Cate's Diary

It is raining today & it is lovely! We haven't had a decent rain for AGES! I weighed this morning& will use that weight as my start weight for the April "log everything" challenge-
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/threads/61979-April-2014-quot-log-everything-quot-challenge
I would like to lose 2kg in April. I would like to lose 7kg by the end of the year. I need to come up with a clever chart like Mr Vee's to map my progress but I'm not good with Excel or charts. I'll give it a go in a sec.
Feeling good, feeling positive about 2014 & the future. I feel like I have my spark back!
Lots of love to all xo Cate
 
Had the GK's for the night Friday night as our OS was flying out early for a quick trip. We have to put his chooks away tonight too. We haven't had the kids stay for a while & it was lovely. Our GD wanted to visit her great gran & read a story to her, so we did that before I dropped them off at their Mum's.
I am looking forward to knuckling down again with my diet, starting Tuesday, 1st April. I'm a light switch on, light switch off sort of a person & need structure & direction to keep my weight down.
We are meant to be having an "at home" work day today.
Bye for now, xo Cate
 
We got wood for a couple of hours yesterday & expended some energy in the great outdoors. It's something we like doing together & we have lots of bush on our property. We are trying to get enough wood for this year & next year. I'm feeling a bit lazy today & have been reading. I have nearly demolished a book already. I am such a fast reader, which is bad when you're enjoying a book!
I bought an ipod & a docking station for my Mum's room the other day, but decided to keep it instead & have put a radio in there instead. I thought she might just throw the ipod away if it annoyed or mystified her!. It is fun teaching myself to use it. I know that will make anyone reading my diary laugh as you would all know how to as if it was second nature, but for someone brought up with vinyl I find it fascinating. I am going to copy some of my CD's onto itunes & then sync them to my iphone & ipod. The sound is great. Yes, I know, I am a fossil! You have my permission to laugh at me!
Better do something xo Cate
 
Spent all day yesterday with Mum in hospital. We went in the patient transport, with mum on a stretcher, as she was going for an x-ray of her elbow. Turns out the work had collapsed & a wire was coming out, so they needed to operate to take it out, to stop the risk of infection. The patient transport drivers worried about me getting back home(60km) & I told them not to worry & that my husband and/or son could come get me. They said they may have to come back later in the day & would check to see if I was OK. The hospital put Mum down for an emergency op & we had no idea how long it would be, if at all yesterday or whether she might have to stay overnight & hopefully be done today. It wasn't until 3.15 & I saw them coming to take her to theatre. Straight away there was the ambulance driver checking to see if I needed a lift back to my car. I couldn't believe my eyes! I decided to take them up on the offer! I find it amazing that people could be so kind & thoughtful. They were both really lovely guys & we had yakked all the way in & then we yacked all the way back & I came away from the day thinking what good people there are in the world! I love living in Tasmania!

I just rang the nursing home to make sure that Mum came back last night & she did. The nurse that answered was glad to speak to me as she is worried sick about Mum not eating or drinking. No-one had told me that she is STILL not eating! :( She is at her wits end. I told her that I have had to stop worrying so much as it was getting me down & that my Mum is VERY strong-minded & if she has decided that she has had enough, then no-one will sway her.Apparently she has given mum the hard talk about it being a bad path ahead if that's what she chooses, but she is unsure if Mum understood. I think she does, but I can't be 100% sure either. I know I can't change it.
Anyhow, we have to go back into Launceston today as my LH has an appointment with a specialist. We both participated in a bowel screening program & he has been called back. I'm optimistic that it will be OK, but wish us luck anyway!
Cheers, xo Cate
 
Saw Mum in the morning & she didn't communicate at all. Saw her again on the way back up & she was quite a bit better, which was a relief. Apparently she ate a little at lunch-time.
My husband has to have a Colonoscopy, but the waiting list is about 6-8 weeks. The specialist was really nice- a real character! Neither of us is worried about it. 9 times out of 10 it is nothing.
I have felt a little unwell the last few days & hope it's not a flare up of Glandular fever. It is cold'ish here this morning & soon, we will be lighting our wood heater. I wake up aching these mornings, mostly in my right hip & knee. I have not played golf since Tuesday of last week. EEK.
We're going to cut wood today & that should get some of the stiffness out!
Bye for now xo Cate
 
2014.....what a year! My Mum had another fall! They found her face down on the carpet at 4am yesterday. She doesn't appear to have broken anything. She is now down to 34kg. I knew she had to have lost quite a bit of weight, but 45kg down to 34 in a couple of months, when she didn't have any excess in the 1st place is awful. I picture her when I wake during the night & it is hard to get back to sleep. I try to replace her image quickly with one of the grandkids & that usually works. Poor, poor old Mum. For her sake I hope she goes soon. It is no life any more.
I will be in town all day as we only have the one car now & it's my husband's golf day. There are 2 markets on today & I'll visit Mum of course & have lunch at the deli.
I abandoned the weigh in every day challenge as there was not much interest. My challenge is to get through each day without going totally crazy!
Love to all xoxo Cate
 
That's very sad to hear, I can't help but shredding a tears when I read that, I can't imagine losing my mother anytime soon.
Wish I could do anything to help you in these dark times.
 
Benny, that's sweet- you just did do something to help. A little compassion & kindness goes such a long way.Thank you!
Our younger son is heading up on a bus to see his grandma today. He knew I have been struggling with it all. I so love my family! We spent the day with the grandkids yesterday & had a lovely day with them & then our older son & his GF had an early dinner with us, after they finished work. It was a really good day. I'm home without a car today as my LH just headed off to work. We'll have to wait to buy another car until we get some inheritance from my MIL. It's difficult only having one car, when you live in the country, but we'll manage for a while.

My weight is up and I am going to have to focus on getting it back down again soon. I think I will have to do something drastic. I am an all or nothing person it seems. Going back on my original plan for one week would shake 2-3kg & that would be a good start. Ideally I should lose 10kg. I have not been getting enough exercise & will try to get myself back into a set routine, especially with Winter coming up. I don't want to have another Winter like last year's, where I sat on my backside reading in front of the fire for most of it!

Time to move I think. I only just found out our son is headed home for the night so I had better get his bed(new) made up & do some housework. It will be a distraction.
Love to all & thanks again Benny. It was lovely to hear from you!
 
I really feel for you Cate, as this must be one of the more difficult situations you've ever had to deal with.

Trying to put a routine together is probably a good idea though. It certainly helps me to know what it is I should be doing rather than trying to "wing it" all the time.
 
Thanks Vee. It is hard. Our son lifted my spirits just by coming up to visit yesterday. He only saw my Mum for a few minutes, but I suspect it was really me he came to see. He knew I have been struggling. He went back on the bus this morning. I had a better day today & had my Mum's bed moved so that it is up against a wall. At least it's one less side she can fall out of. I put her rings back on & cut her nails & rearranged her room a bit to make it less cluttered. I feel much better when I can do something practical.
I have been logging my food for a while now as it feels like I am doing something about it, but am yet to sort out any sort of exercise routine. I have been parking my car a long way away from where I am going & walking a lot more &, hopefully, I will be playing golf tomorrow, weather permitting. It is threatening rain. If it does rain tomorrow my husband & I are going to play on Friday. We might do so anyway as he is playing 8-ball all week-end in the state teams try-outs, so will be inside all week-end. I will go walking around town while he plays but will also spend quite a bit of time indoors watching him, so it would be good to play an extra game of golf beforehand.
My fingers seem to be typing away of their own accord, so I had better stop!
Bye for now, xo Cate.
 
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So sorry to hear your Mum is doing so poorly. I know you are doing what you can for her and that you wish you could do more. I'm happy you had a good visit with your son.

I haven't cut wood since the back injury. I hope I can again some day. My Father always says that firewood warms you twice. I think it's closer to a half dozen times going from standing tree to split and stacked wood. Spring here and I have a snoot full of pollen.

Take care Cate and I hope you can get a routine going.
 
Thank you very much Q, for your support. I think one of the hardest things with Mum now is that I do feel useless. I can't change how things are so I must learn to stress less. I really do need to get back into a routine. I'm working my way towards it by cutting down on my food (& wine) but I'm not yet focussed. I hope some of yours & Vee's enthusiasm will rub off! Thanks for visiting my diary Q! Cheers, Cate.

OK. I am going to make next Monday, the 14th of April as my starting date to get back on track seriously & get my weight down. We will be away all week-end as my husband is playing 8-ball in the state teams try-outs, so it would be easier if I leave it until after that. I will walk lots & eat healthy over the w/e though.

It has been raining for a day & a half so there was no golf yesterday & no wood cut either. I'll get on my bike later, when my LH goes to practise his 8-ball at our YS's. He is having a few mates around for a hit so I'll stay home & exercise. I'm easing my way back into it.

You guys have inspired me to get moving! Cheers & thanks for that, xo Cate
 
I am very happy to report that I started back on track today. I am having a very healthy eating day, but also I-
rode my exercise bike for 20 mins vigorously (10km),
hand sanded a chest of drawers,
did lots of housework,
replanted some house-plants & put them outside in the rain,
rode my bike again for 10mins (5km) & then
did my weights!!! I haven't done then in AGES! I did them to music. I love my new ipod & dock!
I did 12 different weights exercises, 10 times, with 10 sideways steps in between & then I just danced with the weights. Funk Soul Brother came on at the end so I did some shadow boxing/dancing until that finished.
I hit the shower after that so I wasn't tempted to keep going!
I feel a million dollars! :D
Cheers, xoxo Cate
 
& feel great today! I had a very good night's sleep. I'll buy some more sand-paper today as I want to keep the momentum going with the chest of drawers. My LH thought I had done an excellent job! It would be over 100 years old & should be looked after. I think it's cedar. I have to check out what I'm putting on it next. I want to oil it, or use beeswax. This is another first. I have never restored a piece of furniture before.
I'll go do some online homework now.
Cheers, Cate
 
Hi Q & V- It does feel really good to be back feeling determined again, even with a week-end where I spent most of my time just watching my LH play pool in the State try-outs. I made up my inaction again today with my bike & my weights exercises again & more work to the chest of drawers & lots of housework. My aim is going to be to keep moving whenever I can! Music is very motivating. I have such a mixed lot of songs on my ipod & I still haven't set up playlists. I just exercise at the speed of the current song. Funk, soul brother is the best! An oldie but a goodie. Feeling very motivated and enjoying a beautiful Autumn day in Tasmania!
Forgot to weigh this morning though, so had better do that tomorrow!
Love to all, xo Cate
 
Weighed this morning & am still the same. I started back on track with exercise last Thursday, so will weigh again this Thursday. I'm going for a fasting blood test this morning (for cholesterol etc) & am ravenous. I actually hate being hungry & should get over it. I haven't decided on an eating plan yet. I have just been trying to keep my cals below 1500 a day. I'm fairly sure I need to cut down on all starchy carbs & eat more lean meat, fish & veg. I might go back to weighing my food again for a while ......but hopefully I won't have to!
Time to move xo Cate
 
Played 18 holes of golf today & had a ball! I committed to playing on Easter Sat & Monday as well as next Wednesday. Can't you just see that fat vanishing? :D I hope so!!! I was only 1 shot off winning Div 2 today & didn't play anywhere near as well as I did a few weeks ago, when we won the mixed foursomes. I know I can play better golf & I love it, so I need to play more to get better. I want to really reduce my handicap! My aim is to bust it by 7 shots by the end of this year.

I'll weigh in tomorrow & if I am not 1kg less then drastic measures will have to be taken.
Feeling good, loving life, xoxo Cate
 
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