Cate's Diary

AHeya cupcake :)

Your day sounds so lovely. Glad you are getting to have some really nice days with your mum. Hope it goes well with getting your mums results.

I love walking on my own. I found it great head space. We have a 3 mile stunning beach about 6 miles away that i love walking. Before i did my running, i use to walk that to clear my head and think things thru. Now i do it all on my run. Maybe walking on a regular basis will help until you see a therapist :)

I love Graham Norton!!!! He is bloody awesome :)
 
I have been away a bit , not feeling very well plus my computer is dead so im loging on from my husbands.


I Hope all is ok with your mum and things turn out the best.


See you had a good day , spending time with your loved mum!


I really hope all is ok:grouphug:
 
Sorry Kate & Jess. I was going to come back later & reply to your posts & obviously got side-tracked. I'm not feeling great today but have been feeling quite well mentally, which is a relief. I'm not stressing, which is the main thing. Exercise makes such a difference to your mental well-being & eating healthily, which I now do all the time. I think I'm up to my 47th day on MFP & have logged what I eat every day, without fail. Last night I had 4 squares of dark chocolate because I really felt like eating them. I have changed my goals on MFP to 1lb a week so that I'm not feeling bad about going over a little each day. It's good because I don't feel deprived at all & I'm feeling more committed to a healthy long-term eating pattern. Not weighing is also quite liberating. I don't think I have lost anything much, if at all, but I feel a little slimmer. I have had too much red meat lately & have been a bit constipated. I never weigh unless I have had a BM first thing in the morning & that hasn't happened for a while. Chicken & fish from now on for a while for me. I'll weigh in Sunday or Monday, regardless though as I think I would like to know.

I was meant to go into town this morning but hadn't told Mum. My asthma is bad today & I'm struggling for breath. My LH was in a hurry to go so I decided to stay home & go in tomorrow. I'll ring Mum now & tell her I'll pick her up tomorrow. We seem to be always going in & I think a day at home would do me lots of good. My lungs are complaining! For so long my plan has been to stay at home a day or 2 after a trip anywhere to let my lungs recover from all the perfume attacks but our social life has been a bit hectic(for us) lately & that could be why I'm struggling today.

I had better ring Mum & then go have a quick shower & get dressed. I'll potter about at home today & get some fresh air into me.

Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
I felt better as the day went on & ended up doing a couple of hours rock work- digging them up with a crowbar & wheel-barrowing them out of our garden onto a big rock pile. I enjoyed my day at home. I rang Mum first thing yesterday to say I wasn't coming in but that I would today. She had some news for me! She woke at 1.30am to find a man in her room. She said he went over & opened her blind & she shooed him out of her room & locked the door. She was so funny! We laughed our heads off. I could tell by the way she told me that she hadn't been scared or worried. She obviously was telling eryone about it at breakfast as she said they asked why she didn't ring for a nurse. I said "Because you dealt with him, right Mum?" & she said "That's right!' We both had a big laugh about it on the phone. She says that it's time he went into the "other place" but there isn't a bed. I'm not sure if that's right or not but I'll ask today. I say hello to everyone in there when I go in & the other day I asked a bloke how he was & he told me about his neighbour who is annoying him & he has to lock his door & that "it's no good." He has dementia too so I wasn't sure if it was in his imagination. Possibly not.:smilielol5:Mum's bit of amusement for the week. At least he didn't hop into bed with her! I'm sure we'll have another laugh about it today. She wants me to take her to Launceston when I take my MIL as the shoes I picked for her she loves so now she wants more. It will be hard to explain why I don't want to take her. The 2 of them together is painful. My MIL demands attention, like a 2 year old & I'm quite sure she is intolerant of Mum's condition. Mum, on the other hand is more like a 2 year old, in that she needs her hand held crossing the road, & help with eating. I couldn't tolerate my MIL's insensitivity or pity. It can't happen....but how to tell my Mum, without offending her. I have to come up with something before 10am.

I had better scoot. I'll go visit my MIL now before picking Mum up at 10am. I'm not going to lunch. Both mothers are very demanding but in totally different ways. they both think they can coerce me into anything. I'm getting stronger & building up resistance but without becoming hard & uncaring. It takes some resistance though! I was given a book of affirmations the other day & am going to use it daily. Today's is-

"When in a stressful situation, I choose to be peaceful"

Anyhow, better fly.

Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Spent most of the day in town. Took Mum to the market & went back later on my own. Bought a couple of lovely things that I will probably keep for myself, including a gorgeous pendant from Turkey. I'll take a photo of it later & put it on. I also got a beautifully painted metal tin that looks Aztecie or Mexican or something. There were 2 the same & I only bought one. It showed huge self-restraint for me. I haven't showed my LH yet.

I still haven't weighed but am tracking everything I eat & drink & my exercise & keeping within my calories for the day. I have put in to lose only 1lb a week until after Christmas when I'll reassess.

Feeling pretty good. Will get out in the garden again today as it's a lovely day. There's some snow on the mountains(1st wk of Summer) & the wind off it is cold but the sun is shining :biggrin: so I'm smiling. Lots of love to all, xoxo Cate
 
In my new life change seems to be the new norm & partying/dancing is part of it. We spent most of the day at home, pottering about, doing nothing much & then went to the pub to listen to a guy who's music we love. He played from 3-6pm & there wasn't many there but those that were really enjoyed it. A lovely woman & her LH were there & she said how nice it had been when we met up at a wake & how she felt that we had really connected & how good she felt afterward about that. Her & her LH used to have a band that we had playing in our pub about 25 years ago. We used to love their music but have seldom seen them in the last 15 years or so. We chatted again yesterday & we all ended up having dinner together (incl the muso) & her LH said that were also going to a "life celebration" afterward to which we had also been invited. I could see that she was surprised that they were still going & she asked to go home first to feed the animals. Neither of us felt like going either, but we talked about in on the way home & I said that it was the right thing to do & we usually do the right thing. I said we could just go for an hour or so.

The wake was in honour of a guy called Gary who had dementia & died recently. We both knew him & I am friends with his wife. We keep in touch mainly through FB or text but catch up every few months or so. I would have felt really bad if we hadn't gone. We both would. We called in home & I made a thermos of peppermint tea & we put some warmer clothes on & headed off. There was a great band, lots of tribal drumming, lots of old & young "hippies," lots of herbal stuff getting around ("no thanks" but I don't object to it particularly) & lots & lots of dancing. Once again, we caught up with lots of people we hadn't seen for years, including one silly woman who ducked every time she saw us & couldn't look us in the eye. She bounced a cheque on us 20 years before & hides whenever she sees us. I don't care any more about stuff like that. We ripped up the little black book & burned it one day & decided to let it all go. She obviously still feels ashamed. Her problem. If she had spoken to me I would have smiled & said hello as I do to anyone & everyone.

I'm feeling feeling tired today (& fat!) so won't weigh myself for a couple of days. What I am going to do is impose a 2 day minimum, personal ban on alcohol. I went over my cals yesterday & I had upped them to only lose 1lb a week so that's not good. I don't want to feel guilty about going over so will give myself a little kick up the butt!

I'm doing some gardening today as my exercise. It's a cross between cardio & strength as I'll be digging up & moving lots of rocks. It's hard & heavy work & I LOVE IT! It makes me feel so good. I am enjoying life at the moment. Our new social life, while it may not be too good on the scales(not that I actually know that) is good for my mental well-being. I'm enjoying my new/old friendships & inter-actions. I used to be so afraid of what people thought of me so held myself back from making real friendships, for fear of being rejected. I am having such positive experiences that are helping me feel more self confident.

I'm also not taking things to heart quite so much. I think I put some guy's nose out of joint last night because one of his friends who had asked me if I was working & when I told him why I couldn't, had called this guy over & said to him that I have a worse allergy than his.( He's allergic to eggs.) He did look really grumpy! He was quite un-friendly to my LH later on & perhaps that was why. Who knows. We had never met him before. While I was listening to a group of friends playing tribal drums I spoke to my friend & said that My LH would love to learn how to play the rhythms as he has always loved the drums & she said that they are part of a local drumming group that meets & plays regularly & he could possibly join. I said not to say anything to any of them until Ii asked him if he wanted to.

Later on, just before we left we were speaking to this guy & I asked him if there was a drumming group where someone could learn to play & he said there wasn't. He said there's a tribal dancing class that his wife runs, but not drums. Talk about a grouch. Oh well. On the drive home I realised that his wife may be the woman I went to for "belly dancing" lessons but only went to once as I didn't like her idea of a class. It was a flat out, no allowances made for anyone else, frenetic dance that was not belly dancing at all. She was a real show-off & I thought it was more about her being the centre of attention & she was a terrible show-off. She called her classes "tribal dancing." I reckon it must be her. Oh well.

I had better get moving!

Bye for now & love to all, xoxo Cate
 
Had a full-on, very physical day. Am knackered but it's worth it as I will stay well within my cals today & NO WINE!!! :biggrin: xoC
 
AHeya hun

I love reading your diary, your life sounds great :) so eventful!! It's like reading a good book :)

Sorry i have neglected you for a few days but i am usless when i am a grumpy cow. I can just about manage to post my diary when i am like that. I had decided to cut down on my meds this week but i dont know if it is the right time, i will carry on just having them on three days a week for the next week or two and see how i get on.

Sending you lots of love and hugs Xxx
 
Eventful! You made me laugh again Kate! I don't think of my life being either eventful or particularly interesting to anyone else. I just ramble on about what happens as therapy really. I had trouble posting last night, even when I read your sweet post as I had a crap day. I got home so frazzled & exhausted. It was a double mother day. I took my MIL into Launceston for her Cystoscopy & she was a bit of a pain in the neck. I'm being polite. I had neither of my LH's sisters there for any kind of relief. When I got her back home about 2pm I then went & picked up my Mum, who was also in a pilly mood. At one stage I said "Are you being contrary, just for being contrary's sake?" & she said yes. It was a VERY trying day!! I got home & poured a glass of wine for each of us( & then had 2 more & fell asleep). I kept within my calories for the day, even with eating lunch out. The wine was at the expense of good nutritious food though.

So many things were annoying about yesterday- the blisters from wearing sandals incl, the finding out that the Brooks sneakers that I liked the look of, will not fit my humungous feet as they don't come in a wide fitting. I went to 3 shoe shops in 30 mins & couldn't find anything. I raced around quickly so that I was back at the hospital in plenty of time. I waited 20 mins & then heard a woman say "She's not here" & my MIL saying "OH, What a nuisance!" I called out to them both that I was there & had been for ages. My MIL did look contrite, but of course that didn't last long. That is enough! I'll stop now. We have had so many phone calls today I'm almost ready to pull the plug on the phone. So much rubbish is happening to do with the golf club. My poor LH. If he has a heart attack & dies because of all the shit that he has to put up with there are some people that I will be blaming & I will be telling them.

OK- that's enough bitching & moaning to last me a week. Sorry kate for carrying on. Most of the time I am feeling pretty good but lately we have had too much to cope with all at once. If you were a bad person & didn't help people out maybe none of this would happen. You wouldn't give a toss. We do care & we can only take so much. I have felt ready to explode at least half a dozen times this week!

I won't go back & delete any of this post. Please excuse my letting off steam. I love being able to.

Lots and lots of love to all, xoxo Cate
 
AHeya Cupcake :)
Glad i made you laugh and i'm sorry you had a crappy day but reading about your mum and MIL really made me chuckle!! I know it's hard dealing with it but it is a funny read. I think your mum sounds a total blast. I think i would just take her out for the entertainment value. I know it embarasses you but thats because she is YOUR mum but to me she sounds brill!!!
My mum embarasses me, not so much now but as a teenager OMG it was hell and my dad is a homophobic rasist (not that he will ever admit to it) and that is REALLY embarassing. He is also really deaf so shouts!!!!
Don't ever apologise for 'carrying on'!!!!!!!! This is your diary, your therapy, you!!!! You write what you bloody like :cuss: Get me shouting at you :) Honestly hun, this is your diary, you rant all you like, we are here for you. It's the same with my diary. I am either super sqealy excited or in the depths of dispair....there never seems to be a happy medium huh. But it is my diary and i write what i need to. And my diary and you guys are the reason i am now a size 12 running freak so i aint giving up my ranting and neither should you :)

Love and really big squishy hugs :grouphug: Xxxx
 
Maybe our diaries even us out a bit Kate. I think mine does. It's good to get it out of your system. The next day I find things amusing about my Mum, but at the time it's hard, because it is so embarrassing. Only family can make you feel like that. I'm getting used to it. It's when she gets angry about things that I find it really hard. Often people take their frustration on those that are close to them. Mum needs me & possibly she is resenting it. Both our mothers also get jealous of the other getting my attention, just like little children do. :rolleyes: You are such a darling Kate & I love reading your posts and about your life. I also love it that you call me cupcake- SWEET! xoxo Cate

Yesterday-

I went out to the golf club & did the bar for 6 hours straight, on my own. There were 88 players. I really enjoyed it, but was knackered by 5pm. We got great feed-back from almost all the players who came from other clubs. 3 lovely women did the barbecue & served & I did the bar. I am in my element behind the bar after working 18 years in our own. Serving men is good fun, especially those in their 40's & up. They are friendly & relaxed & at the stage in their lives where they have chosen to enjoy themselves. It's so much easier than serving almost all women. I had help after 5pm & I finished up at 6pm, after starting at 11am. I was really tired & aching. It was very busy & a good profitable day for the club.

We have the GK's for the night tonight & our OS has just asked if we can have them again next Friday night. I said yes even though we'll miss seeing a couple of brothers who are playing at our YS's pub both Friday nights. I like to be able to help him through this hard time & want him to be able to have a social life. I have been really good & haven't been asking him what he is doing or where he is going(or who with!). That shows a lot of self-restraint for a mother, I can tell you. I can feel my halo growing lol :angel:

We are having a bit of a lazy day today & the GK's will be here about 4pm. I had better get moving. I'm still in my PJ's at 10.15am. We're both a bit tired still. My LH had so much organisation to do for this tournament & it wasn't until Monday that anyone else volunteered to help with the food. He almost didn't play. He has been so stressed lately & it has been a worry. I do what I can to help but he has so much trouble relaxing these days. I'll be glad when he's no longer captain of the club & then he's going to be bar manager again & I'll be able to help him. As it is we do that as well even though another guy is meant to. This other guy is also the one who causes him the most grief. He's a nasty piece of work.

I don't understand aggressive, nasty people at all. I really don't. We're not like that at all & we get really hurt when people are nasty.

I'm glad that I have such a lovely husband. I feel I'm one of the luckiest people on the planet.

Better get moving. Lots and lots of love to Kate & hi & a hug to anyone else reading my diary, xoxo Cate.
 
We have had, & are still having a lovely time with the grand-kids. No trouble getting them to bed at all. They love staying up here & I hope that will continue on for as long as possible. It's so special having such a close relationship with our GK's. We had an early night as we were both really tired. It was a warm night & Summer has arrived! Our little GS came into our bed at 6.40 & chatted to us for about 45 mins. So sweet! We have a timber ceiling in our bedroom & we always try to pick out animal eyes. There's crocodile, monkey & elephant eyes in abundance. The kids are being picked up about 11am by their dad & then I have to go in to see Mum & do a little shopping after lunch. I feel bad if I don't see her & take her out for a while. I do wish there was someone else who would as well, but there isn't. Oh well.

I had better go have a shower while they're happy watching kid shows & my OGS wants to use the computer.

Lots of love to all xoxo Cate
 
My mum is obviously feeling much better physically, which is a big relief! I took her out shopping & she had lots more energy than usual & was also cheerful. It makes it much more enjoyable for both of us. I think the coughing would have been wearing her out. Her chest doesn't seem as mucky. We called in briefly to see our YS but he was busy. He told me that the brothers were staying on & singing last night as well but we ended up staying at home. It would have been fun but we were both tired. If we had known earlier it would have been different as then I could have gone into town later.

I have so much on this week & will try to do a shuffle I think. I had changed my MIL's ap't to this week instead of Christmas week, but had forgotten about my Tai Chi lunch on Wed. I'll ring first thing tomorrow & see if I can change it back, otherwise I will wear myself out totally & end up feeling as frazzled as I was a few weeks ago. I'm not going to take both Mothers out in the same day again either. Wed would have been Tai Chi, followed by lunch, leaving that right on 2pm & then driving my MIL 120km return, driving home a further 11km & then back to 8-ball that night (52km return.) WAY too much in one day! Tires me just thinking about it. I must get as much as I can from my Tai Chi. It's my main relaxation.

We are spending today at home & my LH is going to do some brush-cutting. I think I'll plant some shrubs out into the garden. i'll have to rig up fences around them as the wallabies come right up to our house. They're brazen, cute little creatures. I see them during the day now. Nice!

OK better get a wiggle on. Plants to plant, sunshine to soak up, xoxo Cate
 
My weight is still exactly 81.5, but I think I should be grateful because at least it's maintaining. I know that if I stopped drinking wine at the end of the day it would drop again. I feel so much better being at this weight. I have had a bit of a stomach ache on & off for the last week. My body seems super-sensitive & sluggish. I'm going to do a bit of a colon cleanse for a week to see if I can fix it. It feels that my system isn't working as it should & I'm clogged up.

I know that 81.5kg to most people seems like a lot but I have always weighed much more than anyone ever thinks. If you asked anyone to guess my weight when I was a teenager, I always weighed about 8-10kg more than what they guessed. 75kg is quite slim for me. Unfortunately my LH thinks I look too thin at 75kg (my ribs stick out) but I have big legs that won't ever look slim as they are like oak trees- strong & sturdy! I think that's where a lot of my weight is. I am going to keep exercising & while my weight might not get much lower at least I will develop more muscle & look & be fitter. Being fit & healthy is so much more important than what those dreaded scales say!

I have a blank day today & the sun is shining. I'm not sure what I'll do. I probably shouldn't go far from a toilet for a while! Didn't think of that when I drank the colon cleanser. I'm grounded for a while.

I'll go do some more housework as I have lots of energy. I may as well put it to good use!

Lots of love to all, xoxo Cate
 
I had a very physical day yesterday- did Tai Chi, 3 sets of weights & then went for a 40 minute walk. Gee, it felt good! I saw an Eastern Grey Kangaroo at the start of our bush block. Walking through our bush I heard much tail thumping, which is a territorial warning signal. I love it! I really do feel like I live in a sort of paradise. Cities are not for me.

I have insomnia tonight & feel like my brain is over-loaded. I was feeling a little anxious about a few things & excited about a few others & just couldn't wind down. Our YS has suggested something to us today that I had only just been thinking of yesterday. My LH & I have often talked about building cabins on our land, but don't want to borrow to do so, at our age. He suggested that he could build some cabins on our land & we could look after them(make beds etc & collect rent) & get paid for it. Food for thought. We really enjoyed having back-packers stay in our cottage across the road from the pub we used to run. We set it up as a trial & had lots of fun meeting really interesting people from all over the world. We both feel that we would like to have a sideline & one that you could run from home would be great. Heaps & heaps of back-packers come from all over & pick berries locally. There are Government schemes that bring them over, with temporary visas. Since a visit to Vietnam in 2006 we have both felt that we would like to share our land, without sharing our own roof. We are going to find out if council would allow it before we get too far ahead with any tangible plans.

Not being able to get to sleep could be because I ate lamb tonight & while I'm not suffering pain or anything I feel that I have indigestion. I have been tossing & turning for about 1.5 hours & decided to get up for a while. Hopefully I'll be able to sleep soon. I have been up for about half an hour & that may do the trick. I think I'll go to bed now.

I also didn't get a chance to do much exercise today. I did the bar at the golf club for a couple of hours & stocked up fairly well so wasn't idle but it's just not the same as deliberate exercise. I missed it!

Love to all, xoxo Cate
 
AHeya Cupcake

Ooooh the cabin thing sounds amazing :) I have always thought that where you live sounds so beautiful and it is so wonderful of you wanting to share that experience with others.

We saw a woodpecker (for the first time ever for me) and a squirrel on our run on sunday and i got all excited about that....You get to see wobblies (that's what i call them lol) and kangaroos!!! How awesome is that!!
 
Seeing a woodpecker & a squirrel on your run, sounds exciting too Kate. I call wallabies wobblies too!! It's just great to be able to be close to nature. I think the cabins would work for the specific purpose we have in mind, but even if they didn't, it would be great to be able to have accommodation available even for family & friends. Each cabin should be totally self-contained. We'll check it out. I'm very tired today, after being awake for so long last night. Insomnia sucks! Today I had moments of stress & anxiety, mostly about how well lunch would go, but once again I feel ok. One of the women was really making fun of me today & I took it as it was intended & had a big laugh too. It's such a relief to be able not to be so sensitive. We had a good time at our Tai Chi lunch, even when I heard my Mum was sitting waiting for me at the hostel. I had been clear that it would be after 2pm that I picked her up. I had 2 piccolos of bubbly & let my hair down a bit. It was fun. Our son had gone to Hobart for the day & night to catch up with some of his friends before Xmas. My LH went to town to pick up the trophies, while I was lunching & came back & picked me up & we went to visit Mum who we then took up the street. We had a cup of tea at the deli & Mum was quite confused about a few things. She said to my LH that she thought she would come out to our place on Xmas day & he explained again about the big Xmas day in Launceston & that he thought it would be too much for her. She agreed again. Then she wanted to go to the newsagency to get some more Steradent for her teeth(supermarket or chemist.) She also then wanted to go to the department store to get some shoes just like the ones she was wearing(bought in Launc.) I have committed to taking her next Tuesday when I take my MIL in for her ap't. I said to my LH that I won't ask his Mum if she objects to my Mum going too & he said too bad if she does- "she shouldn't!" One of his sisters will be there & I can drop my MIL off, go to the shoe shop & then be back in time to take her back home. What a mad life I have these days! I told Mum I would pick her up about 9am on Friday & she can get her Steradent then.

I rarely spend a day at home any more. :(

I have to play competition 8-ball(pool) tonight as 3 of my Lh's team can't make it & we are playing the 2nd best team. It means I will have to play 3 games. Oh dear. Tomorrow we go 80km return to give blood before Xmas. We'll buy some wine & I would love to find some new sneakers. I'll see how we feel about shopping tomorrow. It is the silly season!!!!

Wish me heaps of luck tonight. I would like to win one of the 3 games. That would be GOLD!! Lots of love folks. xoxoxo Cate.

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One of the 8-ball players who said he couldn't play turned up so that was good- I didn't have to play at all. We got flogged!

Yesterday-

We went to give blood. They were under lots of stress coming up to Xmas as they are being pushed to fit more people in. We both really felt for them & while eating our lunch afterward, I suggested getting them a little pressie. We went to a sweets shop & got them a selection of individual fancy chocolates, which the owner, did up with Xmas ribbon & we went back & gave them to them. So glad we did. That put some big smiles on their faces. It's always nice to be told that you are appreciated, even if it's not the big bosses telling you. They're a lovely lot.

I bought some walking shoes yesterday at last. I have wanted plain black or grey runners for AGES & found a pair yesterday. They were the last pair in the shop & I got them for $50 off! I have them on now. They feel really comfortable. I have really big feet & have so much trouble finding good, comfortable shoes that fit me, without them being those OLD GRANNY shoes!!!

I had better go as we're heading into town. I'm picking mum up at 9 & taking her up the street. My LH is mowing out at the golf club. Our son wants to talk to us asap so we;ll both call in there at lunch-time.

Bye for now, xoxo Cate
 
AHey Cupcake!!

I love that you like being called cupcake, I don't know why i call you that, it just kinda fits if you know what i mean :)

The Railway run is lovely, very wet and muddy at the moment but beautiful. I keep thinking i should take a photo but don't wanna stop running to do it lol. We are still interval running up on sundays so i will try and remember to take some then (don't hold your breath though, i have no memory!)
 
That makes 2 of us then. Memory? What is that? I've forgotten....... I really enjoy our new friendship & I do love being called cupcake. It's really sweet & affectionate & I KNOW that I would really like you if we met in person xoxo cc. PS I've only just started saying sweetie :)

I am feeling absolutely full of festive kindness. I decided the other day that Xmas is a good time to tell people how much you appreciate them. I'm not religious at all. I just think it's a good excuse to tell people how much you care & what you think of them. We should do it all the time & I'm not afraid any more of expressing myself.

My LH & I have been totally knocked over by a gift from our YS. He wanted us to call in to see him so that he could give it to us. He gave us a very generous travel voucher. He made no fuss & said that we have always done so much for him & he really wants us to travel again. It left us totally speechless & genuinely shocked. He also said that he doesn't have kids, he is living where he works & hardly has any expenses & he wanted to thank us for everything we have done for him. :beating: I'm still in shock this afternoon!

Our OS came up with the 3 GK's yesterday afternoon & we had a good chat & we told him about it he was talking about how happy is brother is & enthusiastic. He already knew about the voucher & he was also shocked at the amount. He had thought it would be a couple of hundred dollars & he was going to add a couple as well. We would have been thrilled with that much but am still coming out in goose-bumps just thinking about it. We discussed it a fair bit & I told him that we are both so proud of our 2 sons & how they have grown up such kind & generous-spirited men. Our OS would give away the shirt off his back if someone needed it. They both would. Even if we had done nothing else with our lives we would die happy knowing that they are such good people. I cannot express how much we both love them and how proud we are.

We spent a lovely night with the grand-kids. My LH baked a cake(I had a small piece & am happy to say that I can take or leave almost any dessert/sweet thing) & they ate some this morning when their dad got back to pick them up & took the rest home with them. Our YGS came into bed with us again this morning. He just lies there & stares at you, rubs noses & looks at you like he absolutely adores you. It's priceless, absolutely priceless! There is NOTHING like being a grandmother. It's all the love you have for your children as babies, without all the stress. Pure & unadulterated love with sleep added.

I have spent a lazy afternoon & am about to finish my book before my LH gets back from golf.

Love to all, xoxo Cate :santa:
 
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