Cate's Diary

Poor Cate

it sounds like you are not having a good run on the food topic, poor thing.....on the upside glad to hear that the 8 ball is going well and that you have managed to find a few diamonds among the coal....

another bonus is your pc is till going strong.. i better go still have so much to do before i need to leave..so i hope your weekend is a better one and will catch up with every one monday.. hopefully with news on my new program...

Good luck, have fun and be good to yourself..

Chelle
 
Had a better food day yesterday. Had kiwi fruit & yoghurt for breakfast and a cashew stir fry at the Casino Watergarden. It's great value & very healthy and delicious. I slept all afternoon & got up 1 hour before the dinner. The dinner was a buffet & once again I chose lightly & chose well. I had a small sweet and did not over-eat. We didn't stay to party but snuck out & were back in our room before midnight. I did not over-indulge once alcohol-wise in the whole 2 weeks. I drank mostly Mercury Light Cider. Last night I had 1 champagne. I still enjoyed the company, although I didn't do any dancing at all. I haven't had much exercise at all in the last couple of weeks either.
We are home & it feels so good to be home. The dogs were happy to see us at the kennels & don't seem at all traumatised. They even charged us less because they were in together. I couldn't believe that really.
The Launceston Casino (Country Club) did an excellent job and many said that they were the best nationals they had ever been to. Many of our favourite players have been selected in the Australian side to play in England. Our YS will be in England to watch them as he has planned to be there to coincide with it. One of his very crazy mates is in the team. It's a bit scary to imagine the 2 of them in England together. The casino management were very impressed with the business they got and I'm sure will be very happy with their sponsorship value. Everything was up for the whole 2 weeks. The accommodation was fantastic. We loved the Country Club Villas. The staff were great. It's good to know that we can provide such good facilities.
Our local newspaper, the Examiner also provided the best coverage that any state has ever had. It was balanced and informative. They didn't just do the parochial stuff & cover the Tasmanian players but spread it about. I must write some thank you letters and emails!
I'll weigh tomorrow and report. Cheers, Cate.
 
Only 1kg up!

Only 1kg up from 2 weeks ago but feeling that I am retaining at least 5kgs of fluid. I still have a very bad sore throat, headache and generally feeling pretty blah. I rang & cancelled my first pump class which was going to be tomorrow night. I haven't rung my DIL to tell her I'm not going yet or able to babysit on Tuesday. I'm a little flat & miserable today & don't feel like talking to anyone. I was meant to go get our 2 weeks mail from our neighbour & eggs from another neighbour but haven't done so yet.
I think I'm feeling low because I'm not well & I have to tell myself so. I had a bit of a tiff with our OS before the dinner as I was disappointed with a couple of things he did & told him so. He really yelled at me & was angry. My LH agreed with me afterwards that our son had done the wrong thing & I must say I was really hurt with his reaction & that he didn't seem to care what anyone had thought, including me. I believe you should be there to watch as many matches as you can, even when you are eliminated, as I think it's about being a good sport. My LH & I watched almost every match, except when I was babysitting. I don't know how many times I was aked where our sons were. I think if we all stopped caring about what people think we lose respect for others and they can lose respect for us. I know he's a good person and is usually considerate and I found it really hurtful.
I'm looking forward to having some energy back. I'm absolutely worn out. I might go see a different doctor tomorrow or try booking in to see mine on Wednesday. I'll see how the throat is in the morning. I don't think it has turned into a chest infection yet, at least.
It's quite cold today & really windy.
I'm going back on Cohen's on Wednesday as I have to go shopping first. I want to get back to goal weight again for Summer.
I'll go before I make anyone too miserable. Bye, Cate.
 
Feeling a little better mentally tonight, if not physically. Our OS visited briefly and all was cool. I know that I over-react to anger or raised voices, especially when it's directed at me. I always have. I wish I wasn't so sensitive.
I will make some changes tomorrow. I have over-eaten sweet things (sultanas, licorice, gingernut biscuits, prunes, soy icecream) today for no other reason than feeling miserable. The soy icecream I didn't even enjoy. In fact I didn't actually enjoy any of it. It was just stuffing my face. As if that helps! At least while I was away from home when I did have something sweet it was after a main meal & was a delicious choice. The desserts were something else. Mm mmmmm.
My LH played golf today, came home & then went back for a committee meeting. He's back at work tomorrow. We have been inseparable for 2 whole weeks & I loved that. I feel clingy & a bit needy & that's not good. I won't let him know though.
Tomorrow I promise I'm going to be the normal Cate again. Back to Cohen'sfood, back to healthy food & fresh air. If I'm not much better I'm off to the doc. Cheers, Cate.
Back into some sort of routine tomorrow, including a nice long walk, after doing some very Cohen's-friendly supermarket shopping
 
Normal Cate.

Tut tut... goodness me.. first off stop beating yourself up.. you silly thing..
We women are programmed to over react, especially when it involves our family...:)
Second its your blog, it for you to post what ever you want, regardless of mood or content......
I just hope this posting finds a refreshed Cate...

OS / YS: At the end of the day they still love you and you love them, some people should just learn to keep their opinions to themselves. i find some people just cant leave it at once.. they mention it again and again.. like you didnt hear them the first time.. Even the most polite person can not always maintain their composure amoung such people..

Your kids are still young, dont beat yourself they are individuals and you raised them well.. be kind to yourself, there are so many more things that they could be up to....

Well you are back home now. I am sure just awakening in your own room in your own house will have you feeling a lot better..

Well i better fly, its 11am and i have yet to shower.. ha ha the life.. New program tonight.. yippee.... Hope you are feeling better in mind body and spirirt..

Hugs

Chelle
 
Chelle- Thank you very much for finding the right words to make me feel much better. I haven't felt miserable today thank goodness & do feel quite a bit better physically as well so am back to feeling like me again. Normal Cate ha ha is usually fairly positive. You are so right about women giving ourselves such a hard time. We have done well to bring up such fine young men. Thank you Chelle! That came at just the right time.
I did a big shop today and my fridge looks much healthier. I hate a sick fridge, don't you?
I then proceeded to do my super-organised thing of washing vegoes, cutting them up & putting them in labelled containers in the fridge ready to go. "Onions, cut up" "Celery, cut up" etc. I know, it's a little obsessive, but I love it. When my LH gets home from work he just grabs the containers & "hey presto" instant delicious meal, with very little effort & time required from him. He has the knack & I make a good "kitchen bitch". I mean that in the nicest possible way. It's just one of the silly terms we used to use when we were in the pub. We're a great team.
One of my YS's girl-friends has followed up from a chat with me at the Nationals & has bought almonds to keep in her bag to have just before drinking alcohol. He just sent me a text telling me. I really like her. She's very sophisticated, slim & stunning & lives in WA. She's a fantastic 8-ball player. I had asked her if she had to really work at being so slim & she thought it a strange question until I told her that at the start of last year I was huge. She seemed surprised & said she couldn't imagine me big. How good is that?!
Even though I came back from the 8-ball ill my self-esteem is continuing to grow.I am more confident with others all the time & more comfortable in my skin and body.
I am back on strictly Cohens food, no weighing at the moment & already that makes me feel so much better mentally. I also made a large fruit salad of the original Cohen's fruit. I have not eaten enough fruit & vegies the last 2 weeks. I also bought some chewable Vit C & am going to eat them throughout the day for the next week or so.
I have not booked in to see the doc as I think I might be able to beat the bug myself. Time will tell.
I'm going to scoot as my LH is about to arrive home from work and I want to have a chat about something. We got an invite today for a 60th birthday party in Melb soon & it clashes with 2 things. Talk later, cheers, Cate
PS I got a beautiful silver Maltese cross in the mail today from a girlfriend in Melb who just visited Malta & the Greek Islands. Now that made me smile!!! How nice! Where would we be without friends & family. Funny thing is on Friday we gave a lift to the dinner to one of the Victorian 8-ballers & his girlfriend(wife?), along with our YS & he's from Malta. I had asked him if he wore a Maltese cross & said I loved them. Can you believe that? Is that Karma?
 
Must be Karma Cate. A lovely gift for a lovley person and just at the right time to lift your spirits too!!
So sorry to hear that you have been having a rough trot and thankful that Chelle has been here with all the right words to say to you.
It's funny how bad you feel when you eat unhealthy food. Can you imagine that we all probably felt like that most of the time before we found Cohens and never realised how bad we felt because we had never felt good!! I find that quite amazing and inspiring to stick to the program and not eat rubbish when I'm finished. You are an inspiration to me that you have managed to overcome so many hurdles over the last year and that you are still so forcused and so in control of yourself. Well done Cate and thanks. I'm sure I will be asking for heaps of help when I'm done with refeed as I'm sure most of the hurdles I come up against, you will have already have overcome and will have a fantastic solution for me.
Take care
Beck
 
Beck- How very sweet of you to say that. I don't feel great still, I must admit, but feel a little better than yesterday. Unfortunately I weighed myself again today & I have crept up even more. That's my binge from 2 days ago catching up. It can't all be fat bu, even so, it's disheartening. If you can follow maintenance guidelines when you finish the weight-loss part of the program this will not happen and you will have much less grief. If I can help others by showing you what not to do at least that'ssome compensation. I do have the skills but putting any weight back on really depresses me as it also feels really uncomfortable. I do feel like crap and can't wait to feel good again. My head cold is clearing a little. Now I need to get back in the Cohen's zone.
Forum- I am sorry if anyone is needing me to answer questions.I just don't feel up to it. I am going to keep typing in here but am having a rest from the rest of the forum. I really appreciate the support I get and love my forum friendships but I am really run-down & think I need a bit of a mental rest. I'm ok- just really tired.
Oh, I nearly forgot. We have a 60th birthday party to go to in Melb on Sunday week. We had 3 different things that we had been invited to on the one day & then this one arrived. My husband's best mate, who he moved over to Melb with from Hobart Uni, is turning 60. We will catch up with most of the friends we grew up with through our 20's. We have kept in loose touch with lots of them, closer touch with some of them & it will be great to have such a reunion. I am really p.....d off with myself for having put weight back on. All up from my lowest I seem to have crept up 7.5kgs. I had settled on the top of my goal weight range for over a year but have put on an extra 4.5kgs since September. I am back on eating original Cohens food, but without weighing & will continue to do that until Tuesday week after the party. I will then go on original program, depending on what I weigh then.
I do feel I should go back on the program for a while & then do re-feed again. I may wait until after Christmas for that so I can really focus on it. Hopefully I won't have to. I need to get rid of the sweet stuff right out of my diet. I am starting to think dried fruit may have been a big problem.
OK- I'm sick of dwelling on it. I'm doing something about it. I am back to basics. 'Night, Cate
 
Hi Cate,
It sounds like its your turn to get some support now not give it for a while. Take a rest and get yourself feeling well and strong again.
I have also found that sugar or anything even resembling sugar (including "sugar free" chololates, sweets etc) have a dreadful effect on me and were part of the reason that I regained all the weight. I do think that people like me who were excessively obese (I mean like me, not anyone else so please no-one take offense) have a major problem with sugar and insulin resistance. I don't even really know what it is or what it does but I am sure it is the main reason for obesity as I know the feeling I get when I eat sugar. I prowl and can not control myself. I have even been know to take something sweet out of the bin and eaten it when desperate. Something that I would not normally even consider as I am slightly obsessive about most things.
I find that when I eat too much sugar I get all foggy headed and can't think clearly, I have no energy and then do nothing and feel really down in the dumps. But getting back on Cohens basics is the best thing you can do to get yourself feeling fantastic again.
Remember to overdose on water too to flush out all that stuff that is making you feel bad!!
Take care, Cate. I hope you are back to your cheerful self soon.
Beck
 
Cate....

We dont expect you to be super woman... goodness.....
Like beck said take your time to recover.... I am sorry to hear you still are not feeling 100%. Maybe you are exhausted, I find its the emotional stress and exhuastion that drains me the most, it sounded like you had a very full on 2 weeks... I hope your lovely suprise delivery is able to radiate some healing in your direction... Be kind to yourself and take care and take your time...

Hugs
Chelle
 
Thanks Chelle. I will look after myself, certainly better than I did for the last 2 weeks.
I feel better mentally today but woke up feeling physically worse so rang the doctor at 9am & was lucky to get a 10.30 ap't as someone had cancelled. I have a sinus infection. It usually goes to my chest, because of my asthma so I think I will nip it in the bud.
Dropped a kg this morning, have less bloating and dodn't feel fuzzy any more.
Cohen's food is the food to eat forever!
So I'm back to eating how I have eaten since January 2007 & feeling somuch better for it.
The aim now is to get back to goal weight. 7.5kg to go.
I have had the urge to run for months but have been a little (a lot) afraid to start because
a) I am scared of hurting myself.
b) I'm scared of appearing a tragic oldie trying to be young
c) I have no idea about warming up, doing stretches etc as I have never been shown what to do.
I used to be a runner in my teens and had training but that was the "olden days" (ha ha) before anyone used to even worry about stretches etc. They were unheard of back then along with sunscreen. I mean we burnt ourselves to a frazzle in search of a tan!
When Kannadew stayed with me I told her about my urge to run & she encouraged me as she always has. I bought some running shoes in Devonport when she was here. I have hardly worn them.
Taken the next step!
I have been trying to find info on a running club, especially for over 50's & have found nothing. I have thought about putting an ad in the paper, but without the knowledge about running myself I can hardly start a club up.
Many years ago, when we lived in Melbourne, my SIL, BIL & 2 of their friends stayed with us on their way to the Stawell Gift in Vic. Both men used to compete in running events & were very keen runners. The other guy has a business locally & I have been thinking about ringing him up to ask if he still runs & if so if he is a member of a club.
Today I called in & he was out. I left a message for him to ring me this afternoon re running & he did. To cut a very long story short he is going to meet me next week, after I have gotten over this bug & will show me what he does in regard to warmups, walking, running etc. He goes most days for a run/walk but does many warmups/cool downs etc & was professionally trained the right way. I didn't feel silly asking him at all & he volunteered easily. I felt very comfortable about the whole thing. He is still very good friends with my SIL & BIL & we have always gotten on really well with him & his wife.
Now I'm really looking forward to having a go at running. I just want to get fit and it's hard to do things when you are a long way from a gym and don't have loads of money. I also don't have the know-how as I have never been shown. I may think about starting a club. We need a local place that has some equipment or a heated pool available for hire. Our area is sadly lacking in some things, rich in others.
In China they have put lots of exercise equipment in the local parks. What a wonderful idea. I loved seeing people doing Tai Chi in the parks & exercising everywhere we went in Vietnam. I hope running doesn't hurt! It shouldn't if I do it right. I'll soon find out.
I had better go hang out some washing before the sun goes down. I have attacked all of my LH's sports socks with some soap & a nail brush as they looked very sadly grey. They've scrubbed up well.
I love being a housewife again
I wonder when the novelty will wear off? Probably when I try to plan an overseas trip seriously & realise it's an impossible dream without a second income or Tattslotto. Meanwhile our home is starting to look pretty spiffy. We're about to have some concreting done so the bank balance will be a bit sad but it will be much nicer, especially in Winter. The verandah will just have to wait.
I took my Maltese cross into the local jeweller to get them to change the catch as it's too small for my not so delicate fingers. I hated leaving it with them. I love it! Fancy thinking of me on a holiday and buying me a present. This friend & I used to have such energetic arguments about politics when we were young and get on like a house on fire these days. She's the one we spent the day at Melb zoo with early last year & visited at last year's 8-ball nationals. Her husband is delightful and used to work with my husband in Melb. in a wine store. I got them both jobs in the store when I worked with the Commonwealth Employment Service (10 years!) We keep in touch with another guy they worked with who I also got the job there and their old boss.
I won't look back over this as I can't believe how much I've typed!! OMG!!
Cheers, Cate
 
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Didn't go with my LH to 8-ball & he was a bit disappointed. I just didn't feel up to it. If I go I always end up driving & I have had such a headache. There is so much pressure inside my head. I am trying to stop eating something I shouldn't. I have always used the forum at these times if I could. I am still touchy about my OS. I'll have to chill out a bit.
I also did not tell my LH about the running thing. I still have a fear of appearing foolish.
I do so use the forum as a way of saying out loud how I feel about things. Now I have to learn to get around them & deal with them. I can't be an ostrich with my feelings forever. Slowly getting there. I really hate people, especially the people I love, being crabby with me. If you say nothing then they don't get crabby but I stew. Enough! I'm out of here, cheers, Cate.
 
Hi Cate,
The running sounds like a fantastic idea and it has the added benefit of increasing endorphins which make you feel great. You should give it a try and if you find out the correct way to warm up and stretch etc I would love some tips as I have also fanticised(sp?) about running. I bought a mini tramp and I jog on that when I am feeling energetic. It is great as it doesn't hurt you feet or legs and doesn't seem to be too much impact on my body. After 10 minutes jogging I feel terrific. I don't know if I will ever get the guts to go out in public, but I like to think I will one day.
Don't eat anything bad, you'll just suffer for it tomorrow and it will make it that much longer before you are feeling fantastic again. I am feeling so terrific at the moment and wish I could send a bit of it down to you!!
Take care
Beck
 
Hi Beck-it's nice to be thought of so, in a way, you did send some of that good feeling to me. I will go running one night next week. What better offer than my own personal trainer? I used to be a runner and I loved it. It does make you feel great.
Thanks for taking the time for me. When I read back my last post it sounded like the pressure in my head was stress but it's this nasty bug. My sinuses are so swollen & painful.
I ate a boiled egg!
I have not eaten anything sweet for 3 days.Yay!
I'm starting to get 8-ball results & am not organised so had better go get organised and then find a nasal spray. Ouch.
Cheers, Cate
 
See Cate Run...

Sounds like a book....ha ha ha ha..
You go for it i am sure you will have a great time and feel great... sorry cant offer stretching advice i would probably have you stretching all the wrong parts.. ha ha ha ha...
 
Thanks gals, I have done lots of Google searching re stretching exercises but reckon my very own personal trainer sounds like a better idea. I told my LH today & he said the same thing. Why don't you look it up on the Internet? Photos of exercises don't work for me. I prefer the real thing. I should only need to go the once to get the general idea. I used to love running but it's all a matter of whether I'm up to it. If not I'll try something else. I'm not good at going to classes at the same time each week. Running and walking you can do anytime.
Down another .5kg today-
Feeling much better body-wise. My stomach is shrinking already. Eating delicious healthy plain food and loving it. Another day without craving sweet things. Yes!
The antibiotics are kicking in too I think & my sinuses are not so painful.
I did a whole lot of seed trays today & hopefully they'll pop through nicely before the market. I did Coriander today- 3 seeds in each tray. My LH may have to work & I gave him the ok to do so. It seemed silly knocking back time & a half to baby-sit me at my first market. I might employ my grandson as a side-kick. He's a smart kid & can watch things while I go to the loo for example (I think). I'll think about it. I could pay him an allowance as we are then taking him over to Vic Market in Melb the week after to go Christmas shopping. Not a bad idea really. He's such a sweet kid.
I visited them while my LH was playing golf late afternoon. It was a nice visit & everything seems ok with our OS. I wanted to get some more small seed trays as I want to do some more tomorrow. I have some "perpetual spinach" seeds as well so may do the next.
The elderly woman that I used to take to the doctor once a month is in hospital in Launceston & I think I will go see her soon. I wish I had just said no to any other clients and just continued with her only as I really like her & we had a lot in common. If the job had been doing more things like that I would have stuck with it.
My LH keeps reading all of the travel ads & reading out specials. He isn't hinting but I do realise that we won't travel unless I get a job. We manage on one wage but a trip to the Greek Islands, Malta, Italy, France etc will not be possible with me sitting on my backside reading books & gardening. I wish!
We had a nice day today & planted more seedlings, brush-cut, weeded etc. I sat in the garden for ages & had birds flitting about above me in a red-flowering gum. Everywhere I looked I saw birds flitting about. Blue wrens, striated pardalotes, a hawk, currawongs, honeyeaters.....There was rain coming & the birds were very active. Without wishing to shatter that peaceful image I must admit I had a shotgun with me & was stalking starlings. I didn't get any as they're so cunning & aware. My LH got one this morning & I got one yesterday. They have managed to get in under our roof in a couple of places. It sounds like a herd of baby elephants up there when they get in I swear! I'm a pacifist really but not when it comes to starlings. The English have a lot to answer for introducing them to Australia so that they could have their blackbird pies. I won't start on the rabbits, foxes, blackberries...... Blackberries thrive in our bush & strangle everything else.
I think I had better get off to bed & get that HGH working. I will try not to weigh tomorrow so that I keep feeling good about my weight. I know it will go down if I keep sticking to Cohen's food, even though I am not weighing my food. Love Cohen's, love healthy food- fruit, vegies, lean meat, lots of water.
I keep getting emails from my clinic & got a really good one about drinking water. I think it's great that I am continuing to get support, way past my contract. The Hobart clinic, especially Lisa is great.
Cheers, cate
 
Down another kg! So 6kg to go to get to my lowest weight. Head starting to clear, stomach shrinking visibly, pants not tight, not caving sweet things, feeling more positive. Enjoying another day home with my LH. Planted more seeds, pulled out more weeds, went for a walk through the bush, got a message from a friend that her life is good including a new romance, another call from one of my SIL's, so all in all I'm quite happy today. I have even started organising some Christmas presents. Plus I nearly forgot! My Mum sent me a cheque so that she doesn't have to pay tax. She sends the 3 of us a cheque every now & then & it almost always comes at a good time. When isn't it?
I'll be back later, cheers, Cate.
 
I have not listed my ups & downs weight-wise for the week very well, mainly because I don't like putting what I actually weigh because of the scales mix up. Mon I was 1kg up (GW +7.5kg) from my 2 weeks away; Tues I was up another 1kg (a record high since re-feed- GW +8.5kg); Wed down a kg (GW+7.5); Thurs down .5kg (GW+7kg) today down another kg so am now 6kg above my lowest weight.
I shared a bottle of white wine with my LH tonight & have suffered sweet cravings since but am ignoring them. I had some protein 30 mins before the wine. I now don't expect a loss tomorrow & indeed won't weigh as it sets me up to be grumpy & disappointed with myself. I still have not eaten anything off original plan all week, have had quite a bit of exercise including getting 2 loads of wood & a walk & have drunk at least 3 litres of water.
I got an email from Cohen's today asking me to put forward my Cohen's story but I don't think I'm inclined to yet. It mentions putting me in the spotlight & I don't like being the centre of attention.
I have been thinking about getting a job again. I really do want to travel & I also want a new car-a ute. My mechanic has recommended selling mine. These things are not possible without 2 incomes. I won't borrow to do them.
I'll pop back later to see if anyone's about. The forum will not let me rep a couple I would like to. Why must it be shared around I wonder? Does that mean just finding some posts unrelated to Cohen's & repping someone, anyone, just so I can rep who I actually want to? Instead I have to just thank people who provide good support when it's needed. I thought that was what repping was all about really. A big thank you that stuck around.
I have managed to get my LH drinking a couple of litres of water a day for the first time in his life. He's 59 on Sunday! I put a nice long glass of cold water with a piece of lemon & a couple of ice blocks in it & he drinks it when I sit it down in front of him. He knows he doesn't drink enough but he never gets thirsty.
Cheers for now, Cate.
 
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