Curvie Girlie The Diary: Mind Playin' Tricks on Me

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Going to Hawaii, goal musings

Aloha!

I'll be in Hawaii (Biggie I) from 8/22/08 to 8/31/08 to have fun and visit one of my best girlfriends who lives in a shack with her fisherman boyfriend on the Kona side. My rich uncle bestowed a large amount (IMO) of money for me for that trip, of which I used most on a Jeep Wrangler rental to go 4 wheeling over pahoehoe to the best secluded beaches :D I'm looking forward to that!

I want to be less than 142 lbs by then. I still weigh everyday and notice that the weight follows my cycle and sodium intake to the "T". During days 22-28 my weight drops a lot, on my period it rises a lot, and during ovulation it stays steady at a number a few pounds less than when I'm actually menstruating, but a few pounds more than the luteal phase. It's been like this for the past few months. I have to say I was 155 lbs not too long ago on May 1st, so I've been pretty steady losing pounds at a decent rate. Having salty dinners almost always promises a weight gain the next day.

My b-day is on 8-4, I want to be 142, which may seem like a small drop from 144 but I calculated that I should be on direct ovulation (Day 14) that day (lawrd have mercy I'm going to be soooooooo horny that day! Good deal, the Fuck Buddy is almost always available on Monday nights! ;) ) and Day 14 of July, from my records, was a high weighing day. I looked at my food and remembered an extremely salty clam chowder cup I had, but of course there is no way to factor the exact cause.

Last year I was 144.0, too. With hope, I'll be less than last year, or at least the same. That would be nice, remember this? I thought I looked aiight. I think my goal was 135, but yeah, it's REALLY hard to be a beer drinker and have a BMI of 21.14 when my body's natural tendency when I'm not trying to diet is to be at a BMI of 23.5!
 
David: yes, that sounds HARD! It's ALL MENTAL, man, one can't have a breakdown for TOO long, the survival instincts probably take over the Central Nerve System response eventually (we can only hope).

I have had one panic attack to note, and it was stress-induced and I was laying in my bed, the safest place in the world practically. I felt nauseated and ran to the bathroom, then my bronchials and throat started to close up and I started to pass out but the ex boyfriend shook me awake and yelled in my face to keep me conscious.

That's never happened again.

I sometimes (but not lately) get nervous when I climb the 200ft redwood tree I always like to climb, and sometimes I get nervous before I jump into water from 30-40 ft up, but I never get STUCK, so with hope, I won't get panicky when there's two-thousand or more feet below me while I'm aid climbing The Chief (El Capitan). Only time will tell. I'm starting small, man, starting small. 14 feet then 25 then on and on.....
 
Hello wild child! :D

I'm glad to see that you are having a blast and enjoying life to the fullest. Good for you! :) You're doing exactly what someone your age should be.

It's funny that you are super horny the day you ovulate--which makes sense. I tend to be hornier the week after. What's up with that?? Guess I'm weird. :D
 
Hey Kimberly! I was talking to my girl friend last Saturday and she said she's horniest on her actual period. It depends, I guess!

I started, weight went up to 147. Ate more this weekend, going to be a Good Bunny this week. Personal stuff happening, will get to that later--hope all is well!
 
Hey Kimberly! I was talking to my girl friend last Saturday and she said she's horniest on her actual period. It depends, I guess!

Yes this is me unfortunately...LOL

Hey you, nice to see you around...When I see you online your at work and Im usually pressed for time, seems to be my motto lately...just always pressed for time!!!

And you looked fine on your Bday, great in fact:)Your such a cute litlte package!!!
 
Thanks Cerella, I bet your little girls are growing up fast lately!

My "niece" (best friend's daughter) is now 2 and a half and she gets bigger and bigger everytime I see her. She's going to be tall and skinny and beautiful, with an amazingly awesome personality, I can tell already :beating:

Period's almost over, weight down to 144.5 lbs today, good deal!
 
Yesterday I ran in the forest after work, stopped at my gym and did the yoga class after a shower, then went to my friend's house on the way home--BAM! BAM! BAM! BAM! Work is in Watsonville, Forest is in Aptos, gym is in East Santa Cruz, friend is in Scotts Valley, home in in Boulder Creek. It's my trajectory of Things To Do.

Breakfast is usually Kombucha, and/or Acai drink, yogurt and/or whole grain bread, sometimes a Raw Bar.

I don't eat snacks between b-fast and lunch anymore. SOMETIMES depending on what I'm doing physically.

Lunch is whatever is healthiest--salmon terriyaki, fruit salad, Gigande bean salad, Kale Krunchies, tofu sandwiches, shrimp burritos with black beans....it varies.

I snack on whatever I can at work after lunch (that's below 300 calories) before going to work out, lately it's been these 90-calorie-"whole fruit" coconut organic Popsicles.

Dinner consists of Japanese food if I didn't already consume way too much salt that day, salmon if I didn't already have it that day, shrimp burritos if I didn't have it already that day, hijiki seaweed and brown rice n' tofu wraps, and once in a while I'll fuck up and have beer for dinner and just throw down a few snacks instead of a meal. I LOVE adzuki bean mochi ice cream balls and am proud to say I can just have ONE :D and stop there.

I'd say lately I've been skimping on the greens and drinking too much beer. Still, I managed to lose weight since May. A month ago I was having salads almost every day.

Being 144.5 lbs is like a dream, and my various hos always like my body, YAY!

My abs are getting visible, especially when I wave my hands in the muthafuckin air (like I just don't care). My legs are covered in bruises and scars due to my active and outdoorsy lifestyle. I actually MIGHT put on body make-up when I go out, bruises really take away from the mini skirt effect! :p Cellulite is at a minimun, thanks to good genes, probably my regular strength workouts, possibly due in part to my mostly anti-inflammatory diet, and losing fat.

This is very good, since probably about the end of February my weight steady wouldn't leave the 155-149 range and just recently stuck around 147 this month. With my body, I see a MARKED difference between 152 and 147 lbs. Five pounds is a big difference when it's 3 percent of your body weight and comprised of fat. I SWEAR!!!!
Hitting the 144 mark was like an early morning celebration party for me! I THINK that I might make it to 142 by my birthday, that would be SWEEEEEEEEEET! All I have to do it diet pretty much every day until then. Period and its cravings are just over.
OK, work time!
 
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You are kickin' some serious ass!!!

I can't believe our birthdays are coming up so soon!!! My birthday goal was 145, but I don't think I'll be making it. Not because I'm being negative, but because I have been hovering around 147/148 for weeks! Oh well. I'm getting to where I'm ok with that, because even though my weight isn't changing, I can still tell that my body is changing!

I'm so glad to see you here again!
 
Hello Curvie! I am relatively new but wanted to say hello... I read through your diary and we have a few things in common. I myself am an inch shorter than you, and currently 146. I don't really have a weight goal, but I am wanting to become a runner like yourself. Its slow going, but that is expected. I also happen to have a looser ex-boyfriend who took close to 3 years of my life from me... but I have moved on... In a "real" relationship now with the man of my dreams.

You live a crazy exicitng life it looks like and are still able to balance everything. I love it! I just wanted to stop by and say hello. Maybe I can learn a thing or two from you about running!

Cheers,
MissD
 
You are doing great! I too have a birthday goal, but it's not until October so I have a little more time (and more to lose). I also have scrapes and bruises all over me from trail running and hiking, I look pretty rough right now. Lol! I think you'll go beyond your goal of 142 by your b-day, you are doing so well with everything. Don't worry about the beer, sometimes it's necessary. :D
 
I can't believe our birthdays are coming up so soon!!! My birthday goal was 145, but I don't think I'll be making it. Not because I'm being negative, but because I have been hovering around 147/148 for weeks! Oh well. I'm getting to where I'm ok with that, because even though my weight isn't changing, I can still tell that my body is changing!

Oh I know, yours is Saturday, right? Hey, I saw your pictures, and even though I'm the same way with fixating on a number, if you're a Leo like me, you are probably pretty fucking happy with yourself, aren't ya?? You look GREAT! And yes, I think that you probably have an excellent body fat percentage and that's what counts, not the number baby!

Hello Curvie! I am relatively new but wanted to say hello... I read through your diary and we have a few things in common. I myself am an inch shorter than you, and currently 146. I don't really have a weight goal, but I am wanting to become a runner like yourself. Its slow going, but that is expected. I also happen to have a loser ex-boyfriend who took close to 3 years of my life from me... but I have moved on... In a "real" relationship now with the man of my dreams.

You live a crazy exciting life it looks like and are still able to balance everything. I love it! I just wanted to stop by and say hello. Maybe I can learn a thing or two from you about running!

That's very refreshing that you have no weight goal, but a fitness one. Running is one of the best ways to be fit in the world, I was reading a book about the World's Greatest Boxers and their routines and exercise programs, and almost every single one of them seems to run 2-6 miles a day! Stamina and endurance, baby, makes for being great in the sack :reddevil:

Good for you for being with the man of your dreams! That'll come to me someday, I can feel it, but for now it's all fun and variety, hell, I'm still young dammit! Thank you, I do balance my life with work and play, but yeah, I could use more sleep and less BEER! :cheers2: HAHA, it IS summer. I will post in the running thread more if I can, but the advice I have for you is to run on dirt, I have trail-ran in the forest for a few years and have not sustained chronic, common injuries like shin splints and bad knees--which I think is mostly due to the soft surface.


You are doing great! I too have a birthday goal, but it's not until October so I have a little more time (and more to lose). I also have scrapes and bruises all over me from trail running and hiking, I look pretty rough right now. Lol! I think you'll go beyond your goal of 142 by your b-day, you are doing so well with everything. Don't worry about the beer, sometimes it's necessary. :D

Nah, I won't go beyond my 142 goal by Monday, because I'm 145 this morning and it was due in part to a decadent weekend. Still, I ADORE how my body is looking lately and it's really nice, a few months ago I was BEMOANING it and that always is shitty!

Scars, bruises, scrapes....they just prove that we're hardcore cutthroat goddesses is all ;) Take care!
 
a note on running

Hello, my name is Valerie, and I am a runner.

Also, I have a love/HATE relationship with racing...but I can't stop signing up for races.

Why? Because compared to my peers, I'm pretty good. I usually place 1st or 2nd in my age group for women. With the exception of the two large races I have run (SF's Bay to Breakers that has 35,000 people and SC's Wharf to Wharf, in which I was running with my 77 year old grandpa in the back because I had an injured ankle), I have never placed lower than 18 over all women. I was in the Santa Cruz Sentinel (local newspaper) twice last year for running two obscure trail races and placing 1st over all women. The Big Basin race I ran, I came in 4th overall (out of 80 people, yeah I know, big whoop but still) and the paper noted that I was 5 seconds ahead of the county's top MALE runner :biggrinjester:

To this point I have only signed up for 5 and 10Ks, and have never ran more than 8 miles straight in my life.

Until now. I signed up for the SJ Rock n' Roll Half Marathon on October 5th, and am strategically mentally planning my MO. 13.1 miles seems terrible, but I can't not do it.

I hate running races more than almost anything, and I love it more than many things. The prestige, the medals, the family congratulating me (many of whom are runners and placers themselves)....but the first mile.....*shudder*

Running is absolutely about mental toughness as much as it is physical. I have been hot shit up until now but I'm worried about the Half Marathon. I want to place for my age/sex, but it's a HUGE race and lots of competition! I doubt I'll place, but I at least want to be in the top 20% of women my age.

I have no idea how this will go. Anything could happen! All I need to do is be careful and TRAIN.

Wish me luck!:cheers2:
 
I remember an ad on TV I saw years ago, I forgot what it was about, but it had a 30 something married couple talking about whatever the product was and how it affected their active lifestyle. Finally he says to her, "Honey you seem worried." She says, "Well I guess I am a little worried about the Marathon tomorrow." He consoles her, "You've been training really hard, I'm sure you'll finish." She looks at him like he slapped her, "I'm not worried about finishing, I'm worried about winning!"

Go for it!

David
 
David--WORD.

What an arrogant conceited bitch I am, but still, I worked my ass off to get here and I am extremely competitive when it comes to running...
 
Half marathon, huh.

Not my cup of tea but I know you enjoy it and are successful with it. Best to you! Are you doing anything specifically in terms of training for this?
 
Oh right, update

145 today, happy, feeling good.

Running Sunday, yesterday 1 hour weights, shower, then yoga class. I'm pretty fucking flexible, it's a good deal, when I start climbing (I decided to hold off until October after the half marathon) it will definitely dome in handy-dandy.

Last night I stopped by the BC Brewery for a quick pint, and ended up drinking 3 and a half, but paying for only one. The bar tender likes me for some reason. I like him, too, he's totally funny, nice, and smart, it's just that he has a THICK SCOTTISH ACCENT and when he talks really fast I can't understand him :(

So I was a bad bunny and drank beer but I enjoyed it and I feel fine, today.

No beer tonight! Tonight, champagne! :hurray:






Seriously.






Oh yes and I'm meeting with a young man (well, he's 28) this evening for dinner and drinks. He likes me for some reason. I think he's funny and witty but not particularly good looking enough to fuck with. LOL! Still, I enjoy his company.
 
Half marathon, huh.

Not my cup of tea but I know you enjoy it and are successful with it. Best to you! Are you doing anything specifically in terms of training for this?

I'm doing it because it feels obligatory, and I also want to push my limits. Not to mention, it's the Rock N' Roll Half Marathon and there will be bands and cheerleaders and big parties along the entire route. I absolutely LOVE the good vibes in large races.

Specifically, I'm going to follow a plan in one of my books:

Long run Sunday (10-18 miles), cross-training Monday (weights/yoga/whatever), short run or in my case, Kickboxing Tuesday, fartleks Wednesday (HIIT), cross training or Kickboxing Thursday, trail/hill run Friday, rest Saturday, and over again.
 
Hi!

Wow, a half marathon, GOOD LUCK! You'll do great, but you know that already!

You seem to have guys falling at your feet, and who could blame them :p

Kez
 
Well the other night the F.B. said "I love you Valerie" for like, the 5th time, and............I said "I love you too" for the first time! ><

he still doesn't want to be B.F.-G.F., but we decided we're going to make more time for each other. We get along great sexually, we seem to get along great in conversation too, it's just that I'm not head over heels for this guy. And he's afraid of getting hurt.

Eh, whatever, we're very good to each other and that's what really counts.
 
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