Cheryl's Diary

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OK, I guess I should start with the basics, I am a 29 year old mother of 3 boys ages 4, 6, & 8 who at one time was in a size 3 and am now 195 lbs and very unhappy with what I see in the mirror!! I have a supportive husband who loves me no matter what, but I know he wants the women he married back. My kids are so happy to get me off the couch and doing things with them instead of watching things with them :jump: ! They are also a great source of support for me, I want to set a better example for them than I have with the way I eat and I want to make sure I am here to watch them grow up! I am a stress eater and with a 6 year old with a chronic disease (Cystic Fibrosis) who is on a high fat, high calorie, & high salt diet (who I need to stop eating with), I need to find a way to break old habits and do what it takes to get in shape, because my stress isn't going anywhere!!!! My target weight is 120, but I haven't set a goal to reach that yet, I am trying to do this one step at a time, so right now my goal is to be at or below 160 by the beginning of 2008. I have changed what I eat, changed how much I eat, and have started to go on daily bike rides with my boys as well as getting outside with them more. I work full time and am exhausted most of the time, so I am trying to start small and work my way up to exercising more. With God, my boys (including the hubby :) ), and my parents to help me I know I can do this! Of course I have fears of failure, I have tried and failed countless times before, but with a lot of prayer and this forum to turn to when I get weak and just want to eat, I think I can do this!
 
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I am ashamed to admit that I messed up today, I ate the wrong things and then decided I was too tired to go out for my bike ride and now it is after 10 at night and a little too late to go. I am not going to let myself quit! I want this too bad, it is time for me to feel better about myself and for my kids to see that I can follow through on what I started!!
 
You know what they say, it takes 28 days to form a habit. I don't have a clue how long it takes to break one though! You seem determined to get where you want to be. Don't lose sight of what you really want. When I started losing [seriously] last year, I wrote a list of why's, what motivated me, and how to achieve it. I have to update that list about every 3 months b/c things change, but it's something to consider. Keep something around you that will motivate you and bring a smile to your face on those hard days. Of course, WLF is pretty awesome too. There are so many supportive people here.

Good luck! I'm right there with you, trying to lose from 194 to 140. ;]
 
Thank you for the advice! I keep pictures of my kids and pictures that they made me at work to keep me motivated at work, and I have been focusing on them when I think about giving in to the cravings and going to the vending machine. They are my main motivation!! I think I will take some time to make a list up, that would be another great tool!
 
You are going to make it Cheryl!!! Being a Mother is hard work, but I know you have it in you! We all do. This forum is changing my life one day at a time. Just keep looking at today, and don't focus on tomorrow. Remember...If you can get through today, you have succeeded.
 
Kids are great little motivators. I remember coming home from the park with my kids and having to go cry in my room b/c I couldn't be as much fun as the other moms. Now I can play a lot more and we talk about exercise and healthy foods. It makes me happy b/c my parents did not do that with me.

Don't lose sight of yourself though. You have feelings and needs and wants too. I see that you're working full time and have a house full of boys. Maybe you can use exercise as your me time. [That's what I do!] Or single out one person at a time for, let's say, a walk, so you have a more intimate bonding time.

Just my humble opinions, lol! :] Have a good one!
 
Hey there don't worry about the mess ups. It's going to happen especially when you have all the foods that kids love around the house. You may have to start over again and again until it becomes more natural to you......
 
SoSel said:
Kids are great little motivators. I remember coming home from the park with my kids and having to go cry in my room b/c I couldn't be as much fun as the other moms. Now I can play a lot more and we talk about exercise and healthy foods. It makes me happy b/c my parents did not do that with me.

Don't lose sight of yourself though. You have feelings and needs and wants too. I see that you're working full time and have a house full of boys. Maybe you can use exercise as your me time. [That's what I do!] Or single out one person at a time for, let's say, a walk, so you have a more intimate bonding time.

Just my humble opinions, lol! :] Have a good one!
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I know what you mean!! I would feel horrible when I got home from the park! Watching some of those mothers running around with there kids when all I could think about was sitting down and catching my breath! But, that is one of the things that motivated me to do more whether I felt like it or not, seeing a mother about the same size at me yelling from the bench when her daughter wanted to show her something and leaving shortly after getting there because she was tired. It was like looking in a mirror, and I didn't like what I saw!! Through the generosity of someone who was moving we now have a swing set in our backyard and I am learning to force myself to go out back with them and actually play with them, but just watch from a chair, or worse, through the window. I feel better about myself, and I can tell the kids love it!!

I never have taken much time for myself, that is another thing I am learning to do. Right now my me time is what I am doing right now :) . I am so glad I found this forum! It really helps when I am feeling down!!!
 
MasterofJune said:
You are going to make it Cheryl!!! Being a Mother is hard work, but I know you have it in you! We all do. This forum is changing my life one day at a time. Just keep looking at today, and don't focus on tomorrow. Remember...If you can get through today, you have succeeded.
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hillbillylee said:
Hey there don't worry about the mess ups. It's going to happen especially when you have all the foods that kids love around the house. You may have to start over again and again until it becomes more natural to you......
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Thank you both! I agree, MasterofJune, this forum is also changing my life one day at a time! I never thought I would find a place (even on-line) where I would feel so supported!! Having people here who not only understand, but actually care really helps!!!
 
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