Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Hey there VBF! :p Here is a little ~~HUG~~ sent your way today! I hope all this time away means your having some FUN!! and sending that stress away!! MISS YA!, but hope your having a fantastic time :rofl:
Kim
 
Hi friends!
Oh I missed you all. Too much going on in my life!
I must say, my luck isn't getting much better. Stress has caused me to eat and drink more. I'm afraid I may be in the high 140s now. I'm on the rag, I'll most likely weigh myself when it's over with and assess the damage.

Let me start with good news: Last Sunday I ran the Trail Race in Big Basin and WON!! 1st for women, 4th overall--79 people participated. Mind you, the point of the trail runs is NOT to be competitive. But you all know ME :eek: Anyway, I've been running regularly and I weight trained twice this week, and I was thinking of going again this morning before I drove over to Palo Alto for my girl friend's birthday party. I probably will, but I might just get hooked on here for hours :jump:

I've been exercising a lot. I've been eating more, though. My body looks good, but I feel more chub on my belly. Doesn't look awful, though--but the stress makes me reach for food. Argh!

Stress: so I started part time work, and I found I have barely any more time to get things done as I ever did! Jeez! Exercising takes up a LOT of my time. Man oh man--at least I never miss a workout!:newangel: MONEY is stressing me out. And the BF....man oh man, he emails me everyday and he's very sweet and nice when I see him, but he refuses to see me more than twice a week. It hurts, but it's really very practical of him since we fight when we hang out together more. I'm dying for physical contact, as you know I'm a hedonistic cuddle bunny.:beating: He maintains that while he does not want me with other men, "i want you to be happy and if its at the expense of monogomy, so be it. im happy with just you." To me that sounds awfully fishy, but as I know him to have the utmost integrity, I can't doubt he's being honest. We DO live 45 minutes away from each other over hard mountain roads. And he has no cell phone. I went out last night with a buddy and we saw some more friends and had a pretty good time! But I always miss his presence in some way....it's a hollow feeling because my love is missing.

More stress: My cat has another abscess in the same medial front leg as he has had twice before. The vet says there may be a tooth or paricle in there that's causing the recurrence. I took him in this morning and they're working on him--it'll take until 5pm and $457 :eek2:

Yeah.

$$$$$$ floating away! I can't even save, I don't have a back up job. Good thing is this week I had to work extra hours to pour at 2 events--that's right, I've been pouring an awful lot. The 15th I poured at the winery I always pour at, and I had a great old time and Joe and Richard said I did a great job as usual, and they are very serious about me being the tasting room worker at the winery--pretty much guaranteed. Problem? It won't be ready til like, January.

People, I've actually been in a good mood despite everything. After this accident my insurance will go up :( And if the DMV decides to count this as a point, with my speeding tickets I've acquired it's possible they might suspend my license. The points may be high enough. Mind you, I've only had this one accident and a few speeding tickets-nothing really bad. SO I dunno...

Part time BF, part time job, and I may get a suspended license--while things keep coming up that takes away my muthafuckin money! GRRRRRRRRRRRR--on top of it, my nervous tendency to eat. HEY! At least I LOVE exercise. I ran yesterday at my favorite park that I always used to run in, you know the one where I sprained my ankle? It was beautiful and made me gloriously happy for the duration.

I'm optimistic. At times I cry, because "everything" seems to be going bad, but I'm certain it will all pass, as Steve says, and better times will roll around.

OK, time to look at y'all keeping my diary warm...
 
Blancita said:
Hi sweetheart, glad you're doing OK and got the car sorted out. Do tell about this guy your "kickin it" with when you have time. BF somewhat deserves what he gets and you never know what he's up to either.
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Thanks, Beautiful!
No way am I tellin! Anyone who wants to know anything of that nature can PM me! ;) And it's true, I don't know--but he does tell me a lot of what he's up to, and I hear from other people he visits who confirm it, so there's really no need for me to be suspicious. Even so, there would be nothing I could do about it! :rolleyes:

TANKS FOR THE WELL-WISHING KORRIE, JOE AND RACH.

Steve said:
Yo chica!

Who's this guy your 'kickin it' with?
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:eek: ;) :rolleyes:

TomO said:
It's hard to keep a regular workout schedule when you're in your 20's. My daughter has the same problem. Hope you have a great weekend!
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Thanks Tom, I've had some good weekends. And you'll be proud to know that despite everything, I've kept working out regularly--weights, running, Kickboe and yoga.
 
Miss Ladybug said:
I know with stress comes stress eating, so don't worry about it! Obviously, your still turning massive MALE HEADS! :rofl: of course, your hot so why wouldn't they look? ;) I'm so proud of you, keeping it all together and getting through all the past crap, YOUR VERY STRONG girlfriend, and I hope you are aware of that. You went through a rough MOVE experience, Job issues, injuries to your body, car problems and much more, and now it's all working itself out.
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Awwwww shucks, VBF! :eek: Thank you!

On the subject of men, I've still been having bad luck with them. It's odd t me, after gaining some weight and consequently a bit of curves, I get hit on MORE than I did when I was closer to my goal :confused: Anyway, I've had to establish some rules.

As I am a person who has a hard time saying "no" to people, and fold under pressure a lot, I feel the need to be more assertive with men lately. Not all men, but a LOT I've ran into lately are pushy, aggressive, like a challenge, want to pursue, and try to convince me to do things or sneakily throw in a shady saying or just basically try to hit on me in any way they can. I don't know what's going on--I think it's because I'm weak right now and am still lacking self-confidence and esteem--this is very rare, but I get like it when my world has changed--makes a little sense, yeah? Anyway, some dudes prey on weakness or are attracted to females who are unstable (LOL!!!) So here are my rules:

#1 Never say "yes" when he asks to go to a secluded place (happened last night damn it)
#2 Don't let him buy me a drink--I have plenty of wine, thank you very much!
#3 Don't make eye contact :)rotflmao:)--that should be rule #1
#4 Don't be friendly and engaging--it only encourages them! Sigh, I don't do well on following this one.
#5 Leave. Wherever I am!

Last night I met my buddy's new housemate. He seems interesting but scary, and L warned me that this dude (he's 31) has a not cool attitude toward women. Just being around him terrified me! I was talking about my money woes and how I would not resort to stripping or anything, and he said, "Stripping? You could make a thousand dollars a night! Just go to amateur night over the hill and walk off with eleven hundred dollars! Hell"-he sized me up even though I was sitting down-"you go the frame for it"-laughs, says more quietly-"stand up and turn around"-laughs. "Hey, I'm about to start an escort service....."--it was there I asked L if we could leave. I was starting to shake like a leaf! Otherwise this guy was incredibly talented because he would freestyle rap the whole time, sometimes about what we were talking about, and he was very very good. As an artist, I appreciate all poets and musicians and other artists....just I keep in mind the creative ones can not cool in other ways.
 
Girls:
Thanks for missing me, I am now definitely going to see what's up in your lives!
It's RAINING outside! I have to pick up the cat at 4 or 5, so I'm stuck in town until then..
 
Hi Val!

It's good to hear from you. It's also good to hear that your recent troubles haven't doused your fire. Now you are ready for good things!

The run sounds wonderful and congrats on the win!

David C
 
Hey, it's good to see you on today!! I haven't been on during a weekend in I can't tell you how long, so to long in today and see you post, I"m so happy!! Don't worry about those small (glitches) in your way, don't let them stress you out at all, it will work out! Every day is a new day, and every day you make your life what it is, nobody else does that for you! If you want to have a good day, MAKE IT A GOOD DAY! Let the crap move behind you and bring yourself forward. You are talented, I see it in your writing, I hear it in the way you speak about your passion for wine and how much you love being in that industry. The guys love when you pour wine and I know if you take it slow and let Jan come, you will see some positive changes. I think the winery job would be a great move for you! You need a major change in the near future and I think that might just be the one. Be patient rome wasn't built in a day, and don't worry about the food and over eating, your still running, AND HIGH FIVE for the race you just won, you HOT SHOT YOU!! :beerchug: Guys are noticing you more, because you look great!! even with a few extra pounds, men love that!! More men than not will say women with a little cushion and curves is much better than a board! I'm not into women, but I will have to agree with that statement 100%. You such a doll, with a sweet heart to go with your darling personality, get rid of the nonsense around you and go for the gusto girl, you deserve only the best for yourself, don't take anything less!! ;) I'll check in on you later, I hope your kitty is doing alright, he's lucky to have you!! AHHHHHHHHH
Kim
 
Awesome job on the race!!!:cool:
Hope kitty is okay at last! One less thing to worry about even if it did cost $$. January seems like a long way away but we're almost into October now. Look forward to it, new year, new job. Keeping everything crossed for you that better things are coming your way and soon!
 
KIM: You're hilarious! Thanks Sweetie!!!! :D

Rachie & Mechelle: Thanks so much!

WOW I am 150.5 fucking pounds!!!!

Good news: Exercising like a champ, feeling better, and I love my body.:beating:

Uh, still, I have a new goal--a Halloween goal of back to 145. Back to WLF, calorie counting, and no more beers all the time. SUMMER IS OVER!!!!

SUMMER IS OVER. GOODBYE BEER! YOU WERE GOOD TO ME, BUT I CAN'T INDULGE YOU ANYMORE!!!!​

You got me in trouble! :newangel:

OK, I have to take Oliver to the vet right now to get his bandage re-dressed. I'll be back, but I may just go running. Yesterday I ran in the AM for 20 minutes AND weight trained in the PM for an hour. Good for me!

MISS YOU!!!:beating:
 
:D Yes, your on the right track again, NO MORE BEER!! But a nice glass of wine every couple nights is okay. :rofl: You know I can't go without a glass every now and again myself. LOL LOL I hope your kitty is feeling better. ;) And I must say I'm really pleased that your happy about your body at 150 because I'm sure you look GREAT!! Have a very nice day today my vbf!!
Kim
 
Beer does bad things things for us!! Stay away! However my thing is wine and it's not much better for you! Glad you are getting back into the swing of things!!:D
 
Good job on the weight training and running :) Beer is terrible for me. I love it. Soooo tasty and good but it makes me all bloated in my belly :( I'm bloated enough there to begin with :( Wine is much better for the weight conscious!

Hope Oliver is doing better :)
 
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