they would ever disappear enough to have implants!
You've got loads of stress at the moment, and I guess that can easily come out in arguments. Hope you sort things out with him soon.
Don't sit around waiting for your drive to come back- just do it. Fake it till you make it! Eating candy and ice cream WILL NOT MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER. You have it in you to succeed, because you did it for 10 weeks before. In another 10 weeks you will be skinny x
Luckily for you you have huge boobs, so I doubt they would ever disappear enough to have implants! You've got loads of stress at the moment, and I guess that can easily come out in arguments. Hope you sort things out with him soon.
Don't sit around waiting for your drive to come back- just do it. Fake it till you make it! Eating candy and ice cream WILL NOT MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER. You have it in you to succeed, because you did it for 10 weeks before. In another 10 weeks you will be skinny x
katehunibun
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A
Ruthie is totally right sweetie.
I just wanna add a hug hug....You'll get thru this hun
Ruthie is totally right sweetie.I just wanna add a hug hug....You'll get thru this hun
Rox2
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I know how hard it is, Eerika. I just wish I could have you over to my house, give you a big hug and sit down for a nice chat.... Too bad you're so far away!
You are such a sweet and lovely girl. Please keep coming back to the site, even if you feel bad and the binging is getting out of control. No one here is judging you. I think most of us on this site have been where you are now, at least at one point in their journey. People deal with job loss, death in the family, divorce and all kinds of bad things that send stress levels through the roof; We wouldn't be human if these things didn't affect us.
Your feelings and actions are very understandable and normal, but I'm sure you can work through them, pull yourself up and eventually re-find your motivation and strength.
I know you can do it!
(BTW-I think your inspiration photos are very good. Being super-strong is a great goal! Much better than being painfully thin and weak!)
You are such a sweet and lovely girl. Please keep coming back to the site, even if you feel bad and the binging is getting out of control. No one here is judging you. I think most of us on this site have been where you are now, at least at one point in their journey. People deal with job loss, death in the family, divorce and all kinds of bad things that send stress levels through the roof; We wouldn't be human if these things didn't affect us.
Your feelings and actions are very understandable and normal, but I'm sure you can work through them, pull yourself up and eventually re-find your motivation and strength.
I know you can do it!
(BTW-I think your inspiration photos are very good. Being super-strong is a great goal! Much better than being painfully thin and weak!)
jasper1
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erika i was thinking that maybe you are not drinking enough water?I am not sure it work for all but when i drink loads of water it seems to just clena me out and my weight doesnt change so much from day to day.Instead the days i dont drink water it seems that i dont feel that good and feel hungry aswell
If you arent drinking lots of water just try to and see.It is so good for you and necessery
If you arent drinking lots of water just try to and see.It is so good for you and necessery
jasper1
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thats great erika you didnt give into your craving.You also reconized that you arent hungry.I get like that many times too.I just stay home and get pissed off , go to bed and its over the next day!!!!
Dont get fustrated , you will be 85 and lower ,just stick to your plan.Slowly but steady.You are doing this!
Dont get fustrated , you will be 85 and lower ,just stick to your plan.Slowly but steady.You are doing this!