Ok, so the last week has been hit or miss. I’ve had days where I did really well with food and some days where I did poorly with food. Yesterday was awful, for example. Chinese food for breakfast, ham steak for lunch, and pizza buffet for dinner. I actually didn’t set out to eat that way, but the day was so crazy it just kind of worked out like that. I had an interview for a job in the morning and just ate the first thing I could find for breakfast. In all the hustle, I forgot my lunch and stopped and got something (ham steak). Then my friend invited me out for pizza and it had been so long since I’d seen her I felt like I couldn’t refuse. On the flip side, I did go riding last night and it was ROUGH. I got put on this horse that three other people had tried and couldn’t ride. I was moderately successful (meaning I didn’t wind up on the ground and got her to do mostly what I wanted), but I am paying for it today. I haven’t had to work that hard to ride a horse in a while. So fun though.
Today has been better so far. Fruit smoothie for breakfast, soup and half a sandwich for lunch, and am planning on stir fried rice with lots of veggies and an egg for dinner. I also am trying to be more consistent with my walking on breaks at work.
In my struggles to get back under control the last couple of weeks, I was reflecting on some things related to my journey so far. At this point, I’m quite a bit worse off than I was a year ago both in terms of regained weight and my overall level of fitness. It has occurred to me that in some ways I don’t care about the weight as much at this point. What I really miss is how GOOD it felt to be in shape. I am definitely not in shape now. Or at least not in the kind of shape I was in last year when I was doing Zumba 5 days a week. It’s made me reconsider some of my short term goals. I know I’ve mentioned how much I’ve been struggling with food lately. I’m thinking instead of stressing and focusing on food I need to focus more on exercise and getting back in shape. I know that will make me feel better in about 19 different ways. Then maybe when I’m in a better frame of mind, I can focus more on the food side of things. Right now I feel like I’ve been spinning my wheels and not getting anywhere because of how I’e been eating. I think slightly altering my short term goals might be really beneficial to my overall state of mind and long term success.