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WOOT! Well done, Pam! 
alligatorob
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Oh, those gods, maybe I'll skip the temple!
alligatorob
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Hey Davis, what's happening?
Check in with us.
Check in with us.
davisgirl
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Hey mate! Sorry I have been scarce. My depression is bad. I’ve been offline quite a bit. But the dieting is going great — it’s been a bright spot. I feel like I’m finally in the groove of doing what gets results and it’s so wonderful. Here is where I’m at:
210 this morning. Sitting at 17% of the way to my goal and each pound that comes off — well all the time I’ve spent building the muscles underneath is really paying off because I’ve got some muscle hanging off this skeleton now and each pound I drop and the muscles are more obvious.
My bikini pic from 8/26 is more than 2 weeks old, and I can’t wait to do another one in 2 weeks.... My sister had planned to do a certain thing for my birthday back in June and it fell through but now she has decided to pay for the personal training once I hit Onederland and it’s coming fast now.
Oh and Nathan — he is down 7 pounds, even though school and rain has really impacted his ability to walk regularly. And splitting his time between 2 homes and not really in control of his eating at either one. We did this at the perfect time for him.
Lots of positive stuff going on! My days have been between 1250-1350 calories and I shrunk my net carbs closer to 20 while keeping the fiber over 25. It’s tough but every day a little more comes off so I feel like I hit a balance somewhere. Staying the course...
alligatorob
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That is great! I knew you could do it, you have been doing it all along it just took a little while to find the right balance.
Maybe even better news, does Nathan need to lose weight? Walking and exercise are good for any kid, even if they don't.
I know nothing about depression or how to treat it, so just take this with a very few grains of salt. I think eating and living right should make a person feel better. I know it makes me feel better and better about myself. It may not be a cure for depression, but it can't hurt and might help. Do you know why you are depressed? Have you seen a therapist or someone who knows more than I do?
Cate
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Hi, Pam. Depression sucks, but I am glad that you are continuing to look after yourself well. I do not do well with depression medication (for a few reasons) & won't take it again, but do you take any? I know I don't need a reason to get depressed, but I also know that my depression is cyclic & will go. That helps. Keep on looking after yourself as best you can, hon 
210! 
And you've done good for Nathan, too, which is another great positive. I'm sorry that you've been depressed - going offline a bit (though I always want to read your updates) mightn't be a bad thing if it gets you into open air/exercise/somewhere really stimulating, depending on what you like doing!
All the best for this week!
And you've done good for Nathan, too, which is another great positive. I'm sorry that you've been depressed - going offline a bit (though I always want to read your updates) mightn't be a bad thing if it gets you into open air/exercise/somewhere really stimulating, depending on what you like doing!All the best for this week!
davisgirl
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Oh, thanks for your support everyone! I am OK. I have been living with this for a long time, Bipolar 2, and it has been especially rough the past few years. I am not working because of it.
Currently I am only on a baby dose of geodon after a year of being medication free. I see her again in a few weeks and she will bump it up and maybe add something more. Before that, I was so heavily medicated on 5 or 6 different meds, I felt sort of like all I could do was perch on the couch and peer bleary eyed at my life. I hope I never go back to that.
My hopes for weight loss and exercising and clean eating were a bit too high. They absolutely make me feel better, and even provide brief moments of joy throughout the day — priceless. But I always come back to my “wrong” thoughts and blunted instincts and it’s been a struggle. So, back on the meds. Hopefully she will not insist on the seroquel because I think it was the worst one.
Currently I am only on a baby dose of geodon after a year of being medication free. I see her again in a few weeks and she will bump it up and maybe add something more. Before that, I was so heavily medicated on 5 or 6 different meds, I felt sort of like all I could do was perch on the couch and peer bleary eyed at my life. I hope I never go back to that.
My hopes for weight loss and exercising and clean eating were a bit too high. They absolutely make me feel better, and even provide brief moments of joy throughout the day — priceless. But I always come back to my “wrong” thoughts and blunted instincts and it’s been a struggle. So, back on the meds. Hopefully she will not insist on the seroquel because I think it was the worst one.
alligatorob
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I think maybe you are unstoppable! That is great news.
Cate
Long term member
Hi, Pam. I think you are doing very well. Bipolar medication is so tricky to get right. Our younger son is currently taking a low dose Lithium & that seems to be working ok with him for now. I think Seroquel is the one he was prescribed by a GP that had him unable to function. Exercise & healthy eating seem to be particularly important to him as does avoiding stress. Same with me. I think you are doing a great job. Sending you a hug, if you would like one
Petal001
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With LaMa . I also agree about online not helping as I found out . And what a major weight loss that's fantastic so far
davisgirl
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Thanks everyone! Still at the 208.8 number — that was a lot of pounds that went pretty fast so my body must be recouping a bit before I drop more. It’s so funny how weight seems to get lost in fits and starts and not at all the orderly 2 pounds/week that is expected.
I saw my doctor and she moved me up from the baby dose. Not seeing any benefit from that yet but it’ll come I’m sure. I’d half expected her to add more meds, especially something to help with sleep, but she wants to see me in 30 days. And in retrospect, I think I’ve been feeling a little better, even on just the baby dose, so we’ll see. I’m SO glad she’s not talking about adding the seroquel back in because I blame that drug for getting me up to 246 to start with. But I also think she needs a mood stabilizer in there. She is highly qualified, so if she eventually decides it’s what I need — then it’s what I’ll have to do, but maybe between the keto/exercise/geodon, I can hopefully push through.
I saw my doctor and she moved me up from the baby dose. Not seeing any benefit from that yet but it’ll come I’m sure. I’d half expected her to add more meds, especially something to help with sleep, but she wants to see me in 30 days. And in retrospect, I think I’ve been feeling a little better, even on just the baby dose, so we’ll see. I’m SO glad she’s not talking about adding the seroquel back in because I blame that drug for getting me up to 246 to start with. But I also think she needs a mood stabilizer in there. She is highly qualified, so if she eventually decides it’s what I need — then it’s what I’ll have to do, but maybe between the keto/exercise/geodon, I can hopefully push through.
The benefits of upping your meds slowly (and/or one by one) is presumably that you can gauge how you react to each one. Since these things often take a while to take full effect that sounds like a very sensible way to go about it - provided you´re not in an emergency situation. Good job sticking to your plans despite not feeling great!