Cate's Diary

I don't really have cravings anymore, but when I did, it seemed to be for both salty and sweet carbohydrates alike. I would eat a bit of everything on sight, wait a few hours and repeat the process...

I hope that you feel better soon, Cate. I also hope you can get the cravings under control.

Take care. :)
 
It's not normal to be "normal". In my opinion there is no such thing. Some are just more crazy than others and that is just fine :)

Hope things get better for you.
 
Sarah, Mr Vee, Athala & Icy-
Thank you so much for being so caring & supportive. I read all of your posts this morning when I wasn't feeling very good- bit shaky & anxious as we were about to head off to do a "fine dining" lunch. I was struggling, & you made me feel so much better & I thank you :)
I am feeling much better this afternoon & am starting to really think I am through the worst of it.
Much love to you all, xoxo Cate
 
Sorry you were feeling so poorly. I will check out the essays on human existence that you quoted. You are an absolute jewel Cate! Hang in there!
 
Hi Icy, Suz & Q & anyone else reading my diary. Thank you, once again. You are helping me to feel much better. Physical side effects are nothing compared to mental ones, & moral support is the best you can get! Never under-estimate the power of kind words! :beating:
"absolute jewel'? Q. I was going to make some silly joke, but, no. That is really sweet of you. :)
I really do think today might be the 1st day I do not get nausea etc (touch wood!)
I am feeling good!
I have to go into town to take my MIL to her weekly hair appointment, but will come home & change into my exercise gear immediately and ........?..... ride some bike & do my weights. That makes me feel wonderful afterwards. Will have lunch at the deli- my usual soup & 1 slice of herb & garlic, GF toast.
I'll weigh in at the week-end.
Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Thanks Suz. Exercise makes such a difference to my mood. I came home from visiting both Mothers in tears. I had a good cry & then changed into my gear & rode over 10km & then sat & read my book. When my LH got home he knew that I had been upset as our next door neighbour who works there told him. I had stopped along our drive (we share it) to say hi & started crying while I was talking to her. I had told her how sad it made me. She wanted to reassure me that my Mum is in a happy place & that I should not worry about her. It's very complicated, but it is complicated even more by my MIL being in there. I hate to see my Mum looking so confused when I have to take my MIL to appointments. My car is only very small & I can't take them both at once, or I would. The best thing would be if someone else took her. I need to spend my time with my mother. She needs me.

Planning to do bike & weights today as I rode 10km yesterday, but no weights. If I ride <10km then I have to do something else, but if I ride >10km that can do for the day. Yesterday I needed the exercise, but enjoyed chilling out with a book afterwards.

Love to all xoxo Cate.
Edited today's post as I probably freaked a few of you out! :)
 
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"I ask not for a lighter burden,
but for broader shoulders."
~Jewish Proverb
& thicker skin :)​
 
Dealing with an ailing Mom and MIL is enough to make anyone upset. Not being able to communicate with someone you love is upsetting and confusing for you both. It's great for both of you that you are there for her, but it is tough that she can't be there for you. I'm sorry tht the MIL complicates things.

I missed your pre-edit post, but I will say that crying, exercising, and reading a book sounds like a healthy sequence to a upsetting day. As opposed to something like cry, eat a tub of ice cream, cry, drink, cry more, drink more, yell at the neighbor, drink the rest, and pass out. See the diffference? ;)

Keep your chin up missy!
 
Hi Q- I'm glad you missed my edited post.:) You're right- I hadn't actually thought of the fact that I did not eat something I shouldn't or drink or yell etc. I had a little cry, then did something positive. Thanks for pointing that out. Sometimes we need others to put things into perspective. My chin is up! :D It helps to have a day off seeing the mothers, especially guilt-free, as I saw them heaps during the week. Today our older son & the 3 GK's are coming up for an early lunch, which will be lovely. All I have to do is make some of my very popular "pizza sandwiches" for the littlies.
WHOOPS!!! Just got a message & they want to come even earlier-10am. We are still in dressing-gowns, with a freshly made pot of coffee. I have to give my LH a haircut, have showers & be dressed before then. Better fly!!
xoxo Love to all, Cate
 
Had a lovely day :) Visited both Mums afterwards & that was nice too today. It is much easier if we go together as we each can spend time with our own mothers separately & together. MUCH better.
No exercise today, but ate well & feel good. Another day without any withdrawal symptoms/side effects of AD tapering. That's it. Never again. I'm me again. Life- be in it! :D

"Life is a song - sing it. Life is a game - play it. Life is a challenge - meet it. Life is a dream - realize it. Life is a sacrifice - offer it. Life is love - enjoy it."
~Sai Baba
 
Glad your not having withdrawals anymore. This is a huge thing you have done, coming of them and feeling like you again *gives you a congrats hug*
 
Thanks Suz :D
My cholesterol pills are next. I have started halving them too. I'll do that for 6 months & have it checked & if my cholesterol has not gone up at all I'll either give them up completely or get an even lower dose. The BP pills might be next after that...........I'll be back later today, xoxo Cate
 
Oh Gawd, I just realised I had not reported my weigh-in. Weird things happening with me. I hopped on the scales, expecting a loss, below 84kg & I weighed 86! That sucks!! Hoping to join Q's challenge. I need to do something drastic! EEK!!!!
 
& I am in the challenge! Wee hoo! Just got back from taking both mothers for a drive. I said to my husband "If there is a heaven, surely we should end up there!" It is very trying. On a good note, we had to stop for an Echidna crossing the road. I so LOVE Echidnas! They are just sooo cute!
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Echidna (Echidna Hystrix)
The Echidna-

The Echidna (or affectionately known as the Spiny Anteater) is a primitive mammal. It lives in both Australia and New Guinea.

It is a solitary animal that burrows. When it is attacked, the echidna will burrow into the ground or curl itself into a ball using its spines as a method of defence against the predator. The echidna's spines cover the top of its body. Echidna's have long sharp claws on their feet, and are approximately 35-50 cms long with a 10cm long tail. Their nose is very sensitive, they use this to find food, then they use their long sticky tongue to catch ants, worms and other such insects. Echidna's weigh on average between 2 to 7 kilograms.

Female Echidnas lay a single egg in their pouch. After ten days, the egg hatches and a Puggle (baby Echidna) is born. They are born blind and hairless, and consume milk from a gland within the pouch. After an average of four weeks, the Puggle develops sharp spines, and must leave the pouch.

I'm feeling good again today :D YES!
xoxo Cate

 
Glad you are feeling good Cate!

And that is a cute little critter! Very interesting facts...thanks for sharing!
 
When it is attacked, the echidna will burrow into the ground or curl itself into a ball
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My preferred form of defense as well. You guys got some strange creatures running about there (of course we have Javelinas running around here so we probably shouldn't talk).

Good to hear your withdrawal symptoms are ceasing.
 
Hi Icy & Vee, They are cute little critters & I agree with their best line of defence too! I had to look up Javelina, as had never heard of them. () They look like funny little snufflers! Check out the wildlife ringtones -link on the right.
I am looking forward to my next cholesterol test. When I lost 36kg all of my readings had worsened & that's when my doc put me on medication. In hindsight I wished I had insisted on waiting longer & getting another test. I am only taking a 20mg pill each day now, which is the very lowest dose. Hopefully it won't go back up!
Feeling good today, even though my weight had gone up. I have dropped my daily calories on My Fitness Pal to 1350, but will input exercise & eat extra some days. I'm glad I have joined Q's challenge. It should spur me on to move!!
Cheers, Cate
 
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