Cate's Diary

It is not easy being back home & getting back into a new routine. My home is going to get very clean, very soon. There is a lot of time in a day. I miss a lot of the experience of travelling but not all. Not having to queue for anything is wonderful, especially a toilet! I made a decision to step back from organising everything re my MIL & I don't think anyone, including myself, realised just how time-consuming it was. I was so stressed before we went away. I have to be very careful to spend lots of time with my Mum as they are both in the same care facility & when I visit my Mum my MIL knows I'm there. It is not going to be easy. I don't want either of them thinking I don't care about them. Tricky! I'll visit tomorrow.
I didn't play golf today with the women. I just didn't feel like it really. I wanted to have another week between them & my holiday. The last thing I want is to blather on about what a fantastic time we had. I feel much more self-aware about that than I would have once. I enjoyed the day home with my LH. We had a great day pottering about. I loved being away with him for over a month, not knowing anyone!
Love to all xoxo CCate
 
Settling back slowly. My house is getting VERY tidy. The days are drawing in as Winter approaches. I must make sure I don't get S.A.D. or, if I do. recognise it for what it is I LOVE sunshine! I will tell you soon about our experiences being with a tour group. I'm not sure I would ever do it again. If I ever did the whole tour group would be family and/or friends! Our guide was a sweetie.
Cheers for now xo Cate
 
It's a hard adjustment to go on an adventure and settle back into real life. Had to go through it in March, and will be going through it again next week.

But it's doable. Home does have its comforts, and at least when it comes to getting/staying in shape, the daily routine can often be quite helpful.
 
Hi Mr Vee. It is hard, but I am settling back down. I have come home with, not only a greater appreciation of what I have, but also a desire to express my thanks to those I think deserve it. I am so lucky & so loved. I am going to enjoy my life to the full. I have not gone through any "mid-life crisis" (too late for that, unless I'm going to live to 120!) but have had an epiphany of sorts. It is a shame that it has taken me so long to get to the stage where I can love & accept myself, but it is better late, than never.
I bought a huge selection of "treats" , a thank-you card & a big container to put them in & gave them to the staff at the aged care facility our mothers are in. The card said simply "Thank you for looking after our mothers." They deserve medals!
Too many people criticise, too many people complain, everyone is in so much of a hurry......we don't thank people enough.
I feel only a teensy weensy little bit guilty, because I have not got back into any exercise routine at all. I won't let myself get fat ever again, but I had better get moving sometime soon! I'm not calorie counting again though, unless I hit a brick wall & start piling weight back on again! 2kg would do it!
Having the grand-kids tomorrow morning & am really looking forward to that. I thought we weren't going to continue with that as their Mum is no longer going to the mormon church, but apparently she still doesn't want them back until lunch-time. I'm glad- for us. I SO love those 3 kids!!!
Time for dinner- cold corned beef(home-cooked) with green tomato pickle (home-made) & some hot vegetables. YUM!
Cheers, xo Cate
 
Hi Cate - I have read several diaries from start to finish and yours is next on the list! I pick up so many pointers from them. I saw your before and after pictures and you look very nice! Good job. You have a pretty kitchen, too. Being from the US, I am ashamed to say that I can't seem to figure out the metric system, grams and kiligrams, etc, but after reading some threads from UK I think it's time I learned. I do not have a noticeable "after" picture yet, but I'm hoping this is the year!
 
That's sweet of you Goal2Bhealthy! You will need LOTS of time to get all the way through my diary though sweetie! Mind you, I used to find reading diaries a great way of filling in time when I was ravenous. It can be very distracting & also inspirational. I used to spend AGES in the forum when I first started losing weight. The support I got really helped me stay focussed & I have made some lovely friends along the way, some that I have actually met in person. Our kitchen is lovely & we appreciate it even more after just spending 5 weeks in Europe. Our home seems huge now & we are enjoying the space & the light. I hope 2013 is going to be your year for taking that noticeable "after" photo too. It has taken me many years to actually accept that I don't look fat anymore. I say this as a friendly "warning." It's such a shame that we are so hard on ourselves. Thank you for posting in my diary. I love it when people do! Cheers, Cate
 
You're so right Cate.
Whenever I feel like I'm struggling I do the same thing. Reading (or watching, I can watch up to a complete season of the biggest loser on youtube in about a week when I'm not feeling to good) people having setbacks and overcoming them or people having great succes, it is motivating.
 
Welcome back Cate, and congratulations on being happy being you! I'm not on here much...and after getting really sick after the great wall marathon, I'm back to good health...thank God and some high powered antibiotics, I'm good! I'm also happy about being me..and I got 5 new business suits made in my small size...I don't think I'll be having them taken up, and I don't plan on having them being let out...so my goal is maintenance. I too am weighing once a week and adjusting accordingly...so far so good! I'm really glad you had a wonderful trip! Now, I'm going to officially close out my diary on here...maybe I'll open up another..not sure yet! Take care and thanks once again for all your encouragement through the months on here! Sarah
 
Cate, being retired, I do spend a lot of time online and I'm obsessed with reading about weight loss, health, fitness. I read Omega's journey from start to finish, and that was a long one. I like to hear about the trial and tribulations long term. That is where you find out about hitting snags and conquering them.
 
I feel privileged to have had 3 visits to my diary since yesterday. It's lovely.
Guideon- It is motivating to hear or read about people overcoming set-backs. I don't like the "cringe factor" involved with "reality" tv shows. I preferred to keep my weight-loss plan to myself (as much as I could anyway) amongst my work-mates & family & friends, but then shared my innermost thoughts in the forum. It has been a wonderful outlet for my emotions, fears & doubts. I have now learned to share more of myself & that has translated into having more really lovely, good friends. Finding out that people seemed to like the real me, that I revealed in the forum, has given me much more confidence & reduced my self-doubt. I have always felt that self-doubt and/or lack of self love is at the core of why most of us over-eat. I now eat because I am hungry.
Sarah- I am sorry sweets that I missed that you have been sick since the Great Wall marathon. I hope you are well again now! I will miss you if I don't have any further contact so will pm you my contact info. I am really happy to see that it seems that you are having a smoother transition into maintenance than I had. I have found it really hard to accept that I am slim and healthy. I have now, at long last thrown away my "fat goggles". From now on I am only going to tell someone that I was once 111kg if I think it will help them, & only after I know that they would really like to know. What a liberation! My birthday present to myself it seems is to love & accept who I am! xoxo Cate
Goal2Bhealthy- I'm now retired too & love it! It sure takes some adjustment though. I don't miss the stresses of working at all & have adjusted to having a lot less money. I don't even want to think about how many hours I have spent in this forum. I do know it has been a strong factor with helping me keep motivated & focussed on being healthy & fit. It's very cheap therapy! Omega's diary is very inspiring. If you get through mine you may end up thinking I'm a raving lunatic! :blush5: I'll have a look now to see if you have your own diary. Cheers, Cate
 
Cate - I have not started a diary yet, but I might, sometime in the future, after I become more comfortable with the forum. I do keep a diary with FitDay, but am not ready to make it public.
 
Keeping a diary is good for me. I find it helps to articulate how I'm feeling & often I deal with problems before they get out of hand. It's not all about weight of course, but mostly I find I put on weight when I am worrying or stressing. I have had a day of over-eating when I spent most of the day & then the evening on my own. It felt bad, but I snapped out of it. I have many adjustments to make again (always!) to being back home, after a lovely time away with my husband. Our holiday was just wonderful. Every day we saw something awesome. I have to try to maintain that sense of awe & excitement in my everyday life.
I did not feel like going to golf yesterday but did. I played 9 holes but when it started raining I retreated & came home. I was feeling cold & snuffly & the day felt really raw. [I came home from our trip with a bit of a cold.] I also did not feel like socialising with the women after golf. I don't think golf is going to be very enjoyable over Winter!
Hopefully Winter will be short!
Cheers for now xo Cate
 
Had a really good day today & rearranged our kitchen. I had lots of energy & decided to put it to good use. It looks GREAT! I ate very well & did not have one snack. Not one! Happy with my day. I'm feeling much better & my head cold is disappearing. :D
 
Nothing much happening in my part of the world. Another day that I have eaten well & resisted temptation!
I'll put a photo taken on our trip for my 60th on though. This was one of the best days of my life!View attachment 20926
 
Had a lovely night last night & this morning with the GK's. They are so loving! We did our ex-DIL a favour so she could go out to a Zumba demonstration. I wish she could be happy & stable. I do really feel for her. Our son is much happier now they are no longer together & I now know just how hard their relationship was, especially for him, but that does not stop me feeling sorry for her. If only......so many if only's...but not if only they would get back together. I know that would not be for the better. I love seeing him more like he used to be.
 
hi cate!saw your diary on the front page.looks like you are the only one that dint quit.!!!im trying to get my act together i put all my weight back on...Will check out your signature link!motivation is much needed!!!!!!!
love and kisses!
 
Hi sweetie. I don't think any of us have or will ever quit. You have not quit. I seem to remember one lovely young woman sitting on the beach in a bikini not that long ago. That lovely young lady was & is you! We all need to keep up our motivation Jess, me as much as anyone. It helps me too by adding quotes. Glad you're back in here xoxo Cate
 
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