DAY 7 no drinking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Soooo....I would LIKE TO CONGRATULATE
myself for BEING DAY 7 of no drinking!!!!!!!

.........I'm really excited for the NEW MENTAL change that has occurred.....truly AMAZING!!! Honestly, it was a bit difficult this past weekend...but NO....I stayed strong....and NOW I feel like YEAAAA this is
EASY, SMOOTH SAILING!!!!! I mean I always knew I had it in me....
but it had just been sooooo long since I was mentally prepared to do this!....4 years to be EXACT~!!!!
...I think what
clicked was that DAMN this is such a
waste of my time....and what I'm talking about is all the efforts I've been putting forward. Meaning......let's take a GOOD LOOK at what I have been doing here in the past months......
......well......since MID MARCH here....I've been doing exercise, going to the gym, spinning, running, yoga, pilates, and BLAH!!! DRINKING

...ruining my efforts, gaining and losing the SAME 10lbs.....

...going on Vacation...taking weeks to get back on track...eating the wrong things after the vacations that cause all that weight to creep back on WAY FASTER than it fell off.....UGGGGGHHHH!!!
....sooooo THAT's what clicked....okay here....now let's see....almost a FULL 6 months in and WHAT HAVE I LOST.....almost NOTHING

......so I said FUCK THIS......
my desire became STRONGER than my EXCUSES now!!!....I can honestly say, that before when I would say
ohhhh, I quit drinking,....I really damn well KNEW that the
relationship between us wasn't REALLY over!!!! SO once
again I was LYING to myself, and what would happen....YUP.....I WOULD DRINK, and EAT late night and BAM unwanted LBS again!!!!
....so 4 years ago now, when I did this....I WANTED it like no other...and I GOT IT...I got what I wanted...I worked hard, quit drinking for 10 months or 8 months...something like that...and I did get to 139 lbs.....I WAS HAPPY there!!!...I could have gone more to be really happy....but I WAS in a good place! So I basically got tired of it...tired of me...tired of the LAME excuses...tired of the POISONOUS drinks that got me no where, tired of the lack of results, and tired of the lack of change in action! I realized I was sucking some MAJOR ASS and
guess who's....YUP MY OWN!!! 
So instead of investing MONTHS and MONTHS and getting nothing, I decided after I got back from VEGAS.....with my new INSPIRATIONS, to
really do this and GET WHAT I WANT!! Stop holding myself back from everything I desire.....so I QUIT, and STARTED doing the damn thing....NOW I WANT to loose like 5 lbs a month....not too much to ask for...but HELLA HELLA NEEDED!!!
.....so with this all being said....I DID IT PEOPLE.....there is no GOING BACK now....
at least until VEGAS but still after that,...I think I can come back and DO IT AGAIN...go DRY!!!

.....
...I went to one bar, one party, one restaurant, and made some YUMMY drinks for the man at home this past weekend....and I'll TELL YOU ALL......
what a RELIEF....I MADE IT!!! I DID IT....and I DIDN'T want ANY OF IT, the LIQUOR!!!
.....I CAN SAY...I LOVE MYSELF now....and I WANT THIS....and FOCUS is my NEW MIDDLE NAME!!!!! HERE HERE.....I can't wait for REAL RESULTS!!!.....~~~!!!
....also JILLIAN MICHAELS.....is kicking my ASS

....B(*^#%&(^#~!!! Gotta LOVE HER THOUGH!!!