Dear Diary...

I think 6-8 months is a good long term plan. I like losing weight at 1.5-2lbs a week - nice and slow and steady plus for me it gives my skin time to tighten up rather than just lose in a big rush. Remember though, there will be some months when you just WOOSH and others where the weight just seems to stick on there - so don't get demotivated by the ups and downs becaues long and steady wins out!

As for my other post, I'm not really a "positive" "self-reflexive" "new age" kind of head person but I DO believe in being pragmatic and saying to yourself "oh well, can't do much about that, what can I affect or change in the future" because then you know where to make the effort!

Anyhow, sounds like you have a good plan. What I also try to do in my daily diary is work out why a day has gone like it has - so if I've snacked in the evening or during the day, why...stress at work? didn't eat a proper dinner?! etc... so I can start to understand the patterns that make me step outside the lines and plan around/minimalise the effect.

Good going on the Zumba - everyone seems to be doing it now days!
 
The zumba class wasn't what I expected though.
It wasn't as fast paced as I thought, it was taught by a woman in her late 50's/60's and the other two ladies were atleast in their 60's.
Worked up a sweat but barely..barely.

Hopefully, my friend Tina who is taking a course the end of Nov. will have a better class.

As for today...I left the house unprepared with my food. When I go to get my nails done tomorrow, I will have my dinner with me!
 
Oct. 13/10
breakfast: omelette/half a grapefruit
snack: apple
dinner: roast beef, light cheese, spinach on grain bread/cauliflower/carrots
snack: 2 pc. of homemade brown bread...and where I start to fail
supper seafood chowder with multi grain bread
snack: bowl of strawberries/2 cups of green tea
water: 2L
exercise: taking the day off for my sore body to re-coup. ended up doing my t-zone (2x13)
notes: feeling like crap...thought I'd have atleast a 1lb loss that would put me at 219 and instead it showed 222...really hard to move forward after this but I am..just feeling like one step forward and two steps back..I am really making an effort this time.
 
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So after eating poorly with all the carbs, I realize I've got to get a tad bit more serious.
I have tried to the best of my ability this week and it feels like it's all for nothing.

Decided to write some kind of exercise schedule because not having one is making it easy to do less.
Gotta revamp my mp3 player and use that because exercising in the basement alone gets boring pretty quickly.
 
Oct. 14/10
breakfast: pc. of multigrain bread w. pb/banana (can't find the other half of my grapefruit)
snack: apple
dinner: spinach salad w. peppers/cuke/radish/4 slices of turkey and then extra that I didn't need..pc. of chicken breast on the homemade grain bread.
snack: slim fast bar
supper: messed up, we ended up at the emergency for my daughter and got take out...got grilled chicken, had a few fries
snack: frozen yogurt
water: 1.5L
exercise: walk (didn't check time, might go measure distance later) but it wasn't the distance it was the HILLS...we have killer hills here...KILLER!/t-zone(13)

Hoping to make some sort of schedule..nothing fancy just maybe if I have, "treadmill" and I read for one hour, I'll do it rather than duck down to the basement for 20min. Losing weight is mental for me.
Off to add music to my mp3 player.
 
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walking yesterday got side tracked, it was raining and my daughter isn't better yet so we cuddled most of the day.

And I ate bad yesterday as well, some choc. and carbs.
Just feeling like a failure lately..disgusted with myself..just feeling I may be stuck with body and am discouraged.

Feeling a little alone right now.
 
Aww Amanda. Don't feel down. You are not alone in this journey - we have all been there. So you had a bad day yesterday, don't have a bad day today! Just do your best, don't set unrealistically high standards for yourself to change everything all at once.

For example, even if you just ate a bit less than you used to and did more exercise than you used to, you'd either not put weight on or start to lose a little bit....Its like a big huge tanker that has momentum...slow it down...its going to take a couple of miles before you can even think about turning it round and going in the other direction! But we all start off wanting to just do a nifty little turnabout and dash off losing weight immediately!!

Anyhows, hugs from me - you can do it!!! Cuddle your daughter lots, don't eat because you are bored or feeling low...and tomorrow will be a better day!
 
One of my biggest problems is that I have been there..was weighing 171lbs (lost 80lbs)..and I know how HARD I had to work to get there. I don't know if I can do it again.

I walked 1km/jogged 2km and then did a one hour cadio class and that was only Monday nights...replaced with...nothing.
Joined the walking club (we jog though) at my kids elementary school..they don't have a fall session this year.
EVERYTHING I did is gone, cardio class got cancelled due to the instructor (my niece) getting pregnant.

I am not only eating bad, I have cut my exercise WAY back to almost nothing.

Time should be mine..with all 3 kids in school but I go to Mom's 2 days a week to help her, I volunteer at the schools AND have a part time job with "work when you can" hours that I haven't been to in a week because I've been busy, nursing a bruised baby etc...etc..etc..

I need to find me time..and can't quite seem to squeeze it in.

I'm hoping someday to organize my sh*t and get going but right now it seems that the breaks on my tanker truck have not only given out but I'm going down a big 'ol hill...hard to turn around from that.


Don't get me wrong, I'm not blaming anyone..I know it's all me..but my baby steps seem to keep tripping me up.

Not sure when that "this time" moment is.
Going to a seminar tonight by the creator of SFL, hopefully it's what I need.

Thanks for the words jjjay
 
Well, the seminar is a "maybe" right now...don't really want to go alone since it's an hour (one way) and my niece isn't sure she can go now...

On an AWESOME note though, my niece (another one) just messaged me and she is re-starting her cardio class. One night a week, it's further away but it's so her two classes can be put in one (used to have 2 at 2 diff. locations). Starting the first week in Nov.

So happy about this!
 
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Trying hard to do the "if you don't buy it, it's not there to eat" trick...but man it's hard shopping alone..I have been known to hide food.....how's that for a confession?
 
Never filled this out, seen it in a few posts, figured I'd post it here:

1. What is your current height and weight?224.6 pounds 5’ 3" in height

2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be?I don't really know since I've alway been heavy. Maybe 135lbs?

3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now?180lbs

4. Why do you want to lose weight?To be the person I know I can be, healthy, active, and happy.

5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? If so, when is that event?Nope.

6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals?Food of course and me, I'm my worst enemy. Being too busy to care for me.

7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem?Low self esteem

8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight?more exercise, I've really slacked in that area and get back to my healthy eating lifestyle that I was doing. I also sneak way to many treats.

9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight?Yes. 80lbs
Exercise and a healthy lifestyle change.

10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back?I gained weight back because I started eating poorly. Spending time taking care of my Mom after her dbl by pass surgery (the only one of 8 kids doing it) and not making time for me, having family tear me down for stupid reasons and losing a friendship with someone who I thought was a good friend and I miss.

12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time?Yes, I did while doing SFL (simply for life-nutritionist) and am doing it here in my diary.

13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?Not crazy about cooking but hate baking more. Dh does most of the cooking but I do some of my own meals when they are eating something different.

14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go?While putting the weight back on? 2 times a week. Now, not even once a week.

15. What are your three favorite foods?Healthy-chicken, shrimp, carrots
unhealthy-chips, sweets, chocolate

16. What are your three favorite restaurants?Healthy-Subway, Superstore (grocery store)
unhealthy-Wendys, McDonalds, Chinese

17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?Eat more fruit and veg, cut out the junk, small portion sizes

18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different?I'd be happy, more confident, healthier, more active and live my life to the fullest

19. Do you eat when you are not hungry?Yes all the time

20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)?Meals no, sugar yes

21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret?I have..the sweets

22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed?Yes

23. Do you eat as a reward?Yes

24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer?Not anymore unless it's my snack (air popped popcorn or jello)

25. What do you normally eat for a meal?salad and meat

26. What type of snacks do you eat?I love chocolate, chips and sweets but trying not to eat that (again) now

27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing?Not enough..treadmill/bike/walking and starting in Nov. cardio class

28. Where do you go for exercise? A local public gym? School/work gym? Home

29. What, if anything, are your three favourite types of exercise?walking, jogging, cardio class

30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals?
working on motivation..not very motivated right now...

31. Do you have rewards for certain goals?
New clothes as my size goes down.
 
Printed off my cleanse menu from SFL, it's just chicken/fish, brown rice, veggies and fruit.
Did it once, should be able to do it again, right?
Cardio class should start in 2-3 wks. SO excited about that!!!!!

Going into work tomorrow, so should be good for the day eating wise..the kids have swimming, so as long as I can make it from 7pm to bedtime I'll have day one licked!!!!!!
 
Hey just wanted to say hang in there. You're doing the best you can :) Some days are better than others but as long as we try each day that's all we can do! It's a journey.

youre doing great!! glad to hear your cardio class is back on.
 
Thanks Jesais! Your words are very much appreciated!
It is a journey....and I rather enjoy it once it gets going (or I did the first time around) just seems like this jump start needs booster cables or something...lol!
 
Oct. 19/10
breakfast: omelette w. peppers and mushrooms (usually is)/banana
snack: baby carrots
dinner: wrap w.veggies and chicken breast
snack: apple ~ barely got it in..in a mad rush for supper then swimming
supper: veggies and chicken breast stir fry
snack: 5 cal. pudding
water: 2L/2L
exercise: work which is a lot of reaching and walking but not "really" counting it..lol
extras: green tea (took to work cuz it's cold out there!)

Hoping today is the first day of my "back on track to weightloss" journey!
Gotta go into work, so that should keep me busy, kids have swimming today so let's hope all goes well.
Excited about cardio class..can't say that enough..I LOVED it...really it's all we have in our area, it's fun, just the right amount of "push" from the instructor..I really believe it helped with my weight loss.

Was almost in a vehicle accident..car didn't stop at the stop sign, barely missed it swerving around..inches I'm sure. Can't handle that stuff, especially after being rear ended this summer.
 
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Heading to bed after a long day of work, didn't get any exercise in as I was gone most of the day and feeling a little sore from work but I'll be back at it tomorrow!!

Looks like my first day back on track is a good one!!

Believe me, it's always there..Dad bought my youngest a mini Halloween cake, my Mom made date squares (for my son) and butterscotch rocky rd. squares and sent them all here...plus when we stopped into Mom's my son was into my Dad's dry fish (which I love)..that is all the stuff I avoided today!!
Maybe I should add that to my list and you'll see just what is there in my face everyday that I fight to avoid and often fail.........
 
Oct. 20/10

breakfast: pc. of toast, bowl of homemade apple sauce (no sugar added), cup of milk
snack: orange
dinner: leftover chicken breast/veggies/brown rice
snack: 1/2 of a popsicle (30cal) @ Mom's~forgot to eat anything else
supper: chicken breast/spinach salad
snack: 5 cal. pudding
water: 2L /2L
exercise: walk w. 1km jog thrown in 1hr 10min/t-zone(13)
extras: green tea

feeling great this morning.
Knowing that I did day one of my cleanse meal menu and had so much sugar thrown in my face without having any and am confident I can do day 2. It's not "hard" to follow, it's reg. common sense healthy eating, it's avoiding the bad stuff that's hard but I did it and plan on continuing.

Phew! Tried out those killer hills again. jogged .5km to start, walked those killer hills and finished with .5km (which was up hill) I am bushed but feeling great!
Beautiful day out!!
 
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My body is tired..probably didn't help that dh woke me up this morning @ 4am. I have never laughed so hard in my life..he had one of those "real" dreams and woke up jumping right out of bed...lol.

My head is tired..maybe I should go for another short walk after supper...if I don't fall asleep first.....
 
Oct.21/10

breakfast: omelette/half grapefruit
snack: kiwi
dinner: subway sub w. flatbread...can't believe they didn't have whole wheat!
snack: half apple and few grapes
supper: chicken breast/spinach salad
snack: 6 dark choc. covered almonds
water: 2L/2L
exercise: walk up one of the killer hills (35min.)/t-zone (13x2)
extras: green tea

Feeling great today and the scales are showing a loss!
Started out weighing 225.4bls on Tues. morning and this morning it's showing 218.8lbs
Guess, my healthy eating cleanse is working!
Can only hope this keeps up cuz I need a boost!
 
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feeling guilty...went to subway and they had no 9 grain bread so I got the flat bread.
my numbers on the scale started moving and now I'm gonna mess 'em up.
HATE that...didn't feel I had a better choice..fast food or food at the grocery store..I hate having to eat while out shopping!
 
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