Well, the funny thing,
Phoenyx, is that in HI a few weeks ago I did a Tarot reading on my A. Crowley deck that my best friend bestowed upon me, and I asked, "Will I ever be happy in a romantic relationship?" and the 1rst card, representing me was ---->
That's right: the fool. And card 3 (crowning me, the goal or destiny) was
The Tower *shudder* It's beautiful and appropriate. What I got from it was I have to annihilate my previous concept of what a romantic relationship
is to build it back up into absolute truth, not clouted with egoism:
"THE TOWER
Basic Card Symbols
A tower on a rocky outcrop, a powerful bolt of lightning, one or two figures falling from the tower, sometimes waves crashing below.
Basic Tarot Story
As the Fool leaves the throne of the Goat God, he comes upon a Tower, fantastic, magnificent, and familiar. In fact, The Fool, himself, helped build this Tower back when the most important thing to him was making his mark on the world and proving himself better than other men. Inside the Tower, at the top, arrogant men still live, convinced of their rightness. Seeing the Tower again, the Fool feels as if lightning has just flashed across his mind; he thought he'd left that old self behind when he started on this spiritual journey. But he realizes now that he hasn't. He's been seeing himself, like the Tower, like the men inside, as alone and singular and superior, when in fact, he is no such thing. So captured is he by the shock of this insight, that he opens his mouth and releases a SHOUT! And to his astonishment and terror, as if the shout has taken form, a bolt of actual lightning slashes down from the heavens, striking the Tower and sending its residents leaping out into the waters below.
In a moment, it is over. The Tower is rubble, only rocks remaining. Stunned and shaken to the core, the Fool experiences grief, profound fear and disbelief. But also, a strange clarity of vision, as if his inner eye has finally opened. He tore down his resistance to change and sacrifice (Hanged man), then broke free of his fear and preconceptions of death (Death); he dissolved his belief that opposites cannot be merged (Temperance) and shattered the chains of ambition and desire (The Devil). But here and now, he has done what was hardest: destroyed the lies he held about himself. What's left is the bare, absolute truth. On this he can rebuild his soul. "
So yeah, interesting that my card 1 happened to be the Fool. This story
sounds0 like an exact metaphor for my heartbreak and subsequent rebuilding of self. What scared me the most was my "immediate future" card was the 9 of Swords, or
CRUELTY. I don't know if I like Tarot cards that much
So I haven't been doing any readings lately, just been sleeping with them under my pillow. Oh yeah, the last card or outcome of my question "will I ever be happy in a romantic relationship" was the Magus. Which has the affirmation: " My life is everything I make it" and has to do with skill, power, intention, master of the four elements, and the ability to shift events in one's favor.
This pleased me
, at least!
Kimberly, I know, this country's censorship is stupid and belittles our level of comfort with the human body. Boo! Why the hell don't we take up the metric system along with the acceptance of breasts in public places? What the feezy!
Hi Mamaz2ndBaby! Come by anytime, I'm just here trying to get centered and eventually try to levitate
Pheonyx, MDF and Ed: Yes masturbation is a whole lot of fun. I have my bouts and wanes from it. Lately not so much, but ya never know! Go with it............
And as we all know, most gay men are pretty hot. Take our Sam for instance.
Nice! I managed Surya Namaskara A, B, and the Standing Sequence of the Ashtanga Yoga book before making it to work.
