Dear Diary...

mornings been good. Freezing my butt off at work but good.
Drank my tea late last night, so the scales are up some.
Not gonna get to exercise til late afternoon, IF I can do it, I am so cold and tired.
Eating is still great!

toast/banana/milk for breakfast
apple for snack
seafood on one pc. of bread/asparagus sticks
 
Last edited:
Sounds like you are doing really, really well. Try not to worry about a few bumps... we are all bound to bump into some now and then. Hopefully you can get a workout in late this afternoons... I am sure it will make you feel so much better. It is a great accomplishment to finish a work-out when you didn't even want to go in the first place :)
 
Been M.I.A. for a couple of days, of course went off track eating a tad but never left.
Had a great day yesterday, feeling pretty good. Didn't get any exercise in but that was totally me...working thru some stuff in my head.
Should have no problem getting exercise in today..got my youngest home (faking sick I'm sure) but it won't keep me from doing it.
Got some MAJOR cleaning to do, Halloween party here Friday night and my house is a MESS.

breakfast was buckwheat pancakes w. light syrup, banana and milk
having green tea
exercise~got 30min. on treadmill and 10min. on the bike before my dd came looking for me..lol..it was a good workout, lots of fast songs to keep me going
t-zone 10min (13)
snack is an apple and a few almonds
dinner is chicken breast stir fry w. brussel sprouts, carrots, mushrooms, gr. peppers and spinach and brown rice
snack was kiwi
supper was leftover stir fry with some added carrots
snack was some puffs (chips) and ice cream...I KNOW!!!!!!

but I don't feel bad for eating them, I wanted them. This is a big step because if I had a cheat before I'd be all.....well, might as well have more....know I consider it a treat and make sure I exercise tomorrow.
 
Last edited:
only fit in 20min. on the treadmill this morning, got to take my mom on an errand run, so had to be quick.
It was at a good fast pace, worked up a good sweat. Headed to the showers and then off to run the roads with my Momma.

breakfast was omlette, banana..green tea to take with me on the rd.
snack was almonds and kiwi
dinner will be subway
snack will be apple
supper
snack

still getting in my 2L of water, which is big for me to be consistant, sometimes I just forget.

1st cardio class next Tues.!!!
 
Hi Amanda,

Welcome to the forum. I guess I am a "re-born" newbie.

I saw that you have tried Zumba! I did it while I was on Mat Leave, and it is awesome. I guess the trick is having a good instructor :)

Good luck on your journey!

J
 
So, I fell off the wagon hard.
Wish I just didn't have so many issues to deal with right now..driving me crazy!
Glad Halloween is over and can put all that behind me..now to just cleanse the house, glad the kids went thru their stuff and only kept "their fav." and all the other junk is leaving!
I won't eat their candy.
Going grocery shopping today, so will refill the house with healthy goodies.
Gotta get back on the healthy meals for all of us.

Gonna big some hard changes.
Back up to 224.2lbs this morning...actually surprised it's not more but not happy nevertheless....all me.

Wish this weightloss thing wasn't soooooo dang hard!

breakfast was slimfast shake because I had NO desire to eat!
snack was1 pkg. bowel buddies and green tea..kinda feeling like crap
 
Last edited:
Amanda2010 said:
So, I fell off the wagon hard.

Glad Halloween is over and can put all that behind me..now to just cleanse the house, glad the kids went thru their stuff and only kept "their fav." and all the other junk is leaving!


Wish this weightloss thing wasn't soooooo dang hard!
Click to expand...

I know it hard, but good for you for ditching the extra junk in the house!

Stay positive! :)
 
Keep up the good fight. Part of this whole experience is learning how to get up and dust yourself off when you fall. Momentary slip ups are inevitable for most. As long as u don't slip into old, bad routines for too long, you'll be ok. Chin up... We all believe in you.
 
I feel like I'm losing the fight.
Just barely have my head above water, not sure what to do.

I know I have to do it on my own and am not sure I can.

I had a niece I was hoping I could rely on but I can't, if she's competing against me, she's around but if she wants to do it on her own to show me up, I don't see her. She's one of those "toxic" people I read on here about. Nothing she does has my best interest at heart.
Another friend had a week off (starting last Wed.) made promises to call all week to walk. Never got one call.

I don't want to have to rely on anyone but when I'm alone, I can talk myself out of anything...the poor me attitude.

I talk to dh all the time and he wants to help but I don't make it easy.

I feel stressed out to the max with several different things.

AND I just wonder if I'm worth it...really..
I've been down to 171lbs and I liked it and I know I want to be there again...but it was a lot of work then and I know it'll be a lot more now, will power I don't know I still have.
:(
 
breakfast was omelette/banana
snack was yogurt w. granola/green tea..also had one of those kids cheese things (planet shapes) because it wasn't dinner time and I was hungry ?
dinner was cauliflower and leftover chicken shepards pie
snack is small plum
supper will be beef patty with veggies and bacon
snack will be protein shake
exercise will be my first cardio workout in over a year! So glad to have the class back!
water, got my 2L in!
 
Last edited:
Good job on the water! I managed to get 2L in today too... hoping for another before bed. Sometimes it's hard to get all that water in! And definitely YAY for cardio. I have a hard time with exercise but once I do I always feel so much better physically and mentally.

Of course you are worth it. I think maybe what you need to do is forgive yourself for gaining those 50 lbs. If beat yourself up over it, you'll never feel good enough about yourself to do something positive for you. Life happens, sometimes we slip. Real character is determined by what you do after you fall. Maybe have a little talk to yourself (I do it all the time ;) and literally tell yourself that you forgive you... that you are human and not perfect. Love yourself enough to do that. Maybe once you learn to love the person you are now, instead of wishing you are that woman 50 lbs ago, then you can make positive steps to make yourself more healthful.

Do some nice things for yourself. Have a nice smelling candle? Light it! Go to the drug store and pick up an exfoliator and mask for your face and give yourself a little facial. Listen to music you really like or read a book you have always wanted to read. Trim your nails and moisturize your hands. Go get your hair trimmed/dyed. DO NOT WAIT until you are "thin" enough to do these things for yourself. You deserve to be good to yourself now.

How did cardio go?
 
When I exercised before I always enjoyed it, looked forward to it, so I don't know why I'm so hesitant and just going for it now.

I can generally get my 2L of water in unless I'm on the road, then I tend to forget..

The "worth it" thing is just more than me feeling down on myself..it's been there all my life sticking it's nose in everything.
I found the greatest man, got married and had one (of 3) kids before I believed that I deserved to be that happy and that he loved me.

I did start pampering myself, got my nails done (gel) and planning on getting a trim soon..retail therapy always helps but it's the forgiving myself that I struggle with.

Had a mini tiff with dh last night..why? because I'm not happy with me and took it out on everyone else.
I hate being this way...I don't like the kids seeing me not happy.

On a happier note, I'm going to forgive myself (Thank you) and move forward. Yesterday was a great day and today will be the same!
Cardio was fantastic..hard..sweated like crazy and was totally tired out! Totally looking forward to it next week. We had a big class in a small room but it worked out.
Was a little disheartening that I'm so much bigger now than the last time I took the class, so more jiggles but I'm working on that!!
Little stiff this morning but surprisingly not too bad.

Thank you for your kinds words..it's posts like this that really make a difference when you feel alone in a world full of people! :)
 
Not sure energized is the word but feeling better this morning.
breakfast was kashi cereal/milk/banana...green tea mid morning
snack yogurt with granola
dinner chicken and veggie wrap
snack was apple
supper pc. of pizza while waiting for my beef/veg. caserole
snack was popcorn
exercise was 30min. treadmill/10min. bike/10min. t-zone
water 2L
 
Last edited:
..FINALLY..one be stress I've been facing is coming to an end...stupid EI..taking forever.
Hate being behind financially..maybe I won't have to worry so much now!!
 
Last edited:
ended up eating some "off menu" food for supper and snack but I'm o.k. with it.
Sooooooooo stiff from cardio this morning..the 2nd day is always the worst!! Felt better after I was up...off to have some green tea and maybe squeeze in a mini workout!
ended up working my glutes, abs and shoulders..on the road today....love it (cuz who doesn't like shopping) but hate it (cuz I blow it eating somehow whether it's at the time or buying something for later..)

breakfast: omelette/banana
snack: yogurt and granola
dinner: beef sandwich w.
snack: apple and beef jerky
supper: roast beef sandwich
snack: 5 cal. pudding and some ritz and cheese

had a meeting so no extra workout like I had hoped..
 
Last edited:
You must log in or register to reply here.
Back
Top