Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Bruce, gracias, but don't worry--I'm not worried about aesthetics rigfht now--just kicking ass in my race next Sunday!!! Dammit I want to place SOOOO BAD!!!
 
TomO said:
Funny, my daughter reminds me so much of you. She's athletic, and wants to get to the same weight as you. Actually, she's got in her mind 1 pound less, 129 lbs. She's convinced that at 136, she's "fat". I spent a lot of time this weekend helping her develop a free weights program, talking about nutrition, etc. She wants to look like all her skinny LA friends, but what she easily forgets is how strong she is. Hell, she can do 5 pullups, unassisted! Her body fat percentage is 21.6% now, so going down to 129 lbs. will bring that to 18% or so.
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Ah yes.

Skinny L.A. friends.

Your daughter is very, very strong. I consider myself pretty strong, but I can barely do one pullup. Funky Phantom on here just reported she does 40 bench presses of 95 lbs!! I love the strong ladies, makes me look up to them and strive for strength.

About strength: runners tend to lose muscle mass. I will continue to weight train in hopes that I don't lose a lot.
 
Tom: Thanks for the vote of confidence, I'm really anxious to see if I could maintain 7 minute miles for 6.2 miles. If I got 46 minutes and change, I Would be absolutely elated!

Grumpy today--cannot seem to eat to deficit. I am up to 1400 calories, and will weight-train today. I'm inspired to increase weight for my bench presses and barbell squats. My body will be buzzing afterward and I'll only get a 200 calorie dinner? No way! Better eat a can of tuna and got to bed if I want to lose 5 lbs this month. I think I'll give up on that because the past 4 days=no deficit. So 4 lbs. 134 by May 26th???

Time will tell. I don't think dieting and training go well together.

I'm reading the runner's book and I haven't got ot nutrition yet. But the writer says 90% not to time yourself and not to run hard. And not to sweat it. And to practive breathing techniques that will prevent side aches.

OK, break is over, time to go!!!
 
Hi Valarie...told ya I'd come visit:)

I totally understand the thing about running/weight training. Personally, I love running, especially really long ones (five miles feels like a snack)....I can get practically misty-eyed when describing the joys of running over hill and dale:) But at some point I realized that the way I needed to train and eat to really run the way I like (long and hard) started becoming counter-productive to my weight training goals and I (gulp) had to decide which one was going to be the focus of my primary efforts. For purely "how do I want to look" reasons I chose lifting as the primary and running as the secondary. I guess I'm more vain than competative:)

p.s. this is not to say that you can't/won't look awesome with more of a "serious runner" type body - because you're tall and curvy. I happen to be short and very small framed, and not particularily blessed in the chest area...I need all the lean muscle mass I can to avoid looking "scrawny".

You're a smart girl and I know you'll work it out in a way that feels best to you over the long haul.
 
i just got caught up in your diary, and as usual, i LOVED reading it!!

congrats on your new job!!! i was a waitress for 3 years, and you can definitely bank it!!

i loved your body image essay! i always love reading what you have to say!!
 
cym said:
For purely "how do I want to look" reasons I chose lifting as the primary and running as the secondary. I guess I'm more vain than competative:)

p.s. this is not to say that you can't/won't look awesome with more of a "serious runner" type body - because you're tall and curvy. I happen to be short and very small framed, and not particularly blessed in the chest area...I need all the lean muscle mass I can to avoid looking "scrawny".

You're a smart girl and I know you'll work it out in a way that feels best to you over the long haul.
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Thanks, CYM! Hmmm did you give out your name? Didn't catch that...silly me :eek:

I like you for several reasons, but the one I'm going to point out right now is the vanity thing. On this site it is refreshing to see someone who is open and honest about vanity being a factor. I feel like I have to be careful because:
a) I don't want to hurt people's feelings who are very overweight
b) I truly do believe my health and fitness come first (I know you do too, you just mentioned that you are choosing one method over the other to be healthy and fit that happens to coincide with your aesthetics)
c) I think a lot of us are tired of emphasis on physical beauty and trying to encourage health and awareness of our shortcomings.

But all this aside, now that I am healthy and fit and on the right track, I am enjoying the rewards of having a "nice" body, for the most part--beauty still in the eye of the beholder. But still. I think that almost everyone on this forum has the ability to please themselves with their appearance--I wish that everyone was satisfied with how they looked, the world would be a better place. But it's way more complicated, right? I'm sure you as well as I know all the crazy things in life that fuck up our heads and perception and come down on ultimately us. In regards to that....I stole this out of your journal:

cym said:
About your goal weight...I'm always surprised when people think "if I lose x amount of pounds I'll look just like I want"...when there is no way of knowing where those pounds are gonna come from...you'll know when you've reached your goal weight when you can stand pure baby butt naked in the mirror, view yourself from all angles and think "Yep, that's gonna do it":)
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First and foremost, you are 100% right.
Second, I just want to mention bad body image for a second. In a healthy mind, there is going to be a point in our recomposition of our bodies where we say, "OK, that's it, I'm perfect, for ME, time to maintain this perfect ass."

Unfortunately sometimes in people's brains, obsessive compulsive behaviors stem from a newfound chemical imbalance that skews our perception and make that instance impossible. What a shame! :( Psychosis is psychosis, whatever the illness. Remember all the hype about that Brazilian model that starved herself to death? She was my height: 5'7". Wait, she could have been 5'8", but anyway, she was one of those and she died at 87 lbs! :eek: I think because of that and another girl, Spain made it mandatory that models have a BMI of 18.5 at least. I thought this was really cool, even though I'm not naive to think that everyone is going to follow that, even in Spain itself. But it's setting an example of responsibility. Anyway, what was going on in that model's brain was an inability to see reality in regards to body image, even though we all have our ideas of what reality is. I think what I'm trying to get at is that I wish, Cym, I wish, that we could all look at our bodies one day, baby-butt naked from ALL angles, and say, "Yeah, aiight that's perfecto." But I have my doubts.

Either way, you're right--the number is irrelevant. I am teetering on the brink of giving up the number and changing my goal to fitness-based. We'll see. But I'm getting awfully close to that moment where I am 100% satisfied with my body for what it is. Although, yeah, I am 99.something%--why not? I have all my limbs! I'm out of a wheel chair. How could I not be? Right?

Thanks for stopping by!! Really love your journal.
 
Another very interesting conversation from you two. Vanity is a powerful motivator, and there's nothing wrong with it, if it works. Trouble is, it doesn't work for most people. Part of that may be people's body image, a subject you dealt with yesterday. For a lot of people, the idea of actually being proud of your body is so remote that it doesn't seem possible. As a result, they don't do anything until vanity is no longer the main motivator; fear takes it place.

Lest anyone think I'm insulting them, rest assured that I'm referring to myself here. Fear was my initial motivator.

Interestingly, now that I'm half way there, vanity is starting to play a role. I don't mean vanity in the bad sense, but a sense of pride that I can do what I do. I'll admit it -- I'm proud that I can squat and deadlift and do bench presses with weights heavier than most of the young guys in the gym. Not that I'm particularly strong, but at least I'm not a total weakling either.

It's a good thing to recognize what motivates you, and it's silly to deny that vanity plays a role, and a positive one at that.
 
Good Morning :)

**sigh** we have the same weight goals...isnt it frustrating...I'm tired of people telling me "you dont need to loose weight"...and "are you sure thats healthy"....YES its healthy and I want to be fit and athletic!!


**Edit to say: Its sweet they think I look fine...but it gets frustrating.
 
I know what you mean. I look like I weigh less than I do. Everyone tells me, why are you trying to lose weight, you look good!:( What I think and my husband are what counts. I'm going for it!!;)
 
TomO said:
For a lot of people, the idea of actually being proud of your body is so remote that it doesn't seem possible. As a result, they don't do anything until vanity is no longer the main motivator; fear takes it place.
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That's very interesting, but fear sure is a great motivator, too, huh? :) I really want everyone here to be proud of their bodies. RIGHT NOW! :mad:

T2 Trucker said:
I'm no 'pro' but I sure wouldn't think so. It's actually an oxymoron - at least in the context implied.
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You know Randy, I JUST realized you are a measly 28 lbs from your goal!!:eek: you are AWESOME!!!! Yes, I think I may continue to take the days up to Sunday off dieting, and continue later. I also quit drinking and smoking until after the race, too ;)

LynnZ said:
Good Morning

**sigh** we have the same weight goals...isnt it frustrating...I'm tired of people telling me "you dont need to loose weight"...and "are you sure thats healthy"....YES its healthy and I want to be fit and athletic!!


**Edit to say: Its sweet they think I look fine...but it gets frustrating.
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It's rough, the last 10 lbs. OK: say a person is overweight are almost-or even obese. They need SOME kind of goal if they are headed toward changing themselves, right? Well, Some people on here have chosen a goal weight that is in the 21-19 BMI range (I've seen a few who want 18 BMI!). When a person is say, a BMI of 30 or so, everyone's supporting her. But once she gets in the healthy range, then further into "skinny," the support seems to drop off and all of a sudden she's one of those Skinny Assholes (LOL!:D ) OK, this isn't always the case, but you get my point! I'll support you Lindsay!

be_gone_soon said:
I know what you mean. I look like I weigh less than I do. Everyone tells me, why are you trying to lose weight, you look good!:( What I think and my husband are what counts. I'm going for it!!;)
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I will support you Mechelle! But......are you really going to leave us once you get to your goal?!?! :( ;)

Note to readers: It is OK to want to be of a lower, healthy weight. If you don't want to support that, fine. But if you want to cheer people on regardless if you agree 100% with their goal, then stick around and show some love. Showing people love despite the fact you agree (on whatever topic) with them or not is Ultimate Unity and Compassion, Understanding and Humility. The meaning of life IS Love, afterall :)
 
Curvie Girlie said:
That's very interesting, but fear sure is a great motivator, too, huh? :) I really want everyone here to be proud of their bodies. RIGHT NOW! :mad:



You know Randy, I JUST realized you are a measly 28 lbs from your goal!!:eek: you are AWESOME!!!! Yes, I think I may continue to take the days up to Sunday off dieting, and continue later. I also quit drinking and smoking until after the race, too ;)



It's rough, the last 10 lbs. OK: say a person is overweight are almost-or even obese. They need SOME kind of goal if they are headed toward changing themselves, right? Well, Some people on here have chosen a goal weight that is in the 21-19 BMI range (I've seen a few who want 18 BMI!). When a person is say, a BMI of 30 or so, everyone's supporting her. But once she gets in the healthy range, then further into "skinny," the support seems to drop off and all of a sudden she's one of those Skinny Assholes (LOL!:D ) OK, this isn't always the case, but you get my point! I'll support you Lindsay!



I will support you Mechelle! But......are you really going to leave us once you get to your goal?!?! :( ;)

Note to readers: It is OK to want to be of a lower, healthy weight. If you don't want to support that, fine. But if you want to cheer people on regardless if you agree 100% with their goal, then stick around and show some love. Showing people love despite the fact you agree (on whatever topic) with them or not is Ultimate Unity and Compassion, Understanding and Humility. The meaning of life IS Love, afterall :)
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No I'm not leaving the forum, just I'm going for my goals! I love being on here!!:eek:
 
Morning Curves, I hope your day goes well. Is it Monday today?? It sure feels like one. uggg, I need some pep me up. HAHAHA
Kim
 
Note to readers: It is OK to want to be of a lower, healthy weight. If you don't want to support that, fine. But if you want to cheer people on regardless if you agree 100% with their goal, then stick around and show some love. Showing people love despite the fact you agree (on whatever topic) with them or not is Ultimate Unity and Compassion, Understanding and Humility. The meaning of life IS Love, afterall
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Yes, absolutely, unless the goal simply isn't healthy, or the person is advocating a method of weight loss that is unhealthy or a scam. Then I personally feel compelled to say something, because others here may read that stuff and think it's OK.

For example, if someone your height wanted to drop to 90 pounds, I wouldn't want to encourage them to do that.
 
Hi CG-

Just read in Daiseeangel's diary that you've got tickets to a MMA competition...I am so jealous. I think it's the greatest sport, I would love to see a competition live. You'll have to tell me all about it!

Jen
 
Mechelle: LOL! I get it now! DOI! :rolleyes:

Kim: Busy day for me today but when I get a chance I'll drop by for some pep talk :)

Tom: Yes of course!

Jen: I will!!! It's funny--I'm totally non-violent--never been in a fight in my life nor had siblings to beat on, but I LOVE man-to-man (or woman-to-woman) combat!!! :D
 
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