Eerika's Diary

My period kind of pains and ovary twinging continues and I saw the nurse today. I had to give a urine sample, and I will hear the results today probably. Oh, Im stressing out so bad! Ive started to think the worst case scenarios of course.. :confused:
 
What a relief! All the results came out negative! But my weird cramps and pains are still here.. All my symptoms are telling me like I would be pregnant, but the test shows negative at the moment. But the nurse told me that it is very individual when body starts to process the pregnancy hormone. Usually test should be taken when menstruation are late, or its been two weeks since impregnation..

But yea, Im having these reaaaal weird sympthoms like the twinge under my right ovary, menstruation pains all over the lower stomach, plenteous white/colourless leakeage and nurse took my temperature which was (surprise surprise..) raised and showed that I would have a bit fever even. Today Ive had also a bit nausea and I dont feel like eating anything. :( I dont know is it just cos Ive stressed about this or what.. Making it up. But urine samples told I dont have any kind of infection sooo there is something what is shut off.. Hmm. Im feeling like a miss detective at the moment! LOL. And oh yes, Ive had need to pee after every 15 minutes even I havent drunk that much! Only one cup of coffee and few glasses of water today! : S

I was told to contact emergency duty immediately if the menstruation dont appear and pains wont stop..
 
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Ah, my lovely, I'm glad that you got the result you were hoping for, but I'm worried about all this pain you are in. Hopefully you will get your period very soon and then everythign will just settle down and get back to normal... Our bodies are so strange!

It's great that you went to see the doctor and spoke to them about it. Make sure you follow their advice and contact emergency if you need to! Better to just do it if you are even a little bit unsure.

xxx thinking of you!
 
Thanks for the support lovelies! <3 It means a lot to me that I can open on to you guys! And it is really nice to get perspective from women to this thing.. Even I hesitated to tell you anything about this first, but then you would have wondered where I disappeared! :D

Im a bit frustrated already talking about this with my bf. He doesnt get it even though he tries to understand. Yesterday he came to my place in the evening after his work and he didnt even ask had I suffered from the pains still.. Argh. He just sat there watching telly and didnt come close to me when I sat there beside him. I dunno is he just worried about the situation or what.. Well, then I got angry and told him to leave me alone. I dont know why I got so upset easily. He didnt say or do anything and I just blew up front of him. Haha! Im feeling so stupid, and I think he didnt have aaaany idea why I act like that. :conehead:

I should probably apologize from him..

From this day on my menstruation are late. I havent been suffering from the pains much today.
 
Thats great that you haven't had too much pain today :)

No-one can blame you for being tense. Your entitled to a blow up or two :) He should have thought to ask how you are. It does seem a bit self absorbed on his part.

Fingers crossed for your period xxxxx
 
Well.. I got pains in the evening yesterday. I started to be a bit worried but then I went to bed and I woke up this morning to same pains. Its not still intolerable though.. But I can locate the pang under my right ovary so clearly. It feels in the same place every time and it kind of beams to my right groin and vagina. Oh I hope there isnt guys reading my complaining now! :D Haha! Im just so confused what's going on in my body at the moment. Totally new situation to me!

But cos Ive had so much time to think about this and Ive read so much what it COULD be.. Im just afraid it will get real bad and some night I will wake up to serious pain which will feel like killing me! :svengo:

I bought yesterday pregnancy tests which should be very sensitive to notice hcg hormone in system (10 m IU/ml). But I think I will try tomorrow morning if menstruation doesnt appear today.
 
I think its so easy to become worried sick about unexplained pains. I used to have a sharp stabbing pain in my head at least 5 times a day and started to worry that I had a brain tumour. I was terrified. But there was nothing wrong, the doc said headaches come in many different forms, and I haven't had it for ages now.

Just relax, it won't be the worst thing you are imagining. Maybe you could have a small infection or a cyst, which are routine and treatable things. They'll probably refer you for a scan if it carries on. Hope its okay :(

How has your eating been my deary? x
 
I had to go to the emergency today and I finally saw a doctor.. They took blood tests and everything was fine. No infections, I shouldnt be pregnant. But pains continue.. Tomorrow I think I must contact the doctor again and they must do the ultrasound for me. She said it could be a cyst in my ovary, but it can be seen only witht he ultrasound. And Im so angry I got just painkillers and they sent me back home! My menstruation are late for few days already and not giving any signs of appearing any time soon! :( Im still thinking if it could be pregnancy.. Cos hcg hormone cannot raise before the embryo has attached to the womb.

Anyway, Rainbow you asked about my eatings.. They've been very bad! Im so sad cos my diet has suffered because of my situation now. I cant focus on anything else at the moment! :(
 
Hi lovely

I'm really glad that you went to the hospital just to make sure - it is annoying that you just got sent home without any real answer to your pain. I hope you get an ultrasound and manage to sort it out soon.

Thinking of you! xxx
 
Erika you poor thing. I totally understand how the stress of all this is causing your diet to go round the corner and over the fence out of sight and mind. I'd be doing the same thing. HOwever, i couldn't live with this sort of uncertainty. Id have to be down at the doctor's asap and get things cleared up. Are you actually hoping for a baby? I hope the ultrasound reveals the source of the problem clearly. Otherwise there are a number of things it could be that wouldn't show up in blood tests. Only things like ultrasounds would show.

I had a friend who always had heavy painful periods. Finally after years of unnecessary suffering she had keyhole surgery and had some cycsts removed. So don't suffer. But also they say that the pill helps moderate painful periods. I am surprised you weren't on it already if you having regular sex.

Anyhow, back to the cream business. I personally would advise against going from cream to skim milk - which has zero fat. Just go for full crema milk. It still tastes good but is not 100% fat like cream is. or whatever the percentage. I used full cream milk and dairy throughout my diet and it didn't stop me losing weight. At the same time i continued to enjoy all my food. If you don't enjoy yoru food your diet can't last. So retain the baddie bits just enough to ensure you still find your food tasty.

eg. i had no trouble giving up sugar in tea and coffee. Sometimes its just easy. But i really cannot tolerate coffee made with skim milk. So experiment with things and find what works for you.

Good luck wiht all your worries at the moment.
 
I dont know whats going on with me, and cos Ive had pains I havent been able to work out. Last night the pains dissapeared and I can feel only little twinge under my right ovary at the moment.

I think I must wait for next week if the pains would just dissapear.. Because the doctor said this isnt life-threatening thing now. Even if it would be a cyst.

Ive had always very painful periods but this pain has been different also. I ate birthcontrol pills few years ago, but I had some side effects from those pills so I wouldnt like to eat them.. And Ive been hesitating to get them again. But like I mentioned before, I had planned to go to the nurse last monday to get pills.. And then came this situation which I had to bring up to the nurse.

And I dont hope baby in my life at the moment, but IF the problem inside me is a baby, I cannot do anything else than welcome it. And because the accident has already happened, we are responsible for this with my bf. I know life wouldnt be easy with a baby but I know I would be perfectly capable of taking care of it with my bf. BUT Im glad this isnt about a baby for pretty sure! They took yesterday the blood tests and the hcg hormone hasnt raised at all yet, so it should be goof thing.
We've been very strict with the contraception using normally condoms.. Accidents happen, cant do anything about it now.

Im going today at my parent's place with my dog Toby, we will see if these things clear up..
 
I like the way you think with regards to the possibility of being pregnant. I missed out. If a baby turns up, then make the most of it. go with the flow and love it love it love it. Kids make your life much more complicated but they bring such a lot of depth to it and i am soo sorry i never had any. Its possibly a good thing cuase i might have been a crap mum, but i still miss them and the grandchildren and all that stuff.
 
Phew, I'm sure you are in the clear as far as pregnancy is concerned, as the blood test is very accurate isn't it.

I'm really happy that the pain stopped last night (except the twinge), I really hope you've had no more pain today either.

Have you sorted things with your bf yet? Is he staying at your mum and dads house with you? x
 
We had a long conversation about things with my bf.. He is not staying at my parent's place at the moment cos he had to go to work today. But tomorrow he might come. On sunday I was planning to go back to my place.

Ive had period pains today, maybe they will show up finally!
 
Oh, my weightloss journal has changed to "what the hell is wrong with me?!"-journal! :D I just cant be without speculating this.. It is already annoying my everyday life as you can imagine.

Hmm.. Anyway, the blood tests were taken when you cant really say is someone pregnant or not. As a nurse student myself Ive studied a lot about this. IF I would be pregnant I would be at weeks 4+2 (because I know the exact day of our accident..) and the hCG-hormone will raise very slowly with some women. Pregnancy test can be positive on week 5+ something, but at least then. My hCG-hormone level was 3 when it was taken from the blood tests, and that number CAN actually be normal when its been only two weeks since assumed impregnation. But after 5 days (when I should be on week 5 counting from last periods..) it should raise to at least 18. The hCG-hormone doubles itself every 36 hours.

Anyway, my head will blow up in a few days if I dont get any answers to this! :D My bf is just so sure about pregnancy cos otherwise Ive been very healthy and some cyst would be so weird thing.. But you never know! I will keep you updated!
 
The thing is that if your hormone levels weren't elevated it would be unlikely for you to get pregnancy symptoms. But you are the student nurse, so I will shut up haha, because I know much less than you do. How have the pains been today my lovely? xxx
 
The thing is that if your hormone levels weren't elevated it would be unlikely for you to get pregnancy symptoms. But you are the student nurse, so I will shut up haha, because I know much less than you do. How have the pains been today my lovely? xxx

Well the thing IS that the hormone levels won't raise untill the embryo has arrived to the womb. It taked about two weeks from it to get to the womb from oviduct. And when it gets there, it "glues" itself to the mucosa and starts to grow the placenta. The placenta is the thing which sends the hCG hormone to body. :)

Some women has got the positive pregnancy test very late, because it is so individual how fast the embryo attaches and starts to produce hCG. Sometimes it takes longer to get the result because hCG filters slowly from blood to urine.

So at the moment I think Im pregnant until it will be proved otherwise! :D All the symptoms are just like being pregnant.. Ive had the period pain for last night and still feeling the ache in my lower stomach.. And if I would have a cyst in my ovary, it shouldnt effect on my periods, they should arrive just in time. But in 5-10 days I can say am I preganant or not, cos then hCG should show in the tests at least.

But the thing is that the symptoms can arrive any time IF youre pregnant. My "period pains" started after a week from what happened. And there is soooo many reasons why I could already have the symptoms... And specially the pain under my right ovary would just points at the pregnancy, because the egg cell has obviously seceded from that side. It could cause pains when the embryo is growing itself in the oviduct and there is this corpus luteum in ovary keeping the embryo alive until it gets to the womb.

Anyway.. Im just VERYVERY confused about this situation because Ive never had any problems with my periods or ovaries. So Im just so sceptical that it would be a cyst or something.. And Ive understood it should be a bit older ladies agony, like those who re havin menopause... But I really hope I can get back to my life and weightloss soon, so everyone can cross the fingers for me! :D

Periods are now 5 days late.. Wishing for this situation clear up soon! Hanging there.. Thanks for the support girls, mean a lot to me! xoxo
 
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Oh god :(

When I became pregnant with Lily while I had an IUD in, I was upset. I really didn't want another kid. Things at home were awful, and I would cry myself to sleep every night. I didn't want to bring a baby into the world then. I wished that I wasn't pregnant for the first four months or so. I hated it, i was so ill. But then, as my bump grew, I started to be so excited that I was pregnant, and thank god, by 5 months I was really happy that I was pregnant and I couldn't wait to meet her. And I love her so much that it horrifies me how I felt at the beginning.

I know if you are pregnant it will be a big shock, and take some getting used to, but when you have him/her, you will be thankful that you got pregnant exactly when you did, because if you hadn't then you wouldn't have the exact same baby that you did. If that makes sense xxxxxxxxx
 
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