Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

Oh Jess, You poor thing! What a horrible time you have had. Headaches are horrible but headaches that last a whole week must have felt like an absolute nightmare! These bugs are getting worse every year! Drinking water is so important. I have between 2-3 litres every day but when I had the virus at Xmas I think I drank more like 5 litres a day because I had awful headaches and a high temperature & was really scared of becoming badly dehydrated. I had convulsions one night so upped my water intake & took paracetamol every 4 hours for about 10 days. Sweetie I really feel for you! I'm so glad that your headache has gone. Take it easy please & make sure that you are well before you tackle any strenuous exercise. Sending you lots of love, xoxo Cate
 
Breakfast Half cup of coffee

Lunch 3 chicken sticks with fries , salad and 1 pitta bread grilled

Dinner Tiny bit of poridge and half a glass of low fat milk

Snacks Diet coke , 1 mini toast , 2 malteasers(not 2 packs , 2 balls!)



Thanks ladies for understanding how awfull it was...im still not me though~i have this pain in my stomach from last Wednesday and it still hasnt passed.I am taking pills for sensitive tummies but no change.Im not exactly in pain.It feels like when you throw up a lot and then your tummy aches cause of all the pressure.Thats what it feel like.Also it makes me feel so bloated.....

Well,i put my jeans on to go to the store today and i saw the weight gain.they are a bit tight and not so loos as 2 kilos ago...ow well what would anyone expect when i found a plastic choc wrap in those jeans pocket?????Still im really disapointed cause i didnt eat so bad to gain....its like if i even think Food ill get fat again.

the way my tummy is feeling i can imagine living on soups and tea but i know i'll be back to my usual self wanting crap food all day long!

Im off to read somemore diaries.

i do feel bad,not only health wise.Its just ..strange.I got this feeling ,everything around me doesnt seem right.Its like im not livivng my little life i know.I cant explain.I feel really out of it...like its notreally hapening.....ok enough with the drama!!!!
 
Jess, You'll feel more like yourself soon. Your last week sounded so awful that it may take a while to get over. I didn't just bounce right back from the bug I had sweetie. It knocked me about mentally as well as physically & I didn't have a child to look after. Eat well sweetie or you'll feel even worse. Be as healthy as you possibly can & take good care of yourself, xoxo Cate.
 
Sorry for been away,i am really in a bad place these days....i just got better from that terrible virus that gave me such headaches and wham....woke up this morning with fever and sore throat.Turns out i have swollen tonciles with pus....I have been sleeping most of the day and i am on antibiotics....Plus Mario has a little fever....God....I keep thinking to myself what on earth would i do if touch wood i had to face a really big health problem?i think i am overdoing it and hate the fact that i feel so down....I keep saying its nothing there are so much worse things that people go through but still it doesnt seem to lift my spirits...



i am still nearly 80 kg.Not on any diet....trying to not eat comfort food....i just want to be normal.I was even taliking about nt sending him back to nursery with all these bugs going around but its not easy to make that desicion causeit has done him so much good in his speach.I am making some chicken broth noodle soup cause it hurts to swollow.Hope all are ok and please forgive me for not coming on as before.
 
Jess, Jess, Jess :grouphug: Sweetie, you don't have to apologise for feeling so down. Having a bad virus, with a nasty infection, makes you feel so bad that it's hard to feel positive. I know sweetie, because at Xmas that's how I felt. I felt so bad that would be how I would feel if I was dying. You will get better & you will put this behind you. You will get back on track because you want to be healthy & fit & kind to yourself. You deserve to be sweetheart, don't let this bug hurt your self-esteem. I'm sending you lots of love Jess & hope that you get better soon. In the mean time don't eat rubbish. Get as much good nutrition into you as you can xoxoxo Cate
 
AHeya sweetie :)

So sorry to hear that you are still feeling really rubbish, that proper sucks :(

I know how awful it is when our little ones alway seem to catch one thing after another at nursery but please dont take him out, especially seeing as he loves it. Children need to be around other children and pick up these bugs so that they built up an imune system to them. As her gets older he will be able to fight them off much easier. When Jack went to nursery he had one cold after another for about a year but he is hardly ever ill now. In his entire time at infants/junior school (6 years) he only had about 4 days off ill. and in the 2 yrs he has been at 'high school' he has had 1 day off!

Sending lots of get well soon vibes to both you and your little man...Big hugs too :grouphug:
 
sorry your throat is so sore. try and get some rest. geeze so many are sick its terrible. hope you feel better over the weekend.
 
thanks you guys so much!

I am feeling better today.The antibiotics are probably working.

I put my running shoes on to go to the store to get milk and it felt like its been FOREVER that i havent run....I feel sad and as if i have let myself down.I know i wasnt well but still i am sure i could of managed a half hour....The weather isnt helping its been raining for so many days and cold...TOmmorow is Sunday.If the weather is better maybe i'l l go/Dont think it will affect my throat./////

Did ok today.Not fantastic but ok...ws looking at marios christnening video today...OMg...its only 16-17 kilos away and i felt really bad//////i dont want to be like that ever again,and i see that i have gained a couple of kilos.so im really feeling scared and hopeless....

I must start working out again to minimize the damage....
 
Jess, Let yourself heal please sweetie & stop beating yourself up. Rest, rest, rest :hug2: . Heal :Angel_anim:. Exercise :driving:. Big hugs :grouphug:, xoxo Cate
 
I know i know....But you see after eating a few crapy things last night after posting.About 1000 calories worth, i really got to thinking WHAT AM I DOING????I wokw up this morning and i made my coffee and i felt i could eat ANYTHING i want and i DIDNT like that.I didnt have anything yet but usually i know i will have some quaker or 2 mini toast with sime cheese..Not ANYTHING...so im starting to feel comfortable eating ANYTHING//////This is the point where it all turns arounds.....I have reached the point where i must choose do i want to loose or at least maintain?or do i want to gain?

Oh boy!I have reached this point many times before.Ok i didnt loose so many kilos as i did now but still even a small ammount of weight i had lost all went right back on ,from this point on...I am really scared.

So NO i dont want to gain anymore weight.I want to loose.I think one of the reassons im feeling really bad everyday(things i havent mentioned on here) is because im not eating well anymore and MORE because im not working out.So until i can go for a run i'll have to settle for what i used to do,i have lots of equiptment here at home.I'll start mu 120 crunches again and my arm weight.Its forever i havent used them.I wont do any thing if im not ok health wise,but when i am feeling fine its a shame to just do nothing.....

I feel im just starting out..,.!!!!!
 
AHeya sweetie :)

:iagree: with Cate hun, you DO need to rest and recover.

Go and check out my post for today on my diary.......Look at where i am!!! Look at what YOU have done for me!!! Read it and say to yourself 'I CAN DO THAT. I WILL DO THAT!!' You can do it, you have come so far, you just need that little bit of encouragement to push you on and i will drag you over the top of that hill you are climbing, kicking and screaming if i have to. You have got me to where i am and i will not let you give up on yourself my lovely.

Give youself a few days to get over your illness and then kick some arse!!!!!

Love you
 
Breakfast Coffee (70), 2 slices of bread (140)

Lunch Cabbage salad a potatoe made into french fries////1 slice of bread (thick) a piece of choc (71)

Snack Coffee (70)

Dinner 2 grilled sandwich (650) 2 diet cokes


Workout~~~ 120 crunches (variation of regular,side,ans legs in the air)

arm weights for about 20 minutes.


I feel like i havent had anything to eat today...~~~imagine how much i was having on my real bad days to feel like this~~~~!!!!

I managed to do some exercise today and it felt great.It felt NORMAL.i felt normal again.Strange feeling!!!!Its like the Out of place .not me feeling vanished~~~!!!!I know it wasnt much but it was something!

We went to my mother in laws today and she had made ckicken pie.I saw it and forgot all about my promise to be good,i took a huge bite..and thank goodness it was really awfull~~~~~so i didnt have it!!!!!Then i was thinking how silly it was of me for just leting food take control over me again....So i made another promise to myself that i will take time bfore actually eating something naughty.Like i'll wait 5 minutes to really think of what i am going to put in my body.Then if i really want it after 5 minutes i'll have it/.

If all is well im going for my run tommorow.I am fine really.Im still taking antibiotics , i must finish the box,so its only for another day but i am fine.

Mario is getting a fever every night for 3 nights now.At 7pm and then i give him his muti and he is FINE...If it happens again tommoro night i wil take him to his doctor.


Kate thank you!!!I do need to be pushed....but really you are so amazing~~~~!!!!!i know i was the 1st to answer your diary...i remeber that night so well~!!!you made me mad!!!!!:)but it was just a little push for this amazing STRONG woman to be unfolded~~~~~!!!!!you are so determined!!!i really admire that.I am not...So yeap it willtake some pushing me to get my behind moving again~~~!!!!!


Tonight is a reall horrible night here in Grece with politic matters and the people have closed the center of Athens protesting ...they have put fire on several shop down in the center and all the big politicians are making this big desicion tonight about the future of this country.It is the first time i actually cried for this matter.Its not just politics anymore.It the lives of all that live here...and they have made a mess of it...They are GREEKS and they have sold our country...im really sad,i do belive its the end for this lovely place...Already our every day life has been affected..and every day the vote for something worse....

Plus this morning i saw that Whitney died R.I.P.......Its so horrible that that happened to her..what an amazing voice she had...


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Just want to confess 2 things.

1st my husband brought me a big sugar doghnut for late breakfast and i ate it....

2nd i weighed at 78 kg..so it probably was all water retention balloning me at 80 kg and even 82 at one point!!!!!

3rd I know i said its 2 things but i just remembered.Its a great day and i'll be going for my run later on!

Be back tonight!

feeling great that my abbs are hurting!!!!
 
sorry things are so screwed up in Greece right now. Sounds like its really rough there. I didnt realize you were having some a rough time either. I am hoping it will pass for you and you will be able to switch gears quickly. Thats great that your abs are burning. It sounds like a good workout. I still have issues getting myself to exercise. hhmf. Its great that your weight came back down. hopefully that made you feel a little better. I think that the fact you already know of the things you are doing wrong is helpful. then you know what you have to do to fix it. its just a matter of switching gears and kicking ass. dont give up!
 
AHeya sweetie :)

I don't feel like a strong, determined woman, honestly. When you say that i think 'how has she come to think that'. YOU are strong and determined when you are on track and your head is in the right place, you have just had alot of shit to deal with lately. I am pathetic alot of the time, trust me :)
You are no different to me OK!!! And i will stand behind you with a big stick to keep you on track and in a positive mood if that's what it takes (get me, being all bossy ;) )

I'm so sorry about the crap your country is going thru, it really does suck :(

Bossy Kate again. Hope you enjoyed the doughnut cos.....I am banning you from them :eek: until you reach 75kg!!!!!! What do ya think to that challenge?
So chuffed for you that 80/82kg was just retention :)
:hurray: :hurray: Jess is back to her running :hurray: :hurray: You rock girl :)

Love and hugs :)
 
Breakfast Half cup coffee

2nd breakfast Coffee ans sugar doghnut big one....

Late lunch Plate of spagghetti with gratted cheese and a plate of lettuce salad

Snack Cereal bar 1 diet coke

Planning to have 1 apple and a couple of carrots


Exercise 120 crunches various

Arm weights

Week 3 , day 3 on C25K!!!



So as i already said i had a bloody doghnut for breakfast....I woke up at 8ish to get ready to take Mario to nursery but he had a fever......so i got undressed had some coffee ,got online and then at about 10ish i went back to bed....Then my husband woke me up(us up)at 1pm//////:blush5: with doghnuts for all!!!!i ate it while in bed still..there was sugar all over the place!Then after tiding up and stuff i went for my run.There is a stadium so close to my house.Like 10 minute walk not even.So i went there to check if there is a place to run and there is.Its not as nice as the other stadium i was going but its so close to home i'll be going there from now on.

I found it really difficult and again i was so out of breath.I was hanging on there really cause there was a bunch of teenagers that where practicing so i didnt want to look exhausted!!!!!!omg how pathetic is that?????anyway it was really nice to see all these young kids into sports and not on the streets,drugs ,eating smoking ect!(ok i am officialy a grown up......................................)

Then i came home had my late lunch and went to the store to get us apples and carrots for tonight~!

I just finished my crunches and weight liffting i do feel so great for doing all this again/It feels RIGHT!!!!!It feels like its me again!!!!!!WOW!!!its me doing workouts and not just sitting on the couch!even though i have some difficulty sometimes it still is wonderfull that working out feels so good and right~!Who would of told me this a year ago?I do struggle to get myself moving but if i dont i feel really shit.:sifone:



Size32 thanks for coming by here~~~~Yew it is really bad here the last two years but now its even worse.With all the new things that have been decided and voted our basic salary is down to 400 euro a month.....i have no idea how things are going to work out...All these old people that are going to get less then half their pension/////Well//////I just hope for the best!!!!

I do know what i do wrong but still its not easy changing gear as you said!!!!!I am having a good cople of days , mostly cause ive started working out again i feel great!!!!
 
Wee Hoo!!!! Well done Jess on getting out there &amp; kicking butt!!

Now you had better get off to bed &amp; get some sleep. It's late sweets &amp; you have had a big work-out. That's grandma Cate talking!

It does really suck what is happening in your country sweetie. We see footage on the news often &amp; it's very sad. Seeing people throwing fire bombs at the police &amp; trashing old buildings is just awful &amp; won't improve things for the country at all. It will be even more important for you to do what you can to lift your spirits. Exercise &amp; eating healthily will certainly help your state of mind. It's lovely knowing that you are sitting at your computer at the same time as me. BIG HUGS sweetie xoxo Cate
 
Breakfast Coffee , 2 koulouri...., 1 bread roll.....

Lunch 2 chicken wings , a lot of mashed potatoes/carrots with broccoli and peas.....

Dinner the potatoe/broccoli thing

Snacks 1 cereal bar , 2 diet cokes

some low fat yoghurt


Exercise Week 4 Day 1 on C25K!!!!

(10 minutes of walking in total and 16 minutes of jogging in total)



I feel i havent had a good day calorie wise.I know that it was healthy my lunch but i had more that i should of and also i had that yummy bread roll in the morning.....Anyway its done and over.I did feel bad earlier on but once i went for my run i feel ok about the not so good day~

I wasnt going to actually go for my run ,cause my husband came home late at 8pm ,he sat down ate and went off to shower.Mario was already sleeping(PLEASE GOD LET HIM SLEEP TILL THE MORNING~~~~~~) and i was playing farmerama!I thought "why not just go?Get up put your shoes on and go.Now" so i did!~!!!!!

I was supposed to do week 3 all over again cause i hadnt exercised for long and i did find it difficult on Monday, but instead i did week 4!I thought i would stop if i couldnt manage it.I was shit scared~it was my first 5 minute run!!!!!

Started with 3 minute run then 5 minute then 3 then 5 again.It was more difficult the first 5 rather than the last 5!It wasnt easy but it wasnt hell


I did make a point of jogging real slow so i could manage the whole 5 minutes.It took me 5 minutes to run 700 meters.thats nearlly 2 rounds of the field.~I was actually listening to my music rahter than waiting for the lady to say walk!!!!

Tommorow im not going i'll do what ive been told and not run 2 days in a row.


Im really tired right now.Im going to finish and go see a movie!its spanish and its a thriller something about a secret room in a house that the girlfriend gets traooed in to spy on the guy!!!!I just hope that Mario stays asleep!He was so sleepy all afternnon but i didnt want him to sleep at 6 cause then i would be up all night so i took him to the park with his tricycle but it was freezing so then we took the bus (to buy more time!!!) to go get a kiddy movie and took the bus back,,,,I was really trying to keep him awake!But he fell asleep while watching Horton!!!!OHHHH PLEEASE KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED HE SLEEPS ALL NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
A:hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: Yay!!!! 5 mins of running!!!!! That's is soooooo awesome my lovely :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray: :hurray:

Look at how far you have come! That is so awesome and you did the right thing by taking it slow and steady. I can't wait to read your post when you do your first 20 min solid run (i bet you are shit scared of it, i was too but the total euphoria you feel when you have done it is just mind blowing :) )

So so proud of you sweetie :grouphug:

Oh and fingers crossed you get a decent nights sleep :)
 
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