Dear Diary...

Hey Amanda,
Good on you for sticking with it, I think you're doing great.

Hey I used to hide food too. Chocolate. I always had a stash :eek:

Keep your chin up,
Jess :)
 
Thanks ladies!
I don't feel I have it under control but I think I've started on my way!
Forgiving myself was a BIG step!

Exercise is gonna be a little late, watching a movie with my girl but I should be able to put in extra time today!
...got it in before dinner..30min. on the treadmill (wow does music make a difference)/10min. on bike/10min. t-zone

breakfast: kashi cereal/milk/banana.........green tea throughout the morning
snack: yogurt w. granola
dinner: pulled beef wrap w. veggies (cooking the beef with some garlic, mushrooms, low sod. broth)
snack:
supper: spicy chicken, spinach and veg. salad
snack:
and of course my 2L of water!

Still Halloween stuff in the house, mostly little bags of chips, glad the weekend is here. It's the one time the kids eat chips as a treat.

I must admit though I did buy a magazine yesterday called cookies and candies....and omg..some of it looks sooooooooooooooo good.
Bought it for my dd who is starting to cook/bake.
 
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So, here I am again...obviously last week didn't work for me...
I'm thinking I need serious help...that I need to talk to someone...I need constant feedback.

If I knew what motivated me, maybe that'd help. I'm not the type to "show someone up", to do it out of spite (sometime I wish I could). There's no "I'll show you" or "Yeah, well I CAN do it" because believe me there are several people that I'd like for them to see me after, just to see their jaw drop...but I'm just not motivated that way.

I mean I want to do it for my health..I come from a not to healthy family...my Mother and I went shopping with my girls Sat. and she picked at their leftover sub and cookie from Subway...it irritated me..because that's the life I had growing up...pick at this, pick at that...and she still does it at 73 yrs old!! She is very over weight.
This is my mind set, this is the way I was raised and it's what I do!!

I talk to dh ALL THE TIME and we can make sense of what needs to be done and how to do it but it's me...it's like I back out or something.

I LOVED when I got down to 171lbs...hadn't been there my whole adult life, it felt good.. I felt good, how did I let it all slip away??

None of my clothes fit and I refuse to buy bigger sizes...but it makes it hard to buy smaller, not really knowing if I'll ever get to wear them.

I spent most of my weekend in the bedroom, moping....it's raining, has been since Thurs. and give it til this Friday (bad flooding in areas) my treadmill is up on blocks because the basement has water in it, been truly unmotivated...sooking even...just feeling like "Why bother, I'm obviously destined to be fat. AND I'm a LOT more irratible..with everyone..just not happy.

I'd like to say I'm starting over again..but I've been basically saying this every Monday since school started up again in Sept...so not sure I believe myself.
Cardio class is tomorrow and I dread going...first time EVER in 4 yrs.

Why does this time have to be so hard? Why can't I just "get it"?
 
breakfast: omelette/banana
snack: yogurt w. granola
dinner: subway sub
snack: mousse
supper: slim fast shake (just got home to head out to the jr. girls volleyball game)
snack: mousse..I know it's the second one but it's only 60cal....pc of dk choc. and 6 almonds
exercise: 15min. on bike (2) {treadmill is up on blocks due to semi flooded basement}
water: 2L/2L
extras: green tea mid morning/going shopping w. dh so some walking in there..better than home on my butt!
 
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Glad today was good! It feels awesome when you go to bed knowing you've had a "good" day food-wise! Keep it up xxx
 
breakfast: buckwheat pancakes w. light syrup/banana
snack: fun cheez snack and a 1/2C skim milk
dinner: spicy chicken wrap w. veggies
snack: yogurt and granola
supper: haddock and spinach salad
snack: jello
exercise: Zumba basic (20min)/Zumba for begginers (1hr)/cardio class tonight
water: 2L/2L
extras: green tea mid morning
Wow, Zumba is quite the workout when you have no idea what you're doing..lmao!!...and you weigh over 200lbs! whew!
 
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got my new sneakers for cardio class yesterday. Columbia brand..love them, wore them this morning doing Zumba and they felt great, now to see if they can handle my cardio class!!
 
Well, cardio was a blast last night, new sneakers felt great and I'm not sore this morning!
So, day 3 of me starting to start over! Got a nail appt. at 10am then gotta take Mom for some errands..which puts me out right at noon..hate that!

breakfast: omelette/banana
snack: bowel buddies
dinner: rotisserie chicken/oven roasted potatoes
snack: raspberries
supper: rotisserie chicken/cpl of baby carrots
snack: jello/handful of sea salt and malt vin. chips/almost a full bag of baked lays....did I ever have the munchies for the wrong kind of food!
exercise: 30min. treadmill/15min. bike/10min.t-zone (13)
water: 2L /2L 2nd L in late due to running the roads with my momma
extras: green tea in the a.m. Feeling pretty good today.
Oh and it's the 2nd day my youngest has went to school with no complaints...she started the school year fine but the last month just wanted to be home and would think up ANY excuse, so it's good to see her happy in the mornings again!!
Any more stress want to leave and clear up? I'm all for it!
 
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Surprised the scale showed any loss at all, hopefully I can keep this up!
Y'know at the penny sale, of all the things we could've won, we won a free 12" pizza from pizza delight...lovely eh?
Feeling good this morning, super glad I squeezed in my evening workout.
Cleaning my bedroom (or part of it for Christmas stuff), it could take all day but I am still fitting in a workout when time allows. Gotta get a handle on this stuff before it takes over!!!

breakfast: 2 slices of homemade multigrain bread/pb/banana
snack: it works bar
dinner: chicken on multigrain w. alphalfa sprouts/carrots
snack: didn't really eat one where I ate some gooey candy mess I tried to make..cream cheese and cherry
supper: spicy chicken/spinach salad
snack: few baked chips/sm. bowl of popcorn/cpl of drinks
exercise: walk 1hr/treadmill 15min
water: 2L/2L
extras: my green tea :)
Kids home today, so changes things up a little, sometimes it helps for exercise time and sometimes not...so we'll see!
Water is gonna be a little late, kinda had a lazy afternoon reading and napping...
 
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Hey Amanda, glad to hear that you are feeling more positive and that the cardio class went well. I mean to post a couple of days ago when you sounded a bit wobbly and now feel rotten that I didn't come back and do it.

If you are having problems fixing on long term motivation, why not just take it day by day in little bite sized chunks? That way it might seem less daunting and like a HUGE commitment (then one you beat yourself up over when its not going well) and more managable? How about printing out a calendar for the next month and each day drawing a smiley face if you've done well, made the right food choices/exercised or a sad face in a different colour if things haven't gone so well. I bet that over time, you'll start to see more and more smiley faces. I find that this helps me commit to JUST THAT DAY and JUST THOSE DECISIONS to do the right thing...and then over time, all of those little bits add up in a major way to the pounds going down and I start to feel more long term motivation because I can then start to see the long term effects.
 
I don't know if either way works..if I think long term or short term...in general I just continually mess up.

I just don't know why I can't do it...I did it for a year..lost 80lbs, it was a struggle everyday but I made it through, had slips but kept going....now, it's like I know what to do and how to do it but just...don't.

I know things have changed that do effect it..friendships ending, exercise budding giving up on me and other stresses.

It upsets me, I have clothes and coats I don't fit in from last Fall/Winter and it really saddens me...might actually be what got me going this week, had to pack away a lot of 12's.

I actually have a desk calender in front of me everyday and write my weight of that morning in the corner of each day, it motivates me to see it moving a little everyday.
I started Mon. @ 225.0 and this morning was 222.8, it actually helps me.
 
Not sure how my weight stayed the same this morning after the snack I had last night but I'll take it.

breakfast: omelette/banana
snack:
dinner:
snack:
supper:
snack:
water: /2L
exercise: walk 35min. (ove the biggest hill)
extras: green tea of course! Not much time this morning for exercise, heading to the school to help with Olivia's class Freggie party! Maybe try and fit in a short walk around supper time!
 
K, haven't been here since the 12th...don't know what to say, life is stressing me out and only having dh to talk too sometimes isn't enough (since he's heard it a million times).
Had a Dr. appt and talked to him, felt better but doesn't make the "forget about them" issue any easier...ah well.

Started a biggest loser challenge with a group. We have a pg. of FB. There is 21 of us so far, hoping for 2 more to join today.

It's very motivating knowing another 20 people are working just as hard as you to "win". Although, I'm not competitive by nature to lose weight that way.
I remind dh everyday to remind me, it's competition and I want to win. I figure if I'm in the top 3, I must have lost a fair amout. It's for 3 months and there is a money prize.

Yesterday was day one!
It was a good day, exercised 1hr on the treadmill, ate good except for a biscuit with my omelette at breakfast and 2 bites of salsa with low sodium chips that my dd had for a snack.

Today will be even better!
breakfast: buckwheat pancakes, light syrup, banana
snack: yogurt w. granola
dinner: haddock, carrots, cauliflower, 3/4 cup of whole wheat pasta w. 2 tbsp of sauce
snack: bowel buddies
supper: chicken breast, cauliflower and carrots...gotta go veggie shopping..don't seem to have much....:(
snack: pudding mousse thingy..90cals
water: 2L/2L
exercise: walk over those killer hills-50min/
extra: green tea/tonight is ladies night at a store in town, have a ticket to go, so hopefully this will deter me from over eating tonight.
 
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Feeling soooo good after my walk..-2 out there but it really is great weather for walking and who knows how many more days I'll be able to with the flurries and rain we've been getting.

Gonna shower, have some green tea and sort some Christmas stuff.
 
^Good stuff. I must say I've also been enjoying my walk to and from work, in the 8am cold of the morning or the 6pm cold of the night- bought myself a nice pair of gloves and a little deer stalker type hat, paired with my big coat keeps me all kind of warm :D
 
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Started a biggest loser challenge with a group. We have a pg. of FB. There is 21 of us so far, hoping for 2 more to join today.

It's very motivating knowing another 20 people are working just as hard as you to "win". Although, I'm not competitive by nature to lose weight that way.
I remind dh everyday to remind me, it's competition and I want to win. I figure if I'm in the top 3, I must have lost a fair amout. It's for 3 months and there is a money prize.
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That's actually really cool. Of course there are better reasons to want to get in shape than that, but there's no shame in it. Sometimes, its just the push you need to make yourself better.

I may seem a little slimy for it, but I have a high school friend who has lost a tremendous amount of weight, despite the fact that we were the same size in high school. She looks incredible. And I keep telling myself, "If Lyndsey did it, I can do it and THEN some." It's no slight to her, its nothing I share with other people, just a little private shove.
I think the same applies to losing weight for reasons of vanity; also part of my current motivation.

Anyway, best of luck to you!
 
I have to ask, what is a deer stalker hat? I always feel great after a walk.

No there's no shame and you have no reason to feel slimy...I just am not motivated that way..wish I were..I'm trying too...lol..if this constest doesn't do it nothing will..it'll all be on me then and that's hard.

Best of luck to you both.
 
hehe, it's a hat with flaps for your ears! I think they are also called 'Trappers'. Mine is like this one;

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