Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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yup--you're right! I was just wanting to see if I could run and then do them, 6 times in a row--I could :) However, in all honesty, this run was a bit difficult for me.

I was a better runner in early 2007. This perplexes me.
 
Both--exactly those. One thing--my ankles were prone to rolling back then. This year they are not, and it might have to do with the strength/balancing poses of Yoga :)p). Last year I was doing plenty of weight training to supplant my running but my ankles would still roll at times.
 
I'm confused. Your time/speed is better now then it was a year and a half ago. Your ankle strength is better now. Yet you say that you were a better runner then. I don't get it.
 
Let me give more info:

The trail race was a fluke because the year before I got stuck behind slow pokes at the beginning. Last year it was an easier run, and if I had started out ahead of said slowpokes I probably would have had a better time than this year.

5K on flat land 7/2007: 21:08
5K on flat land 10/2007: 21:21
5K on flat land 7/2008: 21:23

:(
 
15 seconds difference is not enough to determine a real drop. I would call it stagnant. There are ways to get your speed up, but that would have to be your goal. Right now your goal is to get your endurance up to complete the half marathon. After that if you want to get your speed up for the 5k you can start training for that.

I just don't see where you really can do everything at once. Patience. :coolgleamA:
 
yeah, you're right.

I chalk it up to laziness/avoidance. I should have been doing interval training once a week, and I didn't because I hate it. haha. Speed in running is always important to me.

On a bright note, a lady saw me reading right before the trail race and stared chatting with me. She was bubbly and curvy (my height with about 15 pounds more on her, but a beautiful form) and assured me that I'd do fine on my half marathon. She said her first Halfer, she had only done 5 and 10Ks and thought she'd have to walk. Turns out that she was able to jog the whole thing. She told me not to worry. I was sizing her up and thinking she might be right. I want to think I'm tough.

But I have this irrational fear of Sunday. I am scared. I want to be able to run the whole 13.1 miles, too--and I want to finish in about 2 hours. But I don't know if I can do it.

All I can do is get enough sleep, eat well, continue being active this week, and take Friday and Saturday off exercise..........right? What the fuck else can I do, huh?
 
Races are funny. In my experience, all these "bad" traits come out in me that I normally don't like to exhibit: I compare my body with other women (but not for attractiveness, more for "can she beat me?"), I feel insecure about my body, I get a self-defeating dialog going on in my head, I stop believing in myself, I figure there's no way I could do well in that race, and I covet other faster runner's abilities.

Disgusting, huh? Why do I run races anyway???? :confused: Eh, I like placing, what can I say. Let's see, I have ran about 11 races and only didn't place in 3 of them, 2 of which were huge races with over a thousand competitors and one race that a University track team of girls competed in.

The day will come where I suck, due to the increasing competitiveness in age categories, unless I get faster and can run 5 and 10Ks at an average of 6:10 miles per minute.

Eesh.....
 
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You'll do fine. Remember that you are really competing with yourself. You run your best race and let the others do their best and you'll come out on top every time. Try to run someone else's race and you will do worse for it.

We're cheering for you. :hurray:
 
Hi Val, so nice of you to pop in to my day today.

I was just saying in my diary how I caught myself thinking negatively and I know I think this way nearly ALL the time, regarding my efforts. I think "Its not working" or "I'm a failure". ME! I mean if I looked at it another way I would tell myself I'm doing awesome because now that I examine my recent efforts, I am doing the very best I can, always building or changing up my program.

I'm glad to be back on the forum with the people I trust and admire cheering me on. This is a great place.
 
Hi Val, gotta say, your diary is one interesting place to check out!!

Thanks for the kudos you sent my way, I really appreciate it.

Hmm... going to have to stop in here on a regular basis now. This diary is nothing if not mind opening... and entertaining...
 
Its not a bad trait to compare yourself to other runners, its par for the course. I read some famous cyclist say he check's out other cyclist's asses to see "who's fat" before a race, who can he beat! Its a RACE Val! Hey and i think you're going to exceed your expectations. BREATHE!

Whoa the sweat was pouring off me tonight in yoga.
 
Thanks for the kind words y'all--I appreciate it! :D

Yesterday was a busy busy day and today might be as well

145.0 lbs and I've been eating anything I want, thank goodness it's pretty much delicious foods. Today I had two sugar cookies that someone brought in the office. They tasted good but I'd rather they weren't around to tempt me. Whatever.

I've stuck to doing yoga in the am but this morning I was so tired (I didn't sleep as well as I wanted last night for some reason) that I couldn't do my usual Suri Vinyasas. So I decided to do headstands. I use the wall because I suck, BUT I was able to stay in the stand longer than I ever have without touching the wall. I'm gonna keep practicing. Headstands are amazingly good for you! :hurray:

I decided that my cardio-vascular ability isn't going to get any better before Sunday, so I'm saving my joints and ligaments for the half marathon, and not running a whole lot this week. Yesterday was belly dancing and yoga; today I decided I want to weight train (it's been a while; mind you all the standing asanas in yoga are held so long, it's very decent resistance training and my body has stayed toned) and do yoga again. Tomorrow I will Kickbox and go to Yoga 2.....uh, that should be difficult. Friday I want to go to Yoga 2 and take an extra long lunch break. Saturday nuthin, Sunday.....13.1 miles :eek2:
 
Hey Beautiful. Just thought I would check in. I am sure you will do just fine on your halfer this weekend. And I have a feeling you will complete it without stopping. :) Your 5K times are amazing. I aspire to have times like that someday, but right now I'm just worried about finishing without stopping. But someday I will have a great time... its never too late right?

Happy Hump Day.
 
I think you'll be fine in your half marathon this weekend too... I'm no expert either but I would thinking taking it a little easy on the running this week would be a good idea, and saving your strength for the race would be the best plan.

I remember standing on my head against a wall when I was younger. I didn't know they were actually really good for you. Interesting to know :)

I'm working on getting my runs in but my lung power is a little down I think because of this last week off... I'm going to have to work at getting back up to my 4 milers. It'll happen tho ;)

Happy TLD :sifone:
-Sam
 
Hey, Bunny. I've been thinking about the half marathon myself. My times aren't that good, and my distance isn't there yet, but I think that I might be able to. There is a big one here in May. It's a half/full. I don't think there is a chance in hell that I'll be doing a full, but a half seems really possible at this point. Good luck.
 
Hello chiquita banana!!!!

I found a half marathon too......the day after my birthday....December 13th!!! :hurray:
All this race talk, has me motivated to really start whipping out the running again!....I really just want that little number to clip on my shirt! CHEEEEEEEEA! and GIMME MY Free shirt too....kinda free...LOL! :coolgleamA:
 
Will be cheering you on this Sunday. You're sure to do well. How long have you been doing yoga? This seems to be something new since I was here last, although I've been gone several months.
 
Morning dood.

Good luck in your race. I ran for 20 minutes on Tuesday. I felt like my heart was going to explode. :p
 
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