Diary: Curvie Girlie: A Yo-Yo's Reformation

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Weight and Exercise Update

Day 3 of cycle, weighed in at 144.0 lbs this morning :eek:

Ha ha, if that was true, I had consumed 15,750 excess calories this weekend. :rolleyes:

I looked at my number and I believe I may have consumed about 2000 excess calories. I'm not happy with myself, but I'm so used to picking myself back up after an indulgent mentstral time, it's like, well! I know what I have to do and I'm going to do it. That's all there is to it!

Monday is weights day. Looking forward to it after work. Tuesday is Kickboe--looking forward to that, too. Wed is kickboxing but I might go to my college's track and practice sprinting for my race on May 6th. Actually, I really should!!:eek:

I truly want to place in my age and sex category. I'm going to give it my all--in fact, I better just start reading about running races! Hmmmm, I wonder what one would eat before a race at 8am?

Up to 1126 calories and not hungry! Dinner should be around 500 and I'll be really good--I seldom if ever keep my calories under 1800 and after this weekend, I should probably stay under 1700 for the rest of the week. Back to the strict diet! I'm actually looking forward to it. I really should be a Bacchus-worshiper!

Yes: I didn't realize how close May 6th is. Training Time!
 
Oh yes, on my run Friday evening, I saw not one but two little bunnies on the trail. Not even lanky jackrabbits--cute, fluffy, chubby bunnies! Oh they were so cute!
 
Love the new avatar pic. You look great!

I know all about eating too much without realizing or realizing and not caring at that moment. It's so easy to do with all the hidden calories. It's like going to Ruby Tuesday and ordering any of their grilled chicken on their regular menu which you think would be good, and it actually has 900+ calories. Restaurants are trying to hard to make their food the best and most flavorful, and are only fattening up the population. I understand they want to sell all their "good" food, but when they deceive you by putting extra grease or something in the food, they should tell you IMO!!

SOrry for the rant.

I'm sure you'll get those few lbs right back off with the end of cycle nearing! Good luck on that weight training-- that's what I just did this evening. I need to get on the treadmill soon too.
 
photocrazed said:
Love the new avatar pic. You look great!

I know all about eating too much without realizing or realizing and not caring at that moment. It's so easy to do with all the hidden calories. It's like going to Ruby Tuesday and ordering any of their grilled chicken on their regular menu which you think would be good, and it actually has 900+ calories. Restaurants are trying to hard to make their food the best and most flavorful, and are only fattening up the population. I understand they want to sell all their "good" food, but when they deceive you by putting extra grease or something in the food, they should tell you IMO!!

SOrry for the rant.

I'm sure you'll get those few lbs right back off with the end of cycle nearing! Good luck on that weight training-- that's what I just did this evening. I need to get on the treadmill soon too.
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Thanks, PC, for being so kind and sweet! Yes, hidden calories are a DRAG and sometimes it's impossible to believe! I really would love to open a dieter-friendly restaurant with all sorts of delicious dishes. The menu would show the exact ingrediants and calories. And everything would be organic! Wow, imagine that!

Anyway, glad you got to exercising--I'm looking forward to the gym tonight!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
This has not much to do with my diet, but I know that a few ladies on here, Daisee and Kelly, spec., enjoy sweet tales of decent boyfriends. So...

Last night, the BF was coming back from camping with his Asian foster brother, who is in the army and on a vacation at this time. He was in Iraq last year and will go back soon, but since Thanksgiving he's been somewhere in New York. Anyway, they went to some lake I forgot, and also to YOSEMITE! *jealous*. Anyway, I missed my honey bunny so much this weekend because I didn't see him since Friday at 7am.

I heard his car, and I had made sure to dress in PJs that he'd like :) Also, I rinsed off in the shower and made sure not to use soap because he likes my natural scent, and I had taken a shower Sunday morning anyway, I just felt a bit grimy from my activites. So the bedroom door was closed and I stood, waiting, and he came barreling in like Kramer--in fact, his hair was all messed up and sticking up, too--he looked like he'd been camping for 3 days.

Then stopped when he saw me.

You know on silly cartoons when a character is giving exagerated puppy dog eyes and the artist draws them HUGE and GLEAMING, with violin music in the background? It reminded me of that, but he wasn't asking for something with his eyes, he was like, wistful and adoring I guess. Really, I was shocked about how happy he was to see me. What a dramatic encounter! I was flattered. He said,

"I missed you so much! I haven't seen anthing so cute and clean in so long! (referring to me)" We kissed and hugged and he went to go take a shower, but looked at my body and said, "DAMN you look smoking hot in that outfit," and went to shower.

We cuddled and I told him how much I missed him. I'm going to make dinner for us this week--thinking I'll make home made mango salsa and make wraps with talapia and black beans and lettuce. That sounds good! And he'll like it too!
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oh, you know me all too well!!!!! :D

i LOVE, LOVE, LOVE stories like this!!!!!!!!

it must have felt amazing to get those longing looks from him! and the comments he made are great as well!!! keep the stories comin'! and with the great boyfriend you have, i'm sure you'll have many more!!! :D
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Oh yes, the band was called "Forktung" and here is a pic of the guy who I fancied:



Of course, he has nothing on my boyfriend!
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stupid school computer blocked the image when i tried there... but i can see it now that i am home!!!

he does look very tasty! i see why you were diggin' him!

but like you said, he's got nothing on your boyfriend!!! :D
 
Today was my weights day too. Can't wait to hear about your race. I bet you will do great.

But I completely understand about the smoking. I could not hack that. And the smell on your clothes -- YUCK!

By the way, I've put together a little index of "Words of Wisdom" -- links to some of the best posts I've found here at WLF. It's just in its initial stages now, and I'll add to it as time permits, but you may find it useful:
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/topic/11337-words-wisdom.html#post236986
 
Update

Yesterday I went to the gym and was quite happy about it--in the mood an everything. For some reason, though, I had a hard time with the weights. I didn't use anything heavier but it was a slight struggle. My muscle mass must have been....I dunno, going away since last Thursday? Nah. Maybe I didn't have enough protein up until then. Anyway, I got a great session in, and lasted 1 hour and 10 minutes. When I left I was shaky--that muscle tiredness you know?

I DID make dinner for my man and I and it was so good!

I cooked up talapia in cilantro lime pesto in a cast iron skillet. Cut up mango, red bell pepper, and jalapeño (all fresh) AND cilantro. I used some salsa that has no visible raw onions or tomatoes since the BF hates raw O and T. I put down whole wheat tortillas (130 calories each, not bad at all), spread whole black beans on them (canned, organic, with 0% sodium) and put sprouts, cilantro, salsa, the mango-pepper-jalapeño mix on top and yeah.

Both the BF and I were exclaiming the whole time how good it was. The cilantro lime pesto went perfectly, and had oil in it.

Sexy story: Anyway, I went downstairs to change put of my exercise clothes. My cell phone rang and the BF brought it down. But when he saw me in my underwear he hung around until I was done talking ;) Last night was hot, too. You know what? I actually pay close attention to what turns on my boyfriend, and use that to my advantage. It's part of "listening to one's partner's needs." :)

HEY! I wanted to talk about this at some point:

SEX AND WEIGHT

A lot of women, I hear from magazines and such, are so self-conscious about their perceived body "flaws" that they like, hide parts of their body while doing the deed, or won't do certain positions, or want the lights out, etc. My advice to you (although you have to understand my position as a person who has only been somewhat overweight, 170 at my heaviest and my alloted BMI max is 159 for my height of 5'7", although supposedly my "ideal" weight max is 147) is that it is ridiculous to let your body hang ups interfere with the quality of your sex life. Of course, I'm no sex therapist and a LOT of baggage comes with sex--but abuse and trauma aside, if your only problem is your obsession with your chubby tummy, let it go and get and let loose! To be honest, I've been happily sexually active since 14 and 1/2. My mom was free and open about her sexuality, and never forbade me anything much--my "dad", when I saw him, was crudely encouraging. Ha ha! Also, being non-religious except for the positive lessons (no induced guilt for me), I became at ease in bed in about only about a year and a half. First starting, yeah, I was nervous about being judged--shouldn't have been, damn I was like 120-130 lbs!!! But that's the point: I thought I looked worse. By the time I was 16, I never worried during the act. I thought, correctly, that the man I was doing was going to not notice my "flaws" if I let my inner goddess out: pure sexual confidence and love for myself radiating out, no holds barred. Well, I was right--BUT you also must understand that I have never been promiscuous and always happened to get locked up in long term relationships. Joke's on me! Nah, I love it. I always chose the nice guys, the respectful, sweet, intelligent, sensitive-but-manly guys--and since I had such good taste in love and they loved me too, I ended up being with them for a year or more. I do not judge ANYONE whose tastes run the opposite--things just turned out that way for me. Hmmmmm, maybe that has something to do with my sexuality....ok where's the sex therapist? LOL :p

On the serious side, a LOT of my female friends have been raped--in horrible ways at young ages I can't even mention here. And rape effects everyone! When my best friend revealed to me that was why she was depressed and suicidal for two whole years (no one knew), I was fucked up for life. WHO DID THIS TO MY BEAUTIFUL FRIEND?!! I was livid, homicidal! (feeling) I felt stupid in my agony--it was nothing compared to the way she felt! But it still hurts me to this day. My friend had a lot of trouble building herself a healthy sex life. My other best friend had been raped 3 TIMES and man, she had a long way of figuring things out--and actually got upset at me once for mentioning how few men I'd had compared to her. I suppose some women get very promiscuous after rape--some forgo it altogether. I tried to tell her I wasn't out to judge her--but she was defensive. Paradigm miscommunication is rough!

My heart goes out to the rape and abuse survivors! All I wanted to say was to not let weight affect the quality of your sex life--and then I forgot about all this other stuff :( RATS! Well, what can you do?

Anyway, back to my weight loss diary.

1700 calories yesterday, not bad--healthy dinner but I had 1 wrap and shared another with the BF, otherwise I would have consumed 300 calories for dinner. I certainly got enough protein with those black beans AND fish! Looking forward to dinner already! :)
 
Lucky Me

You should hate me.

I lost 5 lbs in 24 hours--jeebus! :eek:

Uh, those 5 lbs were bloat and such, nonetheless, I weighed an astounding

139.0 lbs​

this morning! After drinking at smoking and over-eating chocolate all weekend! (Friday I was 139.5 lbs) Disclaimer: do not do what I did--it may not work for you!!!

Anyway, I'm really happy and excited and ready to work hard to get to my goal for the month of 136 lbs....in 14 days. Can I do it? Of course! :) Well, with that attitude! :) I'm going to work hard and train hard, and eat right--until the next PMS! Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!

Have a great day everyone!
 
Well, I don't know if Jeebus is jealous, but I know I am. WAY TO GO!! 5lbs, that is just amazing! And your spot on with the sex vs weight issue. It doesn't matter, if you feel sexy you will be perceived sexy! :) It works the same way with your confidence level, and how people see you in that way. :D Good post!
Kim
 
Miss Ladybug said:
It doesn't matter, if you feel sexy you will be perceived sexy! :) It works the same way with your confidence level, and how people see you in that way. :D Good post!
Kim
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Thanks, Kim! It's so crazy how much of an influence people have on each other, with our own influence on ourselves...whoa now I'm confused. What was I saying?! :confused: :p
 
LOL, Tom can bench press me!

OK, good news everyone *Professor from Futurama's voice*: I have 3 races lined up this summer.

#1 Devil Mountain Run, Danville. 10K (6.2 miles). I did the 5K last year and came in 2nd in my age group for women (20-23). The next range (24-27) is more competitive and I'm really wanting to place. I'm going to train starting this week at the track of my college where I take my wine class (Cabrillo). May 6th

#2 Santa Cruz Mountains Trail Run, S.C. 10K I'm at an advantage because the website () gives a map--so I can practice! Oooh I'm a cheater! ;) June 16th

#3 Big Basin, 9K by now I probably should do the 17K that's available, but I'm not sure yet how down I am to run mass miles. We'll see. Either way, my BF was born here!! Sept 16th.

I'll (of course) let you all how I do. Also, they post the winners on the website so afterward you can see and confirm I actually ran these! LOL!
 
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