Cate's Diary

Hi Cate

I know it's a bit late but just wanted to wish you good luck with your team meeting today. (It was today wasn't it)?

Sam:)
 
Hi Sam & thanks. The team meeting at least gave me a chance to put my opinions across & to meet the OT who I thought seemed ok. My client does not like her at all. I have had my position made clearer which is good. I have to do even less than I do now. You know I think I should be a carer, rather than a support worker. I'm used to looking after people. I got very red in the face & was very stressed afterwards. I always find putting my case or stating my opinions really challenging & stressful but important.
As I was leaving my client to go to the meeting today her mother said that I wasn't needed tomorrow. This p....'d me off as we would have made totally different plans for the day. My SIL said that we are meant to get 24hrs notice & that I also should be paid for this afternoon . I had forfeited 2 hours pay to go to the meeting & then to have tomorrow's work cancelled at the last minute was annoying. My supervisor advised me in front of the others that is part of the job & that only an hours notice is required to cancel a shift. (My SIL is permanent part-time & I am casual & the rules are very different) I left the meeting feeling like I had clarified quite a few things. The troublesome support worker was very out-spoken & annoying. She makes out like she is the only one who knows anything. She interrupted me as I started to say something, ranted for ages & the OT apologised tome & then asked me what I was about to say & I honestly couldn't remember. I had written notes & had to look at them!
I hope that the OT & our supervisor saw through her today. I will def.apply for the other job.
After the meeting & while I was shopping in the supermarket I got a call from the fellow who organises rosters to ask me if I can work tomorrow for 5 hours. I told him that I had been told not to work at all & he knew that but said that is what the supervisor asked him to advise me. I'm pleased I put my case. I don't think I am unreasonable. I have changed specialist's ap'ts & let them know my availability until the end of April & am very reliable. It should be a 2 way street.
I'll be back later. Dinner's ready. I've cooked it. Cheers, cate
 
I have popped back in briefly, just to let you know that I am admitting that my job is depressing me. I have tried not to acknowledge it but it's true. Not good. It's also eroding my self-confidence & affecting my relationships with family & friends. I am going to explore other jobs. I heard about another one today- at my husband's work-place. I am going to apply for it. We suggested that we could actually share the job. It's 9-5 M-F, public holidays off, 7 weeks annual leave & RDO's & excellent pay. We would still have lots of time off together. Jobs are not worth getting depressed over!
 
You are so right life is too short to be depressed about something you can change.
i am glad you have admitted how you feel to yourself and also for sharing with us....maybe this was the reason for the extra kilos as well.

Take care

Sam:)
 
Hi Cate,

I agree completely with Sam. Maybe this was one of the reasons for the xtra kilo's? It sometimes takes a lot of courage to admit that you aren't happy in a specific environment, be it work or relationships. I worked for a company for 3 years slowly gaining weight and becoming more and more depressed and I only realised how extremely draining it was for me when I got offered another position and decided to go for it. One year later the WF told me that he couldn't believe the difference in my general outlook on life. Sometimes we feel like we will be untrustworthy or weak to leave a job. But in reality we need to do it to remain the best version of ourselves.

Good luck and I'm sure you'll get a better job soon. :)
 
Hey Cate.. How are you feeling now that you have started to work out some of your feelings?

By the way you describe your meeting I would say that the OT did see through your other staff member. She deliberately came back to you and made it obvious that you had been interrupted.

I personally don't think there is anything wrong in recognising and admitting that we are not happy somewhere and that it is having an effect of our mental health. I know from personal experience the responsibility you feel to your client Cate, but you can not really serve her or yourself if you are are not feeling confident and happy within yourself. If she does not like your decision to move on, ultimately this is not YOUR issue. We all have to deal with our own emotions and thoughts and cannot be responsible for other people's responses or reactions. That's their issue.

Anyway... thats just my 2c on the matter!

Blessya mate
Kannadew
(only 77 days!)
 
You girls are so good for me & to me!
Sam- You have been very supportive for a long time. I really do appreciate it. I have been reading your diary but just have not felt up to saying much lately. I do think you are being very positive & encouraging everyone. Thanks for your support, xo Cate.
Esthee- Thank you very much for your support & spot-on words. I love it when we have new members in the forum & especially ones who are so encouraging & supportive. We all need it, even we "oldies". You'll do well with your weight-loss as you have a great attitude. Cheers, Cate.
Kannadew- Mate! Your so-called 2c worth is always worth a lot more than that! I am looking forward to that day, that I know will happen, when you find your true love. That someone who will realise how lucky he is to have found you. You're a gem!
77 days- too long. Hopefully by then I'm not a grumpy old thing! I'm not really a grumpy old thing just too much confusion with this job. More about that in a sec. Looking forward to your visit. I am so sorry about your back pain. I keep checking your diary & see that you are mainly being supportive to everyone else & not really saying much in your diary, even though you are obviously suffering a lot with your back. I really think you are a very good, kind person & I look forward to meeting you, xo Cate.
My day- I had a great day today with my client. I think she has sorted a few things out with the "powers that be." She let me know as much today really. I think they should give her a little more credit. She's switched on. She's so funny. We really had fun today. We did a lot of sorting of her personal stuff-makeup, shampoos, clothes etc & she was really happy. This was after saying yesterday that she was going to spend the day in bed & didn't need me. I think that was her mums idea. I said to her mum that I was pleased to have some things clarified at the meeting & she seemed to be back to her usual self with me. I think she may have been doubting what was happening & did not realise most of the problems were nothing to do with me. I would say my client must have talked to them in front of mum so mum now realises what the problem has been.(more like who the problem has been.) I never bad-mouth this support worker, although she has given me plenty of reasons to. I have made my views clear to my client & her mum that it is very unprofessional & unhelpful for me to do so & in no-one's best interests.
I do think it's best not to bag others out. I also do not think well of people who criticise others constantly or who lie or try to put others down. I believe in karma.
I don't know if I mentioned in my diary but yesterday, at the meeting, I got an opportunity to say " So, no-one should be texting or ringing our client, or her mother, outside their work hours, under any circumstances?" No "That's good- that's what I would have thought" & I know that they are now aware of it which is good. This was said in front of the other SW of course. She would know that she has been doing it all along & would also know that they now know as well, so hopefully will stop.
When I got to work today my client greeted me with such a big grin & showed me the diary with notes from my boss saying what is not to happen again & she told me that all the things that were mentioned were directed at "the" SW. She wanted me to know clearly that I am not the problem. I really did appreciate this. It was very well meant. I am also very pleased that I have not entered into or encouraged any personal criticism & have said it is very unprofessional.
I will apply for these 2 jobs. I have lost track of what I have told you as my brain is not functioning at it's best & I feel too tired to go back & look through my posts. I used to check & re-check my posts & I have been so slack the last couple of months. I am usually such a stickler for spelling & grammar! I think I've told you that we could share it between us & the pay would be enough for us to live on easily. My husband's brother is going to be applying for it as well but he applies for everything at his work-place so I'm not too worried about that. It would be quite funny for us to share a job. I can't talk about it in here because of the nature of the work-place/ privacy laws etc. We'll give it serious thought though!
I've tired myself out so will head. I'm sorry that I am not being very supportive in everyone's diaries. I don't feel up to it I'm afraid & I don't want to offend anyone by typing in some & not others. Please know that I read every single one!
I have tomorrow off with my LH & we are picking up the 2 older gk's at 10am, spending the day with them, probably visiting a friend of mine, at the beach & dropping them off at home, ready for bed at 7pm. How nice! Love to all, Cate
 
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Hi Cate

Like you I find everyone so helpful and encouraging not only with weightloss issues but with everything else. I know their is not that many of us here but we all seem to make time for each other. I think this so important because alot of our eating problems stem from what is effecting us on a daily basis and just having someone aknowledge you and not judge is a such a comfort at the end of the day.

You must be feeling so much better by getting things out in the open aswell at work and it sounds like the other sw has been found out. I think whatever decision you make has to be totally yours Cate and whatever that is we will be here for you.

Take care.

Sam:)
 
Sam- Thanks once again. I know I have all the support I need in here. I do use you all as a bit of a sounding board I know but it's good for my mental health & general well-being & we do help one another. Isn't it good? Cheers, Cate.
My day- A good, fun day with the grand-kids. I actually wore my bathers in public!!!!! I did it!! Bruised legs and all. I thought what the heck, I'll do it.... and I froze. It was too cold to swim. It didn't stop our gs from body surfing though. We had a great day & I am exhausted. We visited my friend & she had cooked us lunch! I didn't even think of that. I def. had a day off Cohen's today. I had weighed 73kg this morning but won't get on the scales tomorrow. We had promised our gs fish & chips so bought them for tea & then we all had an icecream afterwards.
Cate=blimp!
Actually I should feel revolting/bloated/uncomfortable etc but I feel fine. I hope I get lucky but I won't weigh until Thursday & will be strict for a few days.
Too tired to gas-bag tonight-lucky you! 'night, Cate
 
yay!! you took a risk and wore your bathers! congrats!!

"Do not wait; the time will never be "just right." Start where you stand, and work with whatever tools you may have at your command, and better tools will be found as you go along." ~Napoleon Hill, Writer
 
Hi Cate!

Thanks for the nice message in my diary. You really made my day! I also feel like all the wonderful people on this forum are becoming very close friends :) It's nice to come to forum every day and read everyone's diaries and not feel like I'm all on my own.

Congrats on getting into your bathers! I just heard from the WF that we're heading to mozambique on the weekend of the 6th of March. I'll still have to go swim with a short and t-shirt over my swimsuit, but this time I'm actually going. I would normally just stay home rather than face the beach with other people on it :)

I hope your week is wonderful :)

Esthee
 
Jillzy- Thanks! You're right- the time is never right. I could come up with excuses for the rest of my life for not doing things or I can bite the bullet & just do them. I did & I'm pleased. It wasn't that bad. I still felt really fat & hope that feeling eventually goes away. Cheers, Cate.
Esthee- Oh Mozambique....It sounds lovely. I'll spare you the Bob Dylan this time but I am going to insist(implore maybe?) that you tell me all about it when you get home. I must travel some more. That's one of the reasons I lost my weight last year. After travelling to Vietnam I was determined that next time I would be slim & fit. I'm getting there & so are you, cheers, Cate.
Bush-walking- Tomorrow I must go! I was puffing today pushing the wheelchair up-hill & realised that my fitness level has dropped quite a bit. I have just felt so busy & I did not want to see that boring, intrusive old fart that visited me:)toetap05:). I will have to make it very clear that I value my personal space. It's great coming in here & I am getting better all the time at sharing my feelings. Too good sometimes I think but......
My day- I had a pretty good day today. A very positive day. I have been asked to work Thursday as well so am going bush-walking tomorrow, vein ap't Wed, working Thurs, Frid, Sat, Sun. Ohhh dear! :willy_nilly:
If I don't go bush-walking I will disappoint myself so will push myself to go. It's a hard walk but sounds challenging & therefore good for me.
It's great to have so much activity in here at the moment- some very positive vibes. Newbies are being very supportive-gotta love that!:grouphug:
Tomorrow night you should be hearing about Rinadeena Falls & Boy Miles Hut!
Nearly forgot to tell you. No pain from the fish & chips(first fried food for a year & have gall-stones) but have had the trots all day. The only thing that is going to stop me going tomorrow is if I still have them in the morning. I hate squatting in the bush, even for a pee.......:eek:!! Don't want to go there!
Cheers for now, Cate.
 
Ohhhh. I just typed a post & my laptop scrapped it....
I went bush-walking. I'm absolutely exhausted & haven't even found the energy to go have a bath. Big mistake. We have to do the dishes. I think I'll have a bath afterwards & then go straight to bed!
I made myself go. It helps to type in here as it makes me push myself.
I have another vein ap't tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to wearing that compression stocking again or having the pain. I hope the gain is worth the pain.
Goodnight folks, Cate.
 
Hi Cate,

I love those days when you are so tired in the evenings after a nice busy day. Good luck with your appointment tomorrow!

Enjoy!
 
Hi Cate

Sorry I haven't been in here even though I have been in contact via PM. Yay on wearing your bathers and going for your walk! As I mentioned in my diary we haven't hiked since Sunday week ago and I think we will be feeling it when we start this Sunday. General fitness is so easily lost... it comes back to that key word - Consistency!

Anyway I'll speak to you Friday and cant wait to see you on Saturday night!

YAY!

Lauren xx
 
Hi folks, I went to Launceston for my vein ap't & got a really bad headache along the way. I think I didn't drink enough water on my walk yesterday plus I took coffee in my thermos instead of peppermint tea. Mistake. I still have the headache, plus my leg is a bit sore. It is reasonably painful treatment. It stings. My compression stocking has to stay on for 3 days & nights & then 2 more days.
I am tired again tonight & am working the next 4 days. Speaking of work...
My boss rang this morning to ask me if I would consider taking on a new client- a 12 year old girl who is mentally disabled & has serious behavioural problems, lives with her grandmother who needs respite. It would be 1 day a month only & this day is one I normally work. I said yes. I think this would be a good challenge for me & would feel very worthwhile.It is not working in some-ones home & will be very different.
I think my boss thought of me rather than the workers who live closer because of the team meeting. I did state my case fairly well at the meeting & was reasonably assertive, without being at all aggressive. A firm hand is required apparently. She responds well but needs someone fairly strong minded. My boss said it's meant as a compliment but they need a dominant mother figure! Mmmm. It's another challenge for me & I can opt out anytime if it doesn't work out as I checked this before I said yes.
I have had a very strict Cohen's day today. I wasn't even hungry at all.
My Cohen's consultants sent me a Happy New Year email a while ago & I only just replied. I have said that I am waiting until I feel that my weight has stabilised before giving them my testimonial.
I received a reply which I found quite interesting. The 2 of them have yoghurt & fruit for breakfast & stick to Cohen's during the day & eat whatever in the evening. They also said that a couple of glasses of wine at night is not good for maintenence & that water is the key- to make sure I keep up with my water intake. I am going to follow their advice. Breakfast & lunch are the best meals to be strict with as I am in control of those totally. It makes sense. I should be letting you know before too long that I am nearing 70kgs again!
I'm too tired tonight & my head is hurting so will say goodnight.
I loved today's apology to the stolen generation. A memorable day. That could be why I ended up with a headache as I found it very emotional & had a good cry(or 2)
'night, Cate
 
Hi Cate

It sounds like things are back on track for you with work and weight. So you have lost those 4kg in less then a week? Amazing!!!!
Cate could you write in the new thread I opened the stratgies one....with that snippet of info that was passed on to you from your consultant.

I do hope your legs will be on the mend soon.
And yes a very emotional day.....it's been a long time coming. I think our PM will go down in history for this. I have been informing my kids about it and we watched all the news channels today. A historical day indeed.

Take care.

Sam:)
 
Hi Sam, No I haven't lost 4 kgs in the week but I am back in the zone & feel confident it will be gone soon. I won't weigh until next Monday. I wish!! I had only just got the email from the clinic but will check it out & do some cutting & pasting.
I'm just having a quick look now & will be back later. Lauren is in Tassie!! They arrived today. Will catch up Saturday. Cheers, cate
 
I'm very tired & don't have the energy to say much tonight. I have been to work, picked up my MIL,taken her shopping, visited friends where my Lh got a haircut & done housework since I got home & I'm tired. Had a fairly good Cohen's day but didn't take enough lunch & ate too much tonight. No rubbish though. I don't like feeling full any more though. I think I have always been afraid of being hungry. I don't know why.
Too tired- 'night folks, Cate.
 
Hi Cate

Thanks for popping in and letting us know how you are. Have a good weekend.....I think your working aren't you? and enjoy your visit with Lauren.

bye for now.
Sam:)
 
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