~*~ Confessions and Thoughts of a Girl Looking to the Future~*~

Hello Everyone!

I am alive and possibly unscathed:rotflmao:

How is everyone doing?!?... I am feeling oddly giddy... probably in ignorance of how i'm truly feeling but hey giddy is good reminds me of certain recreational activities;)

Graduation is one week away...it seems so far but i'm going to wake up and all of a sudden its going to be there. It still seems surreal probably will until I have a diploma in my hand LOL. My grandmother says even if she has to fly from Las Vegas she is going to be there. That makes me happy... also sad... if something were to happy and my Aunt Bernice were to die while she was here i would feel guilty forever =0/ I guess what happens is what is supposed to be:)

We walked outside this morning and there is a beautiful almost dead dragonfly on my steps. I took some pictures. Didn't touch it. Just letting it law here. I have a feeling it has a meaning... I'm not sure as to what it is. Doesn't anyone have any ideas.

Sorry I havn't been around... stress totally sucks... I missed all of you guys.

Food Yesterday:

Breakfast: Cream of Wheat, plum
Snack: gefilte fish
Lunch: scrambled eggs and carrots
Dinner: side salad, grilled chicken steamed broccoli and brown rice

Sending tons of Love and HUGSSSS:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
Boam46 said:
Hello All

Well after tomorrow the stress of school is gone... well there is graduation but that's a whole other beast. Sooo all my emotions are out of control again:rotflmao: I thought I was going to have Thursday and Friday to get back into the swing of things.... but apparently my boyfriends best friend Andrea is coming tomorrow evening thru Friday. Of course he'll be working... i guess it would be good time for us to get to know eachother... just well... i was looking forward to stress free time alone and I guess i'm not in the perfect mindframe to get to know someone. I'm gonna do my best though :) I've lost some weight even though I havn't been formally exercising... at least I think... my face has thinned a bit. Probably all the stress and emotional crap. I havn't eaten anything bad so that has to help:) I'm trying to be happier. A few more days and I'll be back to usually Jenna... I hope at least.

An update on my Great Aunt... They went in to give her a historectomy. They couldn't get all the cancer out of her abdomen because it had spread into her diaphram. That's where we are right now.

Food Today:
Breakfast: 1 whole egg 1 white 1 slice of cheese, carrots, and grapes
Snack: gefilte fish
Lunch: tuna with light miracle whip (my cat got 1/4 of the can and I had 1/2 of what was left after that) on one slice of 15 grain bread and salad
Dinner: Steak with onions on a roll salad

I hope everyone is having a stupendous day

Sending tons of love and hugs
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Is this from abnormal cells. I have abnormals cells, they won't remove them until they turn pre-cancerous. I swear if they see them, why can't they take them out. Thats what I am wondering ...

Anyway I can kind of understand where your aunt is coming from ..
I hope everything turns out well hun **smile**

You deserve the best... :)

Good luck on meeting Andrea ...... I am sure she will be impressed!

best wishes
love yas
and thanks for all your support you have given me ..

ttylater Jenna
always
natalie jo
 
nataliejo said:
Is this from abnormal cells. I have abnormals cells, they won't remove them until they turn pre-cancerous. I swear if they see them, why can't they take them out. Thats what I am wondering ...

No its Cancer... There was a grapefruit sized cancer on one of her ovaries. Its all over her body. :cry: :cry:

Anyway I can kind of understand where your aunt is coming from ..
I hope everything turns out well hun **smile**

You deserve the best... :)

Good luck on meeting Andrea ...... I am sure she will be impressed!

best wishes
love yas
and thanks for all your support you have given me ..

ttylater Jenna
always
natalie jo
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Thanks Natalie Jo... Thank you for all of your continuous support!!!:hug2:
 
Quote of the Day

The first requisite for success is the ability to apply your physical and mental energies to one problem incessantly without growing weary. ~Thomas A. Edison
 
Hey Jenna !

Just checking in on you to make sure you're feeling alright.
I havent been able to reach you on msn, hope things are well. :hug2:
Im really proud of how far you've come and how strong you're still going!
Im sorry that you have to feel the pain of putting up with things that are
beyond your control, cause those are the things that hurt the most. No
matter what happens, I am proud and you have my love and support. Im
here for you whenever you may need me.

You are doing amazing.
That's cause YOU ARE amazing. <3


xo!
 
Hey girl! I'm glad you're all done, and came through it unscathed. That is wonderful that your gran is going to be there for your graduation! I'm so happy for you. Don't feel guilty! Enjoy your special day--you've certainly earned it!!

Now I think it's time you rewarded yourself with some "household activities." wink wink. That is if you haven't already!
 
Boam46 said:
Hello Everyone!

I am alive and possibly unscathed

How is everyone doing?!?... I am feeling oddly giddy... probably in ignorance of how i'm truly feeling but hey giddy is good reminds me of certain recreational activities;)

Graduation is one week away...it seems so far but i'm going to wake up and all of a sudden its going to be there. It still seems surreal probably will until I have a diploma in my hand LOL. My grandmother says even if she has to fly from Las Vegas she is going to be there. That makes me happy... also sad... if something were to happy and my Aunt Bernice were to die while she was here i would feel guilty forever =0/ I guess what happens is what is supposed to be:)

We walked outside this morning and there is a beautiful almost dead dragonfly on my steps. I took some pictures. Didn't touch it. Just letting it law here. I have a feeling it has a meaning... I'm not sure as to what it is. Doesn't anyone have any ideas.

Sorry I havn't been around... stress totally sucks... I missed all of you guys.

Food Yesterday:

Breakfast: Cream of Wheat, plum
Snack: gefilte fish
Lunch: scrambled eggs and carrots
Dinner: side salad, grilled chicken steamed broccoli and brown rice

Sending tons of Love and HUGSSSS:hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
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Lookout Graduation, here comes Jenna! :hug2: :hug2:

I think I have heard that if a Dragonfly lands near you, it signifies change . If that is right then it should be true for you as you are about to change from your life as a student !
I bet there's some websites somewhere that can give you all the meanings that Dragonflys symbolize.
:hug2:
 
The day is drawing nearer and nearer. I am so proud of our little hot lawyer to be!

But...I cannot believe you actually eat gifilte fish. EW.
 
Hello Everyone:hug2: :hug2:

Sorry its been awhile. PJ's friend Andrea has been visiting and things have been crazy. Its been good though. I am finally feeling refreshed... which is good considering that there is going to be craziness next weekend with graduation, my birthday, and my family here. Total craziness!!! LOL =0)

The MRI is to total mindfuck... i hate those friggin things... eventhough i hate .... totally hate being in the tube... my fear is definitly getting stuck in the tube.

The next 3 days are going to be hectic but I am going to the gym. The last week or so without the gym I think has been good for my body. Had given it a rest. All my aches and pains have gone away and I'm feeling refreshed... for some reason I have reached a sort of inner peace.

I havn't fallen off the wagon... I have been eating healthily and I've done lots of walking around exercise:) . Doing really well and just getting my crap together its actually really nice.:)

Friday I got stung by 3 bees that flew outta the side of my house. I went to fix the freakin screen on my window and outta this tiny ass hole in the side of the house a swarm of bees came flying outta the house 3 flew up my shirt and stung me... dumb fuckers... it was like the scene from my girl.... except I didn't drop my glasses on the ground, step on the them crawl around and lay there for the bees to ravage me LOL.... I just ran like a mother as fast as I could into my house!!!

I really miss you guys and its been awhile since i've been here steadily because I've been selfish and dealing with my crap... I'm very sorry for that:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

Weigh in and Graduation on Thursday:eek2: :eek2:

Sending tons and tons and tons of Love and HUGS
 
Boam46 said:
Hello Everyone:hug2: :hug2:

Sorry its been awhile. PJ's friend Andrea has been visiting and things have been crazy. Its been good though. I am finally feeling refreshed... which is good considering that there is going to be craziness next weekend with graduation, my birthday, and my family here. Total craziness!!! LOL =0)

The MRI is to total mindfuck... i hate those friggin things... eventhough i hate .... totally hate being in the tube... my fear is definitly getting stuck in the tube.

The next 3 days are going to be hectic but I am going to the gym. The last week or so without the gym I think has been good for my body. Had given it a rest. All my aches and pains have gone away and I'm feeling refreshed... for some reason I have reached a sort of inner peace.

I havn't fallen off the wagon... I have been eating healthily and I've done lots of walking around exercise:) . Doing really well and just getting my crap together its actually really nice.:)

Friday I got stung by 3 bees that flew outta the side of my house. I went to fix the freakin screen on my window and outta this tiny ass hole in the side of the house a swarm of bees came flying outta the house 3 flew up my shirt and stung me... dumb fuckers... it was like the scene from my girl.... except I didn't drop my glasses on the ground, step on the them crawl around and lay there for the bees to ravage me LOL.... I just ran like a mother as fast as I could into my house!!!

I really miss you guys and its been awhile since i've been here steadily because I've been selfish and dealing with my crap... I'm very sorry for that

Weigh in and Graduation on Thursday

Sending tons and tons and tons of Love and HUGS
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Hey Jenna!

Im glad youre doing well, and feeling better ! :) :hug2: I hope you've had fun visiting with Andrea, is she nice? As far as the MRI.. I know what you mean! The tube is so narrow and cramped. MY fear was being able to fit in it! haha, and once I was in it, THEN I started to panic about getting stuck, haha.

Im glad youre feeling refreshed. Its nice to take a small break to let your body rest. It will feel good getting back into your gym routine without having to do it with aching and pains. You have been doing so well, your weigh-in is going to be great! Im nervous about mine, I dont think Ive lost any more than 4 or 5 lbs, so I wont be reaching my goal for school, but I KNOW that you will come so close to your goal because you have been doing so well, and working so hard! :D As for the "my girl" flashback, im sorry ! I HATE bees, but when you explained it as a "my girl" like experience I had to laugh! I love that movie.. I have My Girl 2 as well. haha, maybe ill watch them today while im doing my workout, lol ! thanks.

One more thing Jenna...

Dealing with your crap IS NOT SELFISH ! You need to remember that we are all going to understand that things can get hectic and busy. Everyone needs time for themselves, its essential for everyone! Dont feel bad, we will all continue to support you, even when things are tough. *HUGS* Congratulations on graduation! Wish I could go! :D Has your family seen your transformation yet ?? Your weigh-in thursday will be like a little present to yourself for saturday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US, Jenna ! *hugggggs!*

:)xo!
 
still.hurting said:
Hey Jenna!

Im glad youre doing well, and feeling better ! :) :hug2: I hope you've had fun visiting with Andrea, is she nice? As far as the MRI.. I know what you mean! The tube is so narrow and cramped. MY fear was being able to fit in it! haha, and once I was in it, THEN I started to panic about getting stuck, haha.

I just kept my eyes closed and deep breathing... the worst is when the machine vibrates and you start shaking... its just horrible!!!

One more thing Jenna...

Dealing with your crap IS NOT SELFISH ! You need to remember that we are all going to understand that things can get hectic and busy. Everyone needs time for themselves, its essential for everyone! Dont feel bad, we will all continue to support you, even when things are tough. *HUGS* Congratulations on graduation! Wish I could go! :D Has your family seen your transformation yet ?? Your weigh-in thursday will be like a little present to yourself for saturday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US, Jenna ! *hugggggs!*

:)xo!
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Ahhh... yes... but you know me... I feel horrible when I'm not aiding those I care about. I still always worry about others before me... i guess that's not necessarily a bad thing but somethign I probably should work on!
 
Boam46 said:
Ahhh... yes... but you know me... I feel horrible when I'm not aiding those I care about. I still always worry about others before me... i guess that's not necessarily a bad thing but somethign I probably should work on!
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I feel the same way. If I have to chose homework over wlf, then I always feel like a jerk b/c hw comes first. I really hope that I get into a decent schedule, but I'm beginning to doubt it. If anything, there will be more work to do. And I don't mind it, but I feel so neglectful of all my wonderful friends.

A little law humor for you. My Into to Law and Ethics prof said that our class should be called Into to Law and a Day in Ethics, b/c, being a lawyer himself, there's just not much ethics he can teach us. Hehe. The guy is funny, full of dry wit, which I just totally love. [He also says that no one fails his class. Woot!]

Miss you! I am so excited for your awesome week! *big giant squishy hug*
 
Jenna Bean,

first off let me say that I misssssss you. (Isn't it weird to miss someone you've never met really in person? hahaaa Trust me, I feel that way about a few of you... ) Good work with keeping up with exercise and eating right.. woohooo! That just goes to show, you've made it a lifestyle... :D So graduation's Thursday, huh? Hmmm.... have you purchased all your graduation clothes? If so, I'm expecting pictures damnitt.. hahaaaa! Well, just wanted to send you my love and wishing both you and the family a wonderful weekend/ week! WOOT!

love yas...

-Sheryl

PS Did the bees sting your boo-bees to make them
even MORE huge than they were to begin with? hahaa!
 
MsGhettoBooty said:

PS Did the bees sting your boo-bees to make them
even MORE huge than they were to begin with? hahaa!
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If so, maybe the bees were planted by PJ (you know how men love big "boo-bees") as an experiment. :rotflmao: :rotflmao:

Girl, I second everything Kari said. Do not feel guilty for not being around more. When you're busy, you're busy. And you are not selfish for dealing with things. That's what this whole forum is encouraging--not just weight loss, but healthy lifestyles all around. You just do what you have to do, and don't worry about us. Yes, we'll miss you (I sure did!), but we understand. :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2: :hug2:
 
Hi Jenna
It's good to hear that you are feeling more peaceful and relaxed.
Glad to hear that you are keeping up on the eating and walking.
Can't wait to hear about your graduation and to see some pics of you walking.
Good Luck sweetie!!!
Keep the Pace!!!
Bellaryna
 
Just sending you some hugs!
:hug2: :hug2: :hug2:

bees are freakin ridiculous. I've never been stung before (knock on wood) but I run like hell to get away from them. Sorry to hear you got stung!! :[

xoxo
 
Hey jenna, sorry you got stung that hurts like crap. I know i have gotten stung before. what's worse is i tend to have an allergic reaction to them so i have to take benadryl when i get stung and that usually puts me to sleep for a few hours. anyways hope you have a great week and that things are not to stressful with graduation and family time. Keep up the great work.
 
Jenna.. I miss you and your swollen "boo-bees." hahaaa! I hope you and PJ are doing well. Just dropping in to send you hugs and a couple gropes.

-Sheryl
 
Just dropping by to say Hi Jenna!

Sorry you had to get attacked by the pack of boob hungry bees . I'm sure they were initially meaning to look but not touch :eek: *L*
Hope you are doing well otherwise. Take care :hug2:
Paul
 
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