Cate's Diary

Glad to hear you are sleeping well and seeing an old friend. I it must have been very difficult for him to spend so much time in denial of something so defining to a person. It's good he's past that now.
 
Thanks folks. I'm not feeling too good today. Have a headache & am very sinusy. I have to go out to golf as there is a job I need to finish. I fully planned on playing golf with the women today so didn't think it was a problem leaving some of it until today. I was at the golf club from 9.30 in the morning until 8.30 last night! Not doing that again. I'll go out, finish the job & then decide if I'll play or come home again. We have to go to a meeting tonight 40km away as well. My life is much better when I don't have so much to do. I'll have to get better at saying no, or not saying yes anyway.
I actually think I might be fighting something at the moment. My glands swell up, my throat gets sore, then I'm fine for a day, then I feel under the weather again. I am not looking forward to going down to Hobart this coming Sunday. I feel too tired to be transforming our son's house again. That is also daunting, especially knowing that he is really down.
He really needs to get some more counselling & possibly medication to get himself out of this fog & we are going to have to talk to him about that. I'm looking forward to hugging him!
Lots of love to you all, xoxo Cate
 
I went out to golf, finished the job & talked myself into playing. I then got to play with 2 of my favourite women & I was runner up in Division 2. Got myself home fairly early & we're about to have a delicious smelling chicken curry! YUM! My lovely husband spoils me!
 
Then we had to go out to an AGM, 40km away & it was the most rabbly meeting imaginable. Talk about feral bogans! I came away with no positions as such, but a little work that I will get done today & then, hopefully, won't have anything more to do for the year....well, not much anyway. I will help with keeping them updated with rules etc on their Facebook page. My husband & older son play competition 8-ball (pool)& this meeting was for the Winter roster in an A-grade comp. based 40km away. They like to play in it as they- a) love 8-ball & b) they are then qualified to try out for the State events. Our younger son plays A-grade 8-ball down the south of Tas. All 3 have played for Tasmania many times, our YS has represented Australia & played in the UK.

We have 2 days that we can stay at home & then 12 days in a row that we won't be able to at all!! (11 for me- the 12th G works)

It is a beautiful, Autumn day today. I'm going to do some gardening. :D
 
cate said:
Then we had to go out to an AGM, 40km away & it was the most rabbly meeting imaginable. Talk about feral bogans!
Click to expand...

This has to be, hands down, the craziest sounding opening thoughts to an entry I've ever read! I'm off to look up some things immediately..... What's the AGM? Rabbly? Feral bogans??? Feral bogans is going to be something good, I just know it. I love having people here from everywhere. It's so much fun to learn other people's terms and phrases!
 
Oh, Oaks, you just had me laughing out loud, for real. I got the giggles! I forget that I am using what must be our own Australian language. An AGM is an Annual General Meeting. Rabbly? Hmm....unruly? Feral? "(of a young person) behaving in a wildly undisciplined and antisocial way." Bogan? From Wikipedia- The term bogan (/?bo???n/) is an Australian and New Zealander slang word that can be used to describe a person with a lower working class background, or whose speech, clothing, attitude and behaviour exemplify a gratified working class mentality and depending on the context, can be pejorative or self-deprecating.
I just burst out laughing again!
I have to look up stuff constantly, but it's mostly food- Perogies & so on. There are so many differences! It is hilarious!
 
:D I second that. I know rabbly and I can sort of guess bogans but it sounds like my ex-nearly-in-laws when they got excited (and forgot there were people in the room who didn´t speak Vorarlbergian).

EDIT: oops, missed Cate´s reply there, sorry if I make no sense.
 
The Feral Bogans sounds like a wonderful name for a garage rock band.

Hope your sleep is improving Cate. Sleep has always been a massive struggle for me and one of the things I've really worked hard to try and fix. I've got a series of keys I try to follow to help me. Oddly, one of the big ones is waking up early.

Since I've quit drinking (about 18 days now), it's been a little more difficult without the booze to knock me out sometimes.
 
My sister, who lived in Baltimore, used an expression which made me really cringe, when she tried explaining a "type"- it was "poor white trash." It sounded awful to me at the time, but I knew exactly what she meant. I hope I'm not a snob, but these people at the meeting are very foul-mouthed & have been dragged up, rather than brought up. They muttered constantly or yelled in some instances, especially this very scary filthy-mouthed woman. Most of them are related. It was something to behold. Individually each of the young boys might be OK, but as a collective it was not good. I got a friend request from one of them the next day. I quite like him & he's done well to be as nice as he is. Our older son has mentored him a little in 8-ball, which is nice.

LaMa- If your nearly ex-in-laws were anything like these people you had a lucky escape. I really do think a few of them might be on Ice as they seemed unable to just settle down. It was like trying to herd cats on a hot tin roof!

Vee- My sleep is improving Vee. I haven't cut out my drinking altogether, but have imposed further restrictions & feel the better for it. Good on you for giving up altogether. I was falling asleep in my chair often & I have stopped myself doing that. Daylight Savings finishing has helped too, as I wake when the sun comes up because we have a very high window that lets the morning sun in.

We don't have to go anywhere today, but the grand-kids are on Easter break & we have invited ourselves down for lunch & some 8-ball practice for the new season. We'll take lunch with us & we're going to have a bbq. We need to organise a plan of attack for our blitz visit to R on Sunday. D is going to take a car & trailer & a load of wood & we are also taking our car. I have bought quite a few see through plastic containers, which I will put stickers on & label & we'll either leave them there stacked in his shed, but will most probably bring them back to our place. I also have cardboard boxes.

I'm looking forward to seeing R but not the sorting out. He really needs to get back to see the counsellor again. He hasn't been back since getting the diagnosis of bi-polar, so no medication or plan as far as I know. I have tried putting it all to the back of my head as there is not much I can do from here & he does need to sort himself out. I can't live his life for him. It really does affect my well-being when I think too much about him. My heart is pounding, just typing this. He knows I love him & I think he also knows that he has to face this & deal with it, so hopefully he will. I wish that all wounds could be healed miraculously with a band-aid & a hug, like they could when my sons were little.

One of my personality traits is trying to "fix" everything. It is just not possible.

Anyhow, I am feeling pretty good really & am about to get some special grand-kid "medicine." I am also playing golf again tomorrow! My handicap has come in 2 in the last 2 weeks :D



 
I have major anxiety issues, so I totally understand the heart pounding and worrying way too much. I'm scared to think about how much I'm going to worry about my kids the older they get. It's bad enough now. lol.

Have fun with your grandkids!! :)
 
Hi Jen, it's best you try not to think about how it will be when they are older. Maybe take up yoga in the meantime...... ;) just a tip! Had fun with the GK's xoxo Cate
PS Have you charged your fitbit?
 
Played golf again today (fairly badly really) & am aching all over. I played with G, & 2 men who play off handicaps of 10. I tried too hard, but my drives were good mostly. I held my clubs too hard I think as I shouldn't be hurting so much. I didn't feel relaxed as I was nervous of looking like a total novice (which I am really.)

I won't be on here until probably Tuesday night as we are going down to Hobart to see R &, hopefully get his home habitable again. It's a daunting task! We'll do what we can.

I am having a break from My Fitness Pal & counting calories. It has not been working for me. I must under-estimate my calories & over-estimate my exercise, like most people. I am going to weigh more often & cut down on starchy carbs. I am also drinking much less wine.

 
Sounds like you have a lot on your plate at the moment! You are always on the go it seems!! I hope that some of life's stresses ease up soon. I also hope that helping your son with his home isn't too daunting.
I 'love' MFP and calorie counting but it certainly isn't for everyone.
 
Hi LaMa & Mystic, I'm feeling pretty good actually because things were better than I thought they would be or I just coped better. I'm not sure which really. At one stage on the first day I thought I couldn't do it, but then I pushed through & kept going. His house has been turned back into a home. Without going into all the details I have hope that he is moving in the right direction. He is opening up more to us & not hiding how he feels. The guy who rang me, to get another perspective of R is not a Psych, but is now R's GP(general practioner), & even though he will now have to go over things again with a Psych, he knows he must. He also has accepted that he may need medication.

So many things have gone wrong in the last few months & he is blaming himself for most. To make things even worse someone stole his bike a couple of weeks ago. Without a drivers licence or car, that was his only means of transport.

I had better get moving. When I went to bed last night I was aching from head to toe, but after 8 hours of solid sleep I'm feeling pretty good & not aching. Bye for now, Cate
 
cate said:
So many things have gone wrong in the last few months & he is blaming himself for most. To make things even worse someone stole his bike a couple of weeks ago. Without a drivers licence or car, that was his only means of transport.
Click to expand...

I hope he doesn't blame himself for his bike being stolen. I mean, you can't control whether or not someone is going to attempt and steal your stuff. And, who steals a bike? Honestly. That seems like such an outdated, lame crime.

I hope he gets his bike back soon.
 
Bikes are volatile goods (at least around here), a bit like lighters and pens. A shame they´re a lot more expensive... Good to hear you managed so well! Recognizing your needs is so important, I´m glad your son is starting to find the resources he needs.
 
ChefChiTown said:
I hope he doesn't blame himself for his bike being stolen. I mean, you can't control whether or not someone is going to attempt and steal your stuff. And, who steals a bike? Honestly. That seems like such an outdated, lame crime.

I hope he gets his bike back soon.
Click to expand...
I think he does Chef, as he rode it home from work & decided to call in at the pub on the way, instead of leaving it at his house first(only about a 3 min walk away). It probably has just been taken for a ride by someone skylarking, but it is his only mode of transport. He has been so low that his brain just doesn't seem to be able to process even ringing the local police station & reporting it stolen or putting out a description of the bike on FB. Apparently it is very distinctive & has probably been dumped somewhere fairly close by. Hobart is not a big city & he has lots of friends. It was quite an expensive bike & he is trying to dig himself out of debt, due to a recent major wrong decision made while going through a manic stage. He has only recently been diagnosed with Bipolar 2 & has not tried medication yet. It was a case of being kicked when you're down I think.

I'll have to come back later & finish this post.
Cheers, Cate
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Back
Top