Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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The Retreat

Post-Thanksgiving Retreat at Mount Madonna Center
with Kelly and Samantha Shakti-Brown

Friday afternoon, November 28 - Sunday afternoon, November 30, 2008
The weekend after Thanksgiving, steep yourself in practices that heal, open, and awaken. Through our daily schedule we will offer teachings from an ancient yogic philosophy of healing, woven together with physical practices. Our intention is to create synergistic awakening of body, mind and spirit within each of us and within the collective. We will practice meditation based on Metta (Loving-Kindness), Tonglen (Giving and Receiving) and the Tantras. Our Asana practice will be inspired by Anusara Yoga and the Iyengar tradition. Some of our practice will be gentle, some will be vigorous, and all levels of yogis will be accommodated.
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Alta is sweetie!!!!

My stepmother is her own type of person. I think I'm very easy to be friends with... With her I never tried harder to get someone to like me in my whole life. It was impossible because she is extremely territorial and had her own motives and ideas from the get-go. I wasn't in her "vision" of her life with my dad, and neither were my little bros... It sucks but, I have to have faith in Karma, right?... The thing that peeves me the most is when she gets my dad to spend time with her grown kids, go on vacation with them, etc. and he doesn't ever do that with us... I'm sure they see it completely differently :rolleyes: and could somehow try to justify it but, hey I just try to call a spade a spade...

I feel my mother definitely sends good energy my way everyday, from somewhere else :)

-Sam
 
sammyboy24 said:
she is extremely territorial and had her own motives and ideas from the get-go. I wasn't in her "vision" of her life with my dad, and neither were my little bros...
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OMG Sam has a real life wicked stepmother!! :eek:

I have no idea what to say to that.....seems like this woman needs to do soul-searching and clean up her act!

sammyboy24 said:
I feel my mother definitely sends good energy my way everyday, from somewhere else :)
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Word, of course! :)

CaseyAtMartin said:
Yoga retreat! That sounds incredible! I got relaxed just reading the description :)
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I know, me too!!! :D

bikinibound said:
Val, you're such a little new age hippie chick with your yoga retreats, etc. :biggrinjester: I LOVE YA!! :beating:
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Love ya too, "mom" ;)
 
Well!

It's difficult to remain "zen" when faced with adversary. A dude that I used to be friends with, who actually introduced me to my ex boyfriend (LOL!!!!) and subsequently fancied he LOVED me and tried to seduce me when I was very very upset over the ex (top notch guy fo sheezy :rolleyes:), who pissed me off time and time again, who got my password for various emails while I was showering at my own house from my laptop and caused much trouble for me, who tried to get up on me everytime we fucking tried to hang out after ALL THAT and I was trying to be a good person and forgive and forgive and forgive, messaged me today.

I was like, "what do you want from me?"

And he was like, upset that I had that response and went on to say he just wanted to invite me to a fat party where he was performing. I basically told him he sounds like the same old person, and I certainly didn't want to hang out "one on one" but I'd be down for a party.

Well, it pissed him off so that he put a public message in the "casual encounters" side on a local swap-meet website, with my real phone number asking guys to call me and talk dirty.

Boo! :cuss:

I got it removed and thanked the first guy who called me, who sent me the link so I didn't have to search myself.

I swore the douchebag off forever and now I feel fine. Chi is back and in order, with no retaliation other than a broadcast of what happened to my friends, just so they know. Ah, life is tricky sometimes!
 
Curvie Girlie said:
Well!

It's difficult to remain "zen" when faced with adversary. A dude that I used to be friends with, who actually introduced me to my ex boyfriend (LOL!!!!) and subsequently fancied he LOVED me and tried to seduce me when I was very very upset over the ex (top notch guy fo sheezy :rolleyes:), who pissed me off time and time again, who got my password for various emails while I was showering at my own house from my laptop and caused much trouble for me, who tried to get up on me everytime we fucking tried to hang out after ALL THAT and I was trying to be a good person and forgive and forgive and forgive, messaged me today.

I was like, "what do you want from me?"

And he was like, upset that I had that response and went on to say he just wanted to invite me to a fat party where he was performing. I basically told him he sounds like the same old person, and I certainly didn't want to hang out "one on one" but I'd be down for a party.

Well, it pissed him off so that he put a public message in the "casual encounters" side on a local swap-meet website, with my real phone number asking guys to call me and talk dirty.

Boo! :cuss:

I got it removed and thanked the first guy who called me, who sent me the link so I didn't have to search myself.

I swore the douchebag off forever and now I feel fine. Chi is back and in order, with no retaliation other than a broadcast of what happened to my friends, just so they know. Ah, life is tricky sometimes!
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I did just read that..........what a bastard!....it reminds me of some guy that I was dating for like 3 months, and when I broke it off, cause he got too many damn FEELINGS, too fast....he had the nerve.....to tell me later, (after trying time and time again to restart old SHIT), that he understood that I must be a LESBO to not want to hook up with him! :eek: I was like what a dumb shit, only a dumb ass would take that no and transform it to make himself feel better for getting rejected! :iagree:.......

...I guess we can throw this guy you know into that SHIT pile!
...Back off NEEZY you ain't wanted.....get it now!?!?!

...glad you aren't Retaliating ;).....gooooood GIRL....put away the CLAWS!!! ;) LOL!!!
 
LOL, Alta--what good would retaliation do me? Well, communicating the situation so people can know what a fucked up asshole he can be is sort of retaliation.

Hmmm, once he admitted to me that he screws with girls all over the internet.....and told me some even worse things he's done. Computers + Certain Boys = Derangement + Trouble.
 
Well, after all this I'm going to

a. run in the woods
b. take a relaxing shower at my gym
c. go to Yoga class with Michael, hopefully he'll lead guided pranayama, I NEED that tonight!
 
Last night I went to sleep at 11pm and this morning at 6am, I couldn't get out of bed. So I went back to sleep until 6:45, then got up to go to work.

Last night there was terrible traffic; in Aptos a big rig with oil crashed, spilled oil that caught on fire, and caused HWY 1 to be stuffed up for HOURS. The driver was not hurt thankfully, but the oil DID seep into a creek :( There were sirens going on everywhere and I was trying desparately to feel my center and quiet my mind, but I felt a lot of negative energy going on in the world and it disturbed me. I basically had a bad day yesterday. The traffic caused me to lose time to run (was in stopped traffic for AN HOUR) and yoga was my only saving grace. When I got home, I managed some tofu, pistachios, and an Acai drink. Still, my calories turned out to be 2380 due to me choosing to eat at a Mexican restaurant for lunch because the traffic wouldn't allow me to go to a different place.

Nonetheless, this morning my weight dropped to 147.0 and my stomach wasn't as screwed up as it was yesterday. Relief!

This morning I used this site to get the respective notes for each chakra, and I chanted the respective mantra . It made me feel very very peaceful and good. In yoga last night Michael had us do 3 types of pranayama (breathing techniques) and I enjoyed each and every one of them. It was only me, Lotus, and a woman named Nikki whom I introduced myself to at the end, who attended. Michael was nice and helped Lotus with alternate options for asanas due to her weak neck.

This boy in Washington state that I have talked to on and off is very odd, but he helped me find the website for the chakras. Hmmmmmm, we had an IM conversation this morning and it appears ad if he still wants me to want him to visit. I explained to him that I wasn't interested in dealing with boys unless they were my close platonic male friends, because I noticed my equilibrium gets thrown off. He told me he loves me. Sigh :ack2:

Love is a very interesting word, isn't it? Sure seems great sometimes, and other times it seems to get people into a world of trouble. Think of Shakespeare! :eek:

I'm going to try to run at lunch, go to Belly Dancing after work, and go to 7:30pm yoga with Delana and Lotus tonight. OMG what am I doing to myself.....:svengo:
 
When I'm stuck in traffic I will listen to the best tunes I can find. I'll sing along with them and make my own little party. I imagine that this is similar to the relaxation and meditation of yoga. It's just more my thing.

Of course, this doesn't work so well when the kids are in the car begging and pleading dear ole dad to stop singing. :ack2: A quote from my daughter from when she was 6, "Dad, you could never be in a band because... your singing... it's HORRIBLE!" Hee, hee. Cracked me up. So, then I joined a band and she stopped complaining. Of course I don't sing with them. :sifone:
 
hahhahahaha! :rotflmao:

I was listening to good tunes, but the traffic was so annoying due to my right leg being on the brake all the time, I tried putting in park but it was going "too fast" for that, too. I swear driving must be bad for the hips.......

Don't knock it until you tried it :p
 
Trops said:
A quote from my daughter from when she was 6, "Dad, you could never be in a band because... your singing... it's HORRIBLE!" Hee, hee. Cracked me up. So, then I joined a band and she stopped complaining. Of course I don't sing with them. :sifone:
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From the mouths of babes comes such wisdom. My almost 7 year old son tells me all the time, especially in the car, "stop singing please daddy...your giving me a headache!". I play guitar fairly well, so my kids love to sing along to songs and they make requests often...like..."dad, could you just play instead of singing with us!" Pretty fun to hear your three kids including a 3 1/2 year old singing along to you playing buckcherry's "sorry".
 
Hey Val,

Sorry to hear about that douchebag who tried to fuck with you. It sounds like you dealt/are dealing with it well. A lot of times in life it's not necessarily the situation you are in, it's how you react when the time comes. This guy obviously has some deep inner ego problems and isn't above doing really immature shit to try to hurt other people... Fuck him.... Knowing your definitely the classier person and perhaps letting a few key people know of what he did is probably what I would do . Please remember that you are an amazing person and that living well and being above a lot of the bullshit people put you through is the best revenge ever. :) Karma baby ;)

Today is an excellent day. Your run will be awesome and your belly dancing and yoga will be very good to you.

Take Care,
Sam
 
What the hell is up with the green links?

Weird :troll:

I ran for 36 minutes to and and from the beach, and burned about 420 calories :sifone: The sand was difficult and I kept up as fast a pace as possible.

I have slowed way down in my running :angelsad2:. Good thing race season is almost over. I have my trail run that I plan on winning this year and JEEZ I hope I do!!! :smash: Last year I was peerless. This year could be different!!! :eek: ;) :leaving:

I feel good, and I should be able to go to Belly Dancing and yoga without issue.

Lunch: Asiago and pine nut pesto organic raviolis with fresh basil off my plant and sesame spouts and organic garlic marinara sauce, and on the side with a knife :D 470

Tall Can :beerchug: of coconut juice with pulp (natural isotonic beverage) 144

Giant organic white peach 120
 
sammyboy24 said:
Please remember that you are an amazing person and that living well and being above a lot of the bullshit people put you through is the best revenge ever. :) Karma baby ;)

Today is an excellent day. Your run will be awesome and your belly dancing and yoga will be very good to you.
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Awwww, Sam! :beating: Dammit you would LOVE San Francisco.....why can't you come visit?? :D But yeah, thanks, it's always best to let nature run its course and stay away from people you don't get along with. I'm lucky: he is not family! :sifone:

My run WAS pretty awesome, I was worried I'd have to stop but I didn't :D
 
That's it. There is no way I'm ditching out on my run tonite. I'm a little congested but I still think I can do a few miles. It'll probably make me feel euphoric. I would love to come visit San Fran sometime. Someday someday :)

-Sam
 
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