Changing the Way I Feel and Eat!!!

AO jasper...so sorry about your situation....it must be so scary!! Just know that good friends are wishing for nothing but good things for you!! Glad you got to vent about your feelings sometimes thats all the release we need to move on and try to do the best we can with what is given to us. Hugs to you and your!! xoxoxoxo :grouphug:
 
Feeling a bit better today tete!Thank you!!!Probably because my mind in always thinking about cigaretes..........so i havent smoked from yesterdsy 4pm.20 hours!!!OMG!!!!I am wanting one bad but just get my inhaler instead.........

I read on the internet tha stoping smoking makes your metabolism need 200 calories less.Thats one reason why people put on weight if stoping.


I feel scared i dont want to gain just because of stoping to smoke.It has taken my months to loose these 20 kg and i really cant afford to gain even 5kg back for no reason.I mean ok if i ate silly , but eating the same and gaining just cause of smoke????????//



managed 1 hour on the gazelle!yeahhhhhhh its 3 days in a row!
 
AHeya Hotstuff :)

Glad you are feeling a bit better and well done on 20 hours!!!!! That is great :hurray: :hurray: I wish i could give up :(

Don't worry too much about the 200 cal thing, maybe just burn that much more off rather than trying to eat less. Exerciseing will probably help you take your mind off smoking too. Wishing you loads of luck and hope you crack it babe.

Love and hugs Xxx
 
thanks kate,i amfeeling....lonely....its like i have been left all alone,i miss the ''company''of my cigs more than the taste,i am still smoke free 32 hours!i am well was handling it great,now feel so alone,feel like crying....how stupid is that.

i am going to workout more cause of this 200 cal thing,so scared though,not sure i will stick to it.

my appetite is huge,but i have managed real well,i feel so vunerable,not sure how long this will last,not sure i will manage....


food


2 coffees 140

lunch--dont know what its cAlled 800 cals(i am making it higher,just in case)

1 slice of bread with raisins

1 tea 40 cals

5 chestnuts 150 cals



60 minutes on gazelle!!!

120 crunches


my body is hurting all over but i am not stoping this week,i am getting 7 hours in,
 
Jasper, You are not doing yourself any favours by going without breakfast & starving yourself. Your body will feel like it's being attacked from all directions. Giving up the smokes will be a shock to your system, but one that will get better with time. Nourish yourself with some wholesome food sweetie, don't starve yourself. Your metabolism will slow right down in a panic. You need some TLC & you are the best one to give it to yourself. You'll get through this rotten patch. Things will get better. Meanwhile eat healthily, exercise but not excessively & try to find a balance. There are a lot of people out there that have sympathy with your plight. I sure hope things get better for Greece soon. Hang in there.

Sending you lots of love from Australia, xoxo Cate
 
cate i never really ate breakfast and if i do its probably some dry toast.i used to eat cereal but it was way to many cals.

today though i had an apple with cinnamon!

woke up so grumpy,i told my husband to let me be and excuse me if i am a bitch,first thing to pop up when i opened my eyes was ''another f%%7ing morningwithout a cigarette''

i didnt take mario to school cause he has a cough,dont want him catching something from school,cause tommorow they have the dress rehersal for the xmass play and they are going to the theater,then on sunday is the play,but this evening he got a temprature plus the cough.hope he is ok in the morning,he is sleeping now think im going to sleep with him tonight just incase.


now far as food i have been hungry.A lot.i went cleaned the night club for 3 hours then came home at 4 so thats when i started to eat for the day


1 small apple w/cinnamon 60c

4 mini toasts 180c

1 sm apple again 60c

4 spoons of ground beef cooked and stuffedin cabbage leaves ,1 slice bread

5 raisins

2 teaspoons of nutela



i havent sat down to eat,and i am hungry,probably going to have some more of that cabage thing


i am so pissed of today...think its the 54 hours of smoke free,fuck its hard.i feel like sticking a dozen in my mouth to smoke them,or stuffing my mouth with choc instead.....HOWLONG IS THIS GOING TO LAST?
 
Jasper it sounds awful how you're feeling. Apparently 48 hours after you have quit is the worst. I looked up quite a few sites & they all said that. Here's a couple-http://www.quitsmokingsupport.com/withdrawal1.htm & http://www.stopsmokingtoday.com/dyn/127/Nicotine-Withdrawal.html

Hope it gets better for you soon, xo Cate
 
thanks so much 4 checking out those sites 4 me.so very usefull

i am the same today,feeling more hungry then ever.......this is my food 4 today supposed to have had my 1300 but its 7 pm and i am still thinking of eating......i am starting to think to just smoke and finish with this nonsence.



2 mini toast 60 c, w/25 gr nutela 130cal

1 sm.apple w/cinamon 60cal

2 mini toast 60 cal w/2 light cheese 50 cal

lentiles w/sausage

2 coffee 140
 
add 1 more sm apple and 1 teaspoon nutela


exercise


60 minutes bike said 720 cals burnt....120 crunches...arm weights


i was feeling low, sad,plus marios still has a fever,just horrible,wasnt going to workout today but it clicked that i can sit here and be miserable or workout and be miserable doing my body some good.so i got on my bike.
 
AOmg, that's brilliant Jess, we are DOING THIS together (The smoking at least haha) :) I have been off the cigarettes for 11 days now. I didn't really feel like smoking because of my chest infection, so even though I wanted to smoke I didn't. I can't believe its been almost two weeks now. I know that pull towards the cigarette packet is so strong, it feels like its sucking you into its evil little world, but resist it... For the first time ever I am looking at people sucking all that filthy smoke into their lungs and thinking "Why?" Its just starting to seem really disgusting to me. I am still getting thoughts every hour or so telling me that its time for a fag, sometimes I am puffing on the inhaler, other times I'm not, but its manageable. I just can't wait to feel like a proper non smoker without the thought of cigarettes ever popping into my head any more.

I know how owing loads of money can get you down, I owe over 20 thousand pounds, which is about an average years salary here. I don't know if you've got a citizens advice bureau in Greece, I think you should go there or ring up some sort of debt crisis hotline... All I need to pay back is £100 a month now which is nothing. I totally ignored all my money problems for so long, I don't know why I thought I had to suffer on my own.
 
First i just want to say SORRY for not coming on these days and not cheking on all your journals.I am feeling STILL so shit about this smoking buisness.So please please please forgive me.I promise i will be back soon.ITs so hard for me.

My mood is SO bad i just cry 4 no reasson in the day.I feel so lonely wothout my cigarette,and i keep thinking IS THIS WORTH IT????WHY???I did this bacause of money.Cause money sucks right now....BUT IS IT GENERALY WORTH IT?It is 6 days smoke free..and i still feel like shit.i would be ok , i manage the need to smoke with the inhaler , but what about the sadness and loneliness that came along?I dont know how to deal with it.

PLUS mario has been sick from last Thrursday , with a TERIBLE saturday night.His fever was 40,5,............i was so scared.He has been sleeping with me on the couch all these days , havent got a goon night sleep,i am hungry all day, i ate like a pig yesterday, i feel just awful.Think that if i light the cigarette i will fell much better.

This is not a food diary any more its a cutting smoke diary and i hate that too.

I would like to be NORAMAL again........So please forgive me for vanishing.........
 
Jess, This is when you need support. You don't have to come in here & pretend that everything is rosy, when it's not. We're all feeling for your predicament. Giving up smokes can be hell. Cigarettes are not company sweetie, they are an addictive poison. When we give up something we usually need to replace it with something else. You will be much better off both financially & health-wise if you can kick the habit. Persevere sweetie please. You'll get through this awful time. I used to get really down when my kids were sick & felt absolutely useless. Have you taken Mario to the doctor? I wish I was there to be able to help you out-even going for a walk & having a chat with someone helps. Is there someone you can talk to that would be emotionally supportive? Sending you lots of love and hugs & kisses. Sorry I can't be much help but I just wanted you to know that you are being thought of & cared about, xoxo Cate
 
AAww hope Mario feels better soon bless him.

I know how you feel, its hell. It really is. Today I have had 3/4 of a cigarette and it tasted disgusting. Had to clean my teeth and scrub my hands and it made me cough and dizzy. I think its the idea of the cigarette I am fixated on rather than the actual cigarette. Once we have done it for a month or whatever we will be free of it for good, we won't feel this way forever. We HAVE to give up at some point and go through this shit, so it may as well be now. Before it kills us. Because that's what it does. It kills you. It robs your money, it clings to you and makes you stink. It wrinkles your skin and yellows your teeth. There is not a single good think about it really. Just keep on hanging in there, I promise you it will get better x
 
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thanks sooooooooooooooooo much sweeties!it means so much 4 me your kind words.

mario seemed better but then got a fever agai 39,6....doctor told me over the phone what to do and said to go see him on wed,if his cough hasnt stopped.

another bad day,i got out a bit to go to the drug store,poped by my friend 2 see how they are,but they have this problem,they where miserable too.didnt stay long,came back home and draged myself on the bike.managed 6o minutes,120 crunches,arm weights.

i am soooooooooooooooo wanting to start running,just getting out and running,makes me feel free just thinking of it.

i also was thinking of going to a gym near my home its 169euro for 1 year.its mostly me wanting to GET OUT the house,need some time to be alone...i work out at home and have so many distractions....

i hope these sad feeling go away...i am really depressed.i know the cigs are bad but it seems like a great part of my life,that i have sudenly lost....must get over it....fast.


breakfast 3 coffees 210cals

lunch leftover lentiles w/sausage

dinner 2 slices pizza,2slices of toast with nutella ,1 carrot,1 sm apple


after that bad dinner i draged myself for a workout....and imagine my metabolism is going slower now that the cigs have gone,and i should be taking more care.....i have eaten really bad this passed week ...its just me feeling hungry all day long plus while eating its the only time i dont feel moody or sad
 
AAww hun :grouphug:

You really are going thru it right now :( I hope Mario is better soon and stick with the not smoking sweetie, you will get there and there will be no turning back. I really admire you for being able to do it. I know i wouldn't at the moment.

Sending you lots of love darling Xxx
 
Breakfast coffee 70cal

lunch pork steak grilled some baked potatoes 600cals

snack cofee 70cals 4 light cow cheese 100 cals, 3 mini toasts 90 cals

dinner half apple 30cals 1 carrot 20 cals, plate of noodles plain 300 cals


total 1280



60 minutes bike(742 cals burnt),120 crunches , arm weights


its the 1st day i can see a tiny bit of light through this dark tunnel.im not ok but i feel im getting myself back.its the first day i didnt think of the cigs ALL DAY.i am making an effort to walk places and leave the car.i am also making an effort to work out even though i dont feel like it.its a week today i quit smoking,i still dont know how i am doing this!hope tommorow is like today and better,want 2 forget about those black days.also i felt more focused on my eating rather than not smoking.guess thats a step forward!hope it wasnt just today,.....

thanks kate!he is better but still had a little fever.its the 1st time he has a fever for 5 days...if he still has tommorow im going to his doctor.


kate you are right,u have to click and feel u want to quit to do it,thing is its not so easy so u really must want to stop.even though i enjoyed it very much i hated the smell of it,on my clothes and hair,so the only possitive thing till now is that i dont smell anymore.waiting to get other benefits in time!
 
Hi Jess, You will start to see & feel the benefits soon & you won't look back. I'm glad that a little bit of light is appearing at the end of that tunnel. Keep moving towards it sweetie. We're barracking for you to succeed. I gave up in April, 1986 after reading an article in the newspaper about the odds of our children smoking if both parents smoked (really high- 80%?) or if only one parent smoked (70%?) but if neither parent smoked then it came down to about 20%. These were government statistics and very extensive & at the time our children were only 3 & 5yrs old. I decided to quit that day & did. They are now 29 & 31 & neither smokes, which is a huge relief! The difference between that time & the other times that I had tried to quit smoking that time I said "I have quit." I can be a very stubborn & determined person when I set my mind to something & that can be good & bad, but it worked that time. I haven't even had one puff since. Tell yourself sweetie that you are doing it (which you are already) not just trying to, & you will succeed.

Sweetie, do you eat green vegetables? I can't imagine getting through a day without them. Food not only needs to be balanced, it has to look good. A plate with lots of colourful veggies is also so low in calories & your body would love you for it. I often snack on raw celery & also love soup made from lots of different vegetables. They are so good for you! Potatoes & bread make me feel stodgy. If you have raw veggies, cup up into batons, available in the fridge you could snack on then during the day. Do you not like low-fat yoghurt? I have it for breakfast with a little fruit. It's a good way to start off your day & gets your metabolism going, without being too calorie dense. I love most Greek food & still dream about visiting the Greek Islands one day. I eat a few black olives every day but would love to be able to eat fresh seafood more often. If I went without breakfast i wouldn't be able to get through the day.

Hope I don't sound like I'm lecturing at all. I hate it when I do. I care about people & want you to be healthy. Sending you lots of love Jess. Take care, xoxo Cate
 
cate u are so right about it all.

dont sound lecturing at all!!!i know i must eat veggies,i did at start but then stoped,thats when i started eating more,and having some problems

i will go healthy shopping as soon as we get payed.i love yoghurt!i really need 2 go shopping.

as for the smoking i know it is poison and i really want to see results so i feel ''this is rewarding''.


good 4 u too for stoping ,if u didnt u would have spent all these years with smoke in your lungs.....


a as for breakfast i dont really like eating in the morning,but i do like the idea of yoghurt and maybe a cut up fruit in. i will try it!

thank u for carring:grouphug::grouphug:
 
AI think you should join the gym... It must be really nice to be able to escape and de-stress whenever you feel like it. As well as other people being there its also a change of scenery. I know moneys tight, but you will save loads not smoking so I think you should go for it.

Wooohooo, I told you it would get easier with the smoking! Although, saying that I have smoked today. Not much, but its not good! I'm not really that stressed out all things considered, but I have used breaking up with Nick as an excuse.... I absolutely HAVE to give up for good before new years though as I'm having big cuts made in my mouth in January for my implants.

Hows Mario today? x
 
breakfast coffee

lunch noodles with meat sause

dinner 2 grilled cheese



i got my e-cigarette today!i got a free liquid with nicotine in though,i'll try get the nicotine down to nothing gradually.oh i feel really better.i have a painfull throat and a wet noseAGAIN.....i have been getting colds the whole time since september....

marios was fine then at 7pm got a fever and still has now....i was thinking he is going to get better and then i''ll take him to school and hewill get ill again.....

its 12 :30 at night so no workout 4 me.will do crunches a nd weights


rainbow i dooooo want to get out.i must wait a bit to sort out major financial stuff then i will see if i can afford it.

still cant belive i hAve stoped smoking!it sure is getting better,but keep in mind i havent stoped getting nicotine in my body,even if its not cancerous it is the reason of adiction
 
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