CollegeGirl808 Journal

[CollegeGirl808]

I just joined the forum about a week ago and i thought that maybe if i keep a journal than it would help with my motivation. I am in the begining stages of starting to lose weight, but i have said i am going to lose weight for 3 years and i never do anything about it. i did lose some the summer after graduation from high school. i was down to 115 lbs. at the time my boyfriend (whom i am still with) went to basic training and AIT for the army and i missed him a ton. so when i was used to being with him all the time and he was gone so long i just ran and ran.
I am not sure what i can do to get that feeling of "wanting to be a better me" again. at the time i was really doing for him i think. like i wanted him to say WOW when he got home (and he did). But its not really right to want to lose weight for someone else is it? i mean i do want to lose it for me but obviousely that isnt enough to get me out and to the gym. i guess i should really look at the reasons i want to lose...
1. I want to wear the cute clothes that are out there for smaller girls.
2. I dont want to have to "diet" when i go on vacation next year to look good for that, i want to look good all the time.
3. I want a healthier and stronger heart and body due to my family history.
4. I want to be healthy and fit for my kids (when i have them) to be a good roll model.
5. I want to feel better about myslef in my body.
Hopefully my reasons will help be my motivation to finally do this thing! I am so frustrated with saying i am going to lose weight and work out and then not doing anything about it. Do other people have this problem? This is my time to prove to me that i cant do it.

 

[LiLMoreBliss]

I'm totally with you! I feel so frustrated with myself everytime I say I'm going on a diet or working out because I always end up backing out. I recently got a membership to a gym around here and I got my boyfriend to come along with me so maybe having a partner in all of this will make it last this time. For me it's not about what other people see...it's about what I see. I look in the mirror and I can't even believe that I've gotten the way I have. I think I've thrown away almost every picture from the last few years. I know I can do it...And I know you can do it too if you really want to!

Ash

 

[CollegeGirl808]

ya i really need a partner! i had one for a while but then she turned into a psyco and i had to distance myself from her. now i am back to square one of saying im going to go to the gym tonight and never go. im glad you have a motivator! I feel the same way. i dont know how i got this bad! we will soon see the bodies we once knew. lol.

would you want to email back and fourth (PM) to "challange" each other? like keep each other on track. then maybe if i had someone asking me..."did you work out today?" and i said no like 3 days in a row i would have somene to get after me and vice versa. let me know if you would be willing to do that.

Good Luck!

 

[*tiffany*]

Hello there. I just stopped in to read your diary and found that I could really relate to some of the things you were saying. Until recently, I was the worlds worst at saying that I would start tomorrow...but tomorrow never came. I ended up feeling guilty and frustrated that another day had passed and I had not done a thing to change my life. That sounds a lot like what you are saying that you feel like. I finally DID make myself go and the more I go, the more I actually WANT to go.

Also, I do not think it is wrong to want to lose weight and be healthier for someone other than yourself. I want to be healthier for my kids and Hotter for my husband. But like you said, I want to do this for me, too...I just use my family as some motivation...to be a good role model, like you said. Anyways....

Nice to meet you and congrats on taking the first steps to a healthier life!

 

[LiLMoreBliss]

Ya...I'm absolutely willing to do that!

I can't (PM) till 5 days from when I started it said...I forget when I started lol but I only think it's gonna be another day or so.

 

[CollegeGirl808]

Ya...I'm absolutely willing to do that!

I can't (PM) till 5 days from when I started it said...I forget when I started lol but I only think it's gonna be another day or so.

ok that is fine. i look forward to our motivation lol. keep me posted on how you are doing also i would love to know how others are doing and staying on task.

Katie

 

[hypergal286]

Hey we sound pretty similar and I think we can relate to each other a lot. If you're looking for another person to be motivated with..don't hesitate to message me. I'm 21 and looking to drop 10-15 pounds that I put on over the past 2 years. Good luck with everything!