2500
Today was not totally unsuccessful, even though I failed to make a meal plan today. I was too busy last night....and this morning the run took away my time. Exercise takes so much time away, I SWEAR!

I have to
drive to get to my gym or to any nice place to run (my neighborhood is ok but the dirt field is pretty boring and not big enough to intrigue me for a run longer than 30 minutes), I have to cool off, shower, dress, eat.....I tell ya, I'm not trying to bitch, it just seems like I have to start waking up at 7:30 again to get everything I want done, done.
Anyway, I didn't meal plan and I fell victim to 4 Pepperidge Farm Geneva cookies, and I drank a Sobe vitamin water that was available at work instead of green tea. The cool thing is that I had no caffeine, although I do believe there is minor caffeine in dark chocolate and Açai Juice. Anyway, today I felt GREAT, absolutely fabulous! SO MUCH energy!
It rained hard today starting around 5pm so I was glad to run in the woods this morning. Genie was a good girl on our walk to the beach, and in Kickboe I had more energy than I'd had in a month, thanks to no drinking. I was glad to get the Mojo back. Also, I was getting used to being consistently bloated and heavy feeling (gaining 10 pounds in a few months results in that) and I noticed my tummy is not bloated anymore and in fact, I feel like I look slimmer than a few weeks ago.
After Kickboe I got invited to my workout buddy Karen's house (she lives across the street from our gym) and I made dinner for us. She has an adorable 1 year old, he's very sweet. Anyway, her household doesn't buy organic foods, but I would
never mention anything like that! I prefer organic wholesome shit but being fed, hell, I just say THANK YOU!!! I also offer to cook for her when I visit, since she is feeding me! I cut up zucchini, carrots, and onions; grilled them in a skillet with just a tad of olive oil and sea salt, then added this pasta mix she bought that was 370 calories per 2 and 1/2 cups. However, I snacked on an open box of animal cookies during the making, and sprinkled parmasean cheese on our pasta. We also indulged in sparkling white grape juice, which was delicious and was like a pacifier is to a tit for me, seeming I can't have alcoholic bubbly until October 31st
The I got home and had the rest of my plum candy.
Nontheless, I burned over a thousand calories off with exercise and feel GREAT!

I have so much energy, even now, it's amazing! Lawd knows I can't do anything much tonight, save for cooking some rice and lentil pilaf for meals tomorrow. My deficit today is probably....oh.....well my net calories was 1380 and if my RMR is around 1700....320? Not great, but HEY! It's much better than
ZERO or worse, a surplus! I can hope my metabolism is UP UP UP and doing something great, pushing towards weight loss
Hey I should be starting today! I think I got my Days wrong, I stopped tracking my Cycle when I stopped recording calories late this summer. I feel very mild cramps now and then, so it should be tomorrow or something. Anyway, I may hold off on weighing myself during my rag, I'm not sure yet. GEEZ I've been so thoughtful and indecisive with sobriety!
Seriously indecisive. I have all these great recipes and beautiful pictures. I look at them to decide what I want to make. Then I get overwhelmed, and give up in despair, and just use what I have in the fridge instead. Or I just stick to making brown/wild rice and putting grilled veggies and some kind of protein in there....it's actually cheap and I'm not sick of it yet! LOL! Hmmm I had no fish today.....
OK OK I'm babbling. I really should start making meal plans for the week, it worked so well yesterday. Hmmm, I can consider this "cycling" my calories. OK, today was a "cheat day" even though I still managed a 300 calorie deficit due to my intense AM and PM cardio. Tomorrow is weights and yoga, and Genie to beach. Should be another 800 calorie burn, so if I can manage 1800, I'll have a 700 calorie deficit, which is very very good!
OK, GOAL TOMORROW: 1800
Time to meal plan!