Cate's Diary

Hi Cate, you may (or may not!) have wondered where I disappeared to! Well, the main reason was that I knew I would just spend too much time on here, and I also felt that you were the only one reading what I was doing - I don't mean that in a whingey, 'poor me' way - there are so many threads it's hard to keep up with everyone, and you are totally amazing at that!

Anyway, I thought I would just 'drop in' and thank you for your encouragement and inspiration, and let you know that I've now been on the programme 10 weeks (...except my little 10 day slip up at Christmas - lol!!! ) and I've lost 18.6kg, and ,as of 2 weeks ago (didn't measure today) , 38cm !!!! I feel awesome, down from 86.1 to 67.5, and 3.5kg off refeed. I've kept up gym 4 times a week, as I've never not exercised, and I would have gone insane, and have been doing quite intense work outs, so no loose skin, or flabby bits!!! :)

Thanks again for your enthusiasm and inspiration - keep it up! I might drop on again and et you know once I reach goal!
 
cate said:
Mixed day-
I have felt exhausted for most of today & also have been swollen(inflamed) & feel really fat & horrible. Everyone is talking about the murder & so many young people were involved, both personally, but also afterward. There are serious repercussions & a very large ripple effect is being felt through the community. It's very depressing & disturbing. It is growing all the time as you hear more & more details.

Fright today-
When I called in at my MIL's the wire door was locked & I could not get her attention. After 10 minutes I went around to the front of the house & let myself in with my key & she was just sitting on her bed listening to a hearer book. I din't tell her but I had felt quite sick thinking that I would find her dead. It happened once a long time ago with my LH's great-aunt when we lived in Melbourne. I rang the police when I got there & couldn't get in & they broke into her flat & we found her dead on the floor. I had to wait with the body until the undertaker came. It was not pleasant. It shook me up today. Perhaps I am not as prepared, nor as strong as i think I am.

Out of sorts today-
I din't go with my LH to 8-ball. I felt close to tears all afternoon. I think I overdid the exercise yesterday(again) plus someone said something to me about putting on weight today( a tactless man who goes to Tai Chi).
So what did I do tonight? Ate some lollies that had been in the cupboard for months. Does it make any sense? No. Do I feel worse? Yes. Not physically though thank goodness. Chocolate or icecream would probably have made me feel sick as well as disappointed in myself.
I need to go back on Cohens to get myself feeling like I am in control & in balance. Something I am eating is upsetting my body. The swelling is very uncomfortable. I won't weigh tomorrow as my day is so full-on.

Tomorrow-
Swimming from 8-10 in our local town(10km away).
Taking my MIL to Launceston(60km each way) & meeting one sister at a bank, then lunch, then to the specialist where we are meeting the other sister. My MIL has to let the specialist know her decision re treatment (or not.)
Taking her home then back home briefly, picking up my OGS & taking him to Taekwondo (10km each way) then bringing him back home to stay the night with us.
I'm exhausted thinking about it all.
Then Friday I'm back in town with my GS taking my MIL down the street for her weekly hair appointment. I wish someone else would volunteer for that one.

Weigh-in is Friday. D Day!
Goodnight folks. I feel very ordinary today but who knows what tomorrow will bring. Sometimes what we dread ends up being ok. xo Cate

Taking her home
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Wow Cate! What a day! You know we all get our down days but the important thing is that you do get back on that horse and carry on.

You are always here for me and I hope I can return the favour and say I'm thinking of you and going through that experience must have been terrible. But YOU ARE STRONG - don't let it rule your life!

Remember all the good deeds you are doing will come back to you double fold.

Hang in there gal!
Tomorrow is a new day with new "adventures".
Sending you hugs
:Angel_anim:
 
Kristy-That is so sweet of you! I'm so much better at being kind & helping others (or trying to) and when someone is kind to me I'm lost for words & have trouble accepting it graciously. I just want to tell you that when I was feeling "under the weather" & feeling fragile you helped pick me up & feel good again. That is special! Thank you, xo Cate

choclover! 18.6kg in 10 weeks. An average of 1.86 a week! 38cm! In the 60's! 3.5kg to go to re-feed! Wee Hoo for you! Well done sweets. You must be looking & feeling smoking hot! Send your gym down my way please. I so wish we had a gym nearby! Please let us know how you feel when you finish & how you go with re-feed & pop in from time to time, just like you did yesterday to encourage the newbies (& some of us "oldies".) Thanks for that boost choclover. I really did need it. Sometimes we focus on the bad instead of the good. I need my sleep & when I am tired I'm inclined to feel a little negative. Things just got on top of me. Take care & enjoy being fit, healthy & slim! xo Cate

Mands- Thank you! That was a lovely hug! The best part about this forum is the moral support we give one another. Some people shy away from expressing themselves & don't value their own opinions. I think it's lovely that we are prepared to speak up & offer our help & love. It really counts & is very important. I appreciate you making that effort for me. Thank you, xo Cate.

How I feel today-
I must say that I really mean everything that I said above. When I'm feeling fragile it's often because I feel tired. When I'm feeling fragile kindness can leave me lost for words & over-whelmed. I find it much easier to be kind than to accept kindness. I think it shows that I still need work on my self-esteem. You don't just lose weight & be "cured." Life is not that simple.
I do feel really good today. I feel loved.

Phone call-
One of my SIL's just rang & we had a very good talk. Everything has changed with my MIL & it now looks like treatment(chemo/radiation) may be an option. I won't go into great detail about it. Somehow her options & outcomes got mixed up in the interpretation through my other SIL. Not having treatment will be much worse than having treatment. It was good to talk to her & to give her strength & to reaffirm our belief in one another. She needs to be able to stand up to others & to assert herself. She & my LH have power off attorney & are executors & will need to be very firm & strong. I suggested something that she thought would be a good idea. She has had a tough time in the last 5-6 years. I really love her, almost like a sister. I got teary talking about not wanting my MIL to go through what my sister went through.

MIL-
I think is coping really well & adapting very well to changed scenarios etc. One tough lady!

Yesterday-
In the morning I swam for 1.5hrs, including playing with the GK's in the pool. Then I picked up my MIL & drove into Launceston, did the banking, had lunch & then I headed off quickly while my SIL drove my MIL to the specialist's. I bought the bigger 2 bottle Tatonka bumbag that I have been eying off for ages. I went to the specialist's & waited while my MIL & her 2 daughters went in. Then I drove to another hospital with my MIL & we made appointments for her for scans. I'm taking her in for them on the 9th. I made it a non Tai Chi day so that I don't miss it. I then took her home & got her settled, read her mail etc. Went straight to my DIL's & picked up my OGS, came home for 1/2 an hour & then headed in to Taekwondo. I headed straight off for a 2.5km walk(in 22 mins) & then came back & watched him. He did his yellow-tip pattern for the first time in front of everyone. The instructor came over to me & said how good his technique is & how he would like him to go to the gradings in a couple of weeks. He had only taught him it last night & then he demonstrated it. He wanted to try to make sure that he didn't miss a class in the next 2 weeks & I said that I will have him there Thursdays & will ask his parents to let me know if they can't get him in on Mondays. I'm very proud of him. He's such a lovely boy.

I got home at 6.30 & was in bed by 10.30. I had a beautiful sleep.

Today-
I'm feeling rested & quite relaxed. I have taken my GS to his best friend's house & now I feel like I'm catching up a bit. My MIL said she was right to go down the street on her own. She said she wants to continue doing what she can while she can & I respect that. I told her that if she needs me at any time just to call. She knows that she can depend on me & that's very important.

I'm feeling good about myself again. I was really bloated & uncomfortable the other day & that has all gone. I wonder if the fact that I had run out of Echinacea may have made some difference. I had bought some that day & took it when I got home & have not had the problem since. My local chemist thought I should take it all year 'round because of my allergies. I will.

My super money arrived yesterday so I'm going to go test drive some cars next week. Nice!
Bye for now, Cate.
 
Yay, so glad to hear you're feeling better Cate! I just smiled all the way through reading your post!!!

It's my pleasure, it's just the truth I'm speaking! You have been one of the people that has helped me through my journey mentally in a big way, and I sit here at the end of it and have to sincerely thank you! When I was going through that hard time and was confused and letting the negative get the better of me, I PM'd you and you were straight up and honest with me, like no one else was! That is what I needed. And that is what snapped me back and made me remember that I do deserve to be thin and healthy and treat my body with respect.

You're life just sounds so full on - I don't know how you keep up! I guess it is good to be on the go all the time - it would especially help not to go for the food because of boredom!

You seem to have a really good handle on things and you do so well with your exercise. i can only hope that I can take a page out of your book once I am on maintenance and keep a healthy balanced lifestyle... I must say, now it is creeping up closer and closer, I am getting terrified! I have about 4 dinners in 2 weeks when I first get into maintenance because I'm going into just in time for my birthday. i must be careful not to over indulge too much but just treat myself in little ways. I want to be able to say I enjoyed my birthday celebrations and not be paying for it in a big way on the scales.... I guess it might take me a little while to find the right balance for me - I'll roll with it.

I might go have a little chat to myself in my diary now that I've opened up that can of beans.

Bye for now Cate. xo
 
hi cate, *hugs* been going through your diary (I've missed so much! including kristy's and angel's) I've been MIA I know.. got sick with malaria & typhoid (and possibly dengue) last month and had no internet access for a month.

Wanted to let you know that I've just started the programme sometime last week! Ok so far but I've made some silly unintentional deviations. But I do feel healthier (if not a little hungrier at times!), and less bloated so that's important. Wow, just realized that I do miss you girls here - even for a newbie, you all have been very welcoming..

**hugs** hope you're having a super day!
 
Kristy-Hi & :grouphug: I don't think my life is probably any busier than yours but the difference is I tell everyone about it! :smilielol5: xo Cate
dietgrrl-Hi to you too. Boy!- MIA? With good reason! I hope you're feeling much better. Welcome back to the land of the living sweets! Look fwd to catching up more, xo Cate.

Exercise yesterday-
I did 2 sets of weights yesterday but decided to reduce the number of different exercises that I do. Some are too similar & I have not been doing them as often as I would like to. I had kept adding more & more & in the end they were starting to feel like a chore, instead of fun. I have pared them down from 14 to 10 & I will do them in sets of 8 reps each exercise, instead of 10 & then start trying for 3 sets, instead of 2. It seems to be a better way to go. I think I may need to up my weights but the exercise physio had said to stay with 2kg weights.
A personal trainer who used to live nearby has moved back into the district. She runs a private gym at her home not too far away from me(25km?). She is really pushy according to my DIL but I may go see her just the once & form my own opinion. She has classes of 6 people for 45 mins a few times a week during the day & charges $10 for those. I could go once a week if I like it. She may have a class in my local town as well. I'll ring some time soon but will think about it some more. I may become tied down with my MIL but exercise would also help me cope better. She also does personal assessments which are quite expensive but I may treat myself. I'll think about that.

Today-
A blank slate & 60 mins up in exercise credits with today & tomorrow being the last 2 days of my exercise week. It is such a glorious day that it would be a shame to waste it! Plus I have to break in my new, orange water bottle holder(2)/bumbag. It's almost Rafa colours. I loved Nadals shirt- red/orange. Love the combo! I'm going to wear more colours from now on- red, pink, orange.....maybe even a little purple but not too much. Hot pink really suits me, even with the red glasses. Make that especially with the red glasses.

Mood-
Very good & very positive. I'm only weighing once a week from now on & I am not obsessing about my weight. I think I look quite fit & I love having shape. My waist is now much smaller than my bust/hips & I feel more feminine. Now I'll have to get more feminine clothes! LOL at myself! I'm not used to feeling at all girly!

Time for a shower. I don't think I'll go out today. I'll just go for a big walk & maybe do some gardening. If I do an hour today then I can be a total lazy bones tomorrow with an absolutely clear conscience! That's if I want to be!

Bye for now folks. Enjoy your week-end, xo Cate
 
Thats awesome Cate, I love decluttering and then sitting back and looking at how great everything looks after your hard work! I also love when you get in those moods to clean and keep cleaning - so rewarding! Pity I have not gotten into one of those moods for quite a long time! LOL!

Glad you're having a good day! Happy Sunday! :D
xoxo
 
Thanks Kristy. I'm glad you are having a lovely Sunday too. I decluttered my email addresses today as well as other things. I haven't done that for years!! I also attacked the vegie garden & did my bike & weights. Guess who's a tired 56 year old now? LOL. It was worth it! Happy Sunday to you too Kristy & to anyone else reading my diary, xo Cate
 
Hiya Derrick & thanks for the visit! I see you are heading right back to where you want to be weight-wise. I'll pop over & visit your diary later today. Cheers, Cate.

Today-Mmmm. I'm a bit stiff. I changed the order around of my weights & I'm aching. I might just switch them back & go back to exactly what I was doing before. I think I know which one is hurting me & that's a made up Tai Chi with weights a la Cate. Enough said. Ouch! Nothing like stretching the boundaries! Exercise today may be a walk and/or gardening.

Nothing much to say today. I must make some calls today. I'm having second thoughts about buying a new car. It seems like a waste of money. I'll ring a used car salesman I know & ask if he has a good small car in his yard but if not to keep an eye out for me.

I'm feeling good today but should be heading out somewhere as I have been home for 2 days now. I'm in my working/walking gear though.
Bye for now, Cate
 
Hey Cate,

Just wanted to pop in and say hi, thanks for all the posts on my dairy.

You have been sounding particularly positive about your weight lately and it is so encouraging to hear.

Hope the rest of the day has been great for you.

xxx
 
Hi Angela & thanks for your visit. Welcome to day 1! You are being very supportive & I, for one, really appreciate it. I think most of us get as good as we give in the forum. I love it! I'll send you some of our sunshine, xo Cate

Today-
Fairly lazy but also reasonably productive. I finished an Inspector Rebus book, made lots of calls that I had to make & went for a 70 min walk this afternoon.

Question-
How "Un-Australian" is it to barrack for Roger Federer instead of Lleyton Hewitt. I cannot stand Lleyton Hewitt! Go Roger!!!! Federer is awesome & seems so nice.

Australia Day tomorrow-
Does anyone else think that excessive patriotism is a dangerous thing? Sure it's nice to be happy to live where you live but not when it excludes others or makes them feel like outsiders or when you, as a race, think you are better than others. I'm very happy to be living in Australia but also think we should be happy to share our good fortune. We should be grateful & welcoming.
Cheers, Cate.
 
Hey Cate!

Sounds like you had a nice productive day but also fitting in some relaxing! Perfect!

Meh! Who cares, I'm not a fan of Hewitt either really... its not unaustralian =o)

I'm not a fan of excessive patriotism. I dont get why people put the australian flags on the car etc 1 week before Australia Day and then take them down on the 27th?! But yes, I agree with your comments above..

Pwoah, think I gotta get up and walk around for a bit - so full!

Talk soon
xo
 
Hi Kristy & anyone else reading my diary, At least Hewitt didn't carry on or be a bad sport. Federer spoke really well, once again. What about the Tsonga game? WOW! I only enjoy watching the tennis when it gets towards the finals. It's not my favourite spectator sport. The women drive me nuts with their squealing! Also when they seem to have the game won & then blow it!
Kristy-It's funny how you seem to want more on refeed & then feel so full & then next thing you know your body is saying "more, more!" LOL xo Cate

Today-
I'm heading into town, dropping my LH off at his mother's & then doing some shopping. He & one of his sisters is going to try to ensure that their mother's will is clear so that she stops worrying about it. They are going to do a list together so that when my MIL dies they will be able to be firm & strong.

I had better go do the dishes first.
Cheers, Cate

 
I have had quite a nice day today but it feels like any other day really, except for having the company of my LH. We had delicious Vietnamese fresh spring rolls for lunch & I have done my bike & weights. The brush-cutting will have to wait. I can see he would rather relax & watch the cricket so I have not mentioned it.
I think I may go car hunting on Thursday after swimming or Friday. I have the urge to go find a car!!!!! No idea what though. New, second-hand, Honda jazz, Suzuki Alto or Swift????? It's been doing my head in so I need to go sit in some cars & have a good look about. Surely it's the time for deals! I should wash my car first as they will think that I will be happy with a crummy car. I might go do that right now!

Cheers, Cate.
 
Happy car hunting Cate, hope you find something you absolutely love, with all the driving around you do, you really need to like the car you drive :) Hope you are having a relaxing day otherwise.

xxx
 
Hi Angela-
That's true. I do need (should I say want) to have a car that I love because-
a) I do a lot of driving around &
b) I love driving!
Congrat's on getting through day 2 (almost.) Rest, rest & more rest as you say really helps at the start. Thanks for your Australia Day wishes. That's sweet of you. I have had a lovely balanced day once again, xo Cate

Today-
A mix of stress (family-wills etc)
Exercise- 2 sets of weights & bike
Washed both our cars &
feeling really good!
I have taken away so much of my stress & mood imbalance by freeing myself from the scale obsession. Fridays only from now on. By not weighing I eat healthier as I don't react to the fluctuations that we all have.
Bye for today, happy & relaxed Cate
 
Hi folks, It's quite cool this morning which feels good. I don't want Summer to end for ages though as I'm lapping up the sunshine!

Tai Chi today-
I usually only do TC & no other structured exercise on Wednesdays as I feel so chilled out after it. I love the feeling. It is so relaxing. TC would be good to do on Cohen's.

Exercise after Cohen's-
I really recommend some strength training when you finish the program. I don't think I have ever felt so good physically since I started doing weights. I don't lift heavy weights by any means but I am conscious of my muscles and aware of what I use every time I move. I feel much more self-aware but not self-conscious in the old, bad way. I feel like moving more & more. Even on the days when I start off feeling lazy I very rarely stay lazy. I always run up the stairs from our lounge room(only 3) and I even do exercises in my chair at night. I have consistently done an average of over 60 mins daily exercise since last July. I worked it out the other day & got a surprise. The more I do the more I want to do. Now I see how people get so motivated. You start off slowly & it snowballs. I love it!

Time to get on the move. Washing to hang out & then I'm off to town to pick up a parcel, pick up my MIL's oysters (4 dozen!), drop them off & off to Tai Chi, followed by lunch. Tonight is 8-ball night & I will go this week & help my LH by doing the bar. I get a buzz out of that. Pity I don't get paid though! He supports me though so I think it's very fair that I help him enjoy his 8-ball even more by doing the bar. I stock it up & it's also good exercise!

Cars- I washed my car & his yesterday so I'm ready to go start looking! Beck (ex forum) recommended a Fiat Punto but I don't think we have a Fiat dealer in tas. I need a country car though I think or at least one with a good ground clearance. It's all too hard to make a choice. I might just go look around the car yards & hope to find something I love (that I can afford.) At least this time I won't be in a hurry & I do actually have some money in the bank. Plus i do have a car already that goes. the last 2 times I bought a car mine had died & I had to buy one quickly.
Cheers for now, Cate.
 
Cate, you really exercise your butt off! 70 min walks, weight training, biking, etc. I noticed you started your diary in 2007. Can you give me a quick summary of some of your progress since then? Increased energy is obviously one of them. :)
 
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