~*~ Confessions and Thoughts of a Girl Looking to the Future~*~
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SoSel
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I haven't touched weed in years. But every once in a while, I think about it. It's like, I want to relax or be silly soooo bad. Ultimately, I don't find it hard to resist. I'm not going to fuss at you for thinking about it. Quitting anything is quitting. People always think about their exes or their first pet or the last game they played. Keep resisting it because, in my experiences, it's just not worth it. 
Boam46
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I havn't necessarily quit... i'm just too poor to afford LOL
I havn't been a high everyday type of person since the beginning of high school... but you know every once in awhile ... I just want to... but for now its resistance
Just really hard when you get a craving and there's people all around you with it... but i've been managing... and its not too hard
Rena: I've never really had the munchies... its always sort of mellowed me out ... never been like omg I need food now... I have seem people it does that too... and boy is it kinda gross... yet hysterically funny especially when you're high to watch
Man now I'm thinking about the beginning of high school and middle school and all the crazy silly people I used to hang out with.
I havn't been a high everyday type of person since the beginning of high school... but you know every once in awhile ... I just want to... but for now its resistance Just really hard when you get a craving and there's people all around you with it... but i've been managing... and its not too hard Rena: I've never really had the munchies... its always sort of mellowed me out ... never been like omg I need food now... I have seem people it does that too... and boy is it kinda gross... yet hysterically funny especially when you're high to watch
Man now I'm thinking about the beginning of high school and middle school and all the crazy silly people I used to hang out with.
Beautiful1
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Thats crazy you brought up the subject of bud!! I used to smoke so much before I got pregnant and had kids!! I have smoked it after my kids were born, but very very seldom and never ever around them ..fyi!! Anyways, hahaha Last night, my husband brought some home and I said...WHY?? I'm doing so good....LOL we don't ever buy it, because I don't want to spend money(cuz i don't have any) on it or go looking for it. See this is how we smoke. When it comes around, which is not often, so it's crazy this subject came up now!! HAHAH, I did get the munchies, but I ate a serving of cereal, and drank a lot of water it was still fun and I did great!! Pass it this way 
and I said...WHY?? I'm doing so good....LOL we don't ever buy it, because I don't want to spend money(cuz i don't have any) on it or go looking for it. See this is how we smoke. When it comes around, which is not often, so it's crazy this subject came up now!! HAHAH, I did get the munchies, but I ate a serving of cereal, and drank a lot of water it was still fun and I did great!! Pass it this way
Boam46
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Erica: HAHAHAHA I soooooooo know what you mean about when it comes around... I'm too damn poor to afford it now... but who knows in the future... its so villified no reason to be.
Have you ever heard of the cannibus cup held by High Times in Amsterdam every Thanksgiving... We're thinking about going in 2008. My boyfriends Father would be going with us... and possibly mine HA
Have you ever heard of the cannibus cup held by High Times in Amsterdam every Thanksgiving... We're thinking about going in 2008. My boyfriends Father would be going with us... and possibly mine HA
Boam46
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I just had a minor/major freakout!
I realized that there's 59 days until I have to take the LSAT again... I totally freaked! I don't know why I'mg onna have a whole month to do nothing else but study... I'm just crazy!
Then my mind started racing to no law school is gonna accept me ...eventhough I scored in the 80 percentile the first time I took it... and I have a good GPA ... and good recommendations...
Then I went to after i take the LSAT I have to start looking for a job and no one is gonna want me... especially since I'm fat ...a nd it just kept goign I wound myself up enough to have a panic/asthma attack... it was wonderful
Sooo... now I'm off to the gym to try and work the stress outta my head and calm down
Why can't I find some sort of confidence in myself
I realized that there's 59 days until I have to take the LSAT again... I totally freaked! I don't know why I'mg onna have a whole month to do nothing else but study... I'm just crazy!
Then my mind started racing to no law school is gonna accept me ...eventhough I scored in the 80 percentile the first time I took it... and I have a good GPA ... and good recommendations...
Then I went to after i take the LSAT I have to start looking for a job and no one is gonna want me... especially since I'm fat ...a nd it just kept goign I wound myself up enough to have a panic/asthma attack... it was wonderful
Sooo... now I'm off to the gym to try and work the stress outta my head and calm down
Why can't I find some sort of confidence in myself
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bikinibound
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Don't worry about the LSAT or getting into law school, or getting hired once you're out. Goodness girl. I think you DID smoke some of that weed last night..lmbo. You will do just fine on all of the above things. Just take it all one day at atime.
And good for you for going to the gym to work out your frustrations and anxiety instead of going to the refrigerator. You deserve a joint for that..lol
Me, I spent a summer living with two people who couldn't get out of bed in the morning until they smoked their first joint. Then another in the afternoon, and at least one more at night. Our apt reeked of pot (and I HATE the smell of it). I've had tons of opportunities to try it, but never did. I think seeing the way my roommates were "addicted" to it was a huge turn off. Just have no interest in it--give me a pint of Ben & Jerry's peanut butter cup or a pitcher of sangria instead..lol
And good for you for going to the gym to work out your frustrations and anxiety instead of going to the refrigerator. You deserve a joint for that..lol
Me, I spent a summer living with two people who couldn't get out of bed in the morning until they smoked their first joint. Then another in the afternoon, and at least one more at night. Our apt reeked of pot (and I HATE the smell of it). I've had tons of opportunities to try it, but never did. I think seeing the way my roommates were "addicted" to it was a huge turn off. Just have no interest in it--give me a pint of Ben & Jerry's peanut butter cup or a pitcher of sangria instead..lol
SoSel
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Oh honey, you'll be just fine. First off, real life isn't tv. I know lawyers/attorneys and most of them are middle-aged, pudgy bellied white guys. I know you look infinitely better than that!
Secondly, I'm sure you will do well enough to get accepted. Get a little confidence in yourself. I had to! Sure, I'm still a college freshman [taking one sophomore class- woot!], but with my self-esteem, getting back in took a lot. You're already in. You're intelligent. You have SO MUCH going for you. Don't hold yourself back. Would you want me to? Set a good example for me. ::bats eyelashes::
I hope the gym helped you. And I'm sending a big hug your way. ::hug::
Secondly, I'm sure you will do well enough to get accepted. Get a little confidence in yourself. I had to! Sure, I'm still a college freshman [taking one sophomore class- woot!], but with my self-esteem, getting back in took a lot. You're already in. You're intelligent. You have SO MUCH going for you. Don't hold yourself back. Would you want me to? Set a good example for me. ::bats eyelashes::
I hope the gym helped you. And I'm sending a big hug your way. ::hug::
still.hurting
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awhh, Jenna.
everything will be okay.
if you need anything, msg me on MSN, okay?
*hugs*
awhh, Jenna.
everything will be okay.
if you need anything, msg me on MSN, okay?
*hugs*
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MsGhettoBooty
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I just had a minor/major freakout!
I realized that there's 59 days until I have to take the LSAT again... I totally freaked! I don't know why I'mg onna have a whole month to do nothing else but study... I'm just crazy!
Then my mind started racing to no law school is gonna accept me ...eventhough I scored in the 80 percentile the first time I took it... and I have a good GPA ... and good recommendations...
Then I went to after i take the LSAT I have to start looking for a job and no one is gonna want me... especially since I'm fat ...a nd it just kept goign I wound myself up enough to have a panic/asthma attack... it was wonderful
Sooo... now I'm off to the gym to try and work the stress outta my head and calm down
Why can't I find some sort of confidence in myself
If I could give you a boobie-squarshing hug in person right now, I would.
First off, you should be proud of yourself just finishing up with your Bachelors. Also, if you scored in the 80 percentile with your LSAT's, you'll do just fine. My baby sister is going through the exact same thing. She's taking her LSATs about the same time and worrying just like you. Don't doubt yourself, Jenna.... You're doing great with "changing your life," so focus more on that at the moment. Calm down.. relax... breath... and don't stress out. As always, everything else will fall into place. -Sheryl
Boam46
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Thanks everyone for the support. I feel much much better now. Just a minor freakout I have moments where I feel like the world is gonna crash down over me... but after the gym I feel like a jillion times better.
It is sooooooo damn hot today and it was friggin boiling in the gym it felt like the a/c wasn't on. I'm sure it was but its a big place with lots of bodies!!
I did an hour and 40 minutes of cardio... it felt damn good but I really didn't feel like doing much after.
Then I come home and the cable i out... there having outages in my area with not ETA for when its gonna be fixed LOL... All I got was it should be fixed sometime today lol Wonderful... thank you for the specifics
Now I gotta go run errands everywhere I'll be back later to read everyone journals and leave comments.
Snack: leftover chicken and bean mix from the burritos
Lunch: whole wheat roll with beef bologna turkey and muenster
Lots of love to every Tons of HUGS
It is sooooooo damn hot today and it was friggin boiling in the gym it felt like the a/c wasn't on. I'm sure it was but its a big place with lots of bodies!!
I did an hour and 40 minutes of cardio... it felt damn good but I really didn't feel like doing much after.
Then I come home and the cable i out... there having outages in my area with not ETA for when its gonna be fixed LOL... All I got was it should be fixed sometime today lol Wonderful... thank you for the specifics
Now I gotta go run errands everywhere I'll be back later to read everyone journals and leave comments.
Snack: leftover chicken and bean mix from the burritos
Lunch: whole wheat roll with beef bologna turkey and muenster
Lots of love to every Tons of HUGS
Boam46
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Alright... so I may be a paranoid freak... going crazy over things that aren't happening yet... but if I did smoke some maybe i wouldn't of freaked
Ehh... but if I didn't freak I wouldn't be me... what would a mellow me be like... any ideas?I have never been that way... although there have been times when I have smoked that much... but its not like I couldn't survive
That first part cracked me the frig up! Its soo true... some of them are also really creepy! Damn now I gotta lose all the weight so i can be a Hot lawyer making all the old pudgy guys drool... :: making note to myself to do so::You're right Selena.... I can't hold myself back because then what kinda accountability buddy would I be... anytime you see me berated myself Just slap me around a bit!
If I could give you a boobie-squarshing hug in person right now, I would.
O0ooo those Boob-sqarshing ones are the bestest!!
You're soo right I gotta focus on the positives I've accomplished... however, i've rarely done so... you should slap me around bit too and make me look at what i've accomplished.
Damn I'm gonna be sooo friggin bruised up!
Beautiful1
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Don't stress becasue then your body seems to HOLD on TIGHT to your fat! It seems that stress if comforted by fat, so the less stressed you are the more fat will go away. I hope that made some sense?
And Yeah I know cannibus cup! I have dreams of visiting amsterdam! that would be cool if both your dads go, I know my dad would too!! hahaha
I hope you get to go next year when your all skinny and lookin' FlY...hahaha
And Yeah I know cannibus cup! I have dreams of visiting amsterdam! that would be cool if both your dads go, I know my dad would too!! hahaha
I hope you get to go next year when your all skinny and lookin' FlY...hahaha
Boam46
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Don't stress becasue then your body seems to HOLD on TIGHT to your fat! It seems that stress if comforted by fat, so the less stressed you are the more fat will go away. I hope that made some sense?
And Yeah I know cannibus cup! I have dreams of visiting amsterdam! that would be cool if both your dads go, I know my dad would too!! hahaha
I hope you get to go next year when your all skinny and lookin' FlY...hahaha
It made sense... maybe my fat will just expell from my body under stress... hopfully i'm a freak
You should come with us... we'll be skinny and hot as hell going from coffee shop to coffee shop
Beautiful1
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hahaahah I wish! Maybe I can get a babysitter LOL! That would be so awesome! hell yeah we would be high and Fly! hehehe
ummhusayn
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ok so sure you are right....weed has gotten a bad rap. I personally dont drink or do drugs for about 4 years( religous restrictions) but i do remember being high and i know its much better than drunk. Ive never seen to high people fighting over a girl or doing other stupid things. I personally thinkn it should be legal way before alcohol is!!!!
Anyways..... dont fret, youll do great on your test and youll be a hot big boobed lawyer...even the judge will be swayed by your good looks!!!
Have a great night and take a warm bubble bath with plenty of candles!! It'll help you relax!
Rena
Anyways..... dont fret, youll do great on your test and youll be a hot big boobed lawyer...even the judge will be swayed by your good looks!!!
Have a great night and take a warm bubble bath with plenty of candles!! It'll help you relax!
Rena
Boam46
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Hah! Yes I will forever have big boobs... especiially since I'm gonna get them fixed with surgery when I'm done with all of this... not necessarily implants but most certainly a lift!!!!
My friends have always made fun of them... now I gotta learn to use them to my advantage
Rena: you are soooo right... high people are soo mellow... and they don't get all imparied and disoriented!!! Drunk people just get soo damn stupid sometimes!
So after I have my awesome workout at the gym today in the sweltering heat... I take a shower ... and head out to run some errands and pay bills (always fun) ... so I locked myself outta my apartment.
I had to break into my apartment by removing an air conditioner from the outside and the hoisting myself throuugh the window onto our bed... totally freaking my cat out like crazy... so now I'm dirty and sweaty once again...
Then once I get that sorted out the guy who owns the little furniture woodshop next door (its sooo cute and bucolic was hanging this huge wooden sign up directly in the sun and his ladder was all wobbly because my apartment is down a hill on the back of a house... so he asks me to hold it... I was sooo hot and sweaty after and I was using my muscles like crazy to hold it steady... more of a work out... so I got a post work out workout today yay!!1
But the hysterical part was me breaking into my apartment and then hoisting my fat ass through a window.
Dinner: chicken ceasar wrap
Lots of Love and Hugs to everyone!
My friends have always made fun of them... now I gotta learn to use them to my advantage
Rena: you are soooo right... high people are soo mellow... and they don't get all imparied and disoriented!!! Drunk people just get soo damn stupid sometimes!
So after I have my awesome workout at the gym today in the sweltering heat... I take a shower ... and head out to run some errands and pay bills (always fun) ... so I locked myself outta my apartment.
I had to break into my apartment by removing an air conditioner from the outside and the hoisting myself throuugh the window onto our bed... totally freaking my cat out like crazy... so now I'm dirty and sweaty once again...
Then once I get that sorted out the guy who owns the little furniture woodshop next door (its sooo cute and bucolic was hanging this huge wooden sign up directly in the sun and his ladder was all wobbly because my apartment is down a hill on the back of a house... so he asks me to hold it... I was sooo hot and sweaty after and I was using my muscles like crazy to hold it steady... more of a work out... so I got a post work out workout today yay!!1
But the hysterical part was me breaking into my apartment and then hoisting my fat ass through a window.
Dinner: chicken ceasar wrap
Lots of Love and
Hugs to everyone!
ummhusayn
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hoisting a fat ass through a window is a huge workout.....i havent done it in years!!!!lol At least you had the bad to break your fall!!!!!!
ah wellll.....its bedtime for me....if i can get off of this damn addictive computer!!! If you all would just go to bed i wouldnt have to keep writing in response to your latest post!!!!!!!!!lololol
Goodnight!!
Rena
ah wellll.....its bedtime for me....if i can get off of this damn addictive computer!!! If you all would just go to bed i wouldnt have to keep writing in response to your latest post!!!!!!!!!lololol
Goodnight!!
Rena