Cate's Diary

Hiya Cate,
I can't believe you have 7 to go, you skinny minny you, that is so cool.
I am really looking forward to getting together for lunch, coffee and shopping ..yay!! love shopping...well love all 3 really.hehe
Thanks for posting all your measurements, it was good to compare, you have lost way more than me in kg's but cm's we have lost the same..weird huh?
I have slowed down a lot lately with the scales but still losing cm's. Since getting back from UK, i have been picking..there I said it!! I can't help myself, I wish i hadn't started ...i am so grrrrr with myself. It is soooooooo true when they say one deviation can set you back a week in weight loss.
Anyway enough of me.
Good for you ignoring Mr M and Mr D ...sooooo not worth it!

Keep smiling, chat soon
Annie Lusion
 
Hi Annie, Glad you're back. What a bloody pain it's been this week!
I have felt really miserable about it all & went over to the New You forum to see what it's like. I posted in there for the first time but then thought....
Why should I let these guys get me down? They are not worth it ..... so I'm actually feeling much better. Tomorrow is another day! Bullies lose interest when they are ignored or when people are nice to them. I'll try the ignore first & see how that goes. Killing with kindness might follow if the former doesn't work.
It's funny about the measurements thing. I think I was really inconsistent when I first measured. I have also always weighed about 10kg more than anyone thought I was. Go figure. I've never been able to work it out but guess it's better that no-one knew how much I weighed. It was bad enough me knowing.
I am getting quite excited about getting to re-feed. After reaching goal will be the testing time. I will be too scared to eat any crap & in fact I don't want to eat crap. Olives, anchovies yes, deep-fried rubbish no. I have almost forgotten what broccoli tastes like. Wrong.... no I haven't. The memory just came back. Baked pumpkin,(in olive oil) carrots,mmm mm. Looking forward to eating more vegetables. A glass of red wine, dinner out..... I think it must be time I went to bed. Trouble is I'm trying to stay awake until 11.15 when hubby gets home. You know I have never called him hubby before this diary. It sounds really twee. Hubby, day-time television will be next!
I react to things easily. See... Annie's back & I'm feeling more like my normal, but still crazy self!
A question for any of my buddies... What is furling & when do you use it? Also if someone posts in your diary that you do not want there can you stop them doing so or do their posts become invisible to you wherever they post? I don't feel very confident about asking a "moderator" a question after the scolding posted in the support thread. I don't need, want or like aggression.
I think I'll go read some of today's Age to see me through the next hour.
Goodnight friends, xo Cate
 
Hey folks, I'm killing time & been experimenting on the forum. I went to "Quick Links", it shows who's online & what thread we are looking at. It was quite funny to see that 3 people were currently reading my diary. Kath, I was reading yours 1/2 an hour ago! I won't go over to the other forum. I like the Cohenites on this forum! Good night folks. I'm going to put the kettle on ready for that lovely husband of mine who should be home from work very soon. Cheers, Cate
 
Cate,
Glad to see you are sticking with this forum. I have looked at a couple different forums since starting this diet but I couldn't find any that made me feel as at home as this one. I try not to stay online to long as it can be addicting and I would never get anything done. I wish I could get together with all of you when you spent your day together but considering I am soooo far away I will have to be with you in spirit.
 
Lori, You are right. I'm sure it is addictive. I haven't been able to have a look until now & started to feel toey. I had calls to make & then visitors that stayed for hours & just as I went to have a look my husband arrived home. I like to spend the evenings with him so am just having a quick look. I can see that Tony has posted yet again in our Cohen's support thread but even though I usually get upset (&angry?) I still have to have a look.I am going to pretend he's not there though. Hopefully he'll go away soon. I don't think it's very fair that people can come in & sneakily cause trouble, stir people up & then report them. He is not even interested in weight-loss as he wants to increase his weight. I have read a lot of his posts in another forum & lots of posts in various threads in this forum & he appears to me to enjoy upsetting people. He is good at it & devious. Perhaps it's a case of excessive Testosterone at work. Who knows & who cares.
I am starting to wonder what the rules are in this forum & what it's purpose is really. Who makes the rules? Are we allowed to say we don't want anyone posting in our own diaries?
My day has been mixed again. I guess most days are. Still have a fair bit of anxiety which is easily influenced by negativity or pressure.
I'm still sticking to the program "religiously," not craving anything, looking forward (but scared) to finishing, being able to eat out. Nothing to report really. Eating same old, same old. It's harder to be imaginative in winter, food-wise.
OK time to have a quick read of the main thread....fingers crossed, Cate
 
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Hi Cate
I just wanted to say hi from one taswegian to another, I have been reading through your diary and I am thoroughly inspired. I have been on Cohen for almost 3 weeks and finding it pretty good so far and Im blown away by your progress,,,Keep up the great work
Genie
 
Welcome to you Genie! Northerner or Southerner? (not that I care 2 hoots!)
Isn't Cohen's great? Have you seen Lisa or Jo? Pop in here & ask me any questions you like. I check in every day. Thank you for your kind words. I have found sticking to the program strictly is the only way for me. I have read many posts & see the biggest problems with motivation come after deviations so decided not to go down that path.
I still can't believe it's me when I look in the mirror. It has been a long time since I have seen that Cate! Look forward to watching your progress! Our support thread is usually a very happy & positive one. At the moment it is painful but we will get it back on track by being nice & supportive towards one another. Consider starting a diary. It really helps with motivation & it's amazing the responses you get. It's great! Cheers, Cate
 
Hi Cate,

Its been a couple of days since I have written in your journal. As usual you seem to be going great guns. I hope I am still that motivated when I have been on the program for a while.

Well I am just about to sit down and write my own journal...I have been meaning to do it. So far so good, second week in...6 kg's down. Today was my first challenge, I had to choose lunch from the food court in the shopping centre. I didn't realise how long we were going to be. Its a tad hard to find cohen food when you are in a food court. So I went to the kebab place and just got their salad and some shredded chicken, not the best but not too bad either. I was very strong, my friend had Kingsley....which is chicken and chips kind of place...used to be one of my favs...hot crinkle chips with the best gravy. So I sat there with my chicken and salad with a bottle of water. I did notice one of the nosey ladies from my work was there too and she was watching what I was buying. She knows that I am on a diet. She over heard me telling someone the other day that I had lost 4kg and then she emailed me with her congrats on the weightloss and with a receipe for tomato sauce for pasta. She lost a bit of weight last year herself.

Anyway Cate, I hope you are keeping warm. Last week was a struggle for me, standing at the bus stop and the wind was going mad and it was -1. 30 mins out of town had thick snow...its going to be a cold one this year!

Skinny thoughts to all.

xo
 
Hiya Cate,

Started reading your recent posts today and I'm riveted. I got a bit teary over your weekend posts. Your DH sure does sound great. :) Can you bottle him up and ebay ;) ;)

Only 7 to go - that's so fantastic !!

Cheer up, we all love your posts and the kindness that you possess shows through.

x
Stef
 
Stef- Thank you. I hope that I am kind. I'm sorry I made you teary. I did feel miserable at the week-end but woke up this morning feeling great. We drove up the coast to see our accountant who's an old friend of ours. Had a really nice hour "chat" to him & came home the scenic route. My DH (darling husband?) had a pastie & I ate my Cohen's salad in a park in Ulverstone. It was a beautiful, sunny, but cold winter's day.
We went back to the bush-walking gear shop & I exchanged the bag & bought some more thermals. I love the new bag a lot more than the other & it's a really good size. It also fitted me much better. My DH thinks it will be really good for O/S trips too. Why was I so anxious?
Today when I woke up, DH (I'm using this from now on, not "hubby") was not in bed (watching the US Open.) I jumped on the scales & I weighed 74.5 kg. I couldn't believe it. 1.5 kg in the last week!
It was way too cold to measure so I will do that tomorrow & post the new measurements. I jumped in the shower instead & then dressed "to impress" in my red, fitted jumper, which makes me feel really good. When I came out, grinning & told my DH what I weighed he was thrilled.
I read Stef's comment out to him, re bottling him up & putting him on ebay & he didn't get it. Not only is he a lovely husband but he also is not vain or self-centred. I told him today that we have to stop being so slack & should start celebrating things more. For example we have been together for 36 years this year & married for 32 years. I think we should go away somewhere special for at least one night on our wedding anniversary. We used to go out for dinner & have a bottle of French champagne or would have a nice dinner at home (with French champagne!). Mumm Cordon Rouge I used to adore. We always have too far to drive home so going out to dinner & having a few drinks is too dangerous.
Whilst our marriage gets better all the time we have gradually got slacker & have stopped making a big deal of such important milestones. I have never let him organise a birthday party for me for example.
The new Cate is going to celebrate! That even rhymes!
Enough chatterboxing for one day. I hope I don't make anyone dizzy with my ups & downs. Usually I keep them to myself but I have become used to sharing my innermost feelings. ok enough for today, xo Cate
 
Hi Cate,

Woo hooooo on the 1.5 loss this week, I can't believe only 5.5 to go.I remember we both posted in the main forum on the same day and we are still here..I still have a long way to go but you are so nearly there, I hope you will continue to post in your diary when you have finished. Never feel dizzy reading your posts, always very enjoyable.
Have a great week.
Annie Lusion
 
Cate,
Yikes, you are so close, I am so excited for you. (I wish you could see my emotions over the internet) You have lost so much weight and gained the respect of so many who are truly inspired by your journey. We love traveling down the road with you and you never make me dizzy.
 
Awesome!

Thats fantastic Cate! You rock! Not long to go now! Cant wait to hear how it all goes! And maybe even see some photos... surely you can share some with US! :)
Bless ya
Kath
 
Oh god, I love you gals!!!
Annie-I have made a promise that I will keep on writing in my diary after re-feed as I have always wished more people would. I realise that most people are very busy & might move on but I want to share the challenges that I'm sure are ahead. I have always been very curious about how others cope with the freedom & what choices they make about keeping the weight(fat) off. Once I make a promise that's it! I'm a woman of my word. By the way, I realised later about the position of threads- :doh: ! I'll put that one down to a "senior moment!" Thanks again for your kind words. Did you watch Four Corners last night? It got my stress level up a bit.
Lori- I can feel your emotion over the internet, just like I'm sure you can see the real me in my diary. I wish we could meet for coffee. We'll have to have a toast to you & our other forum buddies in Melb. when we meet later in the year. It is so exciting to feel that there is not much more to lose. Look at you too. We should all be proud of ourselves!
Nonna- Thank you too. We're well on the way. Isn't Cohen's great?!
Kath- Me rock? I am an old rocker more like! Sweetie, I think I am ready to share some photos soon. I'm getting braver as I go & a little bit more comfortable in my new skin. It is really good when someone shares their photos. I haven't taken any photos at all since I started & will have to do some scrounging around to show some befores that will really show how big I was. I avoided the camera whenever I could.
My day so far-
At 7.30am I was cuddling up to my DH;) when the phone rang. An elderly friend wanted me to take her to Launceston for her chemo treatment this morning. Her daughter takes her but couldn't today as she was sick. I had said if ever she was stuck to give me a call.
My hubby cooked me a chicken stir-fry for breakfast, (meal 2)& I took yoghurt mixed with stewed apple & psyllium husks with me to eat for lunch, dropped my DH off at golf, picked her up & headed off to Launceston. Before I left home I was pacing, shed a few tears (for my sister) & felt fairly anxious.
I dropped her off at the door while I went off to find a park. I found the experience quite confronting I'm afraid, but I think I faced a few demons today. I had a head-ache, was a bit teary, but eventually went & found her & sat with her while she finished her treatment. It's not because of my old friend having cancer (she's had a very active, healthy life & is mid-80's) it's just that it brought home to me how much I miss my sister & how much she suffered. The staff were nice to me & I chatted to the other patients & ended up ok. I recognised one of the men who used to drive a bus & call in at our hotel. I had seen his confused look of recognition so told him where he had seen me. We then chatted & laughed about some of the characters we knew & my husband's family.
I then drove her straight home answering lots of her doubts & fears along the way & explaining about white blood cells etc. I hope I know more about cancer than I will ever really need to know.
My brother-in-law was a neuro-physiologist & in charge of the Mind Brain Centre of a major medical hospital in the US. When my sister was first diagnosed he took the time to explain what was happening to me. He always answered my questions so I would understand, without me feeling like a dill. With 3 separate trips to the states for a total time of 5 mths I saw my sister have almost every imaginable treatment, my lovely BIL undergo a clinical trial & almost die while I was there trying to look after the 2 of them & then the last trip, just after he had died seeing my heart broken sister suffering from such a fear of a lonely death. When she died a few weeks after my return to Australia I thought that I should be able to cope with anything.Mmm- apparently not.
I hope my old friend doesn't need me to take her again. I know that sounds selfish but I can't help it.
I had time to drop her off home, wolfed my lunch down quickly & then pick my hubby up from golf, come home & type in here.
I'm going out with him tonight to 8-ball as I don't want to be home on my own. I feel ok now but know I need the company. I still haven't measured myself but will tomorrow.
Phew, that'll do. I feel a bit tired. Too much emotion today. "Talk" tomorrow folks, xo Cate
 
Hi cate

third time lucky hopefully this will post. COngrats on you 1.5 loss keep it going your on the down hill run now..I too would like to see some before and after pics when u are comfortable, I am also not comfortable in front of the camera maybe cohens will cure this phobia.
Im a northerner, I live and work in Launceston and love it here although the weather is chilly at the moment, im thinking of investing in some thermal underwear.
I havent had the chance to meet the girls yet as I am doing my program by email, but hope to catch them at one of their clinics when they are in town.
Keep up the great work
Genie
 
Genie- I'm not far from Launceston. Lisa is lovely & you would like her. She was once a big lady & did the program & is very fit & healthy. I like her. I had thought that I might do the program, but after meeting her in Hobart & having a good chat to her I was inspired & convinced. For me, it seems to make it easier to ask questions when you have met the person & like them & know they too have done what you are doing. She has never been negative & has always been very helpful. I think my enthusiasm amuses her.
Some of our back-packing shops should be having some super-duper sales before the end of the month. I actually wore a pair of striped long johns under my smart black pants last night & was nice & toasty, even though the night was absolutely freezing!
I really enjoyed the evening last night. I messaged one of my DH's ex workmates, J, who lives nearby to say that my DH & I would like to buy her a drink & she came around to see us. We hadn't seen her for months. Before she got there a couple came into the bar to have a drink & to back a horse, which I noticed was racing in London. I did my usual friendly,Cate chatterbox thing & spoke to them, saying it must be an important race. They said yes it was, it's Ascot. Apparently I pronounced Ascot properly, which most Australians don't & the conversation continued. The woman asked me where I live & if I was born in Tasmania & I told her. They then went up to the bar.
About 1/2 an hour later I was up at the bar, getting a Diet Sprite & they chatted to me again. J then arrived & came up to the bar to me. I must not have seen her since I started Cohen's because she was amazed at the change & wanted to know how I had done it. She hadn't known I had been dieting apparently & her eyes nearly popped out of her head when she saw me. She was very positive. We had a lot of laughs.
The other woman, that I didn't know, then joined in the conversation, wanting to know as much as possible about the program. I gave her a Cohen's pamphlet as she seemed genuinely interested. She said it would be hard doing the program because they own a pub & I told her that we tooo had owned a pub for 18 years & agreed it would be hard with all the temptations & socialising but that it isn't forever & is well worth it.
God it was hilarious. She said "Oh, you're not L & A's friends are you?" &, of course, we are. A couple of years ago, this couple, who we hadn't met, were going to travel up to our home from the West Coast, with L & A, stay the night & then go with us, by bus to the Launceston Cup but they couldn't get away from work & we didn't get to meet them.
Her poor husband for the next hour or so tried to get her out of there. It was so funny. I had to help him in the end because I felt rude not talking to J.
I had a really fun night. I was cheeky & laughed a lot. I feel that my old self is returning. I have never felt brimming with self confidence but have always had a fairly outgoing, friendly personality. I talk to anyone & everyone & love people.
All in all, the day balanced itself out pretty well!
Now I'm being an absolute lazy bones, sitting back in my recliner, laptop on lap, dog next to me, still in my PJ's & dressing gown at 10.50am. Whoops! I didn't realise it was that late! My DH is at work today until 4pm so that's good. I'll have him home with me tonight & won't come back into the forum. I like to pay him some attention in the evening, even if that just means watching tv together. I like "The Cook & The Chef", Spicks & Specks & Chaser so it's a good night's tv for me. The Chaser go a bit too far but that's satire for you. It's a fine line... I usually laugh my head off.
It's great to see our forum back on track again. I do think kindness (& a little gentle mocking) work better than anything so hopefully it will continue this way. I don't like feeling angry as it never hurts the person it's aimed at, only yourself.
I still haven't measured but have the heater on in my bathroom so that when I get inspired to go shower I will measure up. I just have to check around the diaries first. What a lazy bones!!xo Cate.
 
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Measured myself this morning.
Arms 67(33.5 x2), Bust 101, Waist 94, Hips & 108, Thighs 112(56x2)
Loss this week 6cm, total loss 115cm.
At long last the fat is coming off my legs. Pants are not feeling so tight in the leg which is great.
I am starting to think re-feed is not far off as I feel a bit hungry even after I have eaten a meal. I will wait until Monday to see what I weigh. I think I want to lose the visible fat on my legs so that my legs catch up to my waist & hips. I'll let my body tell me though. I am not ravenous, just a little hungry most of the day.
I got a phone call today to ask if I can go for a counselling app't tomorrow. They had a cancellation apparently. At least I won't have too much time to stress over it. I had better write down a few notes before I go. I'm a bit nervous but this is for my benefit so I will go ahead with this. I will come in after & let everyone know how I go. I am nervous....
Spicks & Specks is about to start so I'll say goodnight for now, cheers, Cate
 
Hi Cate
Just wanted to say G'day! How'd you go with your appointment? I was just about to drop you a line about whether you had heard about your appointment when... there you were writing that they had had a cancellation. I am glad that you took the time to write some things down before you went... speaking from the other side... It sure helps alot when people come in prepared and have an idea of what they wish to discuss.

Did you feel like you connected with your counsellor? You dont have to stick with them if you dont feel like they "get you". Some times its good to find the right one, someone you 'click with' rather than stressing about not connecting. However this can take some time to develop... But you will know if it works for you or not! You are being very brave! I think it takes a lot of "guts" :) to go to counselling! It can be very challenging... but it sure sounds like you are ready!

I am soooo excited for you...about how close you are to the end of your Cohen's journey! I totally cant wait to get there myself! You must be absolutely stoked!! Bring on the end... and the PHOTO'S!

Bless Ya
Kath
 
Kath, I've only just got home from my appointment. I was nervous but not a wreck. I'm not sure if it will help as I didn't really get a feel for what it might do for me. She was nice enough. I have 3 more appointments made- once a fortnight so will continue & see how I go. I do feel that typing in here is my best therapy but will give it a go. I do need to build my self-esteem & she thinks she can help me.
I do feel a bit tired out so won't stay in here long. Will discuss it more tomorrow I think.
I spent a voucher I had (from another shopping mistake) & got a really nice new hand-bag. I am going to learn from all of these mistakes. I'm sure I will make more but taking things straight back & getting a credit is a good idea. I only have one small one left from a sports shop. Would you believe I bought some hand weights to try & get rid of the fat at the top of my arms. As if! If it doesn't come off by walking or just with my everyday activities well..... too bad! I'll buy some clothing there soon.
Be back tomorrow when I have more energy, xo Cate
 
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