Confessions of a food Junkie

Awe I'm really sorry I've been neglecting my diary. I've still been around, but I've had almost no time to post. Schools had me sooooo busy and it's not over yet. I'm just coming up for air.

So Bloodwork tomorrow, then doc's appointment on the 15th and an appointment with the dietician on the 21st. I'm really excited.

I'm still at 312.5 this week, but yesterday I weighted too because I thought it was friday by accident. The scale was nice yesterday and told me 311.5.

It doesn't really matter that much to me anymore because ********

I went down a whole pants size, so I KNOW I'm still doing well regardless of what my sticky old scale wants to tell me. :p

The great thing is my new pants size fits comfortably or is slightly loose in some areas :D It's awesome.
 
Welps, I've figured out the key to my sucess. It is to give one thing/place up at a time.

I'm at 72 days no Tim's so I think I'm ready to add a new place to the No No list and see how I do.

I'm adding no A&W to the No No list. Why: Because there is one on campus that I would like to avoid while at school (pretty easy, only been to that one 1 time this year) but the one near my house is what kills me and my husband LOVES A&W, so if I place a ban on it, it will help me to say no, just like I did with Tim's. My new motto: One place/thing at a time!


NO NO list:
1. Tims (72 days)
2. A&W
 
YaY!!! Kallies back!!!

*jumps up and down and screams like I just won an RV on The Price is Right*

Any you got new pants! wooohooo! You go girl, that is so awesome! sooo.... thats why you measure...huh...*goes to find measuring tape and a pen and paper*

Keep up the good work!
 
Ick, Wish you don't wanna know.

Luckily for me, I have no problem giving up Fast Food restaurants...but Tims I would have a problem with. We don't have one here (which is good for my diet:D ), but when I go out of town, it does me some damage. Good for you Kallie!

And way to freaking go on losing a pants size!!!!!!
 
Hello!
Sorry I haven't stopped by... see my diary for why...
hey that rhymed!
tee hee!
Hope you are well!? Good choice to stay away from A & W... there's nothing good there... or shall I correct myself.. nothing good for you there!
Paulette
 
Awe hey guys!

WEll I finally got my blood taken...find out results on wednesday...along with a pap :mad: oh well....this is how I know I'm finally committed to making this life change. I've put off getting this blood work done for almost 1 year. I've finally gotten it done, plus a physical plus a pap (put off for 4 years)...I was living in denial...now I'm not and I'm slowly but surely working towards my long term goal. It took me 20.7 years to get to here, so I'm committed to changing even if it takes me another 20.7 years. I can't keep compairing myself to the others in the 300's because we are all different and it's not healthy for my weightloss journey. I have to realize that numbers aren't everything as long as my body is giving me positive results. :D

It's taking me longer than I wanted, but I'm still trucking!:)
 
I took my lunch again today. also day 3 no A&W, 75 days with out Tim's. I honestly don't even miss it and neither does my wallet. As soon as I make it to 21 days with out A&W, I want to add another place on to my list. (McDonalds) hehe.

I have so many places and things I want to add, just to have that added to support.
 
You know, you're an inspiration to me every day.
Sure you might not have lost as much weight as others, but you NEVER give up. I mean i would have probably gone insane if i had had to deal with everything you have.

Its so inspiring to see you working at it and sticking with it all this time, it makes my piddly plateaus seem trivial.
Good effort anyway, i hope all your tests sort things out for you :)

*hugs*
 
AWe thank you Wishes! That means a lot to me!!!

I find it really hard not to compare myself to the people who were at a higher weight then me when I started and have no long pasted me. It's easy to get down on yourself and I think that is why so many people just give up. I'm not willing to do that. I'm SICK of being and living an obese lifestyle. I really just want simple things in life for myself and for my son and I think that really helps me going....Whenever I get down, I go back to the first page of my diary where I have listed all the reasons I started this journey and I'm so glad I did that because its easy to forget.

UNless there is something freaky wrong with me, I KNOW eventually the weight HAS to come off. (Thanks to Twinny and M2M's training I believe)
 
Good for you! With that attitude it WILL come off somehow eventually :)

I must admit it sometimes feels bad that ive lost weight when you havnt also. And its not as if you havnt been trying or anything either.
I cant wait till you sort it out :D
 
Well got that pap test done and it isn't that bad.

On to my blood test results....colestoral (sp??) was 2.4 and the doc said that was great.

My blood sugar level was 5.7 in the normal but predispotioned(sp??) level. I have to go back once a year to get it checked.

Thyroid normal.

The doc said that my body is redistrabuting (sp??) my weight and that it could take me reaching my maximum muscle potential before the number starts going down, although I would be losing fat and dress sizes the whole time.:)
 
hmm That explains why i *look* and am a dress size smaller than my friend however still weigh a good 15kg/30lb more than her. Condensed fat lol! :D
 
Welp, yesterday was a big day for me!!!

I got into a huge fight with my supposed bestfriend. I really feel like she betrayed me yesterday, espcially knowing what's happened to me in the past. I was being a sort of jerk but I was really feeding off the nerves and being so scared about my appointment and she stormed out and told me I was a jerk and that this is the angriest she's even been in a long time.... I needed her support and instead she deserted me. GAHHH!!! I'm really angry at her, so yesterday after drama class I headed back to the gym and worked out for 33 mins on the elliptical, travelled 2.21 miles and burned 440 calories :)
 
Hey there! I've been slowly catching up on your journal ... you are amazing. And as for your fight with your best friend ... good for you for working your stress and agression out rather than something unhealthy. That's awesome. You are such an inspiration! Keep it up
Good luck w/ your friend ... I know how disappointing it is when you need them the most and that is the time you feel the most deserted.
 
Oh Kallie, I'm sorry you had a fight with your best friend. They do mean alot don't they, and it hurts when they storm out (especially when they never come back). I've been without a bf for years now. And what your doctor said makes sense, if your gaining in muscle then your not really going to see that scale move for a while. Just keep it up, the proof is in the inches you've lost and the pants sizes you go down. You'll see the numbers slide down soon with all your hard work.
 
Hello SNowbunny!! WElcome to my emotional rollarcoster LOL! and thank you for your kind words!

Iwan ~ I guess I never expected that from her. I don't know if she's feeling the same way for some reason and I've try to talk to her, but she doesn't want to deal with the real issues (she's in constant denial about a few things) and just wants to go on like nothing is wrong. I just can't do that. It feels like poision in my soul. When I do something I usually(almost always) dive in head first, head heart and soul. I really put myself on the line and I almost always end up hurt somehow. perhaps I should listen to dr.phil about not investing myself completely into things anymore. I just have a hard time not doing it.
****warning sort of graphic****
Today I haven't felt well at all. I've eaten a mixed berry gronola (sp??) bar and a rice cake plus water. I tried to eat something more but my stomache immediately started turning and I had diarhea(sp??) (sorry to much info) but their is this bug going around...and at my campus this Norwalk virus is going around. My energy is a little low but I feel normal otherwise.

WHo's still watching survivor?
 
Hello! Same for me! I've been so bad recently about getting to other people's diaries, that it just isn't funny!

I'm sorry to hear about the fight, i as of yet, have never been in a serious fight with my best friend. The only advice I can give is to let a little time pass, so that each of you have time to cool off, then try and patch things up.

Sorry that you've got a bug. I just got over one here. Keep it up girl! you've got it!
 
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