I did rollerblade 8 miles tonight. Made a delicious healthy meal of whole wheat pasta (very small portion) (my book hasn't got here LOL

) with one egg. I know weird but,...with basil and pepper and tomato ontop. That's it. I sped while riding, and it was liberating!

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A small baby fact about me is that I once upon a time was in a ROLLER HOCKEY TEAM for the YMCA. HAHAH... True Story. Little trophy to prove it!

...but yes.....Sweat. Good times. Found a superrr nice trail by the house, that can take me MILES of smooth riding that is alongside the Orange Superfast Bus. They created their own special lanes so that these buses can defy the normal speed limitss and catapult you to your location in a moment's time. I'd love to go as far as it goes if I have the time and liberty for it one day. Today I was strapped to come up with this 2 hour Self Hypnosis presentation!! AaaaaayyyyyyyYuuuuuuYYyya! I'm watching videos as well,...I'm feeling more secure when I take notes and practice. BUT STILL. 2 hours is a LONG time in front of people.
LOL!... You don't even know how many times I have thought of calling the Director of the school and BULLSHITTING my way out of it.
BUT really, what is that going to do?! THIS IS WHAT I WANTED. Now I'm getting it. I will do everything in my best effort to not sabotage myself. I will not call him obviously.
The goal here is to get myself comfortable enough in front of a group and prove to myself that I can TEACH a whole course by myself without shitting bricks in front of people..HAHAH

...and actually making sense without looking like I'm going to sweat a river out. THIS WAY....I'll actually take the steps to market myself for group talks like I really want to do and see myself doing.
I'll actually do the things that I know, like send all the emails to the group coordinators, and speak to the appropriate people that I know I can book if I only try. See, the problem here is not convincing
them, the problem here is convincing
ME!! People meet me and think, Oh for sure! She says she can do it, looks confident and YES, she can do it! Done, Booked! ......then I turn around....SHITTING BRICKS in my head, like ...WTF did I just do?! I'm SCARREEEEEED! hahah

! Which is how I got here to this opportunity now. LOL!!

! Scarred as shit, hiding behind a smile!!
So that's why this will be good for me! I'll get over the initial fear, and show myself I can do it. Take the steps and book group talks, get more clients from the talks, and eventually line myself up to give group charging seminars on different topics.

Ahhh.., LOL!!! ...But yeah...first things
FIRST!
..The thing I keep thinking about is: What if the director of the school sits in?! Ugg....he's a teacher himself! He always says I'm great, but ...well, what if I freeze?! LOL! OMG...I'm gonna do self hypnosis tonight FOR SURE!!!

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