Cate's Diary

Thanks. Marsia & Petal. Oh, dear. Did I say bored? Yes. Ouch. I think I should have said I was crabby.
G & I both found it stressful putting the monitor on him. I knew there was a good reason I never became a nurse. We got it done & he managed to get some sleep, but not a lot. Neither did I, even though I was in another room as my hamster wheel brain kept me awake. I got a call in the afternoon yesterday asking me to go back into the local medical centre to provide another urine sample. I said I would do so today & then put it out of my mind.
Until the middle of the night, that is & then I couldn't get it out of my mind. In the middle of the night you don't think it's something like a simple UTI, do you? No. It's bladder cancer, ovarian cancer.......I'm wondering how we would manage me needing radiation & having to travel 120 km every day for 6 weeks etc. Should we think about moving house? Should G stay here if I die? Should I start madly de-cluttering again? You know how it goes. My poor brain! I did get some sleep, but it was fitful.
I feel a little better now. I got all the stuff off G & managed to not take any skin off in the process. We'll take the machine back this morning. I'll call in & leave a new sample & will just pretend that maybe they dropped the original & that's why they need another.

We had one of our favourite breakfasts this morning. Toast with avocado, half a salmon fillet each, a little mayo & a little rhubarb chutney. YUM!
G made one of the nicest soups ever yesterday, which we had for dinner last night. I asked him to make it really thick. He put the pumpkin, sweet potato, onion, garlic, chilli, curry powder, turmeric, some adzuki beans(using them up), some polenta(using it up), a pinch of salt, some black pepper & a little fish sauce. It was so good!

I will go for a walk today & will do some Tai Chi. I am going to try to chill out!
 
Truffle Monster said:
Good plan to chill out Cate! It must be hard for you right now but just keep going and stay positive.
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Thanks, TM. I'll have to follow my own motto "Never gives up"!
Breakfast was delicious, thanks, Vic. I am changing my pattern of eating to having a bigger breakfast & lunch & a light dinner.
Trusylver said:
good idea, worrying about it all is not going to help your health.
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I know, Tru. The more you worry the more you worry. I'll get off here & go get showered & dressed, do the dishes & head out of the house!
xoxo Cate
 
Cate said:
... a bigger breakfast & lunch & a light dinner.
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That's what I'm doing these days - today's breakfast was an orange, a lightly omeletted egg crammed in with as much lettuce and mixed herbs as possible in a bread roll, with chutney, and then three crackers to finish with! Not as delicious or nutritious as yours, but still a good way to start the day. :)

Have a good day, and may all the news be good too!
 
Cate said:
I think I need to re-train my body to get used to eating less.
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I know that is a really hard thing to do, right now I feel like I have been able to do it for the first time in my life. I am not sure why, except that I am eating a lot of food volume wise, just not a lot of calories. I tried and failed probably thousands of times, for much of my life I woke up and decided i was going to start a diet and re-train my body as you say, rarely did it last past noon. I also know how easy it would be for me to binge and un-train quickly. Anyway best of luck to you on this, I believe you have more successful experience than I doing it.

Sure hope you are able to chill out, I know if I was awaiting word on an aneurysm I'd be pretty stressed. I am impressed that you are able to think about much else. And I agree with Amy, I hope all your news is good.
 
Thanks, Amy. Your breakfast sounds pretty good :)
Thanks, Rob. I don't binge any more & don't eat rubbish food, but mostly I eat about 1400-1500 cals a day & don't think I get enough exercise. As soon as I can I will get back into it.
I think I was coping well enough with the waiting for the results of the aneurysm & a call from my cardio (still waiting) but when I got the other call, which was totally unrelated, my poor brain just couldn't cope. It was just a WTF night really. I have my blood tested each year & a urine sample taken by my GP as I am on statins (isn't just about everybody on the planet?) & have never had to redo one before. It could be lots of things & I'm sure I'll hear back from the local medical centre in a couple of days if there's a problem with the new sample.
Maybe back in "the good old days" ignorance might have seemed like bliss but wasn't because more people just died.
Now we find out about lots of things that would once have gone undetected & have access to a treatment that has improved out of all sight. I can cope with most things, but it takes me a while to adjust & to take things in. One thing at a time is good for me!
I think I will go to golf tomorrow, but not play, as I want to catch up with G (the one who has lung cancer). I'll like to just go for a walk around with her. She is on the last day of 6 &1/2 weeks radiation & is getting out there each week & playing & is an inspiration to me. It felt funny her ringing me to see how I was. I'll see how I feel tomorrow & it depends on any calls I might get. My cardio is in his practice for another 3 hours today & again tomorrow afternoon. I don't really want to drive at the moment.
 
Cate I imagine the urine sample request pretty harmless.
I imagine most of my food days are also in the region of 1400 cals . At the moment I'm not moving enough , that I know but I'm finding it hard with work and other commitments. Need to follow your lead and just get on with it a little walk here and there .
Your breakfast sounds delicious. I wonder if G couldn't sleep with the monitor on was it a moot exercise
 
LaMaria said:
Quoted for truth. And just walking along while other people play golf sounds pleasant.
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I don't think anyone will be playing as it is bucketing down & we are having some crazy, wild weather. I'll go out anyway & go for coffee with them (or lunch).
Petal001 said:
Cate I imagine the urine sample request pretty harmless.
I imagine most of my food days are also in the region of 1400 cals . At the moment I'm not moving enough , that I know but I'm finding it hard with work and other commitments. Need to follow your lead and just get on with it a little walk here and there .
Your breakfast sounds delicious. I wonder if G couldn't sleep with the monitor on was it a moot exercise
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I wasn't worried until I was asked to go back for another.
Unfortunately, I haven't been walking enough either Petal, but I will. I got less sleep than G last night. He said he didn't get any less than usual. He even managed to sleep on his stomach with the machine under him. He usually sleeps on his stomach.
I'm feeling fine tonight & not stressed. Our food is usually pretty good. Lunch was the pumpkin soup, with a little toast & then venison casserole with lots of veggies for dinner. We had cauliflower, broccoli, spinach, carrots, beetroot, potato, sweet potato( a little of each).
2 oranges tonight because I really felt like I needed an orange & then I really wanted to have another, so did.
 
Hi Cate —

Stressful couple of days since I last visited. Sorry to hear about your troubles. I HATE the scale and the tendency to just pop on a kg whenever it feels like it. Uber frustrating. It sounds like the least of your worries though.

They probably did just drop the specimen, but my mind works like yours — it’s never a headache, it’s a brain tumor! So now your sleep has been suffering, on top of low energy and feeling like crap. No fun. I’m sorry.

My mum recently had to stop lisinopril after taking it for years with no trouble, because it started throwing her kidneys off. I’m not sure what they started her on instead. I hope they figure this out for you soon so you can get your quality of life back.
 
Cate you just reminded me I bought a cauliflower . Not sure where I put it .
It's raining here too but if it clears I'm going to go out for a walk . We will try get back at the walking Cate
 
Hi, Pam. I'm not dwelling on it today. I almost looked up lisinopril, but then stopped myself. Enough of the googling, Cate! I'm stopping the guessing game. It is very non-productive & leads to catastrophising. Sleep makes a lot of difference. I got a great night's sleep last night.
Hi, Petal. That made me laugh! Where could you have put a cauliflower? Mine are always in the fridge.
Petal001 said:
It's raining here too but if it clears I'm going to go out for a walk. We will try to get back at the walking Cate
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Yes, we must. It is raining again here, but I think it is going to be showery & blustery, but there will be moments when I can get outside for a while anyway. I promised G that I wouldn't go off walking while he was at golf.

I haven't heard back from anyone yet.
My BP last night was down to 96/53, pulse 72 but was 120/65 & 62 first thing this morning. I feel ok.
I got a call from my friend, G & she isn't going out to golf today, so neither am I. I'm now in my at-home Winter clothes all rugged up & cosy on my chair, in front of the wood heater, with a pot of herbal tea. Feeling quite content actually. It's raining heavily out there.
 
This crazy country! The winds are all over Oz I think. Scary for you, scary for us in different ways. No large trees can come down on our house, but I'm not walking in the bush, that's for sure. It's really squally out there.
 
Raining heavily for me, too, though it was only light rain a little while back. Great weather for appreciating non-leaking roofs!
Yes, may there be rain in all the places which need it, including your place, Tru. I was reading about a bad fire season predicted for NSW this year,and it sounds as if Queensland's looking at the same. I dread the fire season - not so much for me, as for a family member living in well-timbered country.
 
We've had everything today. Light rain, heavy rain, sunshine (very briefly), wild winds, rainbows, snowing on the mountains.........
I give up on the idea of a walk. I have had a lovely day though.
I phoned my SIL & had a good chat. Then my sister & had a good chat. Then R, our younger son. Then lunch. I have been listening to music & doing a little housework. Not much.
I had some of G's delicious very thick pumpkin soup for lunch with some natural Greek yoghurt (the horrible no fat one) on top & sprinkled with some seeds that I toasted dry in a non-stick frypan. I felt very chefy. :D Delicious. Followed by a piece of fresh pineapple.
I might go finish the ironing & then get a book out.
 
Just got an email back from the cardio's receptionist to apologise for the delay & instructing me to drop the new pill down to 1/2 a pill once a day, instead of a full one, twice a day. I emailed straight back thanking her & to tell her that my BP was 96/53 last night, after doing nothing & that I would continue keeping track of it until I see the cardio sometime in the next couple of months as he said, after getting the results of my CT scan. I thought that was a polite hint. I'm glad I have the ok to cut that right down!
Rang my sister back & told her.
 
Oh, good! Good that you have the okay, good that they're in touch and up with the latest - and good for for you delicately nudging them along! :)

(Also - so good to have a sister in touch to share it with!)
 
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