Cate's Diary

Merci Thank you re your faith in me. That's nice! Also re that valve. I think you might be spot on because I massaged the spot in bed last night & it relieved the pain. My LH has been cooking curries lately & I think my system cannot cope with too much spice any more. It doesn't matter which meat he uses either. Ouch! I bought a hair, nails & skin formula from a pharmacy in Baltimore but can't remember what brand it was! I also take calcium/magnesium. Do you have specialty health food stores that mainly stock vitamins & minerals, rather than a pharmacy nearby? Shopping in the US is so different to shopping here. My sister used to do most of her shopping from catalogues like Eddie Bauer, Lands End etc. She was a crazy shopper, but boy, did I love that woman(still do!)
That reminds me! I can't remember if I told any-one in here but about a month ago I had a very real dream about my sister. It was real in that when I woke up it felt like it had just happened. My sister was walking along my hallway, looking for me & calling out my name. She wasn't distressed at all. I called back to her "I'm here Jen" & held my hand out to her & she held it & smiled & said that she just wondered where I was. I then woke up & it felt so good. It really felt like it had just happened & I had just held her hand. It wasn't spooky or sad, just lovely. The memory of it now still makes me feel really good & loved by her. She was very special.
Kath- I sometimes wonder if anyone wants to read about my day to day life so it's nice to get such lovely feed-back. When I started in the forum there was very little info re life after Cohen's & I was always so curious about it. I decided that when I got to goal I would stay in here for many reasons. I want to stay motivated, like to feel supported & love to help others. I also love the friendships I have made & continue to make! Your 1kg a week is on a par with mine. Some people lose so much quicker & it can be frustrating, especially, as you say, you see them deviating. Who do you think will learn the most? You will get there & you will be sensational!! Go Kath!
Lori- You have your hand's full! I dearly love my husband but would have trouble coping with him being home every day, especially if he was feeling frustrated. He has to be busy. I have been "Spring cleaning" today & have exhausted myself. I pulled everything in our bedroom out into the middle of the room, thoroughly cleaned the room & re-arranged it all. Phew! It was a very heavy work-out & I was ravenous afterwards. I indulged a little today after my very healthy Cohen's salad lunch & ate some heavy, seeded apricot & nut bread with home-made raspberry jam. I realised I have not eaten one dessert since finishing Cohen's. I made sure I did some more work after I had eaten it. It was absolutely delicious but you know what?
If you have one slice or one piece of something really sweet you just want lots of it. It was a scary feeling! I drank a big glass of water & got the heck out of the kitchen & got back to some more cleaning quick smart! The feeling is still there...
I am going to go & have a shower in about 10 minutes & get into my size 13 Corfu jeans that make me feel very slim & remind myself why I am not going to get into the habit of eating toast with raspberry jam!!
The plan- Is to keep moving forward with my life, keep being positive, stay slim, earn some money.....& keep adding to this list as I go.
I rang my YS today & he's doing well. He has returned home & got stuck into getting some things done around his home that were annoying him. I will keep in touch with him more often as I think it helps him. He wants me to come visit him. It's funny but I didn't realise how similar we are until recently. It is nice that we are communicating so well.
It's a beautiful sunny day today after a -1oC start to the day. I had better go have this shower or will not get to 8-ball tonight. My LH is playing in a final. If they lose they're out of this comp. In a few more weeks he starts playing in another competition which is just a social competition. He organises that one in our local town(11km away.)
OK-I'm off! (LOL-possibly literally) to that shower as I'm starting to seize up, cheers, Cate. I think the curries are playing havoc with my arthritis, which was almost non-existent on Cohen's. Another lesson here?
 
Weight 70kg. This is a pattern my body has got into. If I have a late night I usually weigh 70kg next morning or if I haven't drunk enough water or maybe had just a little too many carb's. Yesterday it was all of these things! I didn't have any supper last night at 8-ball & no alcohol, no choc etc. I still think I will try to get down to 67kg as I hate seeing that 70!
Spring has sprung!
Now I can say it's official as there are cavorting swallows just outside my living-room window. They return within the same week every year & they are here in force today. Welcome back swallows! The daffodils are also out, the wattles are in full bloom, the sun is trying to peek out from the clouds & life is good.
I'm not sure what I am going to do today. I have set myself a task of achieving something positive every day. It can be a small thing like ringing an old friend or doing a long put off task or chore but I am thinking about what today's will be. Our bedroom looks a treat! I woke up with hay fever though.The head is a bit foggy.
Yesterday I also booked in to give blood again now that I am off the program. I am taking my Vietnam photo albums along as 2 of the women expressed a lot of interest in seeing them. I am always amazed that anyone remembers me. It feels good when it happens but I am always surprised. I hope it's for nice reasons, not because I'm such a chatterbox!
Todays challenge......I'll get out of here first & have a good think about it. I should visit my MIL. She has visitors(3) arriving next week & cooking is becoming a major challenge with her rapidly failing eye-sight. She has always been a wonderful cook & has very high standards. It is a major problem. She also is fiercely independent & touchy. My LH is at work but I might arrange to meet him at her place this afternoon & see what we can do to help. I think they are staying for 2 weeks & that's a lot of food. I do not feel up to the challenge of cooking for her as I'm sure it would not meet her standards. She loves to eat rich, fatty foods like pork,(ugh) eats lots of cream, butter, sweets & has always just been able to "whip things up" in a flash. It's truly amazing that she is so well really as she is also a smoker. She is very active though & is always out & about.
I try not to worry about her too much as it doesn't help her or myself but I wish she would consider moving somewhere safer where she could also get help with meals etc. Hopefully she will realise this soon. Her family are too scared of her to suggest it. She does not encourage advice from her sons & daughters but will listen to her friends. She is quite good at glossing things over though. I am worried she will burn the house down, with her in it, as I see burn marks everywhere on the carpet & she smokes in bed. She cannot see them herself.
I probably should scrap all the above but won't. I will visit her today though & gently attempt to talk to her about it. I care for her a lot. She has given us a lot of support over the years & she is a good person. I must remember not to unnecessarily worry our children when we are old. The time may come when we should move to a safer place & it's important to do so before it's too late. It may not be necessary but we talk about it & will re-assess on a regular basis.
OK. I'm not getting anything much done here, except for deciding what I will do today. By typing it here it galvinises me into action. Ring my MIL! Cheers, Cate.
 
Hi Cate
Thank you for your lovely words and support in the forum.
When I joined a few months ago I said that I was going to also start my own diary which I think, now getting close to the ‘home stretch, will be even more beneficial and I just need to bite the bullet and do it. Just the way I started the program to start!
I love to hear about your day and the revelations you are having along the way! I especially love it the way you describe things that leaves actual pictures in my mind of what I think place would be like – especially your house and property. I am so envious of where you live and your surroundings. My partner and I are huge (no longer in the physical sense as well) fans of the outdoors and we look forward to a trip to Tassie in the next couple of years to hike and adventure around!
I completely appreciate how writing about your day helps you in numerous ways. I have always been a diary writer, although I have also been slack in that regard of late which is one of the reasons why I haven’t done my own thread.
You have a beautiful writing manner and it’s always a great inspirational read.
I cannot thank you enough for sticking around past reefed as so many to go on their way, which I can also understand, but for all of us still getting there it really is helpful. Before you had finished I thought that when I finish I must just fall into a black hole! Ha… and to think after all that effort!
Well I’ll stop taking up your diary space and get my butt into action and start mine right now… as I always tell myself – Stop talking about it and just do it!
Take care of yourself and happy job hunting!
Lauren x
 
Lauren- That was a really sweet post. It made me feel really good. I have felt very tired today & you made me smile. Thank you. I have just read your diary & had already typed in there before popping in here. Don't ever be envious of others. It took me a long time to get here & I have lived in some very ordinary places along the way, believe me. You are only half my age! Wow! Think of all that living & loving you have ahead of you! It's a fun & fascinating journey.
What is inside you is the most important thing in the world. When you come to Tassie one day we will catch up. I love living here. It is a beautiful place! xo Cate
This afternoon- I rang my MIL & met my husband there after doing some shopping for her. We had a good visit with her & I broached the subject re Meals On Wheels. She took the question well but wants to continue cooking for herself if she can as she still enjoys it. We are going to help her with the cooking for the visitors but there are also lots of dinners/functions on so there will not be too much cooking required. We have made plans & I am taking her shopping on Tuesday & my LH is arriving after work & we are having a cook-fest! She got a bit "funny" & said to me that I won't eat out but I told her she can shout me lunch & she then seemed quite happy. It's the need for not feeling dependent & I appreciate that.
We had a lovely dinner tonight. I had yoghurt for breakfast with mango. Chicken & vegetable soup for lunch & crackers with tuna, asparagus, celery, spring onion & mayo. Delicious. Cohen's to the letter.
Dinner was brown rice with a vegetable curry that I had made yesterday with boiled egg added to it. It's a Charmaine Solomon curry & is very nice. Followed by fresh fruit salad with yoghurt. I feel very healthy & good. Tired but pleasantly tired.
Received a message from our friend the builder so rang him tonight. He is coming tomorrow to start work. Wee Hoo!!
That will make me get out of bed early & on the move.
It's nearly time for Spicks & Specks so will go make a pot of herbal tea. Cheers for now, Cate. Update tomorrow on the work done. Yay!!
 
You go gurl!!

You go gurl! Good on ya cate for getting stuck into things, keep up the good work and good luck with the job hunting, Im sure you will find something as you seem like a determined person. Would love to catch up next time your in lonnie..for a coffee and a chat maybe.

Cheers
Genie
 
Hi Cate

Thank you for the comments, both in here and in my thread!

Envious in a good way - not a jealous way (man I hate that word and emotion - Its not in my vocabulary and I dont believe it to exist!). When we make it over there it would be lovely to be able to meet! Thank you.

It's late... have a great day tomorrow!

L x
 
Genie- I haven't got much go in me today I'm afraid. Oh well! Thanks for the visit!
Lauren- I agree with you about that jealousy demon. It's horrible. I am really lucky I know & we do live in a beautiful place. I'm feeling a bit out of sorts at the moment. I am really pleased that you have started a diary. It will be goood for every-one, especially yourself.
Today I had to get up early as the builder was coming. I don't know what to do with myself so that's why I'm in here. I wish my LH was home. I don't have cakes & biscuits & that sort of stuff in the house but feel you have to feed workers. I always feel uncomfortable when I'm not sure what I should be doing.
My LH let the fire go out this morning as it's meant to be really warm today. I'm trying to get it going again but not having much luck. I'll have to head over to the bush & get heaps of sticks & have a serious go as I'm cold. I think the weather man was a bit astray.
I feel I have to dress slim when I am seeing some-one who is used to me being fat. Now I'm in my new jeans & feel I should be in my polar fleece tracky dacky's so that I can get stuck into some serious work & be warmer. Bugger it- I'll go change now! As if it matters what I am wearing. I think it's obvious now that I am not 36 kg heavier whatever I wear (& I'm freezing!)
I'll come back later when I am making more sense!! Cate.
 
I have felt c...p today. I changed into my polar fleece daggy clothes, went & got a big load of sticks, decided not to worry about the fire as it was warm outside & spent most of my day eating. Well that's what it felt like anyway. I felt stressed & out of sorts. I ate a slice of home-made bread with my soup at lunch-time & then dark chocolate afterwards & now feel that I have let myself down. It's not that I ate a lot but that I felt like I was eating the wrong stuff for the wrong reasons. I was always a stress eater & I don't want to feel out of control again. I'm dreading that when I weigh myself tomorrow I will be over 70kg & will feel miserable. We are going out tomorrow night to Launceston & I want to feel good & have fun. Please, please I want to be 70kg or less!!
I don't like this feeling at all. My stomach hurts as well. Plus when my LH got home I drank 2 stubbies of cider with him & the builder, before we ate our dinner. All wrong!!
Aaarrgghhhh!
Sorry folks. I'm not cheerful, positive Cate today. Hopefully she'll return tomorrow! I do need to keep to the guidelines obviously. I should have recognised the signs today & got out of the house today & visited some-one. I must remember this. Bye for now, Cate.
 
Bread alert!!
I think bread triggers nasty cravings & makes me feel terrible to boot. I am not having any bread for a few days at least & if I feel much better I might swear off it for life. I was warned. I have had asthma for a few days & arthritis as well as feeling bloated & clogged up. Surely this can't be from bread! I have drunk litres of water tonight & am starting to feel better by the minute (or the glass)
Tomorrow I will drink at least 3 litres of water, stick to Cohen's incl. eating crackers only for my carb's(& no choc) & hopefully my system will be back to what it has been for the last 6 months. Then I should feel like going out tomorrow night, raring to go! I think my brains went on holiday today.
I feel much more confident tonight that I will be back on track tomorrow. I feel determined again. No action in here tonight so I'll head, 'night, Cate.
 
A new day!!
I'm back to my usual self!!
I don't know where yesterday came from but I'm glad it's done & dusted. I felt good by bed time & determined to get myself back on track.
I drank some Bekunis tea before going to bed to help get me moving this morning(works every time), cooked myself a very healthy 2 egg omelette for breakfast, as I woke up hungry. I even went outside in the frost & picked fresh spinach & coriander to add to it. I drank 2 glasses of water whilst cooking.
I dressed in red & black because red makes me feel really positive & active & drove my LH to work as I'm going to pick him up on the way to the Paul Kelly show tonight. I then decided to shop for some fruit for the week-end. I bought some shortbread for the builder so I didn't feel so inhospitable & felt so good that I decided to try some slacks on. A friend of my son's was about to start work at a local clothing store & I had said hello to her in the street & she hadn't recognised me. She is very nice. I went in with her & she served me. I bought a pair of size 10 black slacks.(half price) They are very similar to the ones I had on this morning(size 14) that need to be taken in & you can't have too many pairs of black slacks! I know I'm not a size 10. Sizes are crazy!
I put my bag into the boot of the car & noticed my MIL's old clothes that she had asked me to get rid of for her so I then visited an op shop, gave them her clothes & tried on lots of slacks & bought a pair of skinny leg black jeans for around the house (for $5). They are so comfortable (have spandex in them) & make me look really skinny!:eek:
I have not eaten any crackers at all today yet. Had a chicken breast/vegetable soup for my lunch, followed by an orange & a kiwi fruit. I have drunk about 8 glasses of water today & I feel fantastic! I have not been drinking enough water lately. It's obvious to me now.
I decided not to weigh myself this morning as I didn't want to start my day feeling negative. I learned a valuable lesson yesterday, without needing to see the scales. If there had not been an increase it would not have had a positive influence. I'm so glad I didn't. I am really looking forward to going out now. This is the first time today that I have sat down, except to eat. I feel positive, relaxed & happy.
Looking out my window just then I saw a lone white goshawk flying by. It's beautiful, but always alone. Many years ago an old man who lived locally told us that he shot a white hawk that was trying to eat his chickens. I was so upset that I told him that he should be reported & that if he ever shot a hawk or eagle again I would notify the authorities. Apparently they mate for life. I love seeing it in the sky but the sight is always tinged with that little bit of sadness.
We are having a meal before the show tonight so that is why I have decided to steer clear of any "extras" during the day as I am not sure what we will be eating. I also don't think I will have any alcohol as I feel so good & don't want to ruin that & also I am driving home.
I will report in tomorrow, of course, after weigh-in & tell you about the show etc. Cheers from happy, positive Cate.
 
Paul Kelly was brilliant. The show was even better than we thought it could be. Paul "Lucky" Luscombe from the RocKwiz Orkestra plays drums with Paul kelly & he is fantastic. Paul Kelly must continue to tour because he LOVES music. It shows!
Well into the show he tried to get some of the audience who were dancing around the edges of the room up onto the stage. A couple of girls did but hopped off again not long after. Later he kept encouraging people to come up & dance. My husband asked me if I wanted to get up & I said no. I really did want to get up there & dance but was held back by that old image of me. I have always loved dancing & music. We used to dance the night away. It's been a long time since we have! I also was desparate for a pee!
I wore my red, black & white top with black slacks, silver hoop ear-rings(from Sapa in Vietnam) & a silver necklace (to match my hair-lol) & I felt really good about how I looked. Something is still holding me back from feeling totally comfortable in my new skin though. Hopefully I'll get there with time. I saw many people that I hadn't seen for ages. Some commented on my appearance, some didn't. No-one fussed which was good.
We ate in the Links buffet restaurant at the Casino. I ate a fairly healthy plate of mostly Cohen's style food but with tiny tastes of other things as I had decided to have dessert. I made sure that I had some carbohydrates but not much as the rule is "the less carb you have the more dessert you can have" as I had decided that this would be the night I tried desserts for the first time since finishing re-feed. I had some lemon cheesecake (ok only) a white chocolate "brownie" (absolute heaven!) & a choc mini tart thingie that was gross! It had a marshmallow in it & was sickeningly sweet.I also had some fresh fruit & then I had to have a coffee to take away the sweetness of it all. We drank a bottle of bubbly with our meal & that was delicious. I then didn't have any more alcohol for the evening & just drunk lots of water.
I thought after not drinking any alcohol for so long that the slightest amount would affect me adversely but I find it doesn't. Sharing a bottle of wine,occasionally, with dinner is a very pleasurable experience & does not have any major side-effects. The perfumes last night caused havoc with my sinuses but it was a small price to pay for a great night.
We have decided that next time we go to a show (& there will be many more next times) we will find out when the main show starts & may eat at home first. I know that all singers & bands have to start somewhere & I appreciate Paul Kelly is encouraging young artists who write their own material but.....
Last night's support act almost had us asleep.
Plus we eat so well at home that eating out can be very disappointing & expensive for what you get. It depends where the next show is of course. If it's at the Casino again we'll eat at home.
I'll come back tonight for a look about. It's a beautiful day today. My LH is working all week-end unfortunately & I'm having a lazy day on my own which feels ok.
Weight 70kg, by the way(phew), cheers for now, Cate
 
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I have not had any extra carb's today, just my crackers. I had yoghurt for breakfast, a chicken stir-fry for lunch & a fish stir-fry for dinner. I had some wine tonight after crackers & cheese. I hope to be 69kg tomorrow morning. No activity in here today so will head again. Cheers, Cate.
 
Thanks for sharing Cate, it is really interesting to see how people handle being at goal weight after refeed.
Regards

KGB
 
You're welcome KGB. It helps me to stay focussed on staying slim as well.
Today I weighed 68.5 kgs. Thanks to Cohen's I have the knowledge to maintain my weight. That's a first!
I had a lovely day today. I ate yoghurt for breakfast as it seems to set me up feeling good for the day. I rang my Mum, who lives up on the Murray river & then my sister, who lives in Cranbourne in Vic, who turned 50 today. I had a good chat to both which is never a problem with us! Put the 3 of us in a room & you have no chance of getting a word in edge-ways!
I then rang my OS & visited them. I ended up staying for lunch at their insistence & we had a lovely few hours. My GD is now so comfortable in my presence. Her brother was staying with a friend for the day & tonight so it was easier to just enjoy her company. I fed her lunch & wandered around holding her for ages. She even puckered up for a few kisses which she doesn't normally do with anyone. Sweet!
When I got home I prepped & cooked for a couple of hours so I have enough food cooked for today & tomorrow for the 2 of us. My LH is now home & relaxing in his chair in his slippers with a cider. I quite like just being able to be a stay-at-home wife for a change. I have felt very positive today again.
I told my mother to ask me next week what I did this week so that I will organise something like the wacky walkers! I can't go on Tues as I'm taking my MIL shopping & then meeting my LH at her place to do some cooking for her & her visitors. I would like to have made the call though & make plans to go with them. I can get out of bed easier now that it's not freezing cold & dark in the morning. I will have to be in our local town by 8am to go with them. All those years of running a pub got me used to being a night owl, not an early bird but I want to break the habit. These nights I am usually asleep by midnight so I'm getting there.
I wore my op-shop black jeans today & they are very comfortable. I was afraid I looked like a bogan but my son assured me I didn't & laughed at me!
My sweet husband is sound asleep in his chair already. He didn't get a chance to get over our late night Frid as he has worked all weekend. At least he can sleep in tomorrow as he doesn't start work until 3pm & then he has Tues. off & can play golf before we cook at his Mum's. He is having the next 2 weekends off as he's been working too much lately. He was only going to work 4 days a week......
Hope you are all enjoying Spring (or Fall). I love Spring the most of all the seasons. I must buy some bathers as I really want to be able to swim this year. This morning I tried on the bathers I bought in the US (size humungous!) & they looked hilarious! I'll don't know if I'll keep them or not.
Cheers for now, Cate.
 
Hi Cate
You have just caused me a giggle or two with that post. First one about you husband sitting down to cigar... That's my partner's favourite pasttime and the one thing that he and my father have in common to share together! Is very few and far between but just rang home to me in a warm and fuzzy way!
The other was the bogan comment. Some weeks ago I was walking through Target and they had the winter seasons hot option jeans going out for $11. As I was looking through for my size (they were all 16's and 18 - that never happened when I was actually that size! I would never be able to find anything on bargin racks) and I found the last 12 and 14 so snatched them off quickly. I thought for $11 each it was a god send as I just needed one pair of jeans in each size to get me through until I finish. They were both very dark and I actually liked the colour pattern. When I got them home I discovered that the 14's were actually skinny leg. I couldn't believe it. I dont even like how they look on Kate Moss! I didn't know how to wear them and got my sister and a freind over to help me coordinate them with my wardrobe. I wore them to work as a trial (it's pretty casual and I dont care what other people there really think of my fashion wise or physically plus if I felt uncomfortable then I can just sit at my desk all day) as asked a couple of the 'fashionista's' there if it looked ok. They couldn't see what the fuss was about and said I looked great and it's the fashion. But all I could reply was 'I just feel like a bogan and like I just need to add a pair of ripple shoes'. They all laughed at me but I have ventured out in them a couple of times since but do tend to rather wear my size 16 cargos as they are meant to be baggy and are so so comfy. They do sit quite low now though but with the way my body is tranforming I can get away with that now too.
Glad to hear you enjoyed yourself at Paul Kelly. His one of my favourites too. His here this week but we were too late on finding out and getting tickets. I saw him 3 times when I was in the UK. One of the guys I worked with was a big fan of his and he played nearby often. He played in an old church which was done up for small intimate shows. The acoutistics and energy there was amazing!
Have a great week and make sure you get on that phone to the wacky walkers!
Lauren
 
Lauren- I just loved your post in my diary. I usually am wondering why I do this until I read something like that. If I can make anyone laugh or feel warm & fuzzy my day is made! Thanks for picking up on my hint re the walkers. I need to be gently nagged! I have people suggest I wear different things now but I would hate anyone to think that I am trying to look like a 20yr old or a "vamp" so am going to stick to things that I am comfortable with. I am usually a black, black & black person so I feel I am being fairly adventurous with bright red & patterns & jeans! I will try to get a little more adventurous as I go & will try on anything.
It's raining today & we had a bit of a sleep-in. We didn't go to bed early as we watched quite a good movie on tv last night, called "Runaway Jury" with John Cusack, Gene Hackman & Dustin Hoffman. Great cast & not a bad movie.
We have the fire going, the builder is here doing some work & I have done all of my essential housework for the day & meals are ready to heat. I must make a really big beef soup this week. I will cook a Vietnamese soup called Pho Bo & freeze the base(stock) so that I can pull it out of the freezer anytime & add the fresh ingredients for an "authentic" Vietnamese dish. I just loved the food in Vietnam & it makes you feel so healthy.
My LH just told me that one of his work-mates (bosses) asked him the other day if I had put on weight since I finished the program. He told her that I hadn't but that I am sticking to the maintenance guidelines. She finished re-feed about a month before me. He says she often eats sweet things at work like slices etc and he thinks she has put on some weight. I hope she doesn't undo it all as she looks great. We have been friends with her husband for many years as he was one of our favourite customers in the pub.
I hardly ever see him but he works with my husband also.
I had better get up & do something as it's too chilly to be just sitting here. I will have to go to Launceston or Dev't soon as I really need a new printer. I wanted to wait until I felt I could afford a new computer, desk, chair, printer etc package but now that my printer has died it is too frustrating. I want to type up key points for the maintenance guidelines & keep them on the fridge. Hand-written notes look so messy. Also I do a lot of work for my LH's 8-ball- rosters, ladders, notices etc & the new season is about to start. I might have to draw a roster up by hand-ugh.
I didn't weigh myself this morning as I wanted to imagine I was still 68.5kg..
OK- time to do something else. LH heads to work at 2.30pm so will have plenty of quiet time then, cheers for now, Cate.
 
Hi Cate

How has your day been?

I have been meaning to ask you a question. Because you have found that you now struggle with bread etc how have you gone with starchy vegies i.e. potato, pumpkin, peas and corn etc?

Lauren
 
Cate,

Been a while since I left a post, but I have been looking in your blogs. Glad to hear the re-feed went well for you and you are learning how to enjoy a few pleasures with food but still know how to balance it all out and maintain your weight.

till later, skinny thoughts to all

Lukey
 
Lauren- Hi! I have had a great day today. I headed out early this morning & have hardly stopped all day. It's all been good. Had some lovely positive comments made to me which has been really nice plus lots of laughs!
The bread thing has really been a bit of bloating but mainly just a feeling of "so if that's bread I can do without it!" It's mainly been disappointing. I think it was one of the main reasons I was so overweight in the first place! My husband used to work in a bakery...
I have only eaten a little potato & pumpkin once (last Fri.night) & didn't suffer any side effects at all. They tasted ok. The baked pumpkin was nice but very filling. Peas & corn I decided not to worry about eating at all. There is so much good, healthy food out there, that I much prefer, that I won't bother buying any of them to eat at home & will only eat them while I'm out if they are put on my plate & I feel like eating them at the time. My tastes have totally changed & so has my mind-set. I just love feeling slim. Every day I love it more. I love it more than I ever loved potato, pumpkin, peas or corn. I knew nothing about food before & what it was doing to me. Sorry if I sound like a religious convert but the novelty has not worn off. I hope it never does! xo Cate.
Lukey- Thanks Lukey. I am really enjoying my new-found knowledge & really enjoying nurturing my body. I am so grateful that I took the opportunity & was given that opportunity to change the direction I was headed. I feel like a new person. I am invigorated & very positive about life. I feel so happy & lucky!
I have had a really full on day, chasing my MIL about. I let her shout me lunch & I enjoyed a spinach lasagne, with a garden salad, followed by an lemon meringue cheesecake & a long black coffee in our local deli. The couple who own the deli used to cook for us in our pub & are friends. It is a lovely, popular deli. I followed the maintenance guidelines & would not have had the dessert if I hadn't weighed 68.5kg this morning. I had carb's with my main course so could have dessert if I wished. If my MIL had not felt like dessert I would not have worried about it. I enjoyed myself, knowing that I have the means to drop any weight off straight away if it appears. It is nice to feel that I can enjoy my food now, without feeling self-conscious or guilty about it.
It is good to be able to help my MIL without taking away any of her independence. By letting her shout me lunch today & socialising with her I know that it then makes her feel that she is not obliged to me. It works out well.
I am now enjoying a night home with my LH. He played golf today & won the Comp & is playing really well. His handicap is the lowest it has ever been. He loves golf & is very fit & active.
I'm about to go & get us a bowl of fresh fruit salad with yoghurt. I still stick to the low-fat plain yoghurt while he enjoys the Jalna creamy vanilla. I find the Jalna way too sweet. I think an early night is on the cards. Cheers for now, Cate.
 
I have had such a mixed day today. I didn't feel like posting which is odd for me. Often when I have a wonderful day it is followed by a flat one. I don't want to assume that is always so as I prefer to think I'm an optimist plus it will take away from the fun of a great day.
We had 2 builders here today until 4pm & the job was meant to be finished but isn't. The timber supplied apparently is sub-standard. They hadn't mentioned this to me until this afternoon. I paid them up until today as pre-arranged & rang the timber company who are meant to call me back. So my car is parked outside still, the garage is a mess & the job is far from finished. This has put me in such a crabby mood. It has worked out to be a much more costly exercise than we thought it would be.
I think I am going to have a serious re-think about the remainder of work we had planned. I would prefer to have an overseas trip than a veranda and/or lots of fencing. The garage needed to be lined so I'll get over it but I just wish it was finished.
I did get them to cut my railway sleepers today because they had the equipment here. My LH was going to cut them with his chain saw! I also asked them what the best way of putting them together is & got some good advice.
I was in a gloomy mood & then over-ate at dinner time tonight. I cooked myself a Cohen's-friendly omelette & then had it on a large slice of home-made toast. I now feel over-full & like a blimp! Since dinner I have drunk 2 whole litres of water, trying to wash it down! Bread of all things! I don't know why I did that! I have always been a stress eater. I have resisted the chocolate & shortbread thank goodness & by typing this here I will not touch it!
I wish I had my LH home as I could do with a cuddle! Also my YS is not coping too well with going back to his old job.
I didn't weigh myself this morning as that 68.5kg was nice yesterday. I'm not looking forward to hopping on the scales tomorrow though. I must do something very positive tomorrow. I did ring the Wacky Walkers today but did not leave a message. I will call again tomorrow, unless I wake up in a foul mood...
2 of my favourite shows are on tonight. Spicks & Specks, followed by The Chaser's War on Everything. My Mum, who is 82, thought the Chaser stunt( :eh:) at the Sydney APEC conference was hilarious & "needed to be done." She says she doesn't watch the show as it's on too late. I think she would really enjoy the show even though they do step over the mark sometimes.
Just got a quick call from my son again & he sounds a fair bit better.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day, 'night, Cate.
 
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