Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!
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katehunibun
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AHeya sweetie
I've been away and am just catching up with everyone. Sorry to hear you are having a tough time at the moment
Sending you lots and lots of hugs 
Hopefully everything will turn out ok.
I know it is hard to keep going with the healthy eating especially when life is being a bitch but hang in there my lovely, hang in there. We are all here for you.
I've been away and am just catching up with everyone. Sorry to hear you are having a tough time at the moment
Sending you lots and lots of hugs Hopefully everything will turn out ok.I know it is hard to keep going with the healthy eating especially when life is being a bitch but hang in there my lovely, hang in there. We are all here for you.
overtherainbow
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ACoooeeeeeee, I'm baaaaaaacccck!!!
xxxxxBig hugsxxxxx I really hope you sort everything out with your husband soon and that you are happy again xxxx It seems to be one thing after the other, getting sick all the time and now this.
I hope you don't hate me for disappearing for so long xxxxx
xxxxxBig hugsxxxxx I really hope you sort everything out with your husband soon and that you are happy again xxxx It seems to be one thing after the other, getting sick all the time and now this.
I hope you don't hate me for disappearing for so long xxxxx
jasper1
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awww!!!it was lovely getting all you guys mssages this morning!!!Thanks so much!!!!!
Looks like all of us where away and came back exept Cate!!!!
Well....
I ate a lot of a chocolate thing i made yesterday....oooooooo a lot!~~~~~!!~~~~~~and i woke up this morning took mario to school and stoped by the stadium.Started my run!!!!I was sooo tired doing it....you know its the first time my chest hurted.It felt like my chest while i was smoking...out of breath and aching legs.I was actually smiling though while running i was thinking "Yeah now go home after this and eat the rest of the chocolate cake yoiu silly thing."Its really an eternal battle with food..mostly sweet stuff.I dont feel really bad about it though.I was thinking how silly i am for eating all that crap and now im trying to run and its difficult for me.I feel i am still learning.I dont want to be so strict on myself now with guilt.Cant be bothered.
I came home just now and i had my breakfast oats with ice cold milk and raisins.(and two tea spoons of sugar.)
I think i will manage well today and i PROMISE to myself to my aching legs and lungs that i will not eat any more of that chocolate cake i made cause i think that loosing 10 kg will make my running a lot easier.....
Rainbow of course im not mad at you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i too have been away for a couple of weeks im not having the best weightloss journey for the last months!!!Nice to have you back.Hope you stay here!!!!
Thanks girls so much!!!!Kisses!!!!
Looks like all of us where away and came back exept Cate!!!!
Well....
I ate a lot of a chocolate thing i made yesterday....oooooooo a lot!~~~~~!!~~~~~~and i woke up this morning took mario to school and stoped by the stadium.Started my run!!!!I was sooo tired doing it....you know its the first time my chest hurted.It felt like my chest while i was smoking...out of breath and aching legs.I was actually smiling though while running i was thinking "Yeah now go home after this and eat the rest of the chocolate cake yoiu silly thing."Its really an eternal battle with food..mostly sweet stuff.I dont feel really bad about it though.I was thinking how silly i am for eating all that crap and now im trying to run and its difficult for me.I feel i am still learning.I dont want to be so strict on myself now with guilt.Cant be bothered.
I came home just now and i had my breakfast oats with ice cold milk and raisins.(and two tea spoons of sugar.)
I think i will manage well today and i PROMISE to myself to my aching legs and lungs that i will not eat any more of that chocolate cake i made cause i think that loosing 10 kg will make my running a lot easier.....
Rainbow of course im not mad at you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i too have been away for a couple of weeks im not having the best weightloss journey for the last months!!!Nice to have you back.Hope you stay here!!!!
Thanks girls so much!!!!Kisses!!!!
jasper1
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Hi to all
Im going to post what my food was yesterday,no calorie tracking though.
Br.60gr oats with low fat milk and raisins,2 teaspoon sugar , 2 coffees
Lunch 10 tiny chicken nuggets baked with mushrooms,onions and 3 tablespoons rice,half a cucumber
Dinner A plate of plain spagghetti no sause or anything..i was so hungry i had to eat something.
Also i went for my run and i did Day 1 with jilliane.Starting all over...
Today my legs are hurting a lot so are my arms from the push ups////Feeling ok though.Had breakfast at 8 am now its 1pm and i was so hungry ,that while i went to the bakery to get a loaf of bread for my husband i also got a koulouri sliced in the middle with some cream cheese and a slice of turkey.I guess there must be about 300 cals in that.Anyway,i feel i made a better choice , i was surrounded by all pastry lovely smelly yummy things......So yeap i think im back on track just for that action of mine alone!!!!!!!!
Why does my body hurt so much after a couple of weeks off exercise?????WHY?????its unfair....itsa like all the hard work i have put in go to waste.....
Im going to post what my food was yesterday,no calorie tracking though.
Br.60gr oats with low fat milk and raisins,2 teaspoon sugar , 2 coffees
Lunch 10 tiny chicken nuggets baked with mushrooms,onions and 3 tablespoons rice,half a cucumber
Dinner A plate of plain spagghetti no sause or anything..i was so hungry i had to eat something.
Also i went for my run and i did Day 1 with jilliane.Starting all over...
Today my legs are hurting a lot so are my arms from the push ups////Feeling ok though.Had breakfast at 8 am now its 1pm and i was so hungry ,that while i went to the bakery to get a loaf of bread for my husband i also got a koulouri sliced in the middle with some cream cheese and a slice of turkey.I guess there must be about 300 cals in that.Anyway,i feel i made a better choice , i was surrounded by all pastry lovely smelly yummy things......So yeap i think im back on track just for that action of mine alone!!!!!!!!
Why does my body hurt so much after a couple of weeks off exercise?????WHY?????its unfair....itsa like all the hard work i have put in go to waste.....
Cate
Long term member
Hi Jess, Good for you being back on track! You can do this sweetie. It's not easy but what is? When I was a lot younger I used to throw myself into things flat out & then give up when it became too much to cope with. Now I think it's best to make changes slowly so that I will stick with them. Accepting that you may have to watch what you eat for most of your life does not have to be depressing. I now look at it that I am in control of my health & well-being, rather than leaving it just to chance & genetics. We're here for you sweetie to support you & encourage you. eating healthily & exercising will make you feel better in the long run, no matter what else is going on in your life.
Lots of love, xoxo Cate
Lots of love, xoxo Cate
jasper1
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THanks again Cate!you're so sweet~I hate that about me,throwig myself at stuff and then just stopping when it gets difficult......I know i said i will be exercising (not sure if i wrote it here , but it was in my mind-i even printed out my weeks programm) but i didnt do anymore exercise these 2 days.I really was on my feet all day doing stuff and then i was sleeping.Today i had a couple of hours free but i prefered to get online and check some stuff out.Im STILL so sore all over for DAy 1 again..
Food was ok yesterday main meal was beef burger (the meat only)home made with black eyed peas salad(parslay and onion)
today has been ok as well.
I have been having conversation with my eldest sister for months now,we are worried about our Mum.She is 64 years old,she is working at the nursery as a teacher she looks ok but we are really afraid she has signs of Alzheimer early ones that is.She has been forgeting stuff and also repeating the same questions....I saw here a couple of sundays ago,i went to her house to see her new dog with mario.Then today she said to me "you must come meet Benji" i said that we have already met him...she gets days mixed up too.Like she said to another teacher that i went to see her YESTERDAY...when it was the day before yesterday...And other small stuff like these....Shes is the proudest woman i ever met , plus she has never admited she has made a mistake...so its so hard to confront her about this.She will be shattered.....OMG....I talked to my sister and said on the Easter school brake that is coming up we MUST get together the 3 of us ALONE and we MUST tell her about what we think.To get her have some check ups.Only we will have already made the appoinment for that same day so we can go with her.Or else she will never go alone and will find excuses on other days...I hope its not that.but my sister that had xp with this from her father in law says she is 90 percent sure it is alzheimer.....
Food was ok yesterday main meal was beef burger (the meat only)home made with black eyed peas salad(parslay and onion)
today has been ok as well.
I have been having conversation with my eldest sister for months now,we are worried about our Mum.She is 64 years old,she is working at the nursery as a teacher she looks ok but we are really afraid she has signs of Alzheimer early ones that is.She has been forgeting stuff and also repeating the same questions....I saw here a couple of sundays ago,i went to her house to see her new dog with mario.Then today she said to me "you must come meet Benji" i said that we have already met him...she gets days mixed up too.Like she said to another teacher that i went to see her YESTERDAY...when it was the day before yesterday...And other small stuff like these....Shes is the proudest woman i ever met , plus she has never admited she has made a mistake...so its so hard to confront her about this.She will be shattered.....OMG....I talked to my sister and said on the Easter school brake that is coming up we MUST get together the 3 of us ALONE and we MUST tell her about what we think.To get her have some check ups.Only we will have already made the appoinment for that same day so we can go with her.Or else she will never go alone and will find excuses on other days...I hope its not that.but my sister that had xp with this from her father in law says she is 90 percent sure it is alzheimer.....
katehunibun
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AHeya sweetie
Firstly i wanna apoligise for being rubbish and not keeping up with your diary. I've been totally crap this week and i'm sorry. That will change from now on
Sorry to say it hun but everyday is going to be a battle with food, some days worse than others and some days you will find it isn't a battle at all. The thing to remember is that you can WIN this battle!!! And just think 'Kate is gonna beat me with a great big stick if i eat that'
Well done for going for the healthy option when there wer loads of lovely pastries waving at you
I love that feeling when i walk out of places like that and haven't caved in and got something bad.
It's so annoying that our bodies get use to not exercising and then it all feels so much harder again. You will be back to feeling super fit in no time sweetie.
Sorry to hear about your fears for you mum. I think talking to her is a good idea, it is an illness and there are things out there that can help. My mum had a stroke about 5 years ago, she is fully recovered except for her memory and for ages we never said anything to her about it. Then one day i told her and after the initial shock and 'am i really that bad?' she was fine about it. She even makes fun of herself about it.
Keep going sweetie, keep strong. I know you can do this!!!!
Firstly i wanna apoligise for being rubbish and not keeping up with your diary. I've been totally crap this week and i'm sorry. That will change from now on
Sorry to say it hun but everyday is going to be a battle with food, some days worse than others and some days you will find it isn't a battle at all. The thing to remember is that you can WIN this battle!!! And just think 'Kate is gonna beat me with a great big stick if i eat that'
Well done for going for the healthy option when there wer loads of lovely pastries waving at you
I love that feeling when i walk out of places like that and haven't caved in and got something bad. It's so annoying that our bodies get use to not exercising and then it all feels so much harder again. You will be back to feeling super fit in no time sweetie.
Sorry to hear about your fears for you mum. I think talking to her is a good idea, it is an illness and there are things out there that can help. My mum had a stroke about 5 years ago, she is fully recovered except for her memory and for ages we never said anything to her about it. Then one day i told her and after the initial shock and 'am i really that bad?' she was fine about it. She even makes fun of herself about it.
Keep going sweetie, keep strong. I know you can do this!!!!
Cate
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Jess, I wouldn't be too worried about your Mum at this stage. Personally I think it all sounds like normal age-related memory loss. I'm 58 & my LH is 62 & we do similar things, according to our sons. If she's holding together a full-time job I don't think there's much to worry about. 50 is a turning point I think. You'll get back on track sweetie. Don't beat yourself up about not exercising. Everything you do counts so just add a little bit as you go & let your body get used to it before you tackle something major. You will still have nicotine in your system as well & that takes time to be cleared. You can do it sweetie, I know you can, xoxo Cate
jasper1
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I wasnt going to come on here today.I was going to come on here after a couple of really good days to tell you all about it...BUT i am writing in BIG letters for all you to see this.Cause its the truth,its my diary and hidding the facts is a LIE.
I ate so bAD WHILE out with friends yesterday....Strange thing is that at the tavern after eating oily food,unhealthy stuff (i will find a pic for you to see) i felt so unworthy,so crap,so "im my old self" i felt the need to really be worse...i cant explain...i suggested going for a WAFFLE.....even though i felt like a looser...i wanted to go eat a waffle i wanted to feel i reached bottom again...And i did have a great huge big waffle 2 balls of ice cream , nutella melted chocolate , chocolate siryp the works...I ate it all....Then at home i needed a soda cause i was full like a pig....My husband was amazed at me so where my friends....My husband said that what i ate will need 4 days of hard exercise to go away in a joking way.The way home i felt suddenly content with myself/.///??????????????i felt IN CONTROL.....I felt
SURE about myself again......( must be a crazy person really...)and thats when i said out loud to him
"i celebrated eating like that,eating what i want , all that chocolate cause from tommorow i will ban all sugar,and bread.Just like i did at the start of my journey.and i kept that up for nearly 3 months."
So if anything i wrote makes any sense to you guys then thats a good thing!!!!!!!
I will be back tonight
(to read answers and diary's) with my food..and my pics of it./....Loves and hugs !!!!!
I ate so bAD WHILE out with friends yesterday....Strange thing is that at the tavern after eating oily food,unhealthy stuff (i will find a pic for you to see) i felt so unworthy,so crap,so "im my old self" i felt the need to really be worse...i cant explain...i suggested going for a WAFFLE.....even though i felt like a looser...i wanted to go eat a waffle i wanted to feel i reached bottom again...And i did have a great huge big waffle 2 balls of ice cream , nutella melted chocolate , chocolate siryp the works...I ate it all....Then at home i needed a soda cause i was full like a pig....My husband was amazed at me so where my friends....My husband said that what i ate will need 4 days of hard exercise to go away in a joking way.The way home i felt suddenly content with myself/.///??????????????i felt IN CONTROL.....I felt
SURE about myself again......( must be a crazy person really...)and thats when i said out loud to him
"i celebrated eating like that,eating what i want , all that chocolate cause from tommorow i will ban all sugar,and bread.Just like i did at the start of my journey.and i kept that up for nearly 3 months."
So if anything i wrote makes any sense to you guys then thats a good thing!!!!!!!
I will be back tonight
(to read answers and diary's) with my food..and my pics of it./....Loves and hugs !!!!!
jasper1
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Breakfast 2 coffees , 1 koulouri with a little cream cheese and slice of turkey
Lunch Plate of Spinach with rice , a piece of feta cheese medium slice , tomatow salad
Snack Coffee
Dinner Tiny plate of spinach with rice and tomato salad , tiny piece of feta cheese
Feeling realy proud about myself today!!!!
No bread ----and the food we had really wanted bread!!!.i didnt touch it. and also NO SWEETS.Only the sugar in my coffees but i dont count that and im not giving up on that.I use 2 teaspoons,and if i have more than 2 cups of coffee i use 1 teaspoon after that.
So i did really great!!!!WOW~~~~i feel im cleaning out my system from bread,pastry,chocs,candy.....wow it feels great!!!!
Had a good day cooking and taking marios to a fun park with my girlfriend and her two kids,Aw she is so skinny....and she never diets...never...she actually want to gain a few kilos!!!!!!I know people struggle with gaining weight i just cant understand it.I cant imagine what that feels like.Maybe they feel the same like us wanting to loose weight.?anyway.
Cate my sister says that if it is alzheimer there are medication she can take by a doctor thathelps delays the stages of the illnes.Even if we are wrong i dont think that there is any harm having some tests done.Would you be offended if your child said that to you?
Kate its really fine.As we have said to each other before its really ok life happens!!!!!You where to quick to speak!As you see later on in hte day i stuffed my face real bad!!!
Lunch Plate of Spinach with rice , a piece of feta cheese medium slice , tomatow salad
Snack Coffee
Dinner Tiny plate of spinach with rice and tomato salad , tiny piece of feta cheese
Feeling realy proud about myself today!!!!
No bread ----and the food we had really wanted bread!!!.i didnt touch it. and also NO SWEETS.Only the sugar in my coffees but i dont count that and im not giving up on that.I use 2 teaspoons,and if i have more than 2 cups of coffee i use 1 teaspoon after that.
So i did really great!!!!WOW~~~~i feel im cleaning out my system from bread,pastry,chocs,candy.....wow it feels great!!!!
Had a good day cooking and taking marios to a fun park with my girlfriend and her two kids,Aw she is so skinny....and she never diets...never...she actually want to gain a few kilos!!!!!!I know people struggle with gaining weight i just cant understand it.I cant imagine what that feels like.Maybe they feel the same like us wanting to loose weight.?anyway.
Cate my sister says that if it is alzheimer there are medication she can take by a doctor thathelps delays the stages of the illnes.Even if we are wrong i dont think that there is any harm having some tests done.Would you be offended if your child said that to you?
Kate its really fine.As we have said to each other before its really ok life happens!!!!!You where to quick to speak!As you see later on in hte day i stuffed my face real bad!!!
overtherainbow
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I really hope your Mum hasn't got Alzheimers, but I can see why your so worried. What you said about her dog is what worried me the most. Its a horrible disease. I think its a good idea for you all to sit down together to talk to her about it. It will be hard, but it has to be done because like you said, the earlier she gets help the earlier she can start getting treated for it xxxxxxxxxxxxxI sort of know where your coming from about eating really over-the-top badly for one day, I did the same thing before I started the first half of my diet. Its probably just your way of getting those urges out of your system. I think you must have known while you were doing it that you would feel a bit disgusted with yourself the next day. I think its great that you feel like your starting all over again, maybe it was just what you needed. I wont be saying this again though! If you do it again I will SHOUT at you!!!!! x
Cate
Long term member
Hate to say it sweetie, but my mother was very upset with me for mentioning it a couple of years ago, even though she had always said to me to let her know if I thought it was happening to her. Just be aware that she might not take it well. Good for you getting the sweets thing done & dusted & for getting back on track! xo Cate
jasper1
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oh no....i would feel terrible if she will be offended ......i , we have to tell her though.....im really uncomfortable.But im playing the scene over and over in my head so i can get a little more used to it,to get the courage to actually say something to her.
Its not only that she had forgotten about me and mario going to her house.Then when i tild her that we had already come to see benjie she saidh yes of course." but also she is really thin.She has always been a skinny thing but she has OVER done it this time.Last year when she was taken to the hospital for a pain she had in her tummy the doctor weighed her with her clothes and she was 47 kilos............She even cried once when she realized how skinny she had become.Of course she had a problem that gave her the runs for months and we still dont know exactlly what it was neother do the docs but i dont think its only that.My sister says that maybe she forgets to eat.....?She does had a full time job and they where all worried about her at school last summer cause of her weight.Now she is maybe 50 kilos......Imhaving a very very faded memory right now.......just a minute.....i have just had a faded memorie of my mother when i was really young going in the bathroom and me hearing vomiting....i remember feeling worried about her..i remember never asking anything and i remember that the bathroom smelt like someone had vometed after even though there was perfume in the air..........i remember that happening a few times and THEN i understood that she was vomiting out the food.Thats why i never said anything to her......................................but it stopped i dont remember that happening in my teens...neither does it happen now.......wow that was really strange that memory coming up suddenly................
im a bit puzzled right now will be back in a few to speak about how im doing.
Its not only that she had forgotten about me and mario going to her house.Then when i tild her that we had already come to see benjie she said
h yes of course." but also she is really thin.She has always been a skinny thing but she has OVER done it this time.Last year when she was taken to the hospital for a pain she had in her tummy the doctor weighed her with her clothes and she was 47 kilos............She even cried once when she realized how skinny she had become.Of course she had a problem that gave her the runs for months and we still dont know exactlly what it was neother do the docs but i dont think its only that.My sister says that maybe she forgets to eat.....?She does had a full time job and they where all worried about her at school last summer cause of her weight.Now she is maybe 50 kilos......Imhaving a very very faded memory right now.......just a minute.....i have just had a faded memorie of my mother when i was really young going in the bathroom and me hearing vomiting....i remember feeling worried about her..i remember never asking anything and i remember that the bathroom smelt like someone had vometed after even though there was perfume in the air..........i remember that happening a few times and THEN i understood that she was vomiting out the food.Thats why i never said anything to her......................................but it stopped i dont remember that happening in my teens...neither does it happen now.......wow that was really strange that memory coming up suddenly................im a bit puzzled right now will be back in a few to speak about how im doing.
katehunibun
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AHeya sweetie
Well done on your 'in control' moment. It's like a moment of clarity isn't it. I had mine this morning. I had just scoffed chocolate for no reason and i did it quick so Mark wouldn't see and then i thought 'what the fuck are you doing' and then while on my run i had a really good think about how slack i have been for most of this year and now i am thinking 'that is not going to happen any more. I am going to take control' and i feel in control again
My nan forgot to eat with her alziemers so she could be doing the same. Sorry to hear about your recalled childhood memories.
I know that it will be hard to talk to your mum about it and it may upset her but if you talk to her then she can get help.
I kinda know that i will have it when i am older. My nan had it and my mum is showing signs too so i feel i can't escape it. My memory is bloody shocking, Mark has kinda got use to it but he does get annoyed with me sometimes. He says i don't listen but i do, i just don't retain it. I have said to him and Jack that i want to know when it starts to happen and when/if it gets too much then to put me in a home. I don't want Jack (being an only child) having to deal with it all. But i have said to him that if i say that i am being treated badly in a home then he has to believe me and move me lol.
Love and hugs sweetie
Well done on your 'in control' moment. It's like a moment of clarity isn't it. I had mine this morning. I had just scoffed chocolate for no reason and i did it quick so Mark wouldn't see and then i thought 'what the fuck are you doing' and then while on my run i had a really good think about how slack i have been for most of this year and now i am thinking 'that is not going to happen any more. I am going to take control' and i feel in control again
My nan forgot to eat with her alziemers so she could be doing the same. Sorry to hear about your recalled childhood memories.
I know that it will be hard to talk to your mum about it and it may upset her but if you talk to her then she can get help.
I kinda know that i will have it when i am older. My nan had it and my mum is showing signs too so i feel i can't escape it. My memory is bloody shocking, Mark has kinda got use to it but he does get annoyed with me sometimes. He says i don't listen but i do, i just don't retain it. I have said to him and Jack that i want to know when it starts to happen and when/if it gets too much then to put me in a home. I don't want Jack (being an only child) having to deal with it all. But i have said to him that if i say that i am being treated badly in a home then he has to believe me and move me lol.
Love and hugs sweetie
jasper1
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Breakfast Coffee 1 koulouri with cream cheese and slice of turkey, a few bites of another koulouri plain one.
Lunch A small pork steak with roasted potatoes,lettuce salad,some steamed broccoli,a piece of feta cheese
Snack Apple and 1 coffee
Dinner 7 biscuits , plain white
aaaa it was a mad place here.I had a girlfriend over with her kid and they made such a noise.Mario just doesnt listnen to me when there is another kid around.....He is really upseting me these days cause of things he is doing.I hope its a stage and he will get over it.He seems to NOT be my BABY anymore.He seems grown and making horible faces when things dont go his way.....
Now as for food i think i was ok.The pork and the potatoes where cooked NOT diet//healthy style.I mean i didnt use loads of water in the pan as i should,i used some olive oil and a little water.I had my plate but nothing more.Had a lot of lettuce salad.Plus i managed to eat just the little piece of feta cheese i put on my plate....Its so difficult starting all over,
I havent had any chocs or really naughty stuff.And the biscuits i had for dinner dont count as naughty.They arent even sweet,They are for babys and kids mostly cause of the lack of sweetness!!!!Im really hungry now.But im done for the day.I went on scales a fewminutes ago,i know i shouldnt of cause its night time i have eat ect but i was 80 kilos!!!!>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.
Yes i have succesfully manages to gain weight this last month with my big mouth.,....Im ok though i feel in control of myself.
I as thinking that its like a brand new diet i must go on now.The second part of my long journey!Its going to be really hard since i cant seem to get under 76 kilos...anyway...I'll see to that when i do get to 76 kilos again..!!!
I tryed on some clothes today,summer clothes and i was pleased to see that they are loose.I feel that because i have gained 3-4 kilos i am back to zero...when im really not.I still have dropped dress sizes ect..Strange way my mind makes me feel.So it was nice to see that my summer dresses werent small again on me.
Its marios bday on the 10th of April.I would really like to loose a couple by then.Its these couple of kilos that make me CROSS the line.I mean at 76 i feel rather skinny if i dare use that word.At 78-79 i feel bloated and fat.So i think i can manage to loose a couple by then.Also i must say i have been drinking 2 litlres of water a day not counting diet cokes and coffees.just plain water!
Kate im really sorry to hear that your nana had altzheimer and your mum seems to have some signs of it....Dont say that though that you will get it too.They way you wrote that is really scary.I was checking stuff about on the internet about it and seems like there are some test done (i think scans) that can detect 10 years before if you are going to suffer from it.I hope its not that , what your mum has,maybe its just normal for her age,
Glad to see you are in control again, what made me kind of think twice about you , if you are ok is the absence (sorry for the spelling in the post) of exercise.I know you love to run and feeling that you dont want to for some time is not good cause then (well thats what happened to me) you get used to your new situation and not exercising and you get comfy.Say ok another day off again and again...NO you just go DO IT!!!!
I am going tommorow morning after Marios is at nursery,YOu go too in the morning and feel strong about it!YOu need to get active again.You are going through some stress about work now but you have to fight your way through this try not it get involved with your body.We are here for each other!
Lunch A small pork steak with roasted potatoes,lettuce salad,some steamed broccoli,a piece of feta cheese
Snack Apple and 1 coffee
Dinner 7 biscuits , plain white
aaaa it was a mad place here.I had a girlfriend over with her kid and they made such a noise.Mario just doesnt listnen to me when there is another kid around.....He is really upseting me these days cause of things he is doing.I hope its a stage and he will get over it.He seems to NOT be my BABY anymore.He seems grown and making horible faces when things dont go his way.....
Now as for food i think i was ok.The pork and the potatoes where cooked NOT diet//healthy style.I mean i didnt use loads of water in the pan as i should,i used some olive oil and a little water.I had my plate but nothing more.Had a lot of lettuce salad.Plus i managed to eat just the little piece of feta cheese i put on my plate....Its so difficult starting all over,
I havent had any chocs or really naughty stuff.And the biscuits i had for dinner dont count as naughty.They arent even sweet,They are for babys and kids mostly cause of the lack of sweetness!!!!Im really hungry now.But im done for the day.I went on scales a fewminutes ago,i know i shouldnt of cause its night time i have eat ect but i was 80 kilos!!!!>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.
Yes i have succesfully manages to gain weight this last month with my big mouth.,....Im ok though i feel in control of myself.
I as thinking that its like a brand new diet i must go on now.The second part of my long journey!Its going to be really hard since i cant seem to get under 76 kilos...anyway...I'll see to that when i do get to 76 kilos again..!!!
I tryed on some clothes today,summer clothes and i was pleased to see that they are loose.I feel that because i have gained 3-4 kilos i am back to zero...when im really not.I still have dropped dress sizes ect..Strange way my mind makes me feel.So it was nice to see that my summer dresses werent small again on me.
Its marios bday on the 10th of April.I would really like to loose a couple by then.Its these couple of kilos that make me CROSS the line.I mean at 76 i feel rather skinny if i dare use that word.At 78-79 i feel bloated and fat.So i think i can manage to loose a couple by then.Also i must say i have been drinking 2 litlres of water a day not counting diet cokes and coffees.just plain water!
Kate im really sorry to hear that your nana had altzheimer and your mum seems to have some signs of it....Dont say that though that you will get it too.They way you wrote that is really scary.I was checking stuff about on the internet about it and seems like there are some test done (i think scans) that can detect 10 years before if you are going to suffer from it.I hope its not that , what your mum has,maybe its just normal for her age,
Glad to see you are in control again, what made me kind of think twice about you , if you are ok is the absence (sorry for the spelling in the post) of exercise.I know you love to run and feeling that you dont want to for some time is not good cause then (well thats what happened to me) you get used to your new situation and not exercising and you get comfy.Say ok another day off again and again...NO you just go DO IT!!!!
I am going tommorow morning after Marios is at nursery,YOu go too in the morning and feel strong about it!YOu need to get active again.You are going through some stress about work now but you have to fight your way through this try not it get involved with your body.We are here for each other!
jasper1
New member
Morning to all!!!
Its a cold rainy day today!
Left mario at the nursery and ent to super market got some spaghetti for lunch, to make and then i went to the stadium to do my run.
I used another application today.It tell you how many cals you burn while running and also tells you your speed,distance ect.I did 3 5-minute runs and 10 minute walks in between.A 5 minute warm up and a 5 minute cool down.I burnt 270 cals.
I was so exhausted.At one point my head felt so hot i thought that it was going to explode.The it was kid of hurting me.Im fine now though.My husband said thats what happens when you forget about it,it forgets about you too.!!!!My face was blood red aswell.
Im really exited i bought a little book for Mario that we can start learning the numbers.Its got a pen so he can fill in the blank spots and with a cloth i can erase anything and rewrite!!!!I hope he likes it and stays on his little bum for at least hallf an hour each day so we can learn things.Maybe im neglecting him and thats why he is a real little sh%$^# every day at home and an ANGEL at school!!!!!
So im off to see if there are any updates on you guys diaries!
Be back later on!
Feel like a silly geek coming on here now editing this just to say i also finished 45 minutes of zumba!!!!
Its a cold rainy day today!
Left mario at the nursery and ent to super market got some spaghetti for lunch, to make and then i went to the stadium to do my run.
I used another application today.It tell you how many cals you burn while running and also tells you your speed,distance ect.I did 3 5-minute runs and 10 minute walks in between.A 5 minute warm up and a 5 minute cool down.I burnt 270 cals.
I was so exhausted.At one point my head felt so hot i thought that it was going to explode.The it was kid of hurting me.Im fine now though.My husband said thats what happens when you forget about it,it forgets about you too.!!!!My face was blood red aswell.
Im really exited i bought a little book for Mario that we can start learning the numbers.Its got a pen so he can fill in the blank spots and with a cloth i can erase anything and rewrite!!!!I hope he likes it and stays on his little bum for at least hallf an hour each day so we can learn things.Maybe im neglecting him and thats why he is a real little sh%$^# every day at home and an ANGEL at school!!!!!
So im off to see if there are any updates on you guys diaries!
Be back later on!
Feel like a silly geek coming on here now editing this just to say i also finished 45 minutes of zumba!!!!
overtherainbow
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Glad you did some exercise!
76 Kilo's is what I got down too, before hovering, then going back up and down for the past 4 months. It must be something about that number, eh? I noticed that the 30 day challenge isn't up any more, which is a shame. I know Kate and someone else are going for 20 perfect days, you want to lose weight for Mario's birthday in a month, I really want to see about 4 kilos off the scales by next month as well... So I might start a challenge so that we have to write in black and white (Or blue or red
) What we have done, and no-one can forget about exactly is what we weighed at the start of the challenge.
I have one of those wipe-clean books, they're good aren't they. I think its important to sit down with kids and spend some time with them every day with no telly or distractions. I think kids are always naughtier with their parents than other people though! Its because they feel safer with people they are most familiar with.
76 Kilo's is what I got down too, before hovering, then going back up and down for the past 4 months. It must be something about that number, eh? I noticed that the 30 day challenge isn't up any more, which is a shame. I know Kate and someone else are going for 20 perfect days, you want to lose weight for Mario's birthday in a month, I really want to see about 4 kilos off the scales by next month as well... So I might start a challenge so that we have to write in black and white (Or blue or red
I have one of those wipe-clean books, they're good aren't they. I think its important to sit down with kids and spend some time with them every day with no telly or distractions. I think kids are always naughtier with their parents than other people though! Its because they feel safer with people they are most familiar with.
jasper1
New member
ooo start a chalenge!!!! i'll be first to join...start start start~!~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!
i made a face while i read ---4 kilos off the scales till next month.................i was more planning on 2 and IF i reached it...BUT OK im in for it...omg....i dont think its possible...4 kilos???????????????i lost that ammount when i started at 96 kilos,every month.....omg im scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Plus i can imagine you shouting at me..................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh go on start the challenge OFFICIALY (excuse my speling mistakes)
i made a face while i read ---4 kilos off the scales till next month.................i was more planning on 2 and IF i reached it...BUT OK im in for it...omg....i dont think its possible...4 kilos???????????????i lost that ammount when i started at 96 kilos,every month.....omg im scared!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Plus i can imagine you shouting at me..................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh go on start the challenge OFFICIALY (excuse my speling mistakes)