Couch POTATO to "MARATHON" HONEY! :)

I'm back and trying to catch up on everybody's diaries. Yours is, as always, SO inspiring and positive!


You are truly beautiful, both on the outside and on the inside, where it really counts.


Love,

Rox
 
Cate: Thank you so much doll! :grouphug: I love that you watched! I love who you are and you are admirable! Thanks for being you and checking on me! I can't really understand this new site structure other than finding my diary. LOL!!
 
Originally Posted by Rox


I'm back and trying to catch up on everybody's diaries. Yours is, as always, SO inspiring and positive!



You are truly beautiful, both on the outside and on the inside, where it really counts.



Love,

Rox
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Awww, thank you Rox!! I miss reading about your crazy wild life!! :) You too are beautiful inside and out!! Hugs to you doll! :)
 
Here is my latest progress body shots. Getting closer..... I'm on Beachbody's Chalean Extreme day 82!! I have my cruise coming up Sept. 9th!! Yeaa Yeaaa!! This week is CRUNCH TIME!!!


I have a dress I need to fit into by then and it's 3/4 way to zipping up! :) Work it is!! You can also check out my Teambeachbody profile: www.teambeachbody.com/AltaFocus and you can always add me as a free accountability partner/coach & workout in REAL TIME in Wowy supergym!! :) I love this forum, I'm having a hard time with this new site though.... Missing my old one.
 
You look astounding! I'm all inspired now to hit the gym even harder tomorrow (not that I'll ever make it to your level of gorgeous, of course. Gotta be realistic. After all- I'm 46 now :) and have had four babies. Aaaaahrg!! I'm lucky that I don't look like a formless blob of goo!!!!)


Anyway- only one week until the cruise. You must be SO excited!!
 
Hi Alta, hope you have an absolute ball on your cruise, you gorgeous thing! Mwah! xoxo Cate
 
Rox!!! You are so silly! Woman, you are HOTTTT!!! Look at your Victoria Secret picture right there! Your face is so chiselled it's inspiring!!! :) Thanks for stopping by. I have no idea how to find diaries in here now. I have to research more.


Cate: Awww thanks, doll! I will!!! I'm really excited about it~!


Irishprincess: Thanks chica!! It's been a long time coming, but I'm HERE! I'm ready to cruiseeeee!! I'm BEYOND excited!!! I bought a new suitcase today!
 
Hi Alta. I just wanted you to know that I was thinking of you while you were on your cruise. Hope you are having a wonderful time, xoxo Cate
 
Hi Cate!! Thank you!!!! I had a blast on my cruise!!! It was so much fun! I was sad to get back, I did a 3 day Shakeology cleanse & am back to my pre cruise weight! Feeling good! I was stuffed the whole cruise as hard as I tried to make the best choices. There is just too much food!! Delicious food!!
 
Hi sweets, LOVE your photos! My favourite one I think, is of you lying on your stomach, with that great hat on, looking sooo happy!! They all look wonderful & you look simply STUNNING! You look so toned, fit, healthy and happy! It's great that you can just get back from your cruise & "shake" that weight off instantly. Seems like you are getting that balance that we all seek. Smart woman! xoxo Cate
 
Cate!! Hugs, doll!!! I'm back!! :) I'm here ready & starting a NEW 90 day challenge! p90x round 2: FIGHT!!


My next goal is my bday!!! :) December 12!!! I really want to be in the 130's!! I reallllllllllllllllly want to be there, YET, I'm loving where I am! I'm so grateful that I'm fulfilling my dreams & helping others along the way. It's so rewarding!! I continue adding people to my free coaching site. I continue helping people with Hypnotherapy & I continue appreciating life! It's so crazy that almost a full year ago, I was sitting & praying that I could make a change. I was so lost in January. I just wanted God to help me so bad & he finally did! He awakened with me the desire to set a goal.


My goal was: TO FIGHT FOR MY LIFE BACK, EVERYDAY! ....So far, I've done so! I continue to write in the calendar in my kitchen & feel so overwhelmingly grateful. It's those days of gratitude that fill me with joy, that give me the strenth on days that I am weak. I find that I welcome those weak days, though. I welcome the turn I take mentally and in my heart & it fills me with Joy & passion. Passion to continue changing and to continue shining that light that I know is there, because I am that light!


I know & feel that each of us on our own path is where we need to be right this very moment. I feel this & know that God & my thoughts, my love, my action are elevating me to the fulfill the greatness that I know I DESERVE!!! AMEN!!!!!!! I feel that !! My heart sings with that now!


I no longer drink. I no longer kill myself. I no longer allow my friends to sabotage me. I no longer allow tears of defeat to hold me back. I no longer stay down when I fall. I no longer feel hopeless.


..................... Everyday. Everyday, is a new beginning!


.........I'm grateful for this. I'm grateful for you, .........you, that is reading this. May life BLESS YOU!!! I'm blessed to be able to touch your life, if in just one second of your day. Thank you!!!!


Here are my new 90 day START shots!! My secret facebook group is where I am all the time! It's great! If you want to join, please message me. <3 to you!
 
Alta, honey!


Good to see someone I remember well, right on the first page of the forum!


Hope you are doing well. You have always been an inspiration to me, and I am glad to have a chance to say hello - and thank you.
 
Cord!!!!!! Omg!! It's been forever!! I'm so glad you stopped in here!!! Thank you for visiting! Love it! :) How are you??
 
I always ask myself,


"HOW DO WE ATTAIN CHANGE?"


...... I always come to the same answer..........


"We do something different than what we are currently doing! Plain and simple......"



As I was thinking yesterday about myself & my fitness journey, I thought about how far I have come in the past years, and in the past year especially.

I really am a changed woman. I have changed my life completely. I no longer drink alcohol which was HUGE in my life for the past 7 years, I no longer sabotage my entire weekends with food and drink, which was HUGE and ongoing in my entire life. If it wasn't one, it was the other. So I was thinking about all of these things, because before I would see a billboard of an alcoholic drink, or drive by a restaurant that had a Happy Hour Special & think, "Oh, I'm going to go eat somewhere anyway! Might as well make it here for special!" Specials here, parties here, social networking functions here, business networking there, family reunions here... and it felt never ending. There was always an event. There was always and excuse.


I think yesterday as I drove and saw those same billboards that in the past would spark those thoughts, I was just REALLY REALLY grateful that no longer is that me. In April, '11, I decided to finally quit. It was hard yes, but I found that the most of my sabotage stemmed from the casual frequent drinks. One here. One there. One extra meal here, one there. .....Before I knew it, I was unhappy, sad, FAT, tired, and LAZY! Alcohol is as well, a way to create avoidance in one's life & I was sure doing that. I was unhappy with me & who I was. I created that change finally, because, I realized one day, that ......"This is killing my dreams."


When I say "this", I mean all the things that we do as humans to create sabotage in our life: Procrastination, excuses, not facing the truth, not being real with ourselves, losing sight of our goals by allowing these excuses, the alchol, not pushing forward when I know better, and sooooooo much more.


There comes a place in one's life, and often it comes many many times, and that place is a place of "turning point".


For me, it's come, MANY MANY TIMES. I can't even count anymore. Each and every time, significant in it's own nature. Each and every time, the bearer of great gifts of wisdom & change. Each and every time, the catalyst for a new chapter of ME. I have to say, that this chapter that my life has opened this past year, is by far the most gratifying towards MY goals, and the goals of others.


To be able to include other's in their own transformative journies has been a passion of mine & one that I am currently fulfilling & expanding. :))) It warms my heart! For those that know me, know that health & nutrition & how the mind works has always been a passion of mine. The reason why? Because I've always struggled with these things. I wanted to master them beginning with my thoughts. If I could change the way I perceive things, then I could change my reality. So far, SO GOOD! I've done it a million times & now I'm showing others how to do it as well. As far as the nutrition side goes, I am doing it! Smashing off 42lbs AGAIN, this year, has empowered me to new limits! Mainly,.....in my mind. My mind powers my body & it's doing a damn good job, might I add! :) Don't get me wrong though.... EVERY SINGLE DAY, I go through struggles. Everyday my mind tries to play tricks on me! Everyday I find myself battling negative thoughts, in a war of negative vs. positive. It has become so much easier now, though. I win most of the time now, where as before I was often defeated even before it began. I had a sense of defeat in my spirit towards weight loss & finally attaining the body I wanted. I no longer feel that way. I know better now. I took a cruise in Sept, and I did feel balanced enough to have drinks while on the cruise & strength to know that for me, that's all I want, ...one big event, once a year, to have a drink & that's it. I came back & no longer think about alcohol, once again. It's become a behavioral habit now. And more importantly, an engraved thought.


It's taken a lot of revelations to get here. Each and every day, I have to "get to know myself" again. I become a new person everyday. I have new goals. I have new dreams. I have new ambitions. I have new fears. I have new motivators. I have new ideas. I have new emotions. I have new thoughts. And I have new obstacles to overcome. .......It's life........ We all do.


This year, in my fitness journey, I realized that I have a lot of resistance towards myself. I resist myself SO MUCH. In the way I eat, in the amount I eat, in the water, in the balancing of foods, in the exercise, in the pushing harder, and especially.....IN COUNTING CALORIES & doing food logs. It's almost like I don't want to go there, because again, avoidance of the TRUTH. I've had so many people including my grandfather who is a dietician for the Navy since I was 6 years old, tell me to count. Show me how. Take me to dieticians. Make me run. Make me do this, do that,.... I was sick of it. I was sick of people trying to change me, and I would use food to spite everyone! I felt that those that really cared about me, would love me for who I am, under the fat, but if I placed the fat on and they still loved me, then they were REAL. How messed up is that thinking, right?


Well, it's what I did. My entire life, I ate & I ate happily. I was comfortable being fat, I was comfortable not being in certain social circles because of it, and I was comfortable with that layer of protection warming my emotions. I was safe under there. That has largely changed now, yet still, I sometimes don't realize I'm doing it, until I catch myself in the middle of sabotage.


Like I said, it's a lifelong journey. The happiness lies in the act of doing. The act of accomplishing. 2 steps forward, 3 steps back. This is life. It's the cycles we live in, yetttttttt, we do get better at it, if we PRACTICE. Practice makes perfect. The reality though, is that we have to get to know ourselves. Observe our patterns. Observe our thoughts. Observe our language to ourselves. How we speak? What are our limiting beliefs? I actually caught one the other day I didn't even realize I had. Well, since I used fat a long time in my life to prevent people from getting to know the REAL ME, I almost never really allowed a large portion of people to get to know the real me. My real thoughts, my real personality. It was always a select few. Those people loved me, but my limiting belief was "That if others get to know me more than they casually do now, they won't like me."


Wow! I was shocked to find that one out the other day....... It made sense to me. Of course. I used fat to sheild me, so now, as an adult why would it be any different, right? .....WELL, WRONG. It is different now. People LOVE me. People care about me. People send me sweet emails daily. People show me & give me gifts for the change I help them with. At that moment, I had to remind myself of all this, and change that belief system now that I'm aware of it,....."The more people get to know me, the MORE the like me!" You better believe that is of my new declarative thoughts to myself because the Laws of Repetition create Association connections within the mind & I know what I want mine to be! You see, the more I change that belief system, the more I am helping my subconscious mind to not revert back to habits in which used to fuel that Life Script thought that I had embedded by choice to myself before.


Another limiting belief system I had was "Diets suck. Healthy eating and exercise don't work." Well, yes, one part of that still remains, DIETS SUCK. The word in itself has the core of "DIE" in it. That should explain in there. I now eat balanced. I love it. I eat everything I want, I no longer harbor guilt towards food & I am happy knowing this! The part of that limiting belief that I have changed is, "Healthy eating and exercise DO WORK!" ..... That's the truth. There is a science to this all, and I've known this since I was 6 yrs old.


Did I want to accept it, though? ...........No! That would have been adding to the fuel of the people around me trying to change me and not like me as I was.


SOOOOOOOOOOO of course, you can see where my resistance towards counting calories, counting fat grams, reading labels and all that jazz was of NO INTEREST to me. Honestly, to this day, it's still really something I don't see myself doing, yet...............back to the age old question............


"How do we get CHANGE!?" ...........and well, back to the age old answer,........... "You do something different than what you have been doing already."


So there you go, Folks! That's what I'm going to DO! There is no try, there is only DO! Yes or no. Plain and simple. "Try" is another form of procrastination, avoidance of the truth. We know whether or not we are going to do something for ourselves or not. Let's just be real with ourselves. It's like when you go somewhere and someone asks you, "Hey, let's do this or let's go here" ...and you damn well know, that you really don't ever have any intention of doing it, and you say,...."Oh for sure! I'll try and call you this week. Or I'll try and make it!"


Come on. Be real. You are never going to do it. You knew that from the beginning. Again, there is no "try". There is only do or do not.


So with that said, I am going to be challenging MYSELF to GROW even more and break free of my limiting beliefs towards healthy eating and exercise, by doing the thing that I would despise the most in the past....... oh yes, that's COUNTING CALORIES.


Like I said, you want different results, you have to do things differently. That's where I stand. I'm serious about melting the last remaining pounds on my journey to getting chiselled & I'm going to get serious about MAPPING where I am going. I''m not going to be driving in my car, my vehicle, my body, without directions any longer. 90 dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyys! I'm challenging myself until my BDAY- 12-12!! So I created a my fitness pal account & STARTED. I downloaded an app on my ipod to use while at home as well, and I started a food journal to make sure I have no excuses.


I'm going to be ovserving:

-Calories

-Carbs

-Satisfaction Levels after each meal

-Sodium

-Sugar

-Protein

-Fat

-Fiber


My Goals:

-Keep fiber high

-Keep sugar low

-Keep carbs in balance & whole grains

-Eat protein at all meals

-Keep fat healthy and in balance

-Keep calories at 1,500

-Keep ingredients low- closer to the earth

-water high



So, off I go........ counting BEGINS!!! :) 90 days!!! Let's see some TRUTH come out!
 
It's crazy how short life can be. Today, a dear friend of my brother was mourned. A wonderful person to me & a shining light that passed at the age of 23.

Is it fair? ...No. I feel that a lot of things in this life are like that.



I cried my eyes out. I couldn't stop thinking about the things and the people that I'm grateful for. There is no amount of time that could ever warn us and or prepare us for how we are going to feel when people pass. It's sad, and it's painful.



I thought about my mom, my dad, my grandma, my two brothers, my sisters & I vowed to myself to write them letters and let them know how I feel about them. The things I know about their soul of being & the things that I want forever to be engrained in their hearts. .......Even moreso, I realize today, that all we have is right now.



That church was FILLED with over 1,000 people in it, and I'm sure a bulk of which couldn't make it. That made me cry even more to see how many people such a young spirit had touched. It made me wonder how many lives I have touched & how many lives I will continue to touch. I vowed to myself then and there today, to continue moving forward in God's path & let him use me to shine the light of hope, love, and admiration on any kind soul out there that needs it.



It's interesting right now,...it's raining. As a child, I was told that when the sky is grey is because God is sad. And when it's raining, is because God is crying. I believe that today George's life will be mourned & that it is a sad day, yet a day of Celebration! I have a new angel on the other side...



I realized that my body is only my vehicle. It's this vehicle that will aide me to get to be at the mercy of God's hands & the love that will propel my mission out into the world.

I appreciate me. I realize that living is in the NOW. There is no space for wounds of the past, disappointments of the present, and or disbelief of the self. There is only space for PASSION OF THE ABILITIES we have. Passion for the knowingness that we are truly in the perfect place at the perfect time, for us & our goals & the goals of God, right now. <3 And so it is! Amen.
 
Turbo Fire & Chalean Extreme coming in the mail!


I'm changing it up. I've been doing this p90x for a while & am instead doing a hybrid of Chalean Extreme & Turbo Fire!

I'm excited just to crack it open! p90x:2 is coming for me in Dec, so that will be the round starting Jan. :) I should be done with Turbo Fire then & Chalean ...

LOVE to LOVE to LOVE how I feel when I workout! I forget to log them in here though...

So far, the calorie counting is making me realize that I loveeeeeee peanut butter too much! Also, it's making me aware of my carb intake and my protein. haha...

..... Very interesting. We'll see what the scale has to say. Lately, it hasn't been on my side.



Not to meantion, love my 25% discount on my programs & Shakeology! yeaaaa! ... (it could be you too, just ask me how!) - let's do this! :)

Ready to see some numbers MOVE on this!
 
My WHY makes me cry!




I think sometimes, and often times, it's so easy to forget WHY we are doing the things we are doing. WHY, we are becoming who we are becoming.

One thing that's helped me tons this year, is having the motto that: "Everyday I FIGHT for myself! Everyday!!!"

...most often, I don't get to workout until SUPER late. It's pretty annoying sometimes, but it has to get done. I have Hypnotherapy clients who cry almost every day!

It's heartbreaking & it fuels me, but at that, I have to remind myself that it's about ME! I've wanted this my entire life. I'm now down from the 189lbs to 149lbs... and it feels good! I have to remind myself of that when I don't want to push play,..LIKE RIGHT NOW! ... It's 12:01 am, and I'm just going to DO IT. Action defeats the fear. Action creates change. Action is the catalyst for the life I've always wanted!

Continue to live & LIVE RIGHT!!! Beachbody baby!! Decide. Commit. Suceed!



http://youtu.be/T4anddXneD0 Here is my latest video blog!
 
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