jzthedetermined
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Thanks Trops...should have just asked you in your thread instead of bringing it here. LOL
Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me
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Mamaz2ndbaby
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Curvie, are you a vegan or vegetarian?
cinderelly
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Hey Crazzzy Chick,
I do check in and read but never really post!You are hard to keep up with unlike a boring mom like myself, LOL...
I loved the yoga pics, alot of those are poses I like as well but it has been awhile since I have done Yoga...i sure miss it, gotta incorporate it somewhere...although I do honestly find that the energizing sessions do give you energy, but i am so outta shape from yoga it is hard no and my fave is restoritive yoga!
I do check in and read but never really post!You are hard to keep up with unlike a boring mom like myself, LOL...
I loved the yoga pics, alot of those are poses I like as well but it has been awhile since I have done Yoga...i sure miss it, gotta incorporate it somewhere...although I do honestly find that the energizing sessions do give you energy, but i am so outta shape from yoga it is hard no and my fave is restoritive yoga!
Curvie Girlie
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Cerella: Restorative yoga feels soooooooooooo good 
Glad to see you around! I'm gonna see if you posted anything tomorrow, I'm about to get ready for belly dancing class! 
Mama: Neither! I'm a lacto-ovo pescotarian. I hate milk and eggs by themselves, but I ADORE Greek yogurt (just had some for the first time today, damn I am NOT going back to non-Greek!!) and if something has eggs in it I won't refuse it, if it's good. And I LOVE fish. My diet now is more effective in keeping me slim and energized than it ever as as anything else. But yeah, haven't touched meat or chicken in 6 years, maybe longer for the meat...
Shaun: Thanks, handsome!
Trops: Totally, although the numbers for running seem to be OK, and that's the only thing I use the website for pretty much.
The Determined: No prob, and thanks Trops....
Bethann: Totally!
Yesterday
I had a lot of fun with my homegirls and homeboys who were visiting from the Bay to see Emily, who's out here from HI. I had two beers, and lots of food and I had a significant amount of food the day before, and my weight has crept up to 150.0 pounds today!!! This is out of control and I'm not sure what's going on. But I figure I'll start tracking calories so I can be diligent. It's just extremely odd to gain 7 pounds over, what? Five days? When did I weigh in at 143? I don't even remember but I'm pretty sure it was earlier in the week. Anyway, today it's Belly Dancing at the college, then I'm headed straight to Berkeley for a picnic with Em and her family and our friends. Wish me luck!
Glad to see you around! I'm gonna see if you posted anything tomorrow, I'm about to get ready for belly dancing class! Mama: Neither!
I'm a lacto-ovo pescotarian. I hate milk and eggs by themselves, but I ADORE Greek yogurt (just had some for the first time today, damn I am NOT going back to non-Greek!!) and if something has eggs in it I won't refuse it, if it's good. And I LOVE fish. My diet now is more effective in keeping me slim and energized than it ever as as anything else. But yeah, haven't touched meat or chicken in 6 years, maybe longer for the meat...Shaun: Thanks, handsome!
Trops: Totally, although the numbers for running seem to be OK, and that's the only thing I use the website for pretty much.
The Determined: No prob, and thanks Trops....
Bethann: Totally!
Yesterday
I had a lot of fun with my homegirls and homeboys who were visiting from the Bay to see Emily, who's out here from HI. I had two beers, and lots of food and I had a significant amount of food the day before, and my weight has crept up to 150.0 pounds today!!! This is out of control and I'm not sure what's going on. But I figure I'll start tracking calories so I can be diligent. It's just extremely odd to gain 7 pounds over, what? Five days? When did I weigh in at 143? I don't even remember but I'm pretty sure it was earlier in the week. Anyway, today it's Belly Dancing at the college, then I'm headed straight to Berkeley for a picnic with Em and her family and our friends. Wish me luck!
sammyboy24
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Hope you had an excellent time at the picnic. It's always nice to see old friends. Celibacy since 9-1... It's a good thing. It will just make everything 10 times better when you start getting it again (at least that is what I tell myself )
-Sam
(at least that is what I tell myself ) -Sam
bethann1156
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Hey Val...I know its hard, but don't sweat the "imaginary" weight gain...its that damn water weight....mine flucuated 5 pounds in one DAY this week, first it went up 5 and then the next day was back down 5.
I still weigh every day, but really just pay close attention the differences in the weekly losses. I find that writing it all down, keeps me honest.
Have a good one!
Beth
I still weigh every day, but really just pay close attention the differences in the weekly losses. I find that writing it all down, keeps me honest.
Have a good one!
Beth
Curvie Girlie
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I HAD A FANTASTIC TIME at the picnic, THANK YOU! (Big Gay Al-styly). Tilden Park is an acient, beautiful place in Berkeley, CA, and the weather was perfect.
Confession: I am a "Family Slut."
Coming from a single mom with no siblings and an absent, "dead-beat" dad, I started to take a fancy to "nuclear" homes and I latch onto family outings, of my friends or extended family. Yesterday was Emily, "our" brother J., his wife S. (who is PREGNANT!!!!!!!!
Yiah yiah! She is 38!! He is 29. They've been "trying" for 3 years!!!! ), mom and dad, grandma, auntie and uncle, other auntie and her boyfriend, and twin babies. I've been to so many events for this family (Thanksgiving, Christmas, graduation, birthdays, etc.) that it was perfectly normal for me to come along for the picnic and the subsequent hike. Emily and I had a very warm goodbye-she's off to HI on Wednesday and we said our goodbyes (she's in the Bay for the rest of her trip) but I think I might surprise her and drive to the Bay tomorrow to have dinner with our other sister and best friend, Christina and her daughter (my niece) Kaya.Yeah. I kind of incorporate my loves ones as family. It works out, fine!
Bethann Yes and I'm not TOO worried, but I'm going to certainly remedy this situation!
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I HAD A FANTASTIC TIME at the picnic, THANK YOU! (Big Gay Al-styly). Yeah. I kind of incorporate my loves ones as family. It works out, fine!
I saw one of those Hallmark-esque plaques that had "Friends are the family that you choose" written on it. I thought it was rather cool.
I used to spend a lot of time at Tilden. Great place. Glad you had a good time.
sammyboy24
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I'm kind of the same way you are Valerie. I have several extended families that I've latched onto over the years, and now I'm like family to them... It mostly happened when my mother died when I was 18. After that I was always envious of my friend's mothers, ya know... Stupid things like cooking dinner, or asking about their kid's day, or just having a "mother figure" to talk to. Things my friends would take for granted, I would just be dying for... My dad is great but, he is a different kind of person. He is a father figure I suppose but, my brothers and I all have a different relationship with him now that he is married to his new wife. She wedged herself right in between us and him, and that is how it is... I still see my dad at work but, outside of that I don't really see him or hang out or anything. It's just not how it used to be a few years ago... In my head, I'm kind of hurt by it... I feel a little abandoned and orphaned almost. I know I'm 25 but, I just see my friends my age who have these close relationships with their awesome parents, or parents who really even give a shit, and I get kind of jealous... I try to explain this to my dad, and I know he hears me but I don't know if he really does... I just can't help but feel my bros and I end up always getting the short end of the stick when it comes to this, if you know what i mean... My extended family has really helped me out though. I know if I don't have a place to go for the holidays (I'm usually working anyways) I can always show up there with open arms, and that means a lot to me So, I guess I'm a family slut too, hehe.
-Sam
So, I guess I'm a family slut too, hehe.-Sam
Curvie Girlie
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Steve: Thanks, man! We shall indeed enjoy the dinner--both C and E are into super healthy foods and are pescotarians like myself
Sam: I know what you mean--sorry to hear about your mother, I wasn't aware My own dad was more like a buddy, and we partied together until he died of an overdose 5 years ago, but yeah a while back I was thinking I wished that I had a "father figure" to say stuff like "I love you, Princess" or other such cheesy-media-influenced forms of behavior. I got over it, though--and it helps to have girl friends' daddies there for me, and I very much enjoy the company of married, good 
men in their late 40s. I have a few co-workers/friends of that category....
You will have to work for a closer relationship with your dad if you truly want it. I don't know the dynamics, but being warm, open, and loving and showing up more, or inviting yourself along to lunches or whatnot. Your dad probably might just assume since you're 25, and you work together, you want space and he's concentrating on his wife and such. Perhaps he doesn't "grasp" exactly how you feel when you tell him. Relationships certainly evolve and change--don't let it become stagnant to where for the rest of his life, you two don't have a peaceful and fulfilling relationship!
Sam: I know what you mean--sorry to hear about your mother, I wasn't aware
My own dad was more like a buddy, and we partied together until he died of an overdose 5 years ago, but yeah a while back I was thinking I wished that I had a "father figure" to say stuff like "I love you, Princess" or other such cheesy-media-influenced forms of behavior. I got over it, though--and it helps to have girl friends' daddies there for me, and I very much enjoy the company of married, good men in their late 40s. I have a few co-workers/friends of that category....You will have to work for a closer relationship with your dad if you truly want it. I don't know the dynamics, but being warm, open, and loving and showing up more, or inviting yourself along to lunches or whatnot. Your dad probably might just assume since you're 25, and you work together, you want space and he's concentrating on his wife and such. Perhaps he doesn't "grasp" exactly how you feel when you tell him. Relationships certainly evolve and change--don't let it become stagnant to where for the rest of his life, you two don't have a peaceful and fulfilling relationship!
Curvie Girlie
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Happy Monday!
Yup--plenty of other moms! Hmmmmm...I have one, two, three.....three other moms and an aunt who is like another mom, and maybe more if I thought harder......
sammyboy24
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Steve: Thanks, man! We shall indeed enjoy the dinner--both C and E are into super healthy foods and are pescotarians like myself
Sam: I know what you mean--sorry to hear about your mother, I wasn't aware
You will have to work for a closer relationship with your dad if you truly want it. I don't know the dynamics, but being warm, open, and loving and showing up more, or inviting yourself along to lunches or whatnot. Your dad probably might just assume since you're 25, and you work together, you want space and he's concentrating on his wife and such. Perhaps he doesn't "grasp" exactly how you feel when you tell him. Relationships certainly evolve and change--don't let it become stagnant to where for the rest of his life, you two don't have a peaceful and fulfilling relationship!
I hear what your saying. We actually do get along quite nicely and have a pretty good relationship. I think the thing that frustrates me the most is his new wife and how, imo, she has orchestrated things to where they are now. I don't like being angry at anyone anymore about it, I can't hold onto it, it's really toxic. Although I vent in here about it
I really don't bring the situation up anymore just because it never seems to do any good and I feel like it just makes me look bad... Ultimately though, I think she's pretty fucked up... Life goes on and time elapses. I have to move on with my life and they move on with theirs, right? Things could be worse, I could not have my dad in my life at all, which would be terrible... I just try to be happy with what I have. BTW, I'm sorry to hear about you dad. It's hard to lose a parent when your young
-Sam
Alta818
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...me tooI hear what your saying. We actually do get along quite nicely and have a pretty good relationship. I think the thing that frustrates me the most is his new wife and how, imo, she has orchestrated things to where they are now. I don't like being angry at anyone anymore about it, I can't hold onto it, it's really toxic. Although I vent in here about it
BTW, I'm sorry to hear about you dad. It's hard to lose a parent when your young
-Sam
....and it does give me a LOT to be grateful for! 
to both OF YOU!!! Sammy and Val!!! 
I love YOU GUYS!!Curvie Girlie
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Yeah, but it would be great if your step-mom was cooler. Maybe you can try to talk to her?
BTW, I'm sorry to hear about you dad. It's hard to lose a parent when your young
Yes, but I look at it like this: I rejoice to have another ancestor to watch over me and bless me day to day
Blame it on my Native-American-ness Curvie Girlie
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...me too
Well Jeezus Alta make us all emo over here!!
LOL!! 
Curvie Girlie
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Quick Update
I have made my Excel spreadsheet with 4 tabs: one for calories (I named the tab "nourishment"); one for asanas (Yoga accomplished that day); one for exercise (date, intended exercise, actual accomplished, and calories burned based on my weight for that day), and weight at-a-glance.
I've used this file I created before based on my Excel mastery, but I made it prettier and added the yoga tracking.
I decided to take Kelly's Yoga retreat. "Kelly" is a teacher at the Ashtanga Institute and I took one class from her, Yoga 2, and found her to be very very good. Then I read this:
"I have been interning at the East Bay Recovery project in Hayward. I work primarily with Welfare-to-work clients, from a variety of backgrounds. My clients struggle with all kinds of neuroses as well as deeper grief, relationship stresses, attachment issues, issues around past abuse, and societal issues like gang affiliations and disentangling from them, and basic life stresses like paying rent. Many have a history of drug addiction or have either been raised by or are in a relationship with an addict.
"I am constantly supported by the Dharma teachings and the guidance of the path of Yoga. The teachings of non-violent communication have been helpful as well, simply in helping me to accept a deeper level the immensity of need and the omnipotence of suffering. Strangely, paradoxically, I am not feeling particularly burdened or bothered by the intensity of what I am addressing in counseling. I feel incredibly privileged to be able to do this work, and I feel myself sitting with a great deal of empathy that the practice feels, to me, more healing than anything else."
WOW!
This is the chick I decided to go on a YOGA RETREAT with!!!
Yes, I'm going on a yoga retreat the day after Thanksgiving to that Sunday. I feel guilty that I'm going to spend those 3 days, the days I most hang out with family and friends, doing yoga in the mountains with incredible healer-types (or in some of your minds, wack-ass hippies) but I made my decision! 
I'm very very excited
Also I'm excited about going to a Dubstep DJ dance party at a club in Santa Cruz this Friday!! I seldom go out anymore it seems. I DO go do things with friends in the DAYTIME, or yoga in the evening, but I haven't been bar hopping in ages, nor do I want to! This is all about DANCIN'!! And like Cinderella, I will return early to get my rest and work at the winery the next day.
Which reminds me, I need to email my boss that I won't be working 11/29...
I have made my Excel spreadsheet with 4 tabs: one for calories (I named the tab "nourishment"); one for asanas (Yoga accomplished that day); one for exercise (date, intended exercise, actual accomplished, and calories burned based on my weight for that day), and weight at-a-glance.
I've used this file I created before based on my Excel mastery, but I made it prettier and added the yoga tracking.I decided to take Kelly's Yoga retreat. "Kelly" is a teacher at the Ashtanga Institute and I took one class from her, Yoga 2, and found her to be very very good. Then I read this:
"I have been interning at the East Bay Recovery project in Hayward. I work primarily with Welfare-to-work clients, from a variety of backgrounds. My clients struggle with all kinds of neuroses as well as deeper grief, relationship stresses, attachment issues, issues around past abuse, and societal issues like gang affiliations and disentangling from them, and basic life stresses like paying rent. Many have a history of drug addiction or have either been raised by or are in a relationship with an addict.
"I am constantly supported by the Dharma teachings and the guidance of the path of Yoga. The teachings of non-violent communication have been helpful as well, simply in helping me to accept a deeper level the immensity of need and the omnipotence of suffering. Strangely, paradoxically, I am not feeling particularly burdened or bothered by the intensity of what I am addressing in counseling. I feel incredibly privileged to be able to do this work, and I feel myself sitting with a great deal of empathy that the practice feels, to me, more healing than anything else."
WOW!
This is the chick I decided to go on a YOGA RETREAT with!!! Yes, I'm going on a yoga retreat the day after Thanksgiving to that Sunday. I feel guilty that I'm going to spend those 3 days, the days I most hang out with family and friends, doing yoga in the mountains with incredible healer-types (or in some of your minds, wack-ass hippies
) but I made my decision! I'm very very excited Also I'm excited about going to a Dubstep DJ dance party at a club in Santa Cruz this Friday!!
I seldom go out anymore it seems. I DO go do things with friends in the DAYTIME, or yoga in the evening, but I haven't been bar hopping in ages, nor do I want to! This is all about DANCIN'!! And like Cinderella, I will return early to get my rest and work at the winery the next day.Which reminds me, I need to email my boss that I won't be working 11/29...
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