ok my name is Jusselin Rabalais i am not Arab but Cajun lol, at my biggest point i weighed approx. 750 pounds over last last 2 years i was kinda forced to loose about 100 pounds and then a trip to the ER changed my attitude...i now weigh 500-499and am doing my best to get down to 220, i hav ehad ups and downs more downs than ups lol but i am in it to win it....wish me luck
not to mention none of my weight loss has been via surgery or pills
Looks like we all have our ups and downs.. Good job at gettin back!!! I just got back from vacation and being sick and sad to say I gained!!! Blahhhhhhhhhh but I had to force myself back to reality and get on that scale. Im in this super mega challenge with ya!! worrrd son!
i messed up over the weekend and back up to 499 this gets so old and i am so tired i am either gunna quit and say screw this or step it up and get through this i am lost
hey chick...good to hear from you
ok so today i ate two cups of regular oatmeal and splenda
just now had a small snack i had a white turkey sandwhich with light mayo pepper one slice cheese wheat bread and a tall glass of water

i have been going through quite a bit lately....it takes alot for me to say this and most people would think i am a hypocrite, i am not a hypocrite i am a man going through alot who handles things wrong.... a man that seekis forgiveness from his creator and a man who wants his story not to end in tragic death via heart attack or some medical condition that could have been prevented....my future wife is in south texas she is with her parents saving up for our wedding, while I had to move to southeast texas to work for my fmily so we could have an appartment to live in and something to move into once married...we have been apart now for 9 months and only get to see each other every 3 months we talk on the phone every night and txt each other every day....she is faithful to me, loves me like no one else....and i am faithful to her and cant wait to be together again.....we both love working with the church and helping where and when ever we can.....but in this last 9 months i have been devestatingly depressed.....i slowly started smoking again when all of a sudden i was invited to drink....i started drinking again (all because of the depression i was facing and the pain) well with in the last month i was offered weed and started getting hihg again.....yesterday was just about it for me i got so high i consumed about 6 pounds of meet some beef some chicken some pork.....i have gained back about 15 pounds and i am on my last Leg, i am not writing this for sympathy or for any one elses harsh comments either i am writing because i need it off my chest....this has GOT TO STOP NOW!!! i can not live like this any more i have to tear through this........AM I A WINNER OR NOT! WAS I NOT CREATED FOR MORE?!?! where is my life going......i am hurting, this is hard food was my drug and when that was taken away i turned to other things....do you ever wonder why its so hard for YOU to BELIEVE in YOU???? because when someone believes in you....YOU WIN! but when YOU believe in YOU everybody WINS!!!!!
my quest to believe in myself begins.....my quest to become a champion
do i have what it takes???
i have been going through quite a bit lately....it takes alot for me to say this and most people would think i am a hypocrite, i am not a hypocrite i am a man going through alot who handles things wrong.... a man that seekis forgiveness from his creator and a man who wants his story not to end in tragic death via heart attack or some medical condition that could have been prevented....my future wife is in south texas she is with her parents saving up for our wedding, while I had to move to southeast texas to work for my fmily so we could have an appartment to live in and something to move into once married...we have been apart now for 9 months and only get to see each other every 3 months we talk on the phone every night and txt each other every day....she is faithful to me, loves me like no one else....and i am faithful to her and cant wait to be together again.....we both love working with the church and helping where and when ever we can.....but in this last 9 months i have been devestatingly depressed.....i slowly started smoking again when all of a sudden i was invited to drink....i started drinking again (all because of the depression i was facing and the pain) well with in the last month i was offered weed and started getting hihg again.....yesterday was just about it for me i got so high i consumed about 6 pounds of meet some beef some chicken some pork.....i have gained back about 15 pounds and i am on my last Leg, i am not writing this for sympathy or for any one elses harsh comments either i am writing because i need it off my chest....this has GOT TO STOP NOW!!! i can not live like this any more i have to tear through this........AM I A WINNER OR NOT! WAS I NOT CREATED FOR MORE?!?! where is my life going......i am hurting, this is hard food was my drug and when that was taken away i turned to other things....do you ever wonder why its so hard for YOU to BELIEVE in YOU???? because when someone believes in you....YOU WIN! but when YOU believe in YOU everybody WINS!!!!!
my quest to believe in myself begins.....my quest to become a champion
do i have what it takes???
Hey look at the bright side jumping hurdles burns calories lol. i know I'm a dork.wow...cruce, weesey.....that really means alot seriously i honestly didnt expect any replies or any good ones that is.... i am making an honest effort today to get it together....i dont need this i am better thatn this and so is my wife.....most of all So is my GOD.....i know he is merciful and forgiving.....i am ready to change because i am so tired of doing the same thing....and yes it is almost like a self sabotage its crazy but i know i have the mind of Christ....
my journey has already begun...but now this hurdle needs to be jumped
this too shall pass

i messed up over the weekend
and back up to 499 this gets so old and i am so tired i am either gunna quit and say screw this or step it up and get through this i am lost