My day-
I wasn't up to sharing my day earlier as I would have ended up in tears but I need to get it off my chest. To me my diary also articulates my feelings & helps me to sort them out. They are all over the show at the moment. I'll start with the bad-
After a trip to our local town we called in at our son's to feed the fish. When we got there the builders were there which was good as they are about to have a large bedroom added & they have started work while they're away. They are in a very small 2 bedroom cottage with 3 kids.
When I went inside there was an awful smell & when I got to the tank all of their tropical fish were dead & floating on the top. I won't go into gory details but about an hour later we had got the tank out(only a small one), had it hosed out, found 4 live catfish & 1 little tetra. We hosed off all the bits & pieces & left them outside & brought the live fish home in a small jar & now have them in a big jar.
I think the pump had failed, perhaps in the heat because my husband's workplace had wires melt. Perhaps the builders turned the power off. I have no idea. It was awful & I still feel nauseous & teary typing this. Our son loved those fish & so did our OGS. I had only been feeding them every second day but their house was really hot. First time I went up there the water was really murky, the light was off over the tank & I couldn't see any bubbles but I got the light going. Now I think the pump was probably never going at all, as the fish were slow.
I stewed & stewed back home & when I was actually pacing in the kitchen about an hour ago I said to my LH that I think I should ring & tell him straight away so I did. He was ok about it & said not to worry as it sounds like it wasn't my fault , just one of those things, glad it wasn't their dog or us etc. He was really good about it. I didn't mention anything about maybe the builders turning the power off as it possibly (probably) wasn't that. More than likely the pump just failed. I don't know the first thing about fish tanks & will never have one.
It was an awful job & I will never look after anyone's fish again. Ugh!
He said one of his work-mates needs some catfish so it sounds like he won't be replacing the fish. I think it's a good thing because they hardly have room for their things & it took up a lot of space.
I cleaned up where it was as well & it looks a lot better. I had already decided that I was going to spend a few hours at their house tomorrow if it's not too hot & do some spring-cleaning for them before this happened so I still will. I'll clean the fridge & vacuum the house anyway. We are going to have a meal ready for them in their fridge for when they get home on Wed night. We (I) had decided to do this before we found the dead fish.
When I was typing my first post today the phone rang & it was my doctor's receptionist telling me that my blood test results were back & I needed to make an app't to see my doctor. I was so sure my results would be good. I felt smug, even because-
a) when I had the last test we were running a pub & eating all the wrong foods-fried seafood, bread galore, hot chips, you name it. Plus we drank quite a lot, were stressed almost all the time & didn't do any exercise outside work, which was hardly aerobic.
b) I was 32kg heavier than I am today.
c) I was actually on Cohen's when I had the blood test so thought it would be exceptionally good.
Aaaaarrrrgggghhhhhhhhh!
OK. I got that out of my system. I can't remember what else they test you for but I assume it's the cholesterol that is the problem. I really thought that I would be able to lower my medication after Cohen's but I have found that is not so with my BP meds or my asthma. I do not want to start taking bloody cholesterol meds also. Not happy Jan.
If any day would turn me to drink today is the onebut I won't!. That would make it much worse!
Serious over-use of exlamation marks today!!!!!!
I need to calm down & look at the bright side and/or the positive side.
Good things that happened today- Thinking, thinking.......
We got 2 big truck-loads of wood-chip free. (Long story)
Our son didn't seem too upset.
They have less mess & a little more space in their room that is their kitchen/dining/living/baby's bedroom. It's one biggish room that serves as almost everything. I think my DIL copes really well but I don't know how. I don't think I could. The new room is going to be lovely. It will be their bedroom & is quite large. It will have built-ins & large windows & a sliding door onto a large decking that will join their other decking. Our OGS will have a room of his own & the 2 younger ones will share a room. No more cot in the lounge, more light, as there will also be a new window & a new glass door replacing a wooden one.
That made me feel better just typing that. Writing things down puts them in perspective.
The cholesterol may not be too bad. I will certainly change my diet before I take any drugs. I had been eating more eggs than normal the last few years so that could be it. Just because I had been on Cohen's 100% for 4 days probably would not affect the test at all. I am so surprised at this. It has taken me by shock. I have what I thought was such a healthy diet. I don't eat butter or fatty meats or fried food. I have to stop stewing over this as I have to wait until Thursday morning to see my doctor & I won't get the details until then. Worrying won't help.
As soon as my LH left for golf I did what I always do when I'm stressed & started cleaning(No, I'm not OCD). This time I opened up the fridge & re-arranged it & cleaned it. It wasn't a very thorough clean as it didn't really need it & my energy fizzed.
I haven't felt this stressed for quite a while. I think I'll go sit in my chair, have a Diet Sprite & veg out in front of the tv. I can't imagine being hungry tonight. I have only eaten one lot of crackers today & 5 hours is up at 7. I'll wait until I feel hungry. I ate an apple to try & make me hungry, would you believe?
Sorry to off load like this. If there's any consolation it has made me feel just a little better. Bye, Cate.
PS. Just remembered another good thing I told my LH that I wanted to see if I could get down an extra 3kgs & he didn't say anything negative about it. That's a good sign. He had cracked what he thought was a funny guessing what I weighed today & was really surprised when I told him he was right. I think he agreed that a few extra would be ok just by his reaction. I'm really not finding it too difficult as it almost feels like second nature.
Luckily while we were in town we called in at a bottle shop to buy some grog for the golf club & one of my favourite bubblies, which is often $18.50 was still on special@ 2 for $22 & was about to go off special. My LH agreed that we had better get some so we got a case. II love the Andrew Garrett Sparkling Burgundy & last time we got it they had a white bubbly as well so we tried some of that & really liked it. Today we got 6 of each. When she scanned it, it showed the normal price, but we got it on special because the sign was still up. That's good news & I now have an added incentive(down-side is also the temptation!) to get to my goal weight & do re-feed & have some bubbly when I'm allowed to add wine. I can do it. I'll just imagine my Diet Sprite is bubbly. Ha ha! I won't go off the diet. I'm way too stubborn for that.
Thanks for reading this to the end if you made it. Not one of my better days! When I said I could cope with the extra .5kg I was having trouble coping with it really. I was wishing I hadn't weighed but made myself do it just because it's Monday & I had decided that Monday was weigh-in day & I'm recording it on a graph for the whole year.
OK.That's it. xoxoC
Maybe we are secret twins!!