Deanna's Diary!

thecabbie: yes! i was deannaxx3 but I decided to start fresh haha

I didn't realize I hadn't posted in like, a week! I have been keeping track of what I've eaten for the past few days, though:

10/13
WORKOUT:
60 min full-body strength training
30 min cardio

FOOD:
B: Half cinnamon raisin bagel w/ butter, 2/3 c. Egg Beaters, few sips of berry fruit punch
S: 2 Wherther's caramel candies
L: Ham and cheese sub, few bits of a cinnamon pazza
S: 2 cupcakes w/ icing- one chocolate, one vanilla
D: 2/3 c. Egg Beaters, 2 slices of wheat toast w/ I Can't Believe It's Not Butter and jelly
S: Activia yogurt

10/14
WORKOUT:
20 min dancing

FOOD:
B: 2/3 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ ICBINB and jelly
L: Baked BBQ Lays, package of Gushers
S: 6 pretzel sticks, few bites of cottage cheese
D: Cheeseburger, about 12 french fries w/ ketchup, handful of BBQ chips
S: Mini Ben + Jerry's cookie dough cup, mini Snickers, Activia yogurt, 2/3 c. Fiber One w/ 1/2 c. skim milk

WORKOUT:
50 min strength training
30 min cardio

FOOD:
B: 1 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat troast w/ ICBINB and jelly
L: Baked BBQ Lays, package of Gushers
S: 1.5 c. Cheerios w/ 2/3 c. skim milk and sugar, Activia yogurt
D: PB+J
S: 100 Calorie Yoplait yogurt

10/16

CHEAT DAY/DAY OFF

10/17

TOO TERRIBLE TO EVEN RECORD- OVER 2000 CALORIES AND NO WORKOUT

What's wrong with me on the weekends?! I think if I were able to control my eating on the weekends and workout, I'd lose more weight than I am now! I seriously think this is what's bringing me down the most, but I don't know how to fight my weekend hunger!

If I workout tomorrow, that will only be 4 days of working out which is a few days short of my original plan. I was gonna wake up early this morning to workout but I had to do something this AM so I wasn't able to. Oh well, I was on my feet at work for 8 hours so I was moving.

Last weekend I decided to start a little "competition" with myself to get to 140 by the first week of December. I'm weighing in once a week and taking measurements every two, so I hope this will give me the motivation to eat right and workout! I'm a little afraid of weighing in this week, since my eating hasn't been great and I didn't get to workout as much as I wanted. Though the few workouts I had this week were much better than usual, I don't think I've lost anything :/

Back to regularly posting, I swear!

-D
 
Yayyay GOOD day today! :D I was afraid I wasn't gonna work out today since I have a terrible track record when it comes to working out on Sundays, but I did! And it was a good workout!

WORKOUT:
80 min cardio

FOOD:
B: uh, woke up at 1PM ..
L: PB+J, some skim milk
S: Strawberry cupcake w/ icing, yogurt, half a pumpkin muffin
D: chicken, 1/3 c. brown rice, broccoli, 2/3 slice of pizza

Sooo, about 1400 calories. Food choices weren't superb, but in order for me to make eating well a lifestyle, I need ot be able to have a cupcake or some pizza if I want! Glad today was good, because tomorrow is my weigh in eeek! Hopefully, I'm in the 150's this week ..

-D
 
WORKOUT:
50 min strength training
30 min interval cardio

FOOD:
B: 1 c. Egg Beaters, slice of wheat toast w/ butter + jelly
L: Baked BBQ Lays, Gushers
S: Pumpkin muffin, 2 choc. chip Quaker rice cake, handful of candy corn
D: Half ham + cheese sub and half caesar salad from Panera
S: "Ice Cream Sandwich" (frozen 2 CC Quaker rice cakes w/ fat free whipped cream), CC Quaker rice cake w/ 2 tbls FF whipped cream

Today I realize I snack waaaay too much. It's not even snacking, it's more like grazing. I have a few bites of this, a few bites of that, and before I know it I'm up 100-200 calories more than planned. Definitely need to work on that. And settle down with the rice cakes! It's hard though, cause they are only 60 calories each and sooo goood yum!

Great workout tonight :D Totally wasn't feeling the cardio but I though to myself, This isn't about whether or not you WANT to work out, you NEED to. It's not a choice." and I did my cardio. Wasn't into it, but I got it done and pushed myself! Oh, and another thing I've realized,: I've fallen off the AM workout bandwagon. I mean, I love working out in the AM because then I feel good about myself for the rest of the day and I know it's out of the way, but I love actually doing my workouts at night, even though it can get put off til I don't end up starting til 9ish :O It doesn't phase me though, I finished my workout at 1030 tonight, and I'm BEAT. No extra energy here, I'm about to pass out!

-D
 
Deanna, 80 minutes of cardio? 50 minutes of strength followed by 30 of cardio on another day? You rock! Those are pretty nice numbers there. What kind of cardio do you do that can keep your itnerest fro 80 minutes. I cycle a lot, so those numbers look pretty similar to what I do in the warmer months, but during the cool weather I'm lucky if I can convince myself to do a stationary for 45- 50 minutes, let alone over an hour.
 
thecabbie: as lam as it sounds, I started doing an home exercise program at home when I couldn't afford my gym membership for a few months this summer. It's called Turbo Jam and it's this high-intensity cardio workout that's so much fun! Which is why I can do so much of it. I've been on the elliptical for an hour but always broken up into 2 parts because it's SO BORING! I do miss the gym though, even though home workouts are more convient for me.

Haven't worked out yet tonight. I'd probably already be done if I wasn't feeling so depressed about how I've seeminly GAINED weight?! Monday morning I weighed myself (not having weighed myself for a week) and it was the EXACT same weight, down to the ouce, as it was last Monday. So I weighed myself again. That time it was EXACTLY one pound MORE than what it said at first. WTF?! Not only that, but last night I got on the scale just to see what it said (yeah, yeah I know- not an accurate read since it was late in the evening) but it said 165 which it hasn't done for a while. My clothes aren't fitting differently, so I highly doubt the weight is muscle. I mean, my eating wasn't great last week, probably an average of 1600 calories a day, excluding Friday and Saturday when I had a little over 2000, and I only worked out 4 days, but there is just no possible way to have not lost anything, let alone gain. Now that I think about it, I'm pretty sure it's PMS, even though this never raelly happens to me. It's so discouraging I can't help but think, what the hell is the point of working out if I'm not gonna get results? UGH.

Plus I feel like eating everything in sight.

This definitely needs to pass or I don't know what I'm gonna do!!!!

Alright, trying to find the motivation to work out.

-D
 
COOOOL. Third day in a row without working out. WHAT IS MY PROBLEM. I do so well for a few days, then I stop. Hm. It's so annoying and frustrating, I mean, how am I supposed to lose weight if I can't get my butt into gear and be consistent with workouts?!

Today I saw a group of people I met and became kind of friends with on a trip this summer and I had planned on losing weight before seeing them again (not entirely sure why, but whatever) and it's made me so diappointed that I didn't reach that goal, or even come close. I'm definitely not bigger, but barely any smaller ): And speaking of, I weighed myself for the heck of it last night (4 times actually) and they read: 154, 156, 158, 158. WTF, scale. So, in the mornings (including this morning) I weigh more than I do at night. Does that make any sense? UGH I wish I could just find out my actual weight since this scale is clearly a little disfunctional (unless I really am in the mid-150's which is great) It's totally possible for me to be in that weight range, but I'm pretty sure I'd be smaller physically if I was, and I'm not. It just doesn't make sense.

WORKOUT:
NONE

FOOD:
BADDD.

About 2 weeks ago I started this little competition with myself to get to 140 but December 6th (2 months from the date I started) and I feel like I've been doing worse since starting, rather than better. Maybe it just seems that way because now I keep track of my exercise/calories on a calender in front of my scale and, sadly, most days have a big old BAD written on them. Something needs to change.

Alright, bed time. Was planning on working out in the AM but I'm not so sure noww .. guess I'll set my alarm just in case.

-D
 
BEST. WEEKEND. EVER. Eating-wise, that is. I cannot recall a weekend where I didn't consumer 2000+ calories in one day, but this weekend was one of them! I averaged about 1400 calories a day, just like a normal weekday. Only thing is, it was probably way easier since I worked all weekend and didn't really have a lot of time for lounging around the house and eating nor any time to go out with friends and eat a lot. I'm hoping next weekend is JUST as good, even whilst having a social life.

Today was my measurement day anddd .. 6 inches lost in the past 2 weeks! Good, but not great. In fact, that's half the inches I could lose if I was consistent with working out and eating right. That's actually a huge motivator for me: it IS possible for me to meet my goal, as long as a do the work. SO motivating! I just have to keep reminding myself of that when I want to be lazy and watch TV instead of exercising or reaching for the second bowl of cereal. I CAN DO THIS! I bought a bunch of healthy food tonight and can't wait to try everything! If you've never read the books Eat This, Not That or Hungry Girl, READ THEM. Eat This, Not That is all about what brands of certain foods you should eat, like Kashi GoLean waffles instead of Eggo Waffles, etc. Hungry Girl has two cookbooks (a regular one and the one I just bought, 200 recipes under 200 calories) and the food is sooo good. I've had the original HG book for a while now, and I've tried a few recipes, but I'm gonna start using them on a regular basis :)

10/23

WORKOUT:
NONE

FOOD:
B: 1 c. Egg Beaters. slice of wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
L: 2 slices cheese pizza
S: 1 c. Cheerios w/ skim milk
D: Elbow macaroni w/ shredded mozzarella cheese, ham steak (not sure how much, but not too much)

As silly as it may be, I'm proud of this day cause it was the first day in uh .. FOREVER that I didn't eat anything after dinner :D

10/24

WORKOUT:
NONE

FOOD:
B: 1 c. Cheerios w/ skim milk and sugar
L: Apple strudel, chocolate cupcake
D: 6" Subway ham + cheese sub, 2/3 bag Baked BBQ Lays
S: 1.5ish c. Cocoa Puffs w/ skim milk (wasn't feeling good and wanted hot chocolate, but only found theses? Don't know why I ate them ..)

Didn't finish my bag of chips?! CRAZY since I can never leave anything uneaten if it's on my plate .. or bag. I didn't even eat them later on when I wasn't hungry, even though they were basically calling me from the passenger seat. Usually I eat before work on Saturdays, even though I'm usually not hungry from lunch. So instead of eating when I didn't want anything, I just bought myself a sub to eat on my break. Nothing huge, but I can tell it's progress for me!

10/25

WORKOUT:
NONE

FOOD:
B: 1 c. Egg Beaters, 2 slices wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
L: PB+J
D: 2/3 c. Egg Beaters, 2 slices wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
S: Greek yogurt, handful of Frosted Shredded Wheat, 20 Special K crackers w/ slice of American cheese

Even though I had delicious French toast waiting for me, I opted for a much healthier breakfast. PROGRESS yay!

-D
 
Hello Deannnaa,

Looks like you are making a heck of a lot of progress!! Try not to beat yourself up too badly. 6 inches is a ton in two weeks! :party: We can only ever do our best, even if it doesn't seem good enough at the time.

I think you're doing excellent, no one goes from 0 to hero ;) in no time flat. A step at a time and you'll get the outcome you're shooting for. :)

Take Care​
 
RunningGirl: Aw thank you! Yes, that's one of my problems, I'm waaay to hard on myself and expect a lot :/ But you're right, one step at a time :)

Billy Shears: I will try to make one later! Those things always give me a hard time >:O PLUS my scale is out of whack and most likely not even right!

thecabbie: THANK YOU!

Had a few close calls today with eating. First, I opted out of my usual lunch (not particularly healthy, but low in calories) and had a ham and cheese sub, which was an extra 200 calories than I planned. Then I was busy working on a project and didn't have time for a snack, except half a sugar cookie. And let me tell you, I was feeling so restless and anxious about not eating a snack, it was such an awkward feeling. But then of course, I was at a friends house and healthy food is scarce, so instead of my Kashi thin crust pizza I had planned on having, we cooked this four cheese pizza that was waaay less healthy and didn't even taste that good! I was worried that I would eat way to much, since the serving size was 1/5 which isn't very much, but I actually limited myself to a 1/4, which was two small pizza. Drinking water in between bites really stopped me from eating more :) Even though I didn't do too bad today, I don't feel comfortable being so close to messing up the day's eating. But hey, unexpected food being offered is a part of life and this is a lifestyle! OH OH one more thing I'm proud about, I went out with friends tonight and all I could think about was how I needed to go home and exercise. So even though they were still hanging out and going to do something, I had them drop me off so I could workout :D Even though it wasn't til 9:30 when I worked out, I'm proud of the dedication!

And it's so funny, I was looking back at my written food journal from about two months ago and there is a specific entry where I was SOOOSO proud of eating like, 1500 calories that day, then another for eating 1300 I think. It's just interesting to see because now, 1500 calories is too much!

WORKOUT:
50 min cardio

FOOD:
B: Blueberry Bagelful
L: Ham and cheese sub
S: 1/2 sugar cookie
D: 1/4 four cheese frozen pizza
S: 2 tbls FF whipped cream, 20ish Special K crackers, handful Frosted Mini Wheats, blueberry Greek yogurt

Eh, a little over my target calories, but I'll take it!

Sorry about the novel-length posts! I guess I just have a lot to say :p

-D
 
WORKOUT:
30 min cardio (intervals of intensity)
40 min strength training

FOOD:
B: half a cup of coffee, 2 eggs, english muffin w/ butter, some ham
S: handful of Frosted Mini Wheats
L: Frosted Mini Wheats
S: few Special K crackers, maple round donut, about one small pumpkin muffin
D: half Kashi thin crust pizza, large spoonful whipped cream

ARGGGH, I seriously need to STOP GRAZING. Snacking is totally acceptable, but I always take little bites of something or a few of somethig here and there, and while they may have few calories, they really add up! Those are the kinds of things I always brush off and don't even count toward my calories, but they do! I need to quit that.

I decided to up my calorie intake, depending on the length of my workout that day. I can't very well work out for nearly and hour and half while only eating 1200 calories (not that I've been eating that much lately :/).

70-90 mins (most days): 1400-1500 calories
50-60 mins: 1300-1400 calories
No workout/Rest DayL 1200-1300 calories
"Free" Day: 1800ish calories

I think that will be good, especially because trying to stay under 1300 calories has been a huge challenge and constantly leaves me worried about what I can eat to not go over. Hopefully I still will be able to lose weight even though I've upped my intake (even though that's where I've been eating for the past 2 weeks ..)

So today I was heading into work, when one of the woman who works there, who had been outside talking on the phone, stops mid-way through the conversation and yells, to me "Have you been losing weight?" I hate being asked that, since I'm not sure how to answer considering it's kind of complicated to explain, so I just smile and say, "Uh, yeah maybe." And I made the comment about how I was huge to the mother of one of my friends and she replied, "No you're not, you're tiny now." While I may not be tiny (just tinier) it's nice to know that others are taking notice, even when I don't see it!

Off to bed soon, it's late!

-D
 
Hello Deannnaa,

Looks like you're still fighting the good fight! Glad to see it. :)

You and I both have a thing for Frosted Mini Wheats...I tend to graze on those too!

Do you have measuring utensils & cups that you use for your food? I find that can really help me sometimes. I used to eat a few "large tablespoons" of Peanut Butter/day, until I found out that one of those may have equaled two actual table spoons..

I think you gave a great answer to the woman whom asked you, it's nice when other's take notice. Sometimes it's none of their business too. ;)

As you may already know, our stomach's shrink after a time of eating less, so that's probably why it seems that eating 1500 seems like a lot more.

I am wondering however, if you take your BW (body weight) x calories/pound (14, 15, or 16) depending on how sendentary your lifestyle is Equals your maintainance level Subtract 20-30% Equals your cut calories stage.

Another thing that really has helped me to stop the grazing, is if I make a meal plan for the week. Or I have pre-made snacks available that are low in calories, i.e. celery sticks, strawberries, or something high in fiber, or protein, an apple & cheese, or califlower, broccoli, tomato (depends), cucumber's a lot of veggies really. Quinoa.

Oh P.S. Do you take monthly pictures? That can really help with showing a difference too. :)

Take Care​
 
RunningGirl: I've just recently tried Frosted Mini Wheats and they're sooo goood! haha. I've tried out those calculators and I think one I used said to lose one pound a week without exercise, I should eat 1600 calories or something. Honestly, there hasn't really been a week where I even averaged that for a while, so I'm not sure if it's legit :p I sure hope, though! I'm not big on making meal plans for the week since I can't be sure what's gonna come up and throw my eating off schedule, so I just plan the meals I'm positive I'll have, and figure out how many calories I have left for the rest of my meals. I've been meaning to take pictures, too! I think maybe I'll get some this weekend :D

WORKOUT:
REST DAY

FOOD:
B: 1 c. Egg Beaters, 2 slices of double fiber wheat toast w/ butter and jelly
L: PB+J, Special K crackers
D: 1.5 c. Cheerios w/ sugar and skim milk
S: 1-2 snickerdoodles, cookie dough ..

BLAAHHHH. That's basically how I feel right now after eating a bunch of cookie dough! Funny thing (only, it's not actually funny, just irritating), I was making snickerdoodles for a little Halloween party tomorrow and forgot them in the oven. The bottoms were burnt black and they wouldn't even come off the pan! I'm seriously SOOO PISSED since a) I now have nothing to bring to the party and b) I basically ate a bunch of extra calories for no reason! So it's like I bought the cookies just to eat myself, since that's what happened!! (NOTE: did NOT eat all of it haha). But now I'm just so made for forgetting about them, not being able to bring anything in, AND because if I wasn't so generous, I would've never set out to bring anything, therefore not stuffing myself with cookie dough.

Deeep breaths .. alright I'm good. I'll just have to eat less than planned tomorrow (which was supposed to me my "free" day, with about 1800 calories I'm allowed.) This sucks. I don't feel good now ): And speaking of not feeling well, for the past week, anytime I eat something I feel kinda sick after. Mostly it's just when I eat before like, 4ish. SO weird, but kind of good I guess, since I didn't eat lunch until much later this afternoon, saving me calories. And I'm learning to be disciplined with my eating! (er, excluding my cookie dough binge..)

Wasn't planning on taking a rest day today, until like, 20 minutes before I was gonna. The thing is, I'd rather take a rest day during the middle of the week so I can just relax, cause when I take a Friday rest day, I'm usually working late or out with friends. It's nice to just be able to chill :) Plus, my body wasn't feeling so hot today. I walked up the stairs and it kind of hurt, but not sore. Since I'm going out dancing tomorrow, I figure that's enough of a workout and my workouts this weekend will go as planned!

Hmm, I thought of something I wanted to say last night but I've forgot! I should've made a note of it in my phone haha. Oh well.

Good night!
-D
 
Hi Deannnaa,

I know all too well about being mad at myself for a binge. I also used to starve and than binge because I was so hungry. Or I'd binge and than starve because I thought it would even me out the next day. Or as punishment.

Our bodies still need a healthy amount of calories each and every day even if we have a nasty binge the day b4. If you want to have a lower day, go for it, but even a planned *free* day, and watching what you eat during that time, can still be lower than a crazy hectic be all binge. You Know?

Or sometimes if I skip my *free* day because of a bad binge, I will only binge sooner. Maybe it's different for you?

Could you by chance scrap off the burnt crust at all? Hey! maybe some of the ghouls and creatures that will be eating your treat won't mind, I mean it IS Halloween, and BLACK is a mandatory color. ;) :p

I hope you have yourself a good time! :):pumpkin:​
 
RunningGirl: You're right, I'm going to aim for about 1400-1500 calories tomorrow, which is pretty average for me. I just wish my "free" day could be tomorrow, since it's Halloween and I wanted to celebrate haha. I used to have "cheat" days, which were basically BINGES, where'd I'd eat whatever popped into my head just because I could! Now I like to save a day once a week, usually Friday, to splurge a little and be able to eat a little more than usual. I know people don't think that's a good idea, but for me, knowing I can treat myself once a week makes it easier for me to eat healthy for the rest of the week :) Usually I just am a little more lax with my eating and I pick out a treat I want, so no more binges! I still incorporate sweets into every day, but it mostly always fits in with my alotted calories. I just like having a day were I don't have to be so focused on calories! Oh and the cookies? Not a chance, considering they won't even lift off the pan! But good idea (;

I'm gonna try to get some pictures up this weekend, but if I don't get around to taking any, I will for sure post pictures of me in my costume! Haven't seen any full-body shots of myself in a while haha :p

-D
 
RunningGirl: Yes I have! In fact, that's what made me decide to change from a "cheat" day to a "free" day and make it a little more healthier instead of having a mini binge every Friday! (except this Friday which I kind of did..)

Ok, NOT a good eating day like I planned: had like, 2 weird burnt snickerdoodles, 2 slices of toast, 2 pumpkin muffins, two pieces of pizza (apparently creating a Noah's Ark in my stomach), some mini Halloween candies and a vanilla milkshake. I'm so stuffed, I feel sick now. Oh well. Tomorrow is a brand new day and I FULLY plan on eating and working out as planned! I will, however, be eating a few less calories just to even things out.

Instead of a regular workout tomorrow, I'm going to take my dog to these wooded trails for a while before work! I'm excited because I've never been there and it's nice to change things up! That's what I plan on doing every Saturday morning until the park cloese or it starts to snow/rain! Hopefully it's nice tomorrow or else I will have to workout at home :p

Went out dancing tonight in my pirate costume (; LOVED IT! My friends looked like waay better pirates I have to admit, but still cute! We went to McDonalds after in our costumes and got a few shout outs! Haha. But the dancing tonight was my workout and phewwww, I was sweatin' up a storm, plus dancing in heels is a fantastic leg workout! I can't even feel my feet :p

Blaaah, so glad this night is almost over cause I can't wait to start fresh tomorrow!

-D
 
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Eating yesterday was ATROCIOUS.You'd think I'd learn my lesson from Friday, but NOPPEEE. Ate so much I felt so sick. What I'm just gonna do it eat less during the day cause night is when I do most of my eating. I can't even begin to described what I ate yester, since I pretty much snacked on everything. Work sent me home early and I was called out of my other job so for 7 hours I didn't know what to do with myself so I ate! It was one of those days where you are just connnstantly having the urge to eat. It's like I can't even help it, just something that happens. I also didn't exercise cause I put it off too long til I thought I wouldn't have enough time to, when it actually turns out I had like, 6 hours to workout before I went out. Grr.

I purposefully ate less during the day today because I ordered cheesy breadsticks for dinner tonight and I need to "save" my calories. I did well until I went to a coffee shop and got a yummy hot chocolate abd also snacked on a few too many Goldfish. If it were,kt for thhat, my eating would've been great! So I had just gotten done doing my cardio and was moving on to strength today when my friend calls and tell me I need to meet at our friends house in 25 MINUTES! WTF! I had figured I'd have another 2 hours to finish working out and get ready but I was wrong! Couldn't complete the workout because I didn't have time, but at least I did it! I will KILL tomorrow's workout, though :D

I fully plan on taking advantage of Daylight Savings Time and waking up bright (or dark actually) and early to get part of my workout in. That way I have less to do after work tomorrow night!

-D
 
Hey Deanna,

Just wanted to respond to your last post.... first of all, DON'T eat less during the day just because most of your eating tends to be at night. If you do this, you're going to PIG OUT before bed because you will be way more hungry! Bad idea! Secondly.... it's okay about the crappy eating - it was Halloween weekend and I'm sure a lot of us didn't do exactly our best! Halloween night, I went to McDonald's at 11 PM and had a McChicken, small fry, and hot fudge sundae! EEK! Yesterday I also snacked a lot.... and had an Orea McFlurry that I learned was 550 calories!!! Yuck. So don't feel bad - sometimes we just need to get the snacking out of our system - just as long as it's not every day :)

Way to get back on track with the working out though - I hope you got your workout in this morning :D

Keep it up!
~ Sarah
 
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