Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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WOW, did you catch all that Curves. HAHAHA Sophie are little brain. :) Oh this is what you should do with those truffles, FIRST grab ONE, and ONLY ONE don't be greedy!! Secondly, Carefully take knife and cut in half, last but not least MOST IMPORTANT...... eat slow and savor every little bit of saliva in your mouth, because that whole 2 seconds just cost you 50 calories. ;) Now, if I could only practice what I preach I would be set for life. LOL LOL You know I would eat the whole darn thing, 100 calories and all, then I would BALL all night and be pissed at myself for giving in. Oh well, such is life and womens hormones. And what Sophie said, whatever the hell that was, I was quite impressed. :confused: You know I'm just dying to know if you ate any, you better fess up and quick!! :eek:
 
A word about the BF

This post is one you don't have to comment on or anything...

SO to reiterate:

My Bf is 6', 150 lbs. Well he could be 152 or 153 by now. He smokes excessively (cigs), drinks a pot of coffee at work, eats nothing or maybe a few frozen burritos or doghnuts during the day, then has either a healthy dinner at night that he cooks or I cook, or has bacon or Chinese Food at night. His habits make it easy for him to maintain his skinny ass. I wish he was better about that stuff but it's not my place to pester him.

I used to weigh more than him and it drove me crazy--I almost lost my mind and considered taking up smoking cigarettes (but never did. Thank Goddess!).

He used to make very few and far-in-between comments about my excess bunny chub. Boy did I ream him for that!! For the most part, he assured me that his love for me is unchanged by the excess chubbiness I carry--unless I got obese, then there would be an issue.

During my weight loss he only made one comment, when I lost about 10 lbs. Saying I looked really good lately. Since then, he doesn't say anythig about my weight loss, in my opinion, to validate his expression of love for me at whatever size.

And I, in turn, kept my worries, hopes, and fears about weight loss restricted to this forum. He must think I'm really super secure, LOL! Since he never hears me gripe about my body. I heard it turns men off. So I save the gripes for this fantastic forum. I know he doesn't want to hear it!

He still calls me by my nickname I gave myself for him: Chubby Bunny. I absolutely love the nickname and it doensn't bother me at all. But finally, one day last week, he called me that when we were hugging in bed (really--this is not a euphemism, we DO hug in bed) and I said,

"Ha ha ha ha ha, I'm not chubby anymore."

He said, "You know you're not chubby"--tiredly, like he still doesn't want to feed my ego. I wiggled in happiness. He went on, "you're nice and skinny now."

There.

He said it. I am "skinny" now! It is nice, actually. After all those years. but I didn't like the "nice and" part. That's ok, though. I suppose a man has a right to enjoy his woman's new physique after she loses some "vanity pounds"--or more. Should we be mad at them? Nah!

How my BF's behavior has changed in correlation to my weight loss:​

*note: he did all ths anyway, just not as often--except sqeezing the daylights out of me is a new thing.

He calls me sexy WAY more often, especially since I do little things like stretch in front of him, arms overhead, making sure my lower stomach shows--then he says, "Damn! you're sexy!".

He tells me he loves me more often--but that could be because now that I feel really satisfied with myself, I'm nicer to him. Either way, we say "I love you" several times a day, sometimes up to 15 xs!

He hugs me tighter and touches my newly flatter stomach and newly slimmer back. He used to avoid my belly sort of, and I didn't really like my bunny chub inspected, anyway

He damn near suffocates me with a bear grip before he falls asleep. I guess my lung capacity is really much better from all the running and my chest expands more when I inhale, so his vise-like grip is too much for me.

He stares at me and says, "you're so beautiful," or "you're so pretty," or whatever, more than usual, even though he did that when I was 155+ anyway. But it's more often. It can get unnerving when I feel ugly that day.

Taking all this with a grain of salt. Like I said, don't think much of this post. I'm not looking for comments, just reporting the facts of the situation. I am pleased, though.
 
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I hate to say this but minus the cigarettes, he eats just like my hubby, and my hubby is 5.7 1/2 and 163lbs of rock hard muscle. I want to slap him, that man can put down more food than any human should be allowed to. And most of it is CRAP, actually I'll make my normal GOOD DINNER (grilled chicken breast and corn or steamed veggies and sweet potato) he will eat that, then 15 minutes later go into the pantry for two ding dongs, I'm so jealous, he has one awesome metabolism, but back on track, he to says the same things to me and I'm like WHAT?? are you kidding, you think I'm hot! even after 3 years marriage and 15 lbs heavier, WOW. Just take it all in and enjoy it. I try to do the same, but you know regardless who it comes from I have a very hard time accepting compliments, been that way all my life. :)
 
Sophie: I love your post, and I am sick of painting the town red. I'll never get to 130 if I don't watch myself during the Luteal.

Kim: I ate 2 truffles. But thanks to you I am going to either give them away or sut them up into 16 pieces, LOL! Anyone want them????
 
I try to do the same, but you know regardless who it comes from I have a very hard time accepting compliments, been that way all my life. :)

Damn fast-metabolism significant others!

I said it before and I'll say it again, us women need to learn how to take compliments! I'm getting better--I try to thank the person and smile sweetly. That works, doesn't it? :confused: :)
 
Now thata girl, get rid of all those fattening, mouth watering, sweet smelling, mmmmm tasting truffles. OH HELL, don't do it, don't do it!!! Just go run a few extra miles today. LOL LOL I always say if your bad, be really bad, but always try to make up for it by doing double duty exercises. IT works for me. I have no will power when it comes to chocolate and especially RIGHT NOW!! hee hee ;) Well, I'm off to the gym, then to a friends for the rest of my wine! I only polished off two glasses with her this weekend. ;)
 
Your post made me laugh. One of the reasons I first started losing weight is that I noticed our sex life was a thing of the past. He denys that it bothered him to this day, but i know the ttruth. I believe he loved me then and he does now, but a slimmer me has made a difference in our life. He don't say much about it, but I hear it in the action!!;)
 
Kim: Whatever! You and your 1500 calorie days *jealously, teasing*

Update:

It rained this morning, but cleared up and was very windy, causing all the water to evaporate. I drove straight to the park after work and ran as fast as I could for 45 minutes. The whole time, I'm sad to admit, I thought about the 10K race on Sunday. I was stressing! And I know that I should NOT be. That is not cool. Still, I'm like, "I'm not fast enough, what if I get diarrhea (LOL!), I just MUST place for my sex and age group, I'll never run under 6 minute miles, I need to ask mom to put a vitamin water in an ice chest for when I'm done...." Peaceful run it was NOT! Until about the last 10 minutes, then I mellowed out. 10 of 45 minutes is unacceptable.

Grrrr, it's the stupid decreasing progesterone levels that are making me crazy! My dear sweet boyfriend thinks I'm a star because he thinks I don't get grouchy or crazy during PMS. The reason is this: I tell him in advance that I'm a grumpy bunny and he gives lots of sympathy, and then I'm super grateful and sweet to him. He's my PMS sanctuary. He cheers me up and cuddles me when I feel like a big piece of shit.

Well, anyway, I came home and ate 2 organic peanut butter sandwich cookies, 60 calories each. For fucks sake! And then I dumped a can of crab meat into a bowl of black beans and salsa. That was really good! Low maintenance, too. The crab meat was amazingly only 80 calories for the whole can! The black beans were probably 150 and I'm not going to bother with the salsa. Oh yeah, and I had 75 calories worth of soy yogurt with the cookies.

OK, 1420 + 120 + 75 + 80 + 150 = 1845?!?!?

I suck at math, I swear--so embarrassed! Where's the calculator on this computer? Grrrrr it's a PC. I'll never find it! :mad:

Snarl. Anyway, I'm very pleased with 1845, especially since my BMR is about 1400 and I ran off 600+ calories. What kind of deficit is that?!?!

TOM! HELP ME!!​

Whine whine whine stupid luteal phase.

Ok, everyone who bothers to read this--my bad, just ignore me, I'll be OK in about 10 days, lol!
 
OH! By the way, I AIM our company's trucking company, the ones who ship the wine....anyway the ladies who work there mentioned that they were eating M&Ms when I asked how the day was going today. I said I had the Harry & David truffles from our company's president. The one lady sadly said they got nothing from her. SO I promptly stuck the rest of my truffles (there were 16 huge ones in there, I ate 3, took one out for tomorrow and stuck it in my desk) and stuck it in an envelope, put postage on it, and stuck it in the mail box for the ladies at our trucking company. I AM, afterall, on a diet--however bad a cheater I am.
 
Ok I just read my last post and what terrible syntax! Anyway, yay for me for getting rid of those rich-ass-100-calorie-a-pop truffles. They were kind of gross, anyway--too rich. Let's put butter and cream and cocoa butter and butterfat all into one, why don't we!
 
AS A LAST NOTE THIS IS THE THIRD DAY OF NO ALCOHOL. I feel great but I'm staring at all the wine bottles and thinking it would be nice to have some, and there's a bottle of sparkling Demi-Sec in the fridge and it is kind of tempting. But that is for AFTER the race!
 
LOL, that took a lot of will power to get rid of those truffles -- good for you. What's with the 0 alcohol -- getting ready for the race?
 
Yes I am. I figure it will keep my REM sleep regular, which in turn repairs my body better, which will keep me in top shape for the race. Hopefully.
 
sweetie - its in the mind where the success is! if you think you can do it and do it to a high standard then you will be much more likely to do it. you have done the training and have done the distance before. nothing different between you and the others in the race! just enjoy it, try your hardest and get a satisfaction out of it for knowing you went and did it, completed the course and did it to the highest standard you could.
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Nice work on the alcohol abstinence. I tried to give you rep, but apparently I have to spread some around before I can give you any. I haven't been giving enough rep lately though. I promise you'll get some for all your hard work when I'm allowed to give it to you again. Haha. You'll do great with the race. You've been very committed to your running, so I'm sure you're nice and conditioned for the race.
 
Your going to rock on that race! I think Tom has it right, you will certainly place, I feel very good about that. I'm actually in BIG TIME shock that you haven't opened up that bottle of wine yet, you little stud!! Good for you!! I'm Proud!! ~~BIG HUG~~ for my Curvie friend! and one big rep too!!!
Kim
 
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