~*~ Confessions and Thoughts of a Girl Looking to the Future~*~

[bikinibound]

PS.. kimberly if you need a bit of Italian in you, you can borrown Vincenzo. LMAO! Love you girls....

I don't think so!! I know where Vinny's been! But it was generous of you to offer to share...

Well, I guess Kari isn't as innocent as she's been pretending to be.. Have we finally corrupted her at last??

 

[still.hurting]

I don't think so!! I know where Vinny's been! But it was generous of you to offer to share...

Well, I guess Kari isn't as innocent as she's been pretending to be.. Have we finally corrupted her at last??

haha, I surely AM innocent. haha. Its just that what she said was so obvious, how could anyone NOT catch that ?
aha, I got a good laugh out of it! You girls will have to keep working on it, no one will corrupt me.. muahahaha.
Im turning 19 in 12 days and Im still as innocent as ever! Honest! :] I guess I must be pretty odd considering Ive
had some pretty sick-minded, twisted friends. ahha!

keep trying- it wont work!

I can laugh at crude comments and dirty jokes, and still be innocent.


xo

 

[AmbaLove]

Yeah, Sheryl, no one wants your used zucchini!!

 

[ummhusayn]

hey jenna
hope evrything is well and all.....but try not to get too stressed cause i heard it can make you gain weight!! I think you need to take more time for yourself...perhaps some gardening? lol
Ok so stay strong....and remember....foreign objects should not be nserted anywhere into the body!!!!! YOU GIRLS ARE SICK!!!!!!!

anyone ever tried the rabbit?lol

Rena

 

[Boam46]

Hey Everyone!

I've been doingn work since early this morning... i'm finally dragging myself to bed and I'm not done yet... I'm going to wake up tomorrow morning to do the same ... but i'll be done soon... and i'll be back to normal me

I'm sorry I havn't been around much... i feel really bad!

Lots of Love and Hugs
~Jenna

 

[momma4alex]

hey Jenna don't feel bad about not being able to support us or post as much as you did before cause we all know how crazy the end of a semester can be and with graduation coming up in 10 days as of tomorrow you will be busy for a little while longer. Once things settle down on the homefront then you can worry about us. Just conctrate on you and getting everything you need done as far as soon so you can be a hot, sexy lawyer like you want to be. We will still be here for you when you can get back to us. Take care and hope your week is great. Keep up the good work.

 

[Bellaryna]

Hey Jenna
Keep up all the good work. Your doing great staying on track with all the stuff going on with you right now. Just remember things will settle down here soon.
When things really start to get to me I go for a drive. I usually have no idea where I am headed just keep going until I find a place that looks peaceful and then I just sit.
How wonderful that PJ quit smoking!!! That is so gonna help you to stay motivated with him going to the gym with you.
Hope everything else is going well.
Bellaryna

 

[bikinibound]

Hey Everyone!

I've been doingn work since early this morning... i'm finally dragging myself to bed and I'm not done yet... I'm going to wake up tomorrow morning to do the same ... but i'll be done soon... and i'll be back to normal me

I'm sorry I havn't been around much... i feel really bad!

Lots of Love and Hugs
~Jenna

Don't feel bad! Your studies come before us--or at least they should..lol. I remember pulling all nighters and crap back in the day. You do what you have to do, and come back and join us when you're done.

 

[MidGaGuy]

Hi Jenna,

Just dropping by to see how you are doing . Hope you had a fantastic weekend in between your studies. Know that soon all your hard work will pay off when you graduate.

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

I don't think so!! I know where Vinny's been! But it was generous of you to offer to share...

You know me... I'm more than willing to help a sister out. hahaaa! Fine.. you can borrow his twin brother, Vincent Zuchinirello Jr.... fraternal twins that is. He's about half the size and has a small nub at the end, but love him nonetheless. LMAO!!!

Yeah, Sheryl, no one wants your used zucchini!!

Ummm listen here, little Ms Hot4Teacher... it isn't used... it's... well.. umm "well-loved..." yah... that's it.... hahaa!

hey jenna
I think you need to take more time for yourself...perhaps some gardening? lol
Ok so stay strong....and remember....foreign objects should not be nserted anywhere into the body!!!!! YOU GIRLS ARE SICK!!!!!!!

anyone ever tried the rabbit?lol

Rena

Perhaps some "gardening" and "foreign objects inserted?" You twisted little thing, Rena.

So ummmm.... this "rabbit" you're talking about.... is that the one with the bunny ears that vibrates and the pearls that go around in circles? LMAO!!! I honestly have no idea what "rabbit" you're talking about, woman!

I'm sorry I havn't been around much... i feel really bad!

Lots of Love and Hugs
~Jenna

Sheesh... don't feel bad. If anything, I haven't been around much this whole weekend either. However, I'm planning to catch up with some diaries and whatnot. Just keep up with finishing up school work, little lady... graduation's right around the corner. Then it'll be party time for you! WOOOOT!

-Sheryl

PS By the way, I have a new found respect for you gym rats and your ellipticals. I was on one today and I swear I could hear my ass cursing me out all the way through, "NooooOooo Sheryl...What are you doing!!! You need me!! I'm your heat source for the winterrrrsssssss, you dirty fackin' &$^#*.... Get me off of this torture device, you heartless woman!!" As always, we'll be here when you "get back."

 

[Healthyhabit]

the rabbit.
One of my good friends worked in a "toy shop". She sold tons of rabbits.

Don't feel bad about disappearing. I do it all the time!

- Sunny

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

the rabbit.
One of my good friends worked in a "toy shop". She sold tons of rabbits.

HA!!!! See! I'm not the only one!!! LMAO! Thanks, Sunny.. if I could high five you right now, I would. hahaaa!!

-Sheryl

 

[ummhusayn]

oh sheyl.... i knew you would know what the rabbit is!!!you sick sick girl...lmao

 

[bikinibound]

Well, I see we are back to our usual degenerate ways! All it took was Sheryl to come back after a weekend off. Lmao

Why on earth do they call this thing a rabbit?? Does it have floppy ears?

 

[Boam46]

Hello Everyone!

I am back for the most part

I got most of the hard tedious work done now... just two full days of constant work. I'm sooo tired from it. Now all that's really left is to interpret the chi-square analysis and write up the results. Then go to my meeting on Wednesday. Then college is officially over for me... graduation is just a formality

My exercise hasn't been completely non-existant. There's been a lot of walking and running around. Pacing out of frustration and stress. I havn't really just been sitting on my ass. After Wednesday its back to formal exercise.... I'll have 8 days to kick my ass before graduation and weigh in. I'm sorry I havn't been doing my formal exercising I really want to and feel crappy about not but there's only soo many hours in the friggin day-- minus substances I can't stay up for all 24 for multiple days in a row anymore LOL

I'm still emotionally all over the place. I've been trying not to think about anything except for my work. When I'm done with it then I can deal with everything else ... I just have to finish my work.

My food has been really good too. I have manage to stay away from the shit food and still am eatign healthy. Not as much or as often as I should --stress and lots of emotions make me feel really sick rather than hungry I'll be back to normal me in just a few days

Thanks for your continued support... I'll get to all your journals of craziness ASAP

Lots of Love and Hugs
~Jenna

 

[bikinibound]

I cannot believe you're worried about exercise at the moment!! Taking a couple of days off while you're finishing up is no big deal--especially if you're eating well. So just keep concentrating on your project, and don't worry about other stuff. Girl, I think you need a massage! It will help you relax and deal with stress.

Hang in there! You're almost done!! Woohoo!

 

[Boam46]

First off, as always... I love ya girl and if you need to vent or whatever, just let me know. I do have free long distance. HA!
Thanks Hun You know I got your back too!!

If anything I really want to push the positive in this post in saying that you are doing fabulous with taking care of yourself. 8 inches, little mama.... now that my dear is a REAL commitment. I know things are shitty right now with your family, but don't lose faith. You just keep being strong, taking care of yourself, planning your graduation, and doing what you've been doing all this time, girl... you deserve it, damnitt.

Positive is soo good... its strange among all this I havn't gotten particularly pessimistic.. its odd for me... but thanks for the positivness... always mose definitly needed =0)

I hope you're gran can make it to your graduation. But if not, know that she will be there in spirit. Neither of my grandparents came to mine. My grandpa died 2yrs before I graduated, and that is something I've always felt bad about. I wanted him to see me graduate and get married, have babies etc, and he never did. It sucks, but you move on. If your gran can't make it to your graduation, just video it and/or take lots of pics and the two of you can watch/look at them together later on. It's not as good as her being there, but it's better than nothing. I'm sure she is proud as hell of you!!

This is the one thing that is upsetting me the most. The only reason I really agreed to walk was for her. I also thing my great aunt being sick (she's younger than my grandmother) makes me realize how little time I do have left with my grandmother =0(

Jenna, honey--you ARE stronger than you think. You prove it to me every single day with the way you push on through whatever shit comes your way. I know it's hard sometimes--you just wanna throw in the towel and say you've had enough. But you are a fighter, and you don't give in. Losing eight inches is such an accomplishment!! You have so much to be proud of. Not many people who have had to go through what you have are doing nearly as well as you are. You have a bright future despite your past. And I know that you are going to be happy if you will let yourself. You deserve to be blissfully happy. Keep your chin up, dear. I'm pulling for ya. We're all in this together.

Thanks Kimberly:"HUGS:: I'm sorry if I havn't been as strong as I usually am... there's only soo many damn hours in the day to: rest, eat, exercise, do work, and feel all these damn emotions I'm trying my best and I promise i'm goign to start kicking my ass harder than hell again in a few days.. all though I havn't actually stopped kicking my ass...just the exercise is lacking and I feel damn guilty about it... can you make there be a few extra non-tiring hours in the day for me??? Pretty pleeez with sugar on top?

Jenna
How wonderful that you lost 8 INCHES!!!
That is so awesome. I bet you just felt wonderful. You must look completely different from when you started. I am so inspired by your dedication. You ROCK!
It must have been a very hard day for you. With all the elated emotions from your size decrease to the news of your great aunt. It is no wonder that you feel drained. Just remember to take some time for you and just let the stress go.
I am so very sorry to hear about your great aunt. The situation with her sounds so very similar to my Grandma this past May. They thought gram was just having pnumonia (sp?). She could never breathe well enough without her O2 to have a MRI preformed. So when none of the family was there to protest to the procedure ( they would have to perform it w/o her O2 ) they went ahead and did a quick scan. She had a cancerous mass growing right on her pulmonery artery leading into/out of her lungs. That was on a Tuesday. There was nothing they could do for her. She was gone by Saturday. I was devastated. My gram and I were so very close. Though I was very sad to have it all happen so fast I am so very grateful for the time I did get to spend with her. Had she not gone in to the hospital no one would of had a clue as to how ill she really was.
I know how you feel about family not sharing info as well. Sometimes I don't even feel like I came from the same group as everyone else.
As for wanting your gram to see you walk that does not make you a bad person. For as long as you could remember that was the way it was going to be. It very well may still. I understand how you feel. You want that one special person to see you achieve your success. It's not selfish it's human. And it's Ok.
I will be praying for you to have peace with the situation and all that is going on. Also for your great aunt, grandma and all the traveling that will be occuring. Just remember Jenna that there are alot of people here who are pulling for you. When you hurt so do we.
Take care of yourself.
Bellaryna

Bellaryna.. Thank you thank you thank you for all of your support. I know I have not gotten toyour journal I promise once things settle down I will get there. You are soo wonderful and supportive I really really appreciate it=0)

I am very sorry girl to hear about your great aunt.
The only advice or encouragement I can give you is that everything happens for a reason. I know it sounds cheesy but its true. Even when everything seems to be going wrong....there is still One who is in control of everything.

I hope things get better and i hope you are able to find some comfort.

Rena

I know it happens for a reason... sometimes it just plain ol' sucks though

Hey Jenna
I'm sorry to read of the situation with your Great Aunt. I hope everything will turn out for the best . Just keep you chin up

Oh and congrats on those 8 inches of waistloss ! Is waistloss a word ? if it isn't it should be ! You keep on keepin on ok

Thanks Paul.... As for Waistloss... if its not a word... it at the very least is permanently in my vocabulary now

Ugh. I hate it when family doesn't tell you important things. I found out my uncle got married and had a kid when the kid was FIVE YEARS old. Ridiculous. My husband found out his sister had been in a horrible wreck and was in ICU when she was RELEASED from the hospital 18 days later. GRR. SO I totally get it.

I love the small details families leave out sometimes!!!

And you aren't being selfish about your grandma, you are being real. Being selfish would be not understanding why she couldn't be there. You are understanding, just disappointed. You're being human!

Thank you... I just feel selfish... I guess because my role in my family has always been to try and make everyone happy... but i've always never tried puttin gmyself first... so the thought of doing so makes me feel guilty.

Hey Jenna hope your day is going well and that things with the family are getting better too. I'll keep your aunt in my thoughts and hope she gets better and that you get to see her before her time here is through.

On a happier note hope things in the weight loss world are going great. Keep up the good work.

Thanks Heather Your right at least the weight loss is going well... one thing is going well... i shoudl focus on the good things

I didnt know he was a smoker, but that is very exciting news!
If he started going to the gym with you it would be very motivating
for both of you and easier to stick to it together! Quitting smoking
is the first step to a healthier PJ, thats awesome!

It will be motivating and fun. He'll drop weight like crazy... damn men! Yea I hate the friggin cigarettes what a waste of friggin money and sucking the years right off your life.

Yay for not smoking!! Him not smoking around you will help you out, too! All that second hand garbage.

I know... they're soo gross...

The key to dealing/coping with emotions is to, well, cope...rather than trying to cover them up with substances. Let yourself feel them, explore the hurt but don't let it bury you. Crawl out of bed each day and find good things in your life. It gets easier.

I gotta keep workign on this pessimism... it seems the key is to find the good... anyone got tips?

That's great, Jenna! PJ quitting smoking is good for the both of you!

I think that it would be good for you to start keeping a paperjournal, or even a journal that's just a locked Word file on your PC, so you can go vent your feelings there when you feel horrible rather than depending on some kind of substance- or exercise any time you feel down!

Hmmm....I could think about this... it may help... maybe I should start painting/sculpting/drawing again...it really used to be my outlet... i stopped since i've been in college i'm not exactly sure why

 

[Boam46]

Hmmm...there was something really fishy about your post.

Thanks for always bringing me somethign to smile at

Your food today sounded really yummy--especially your dinner. God i love ravioli.. You would think I'm Italian the way I love pasta (but not a drop of Italian in me )

Pasta is soo good!!! You ever make homemade pasta... so much better. I am part italian... i have had pasta in soo many ways you can't even imagineLOL

Good luck with your project tomorrow--you procrastinator, you!

Is there a way to do a project that isn't last minute?!?!?

I understand the fact that you've been really busy! Just take you time and focus on school.
I wouldnt want you to neglect your work because of us. You need good marks if youre gonna
be a hot lawyer! haha Its really good that you've been eating well despite being so busy all
the time, awesome job :] Youre losing so much weight, Im jealous, hehe!

You're going to start melting away yourself...especially once you get into that gym at school! Man these weigh ins really keep coming up quickly... maybe stress and nerves will melt some weight off of me LOL

Awww, honey... I'm sorry you've been out of whack as of late, but I know once things calm down you'll be back to your "pessimistic self." HA!

I wouldn't be me without the pessimism.... you gotta love me

Good luck with finishing up the remainder of your project, girl. Woott... graduation's right around the corner. We're all so proud of you, chica!

The end is near... duh duh duh....::screen goes to blackness::

Its soo close yet so far away LOL

PS.. kimberly if you need a bit of Italian in you, you can borrown Vincenzo. LMAO! Love you girls....

oo0ooo man this is where it began... This is very generous of you... but you can't be offering your lovers out without their consent... We don't want any Zucchini Rape going on hereLOL

y'know... I can't stand fish but your dinner sounded reallyyyyyy good!

I love love love fishies... they're soo yummy! Have you ever tried Mahi Mahi... it doesn't taste fishy at all. Its really yummy.
Hope you're doing well on the emotional front dear.
xoxo

Thanks Elle... I've been ignoring emotions to do my work... on wednesday I'm going to deal with life once again LOL

I don't think so!! I know where Vinny's been! But it was generous of you to offer to share...

It was very generous for her to offer her boy toy out without his consent That is frowned upon around here

Well, I guess Kari isn't as innocent as she's been pretending to be..: Have we finally corrupted her at last??

Not yet... I think we need to keep trying... she will succumb eventually.... we are too powerful Muahhahahaha!!!!!

haha, I surely AM innocent. haha. Its just that what she said was so obvious, how could anyone NOT catch that ?
aha, I got a good laugh out of it! You girls will have to keep working on it, no one will corrupt me.. muahahaha.

I wouldn't be to sure about that... you don't know the full extent of our powers

Yeah, Sheryl, no one wants your used zucchini!!

)Or the bread... unless we provide you with fresh zucchini and keep our eyes on it at all times

hey jenna
hope evrything is well and all.....but try not to get too stressed cause i heard it can make you gain weight!!

Damn I'm hoping it makes me shrink LOL... I pace and bounce up and down when I'm stressed...constant small amoutn of exercise LOL

I think you need to take more time for yourself...perhaps some gardening? lol
Ok so stay strong....and remember....foreign objects should not be nserted anywhere into the body!!!!! YOU GIRLS ARE SICK!!!!!!!

LOL.... do you live by that code?

anyone ever tried the rabbit?lol

Hmmm... I guess not... you have to know about the rabbit from somewhere!!!!1

 

[Boam46]

hey Jenna don't feel bad about not being able to support us or post as much as you did before cause we all know how crazy the end of a semester can be and with graduation coming up in 10 days as of tomorrow you will be busy for a little while longer. Once things settle down on the homefront then you can worry about us. Just conctrate on you and getting everything you need done as far as soon so you can be a hot, sexy lawyer like you want to be. We will still be here for you when you can get back to us. Take care and hope your week is great. Keep up the good work.

Thanks Heather... You're soo awesome... and totally right... i just never put myself first. I care a lot more about others than myself...I guess I should work on this too... Maybe I should start keeping a list on my wall... things I need to work on!

Hey Jenna
Keep up all the good work. Your doing great staying on track with all the stuff going on with you right now. Just remember things will settle down here soon.
When things really start to get to me I go for a drive. I usually have no idea where I am headed just keep going until I find a place that looks peaceful and then I just sit.
How wonderful that PJ quit smoking!!! That is so gonna help you to stay motivated with him going to the gym with you.
Hope everything else is going well.
Bellaryna

Hey Bellaryna... You're relaly putting me to shame. I have to get to your diary. Your support has been soo awesome. Thank you soo very much ::HUGS::

Don't feel bad! Your studies come before us--or at least they should..lol. I remember pulling all nighters and crap back in the day. You do what you have to do, and come back and join us when you're done.QUOTE]

I used to have Caffeine tablets and nitequil above my bed... amoung other drugs... to control when I slept... hmmm... I wonder why i've always had sleeping issues to this day?!?! Any ideas???

Hi Jenna,

Just dropping by to see how you are doing . Hope you had a fantastic weekend in between your studies. Know that soon all your hard work will pay off when you graduate.

Thanks Paul ::HUGS:: Its all going to be over soo soo soon!

You know me... I'm more than willing to help a sister out. hahaaa! Fine.. you can borrow his twin brother, Vincent Zuchinirello Jr.... fraternal twins that is. He's about half the size and has a small nub at the end, but love him nonetheless. LMAO!!!

You're hiding his hot italian brothers... that is just not fair... not hiding hot italian boy toys

Ummm listen here, little Ms Hot4Teacher... it isn't used... it's... well.. umm "well-loved..." yah... that's it.... hahaa!

LOL ... I'm sure that's an understatement



Perhaps some "gardening" and "foreign objects inserted?" You twisted little thing, Rena.

She acts all innocent... she's just as naughty as us!

So ummmm.... this "rabbit" you're talking about.... is that the one with the bunny ears that vibrates and the pearls that go around in circles? LMAO!!! I honestly have no idea what "rabbit" you're talking about, woman!

I know those... I used to spend a lot of time in the village... been in plenty of those toy stores LOL! Hahaha... man I miss some of my old friends


Sheesh... don't feel bad. If anything, I haven't been around much this whole weekend either. However, I'm planning to catch up with some diaries and whatnot. Just keep up with finishing up school work, little lady... graduation's right around the corner. Then it'll be party time for you! WOOOOT!

Damn... we gost to throw me a party... LOL... where we all meeting up HAHAHA...We'd get into soo much trouble... I'm sure

-Sheryl

PS By the way, I have a new found respect for you gym rats and your ellipticals. I was on one today and I swear I could hear my ass cursing me out all the way through, "NooooOooo Sheryl...What are you doing!!! You need me!! I'm your heat source for the winterrrrsssssss, you dirty fackin' &$^#*.... Get me off of this torture device, you heartless woman!!" As always, we'll be here when you "get back."

Its time you learned .... it looks soo innocent... you get on it and it shows you whose boss... you just gotta concentrate on making it your bitch liek Vinny.... just not the same way as Vinny... that would get you some strange looks LOL

the rabbit.
One of my good friends worked in a "toy shop". She sold tons of rabbits.

Its very popular LOL

Don't feel bad about disappearing. I do it all the time!

- Sunny

Thanks for coming by Sunny ::HUGS::

Well, I see we are back to our usual degenerate ways! All it took was Sheryl to come back after a weekend off. Lmao

Why on earth do they call this thing a rabbit?? Does it have floppy ears?

Just google it... you'll see why LOL ooo hell I'll do it for you

 

[bikinibound]

Just google it... you'll see why LOL ooo hell I'll do it for you

Ok, call me naive (and I can't imagine that any of you would!!!), but I do not see any resemblance to a rabbit! It looks more like a pink cock with an odd appendage....lmbo Now if it had some big buck teeth...